Cleanliness

From that day on, Mo Xiyuan no longer forced Xiao Tong to accept her mother, nor did she mention her mother to Xiao Tong. Xiao Tong was still sometimes sober and sometimes confused, but as she herself said, when she was sober, she became more and more confused. More and more, I lost the little innocence when I was insane, and the smile from the heart became less and less.

Xiao Tong started to have nightmares again, she no longer unconsciously couldn't close her eyes all night like she did at the beginning, she closed her eyes every night and forced herself to fall asleep, but she couldn't really fall asleep, she fell asleep for a while, but only once or two I must wake up in an hour, and I wake up in a cold sweat.Her spirit was even weaker than when she was most insane, and the black and blue eyes made Jing Xing feel distressed.

Jing Xing made all kinds of calming soup for Xiao Tong, and I don't know where she got those recipes and recipes, one bowl a day without heavy samples, but unfortunately the effect was very little, and she also asked Chinese medicine and Western medicine to prescribe prescriptions, Western medicine is nothing more than Sleeping pills, sedatives, etc. If you take too many of these medicines, it may damage the foundation of your body. You can’t prescribe them too much. If the dose is not enough, the effect will be minimal. Traditional Chinese medicine pays attention to slow adjustment, and it will not be effective in a short time. Scratch your head.

During Xiao Tong's illness, she remembered Jing Xing's care for her in her heart. She and Jing Xing had been friends for six or seven years. She is the only person Xiao Tong trusts now, but she is moved. Xiao Tong is more indebted and guilty towards Jing Xing. She has failed in life all these years, her relatives have long since passed away, her career has ended, and her lover is also a fake. Jing Xing's best friend.

Since grandma left, no one has been kind to Xiao Tong. Jing Xing is the only one who has been kind to Xiao Tong. For the sake of Jing Xing among friends, Xiao Tong really doesn't know how to repay Jing Xing's love. So now that Jing Xing came to see her in the hospital, she was panicked, secretly remembering that her debt to Jing Xing had increased.In the past, she lived with Jing Xing, and although she also relied on Jing Xing's care, she could still clean up, cook a meal, and help Jing Xing take care of the house. Apart from taking up Jing Xing's time and dragging down Jing Xing's life, he couldn't help at all.

Xiao Tong and Jing Xing have fought side by side for six years, knowing how busy Jing Xing is with his work, sometimes he doesn't even have time for lunch, running to the hospital every day like now, the work must be exhausted.

"Ah Xing, I'm fine in the hospital, Auntie Liu and Auntie Zhao are very considerate, you don't have to run here every day." Xiao Tong persuaded while eating Jing Xing's stewed tonic.

"I know that Auntie Liu and Auntie Zhao are considerate, and I know that you are doing well in the hospital. I just want to find a chance to see you." Jing Xing smiled and comforted her not to think too much, and said, "Xiao Tong, I'm working hard every day now. My motivation is that I can come to see you after work and get off work, you won’t even deprive me of this thought, will you?”

"That's not what I mean!" Xiao Tong said anxiously, "I mean your home is quite far from the hospital, and you have to cook and bring me food every day, and you have to take care of work. If this continues, your health will not be able to bear it. I It's good here, come here when you have time, I would rather you sleep at home for two more hours, so as not to exhaust your body."

"Xiao Tong, are you concerned about me?"

"Of course I care about you, Ah Xing, you are my friend." Xiao Tong said solemnly, "I know in my heart what I have become all these years, and I have become so virtuous today, if there is anything to be proud of, That is to know you, so I don't want to delay you because of me."

In Jing Xing's memory, it was the first time that Xiao Tong expressed the importance of himself in her heart so clearly. She was happy to hear that, but felt a little sad for Xiao Tong's "friend", so she still laughed, relying on Xiao Tong Tong got closer, and his breath almost sprayed on Xiao Tong's face, "With you, there will be no delay at all."

The emotion in Jing Xing's words has already surpassed the boundary between friends. Even if he is a close friend, what he said was too ambiguous. Xiao Tong heard it strangely, and didn't know how to answer the words. It was like a huge rock was pressed on her heart, making her gasp Out of breath, she had no choice but to turn her head away and dare not look at Jing Xing.

Jing Xing had a delicate mind, so he naturally knew that his words had crossed the line, and she also knew what Xiao Tong had noticed, but she had stayed by Xiao Tong's side for so long, watching Xiao Tong fall into a desperate situation, and gradually come out of it, she I don't want to stay by Xiao Tong's side as a friend for the rest of my life. It doesn't matter if Xiao Tong can't accept a new relationship now. Jing Xing can wait, but at least Jing Xing has to let Xiao Tong know his heart a little bit, and let Xiao Tong know his feelings little by little. Point to accept yourself.

Fortunately, Xiao Tong was just running away, she didn't completely refuse, Jing Xing thought, at least he wasn't completely hopeless.

Xiao Tong's mind is now clearer than before, and she can figure out some logic, but she is not very clear. For example, she can feel that the seven-year friendship between herself and Jing Xing has begun to deteriorate. What has become of it?What will happen in the end?Xiao Tong didn't know.

She never dared to think of the relationship between herself and Jing Xing as a lover, it would be too scary, don't say that Xiao Tong's love and hatred in the first half of his life were given to the same person, but without that person, Xiao Tong is the most likely The only ending is to die alone. It is impossible for a person like her to find a lover.

Besides, to Xiao Tong, Jing Xing is a close friend, confidant, relative, the only person Xiao Tong can trust, but definitely not a lover.

Jing Xing deserves a really good person, whether it is a man or a woman, that person must be as good as Jing Xing, evenly matched, enough to be worthy of her.So Xiao Tong hoped that Jing Xing would have his own time, instead of wasting time on himself all the time.

The no longer pure friendship made Xiao Tong feel depressed, so she had to start avoiding Jing Xing. Jing Xing usually came to the hospital at a fixed time, and Xiao Tong always chose these times to go for a walk or to receive treatment. She didn't like people. In many places, in order to hide from Jing Xing, they wander around the hospital all day, aimlessly, as long as they don't bump into Jing Xing.

This method worked for more than a week, then Jing Xing changed the visiting time, Xiao Tong had nowhere to hide, so he had to pretend to be asleep.

Xiao Tong closed his eyes, and could feel Jing Xing's gaze resting on her body. She kept her face calm, but her heart was beating violently, especially before Jing Xing kissed Xiao Tong's forehead before leaving, Xiao Tong was almost ashamed handstand.Do friends kiss foreheads?Xiao Tong has no other friends, but she knows that her relationship with Jing Xing is definitely not normal.

Xiao Tong had no choice but to seek help from Chen Luo. Chen Luo was an expert in psychology and was a colleague of Jing Xing. There must be a solution to the current weird relationship.

"Xiao Tong? What kind of wind is blowing today that brought you to me." Chen Luo was about to have lunch, when he saw Xiao Tong, he put down the sandwich in his hand and smiled slightly, "It's rare that you came to me today, what's the matter?" something?"

"Yes." Xiao Tong nodded, and told Chen Luo everything about himself and Jing Xing, even what happened to her during her illness that she could recall, and looked at Chen Luo nervously after speaking.

Chen Luo was helpless, "So? What do you want to explain?"

"Ah Xing, she, isn't it...is it..."

"Is it something? Do I like you?"

Xiao Tong was quite embarrassed by imagining someone who was still her good friend and liked someone like herself. She nodded with difficulty, put her fists on her thighs, and nervously waited for Chen Luo to pronounce the sentence.

Chen Luo smiled and said, "Xiao Tong, you are really a smart person."

This is an admission in disguise, Xiao Tong turned pale, and murmured: "No, it's impossible, how could it be."

"Why not? I have been an old classmate with Jing Xing for many years. She is a person with a strong sense of responsibility and a burst of sympathy. You have perfectly satisfied her sense of responsibility and desire to take care of her. Let me see..." Tong looked around, "Well, he's not bad looking, it's strange that she doesn't like such a perfect fit person appearing beside her."

"No, it can't be like this." Xiao Tong shook his head brokenly, "She can't like me, Ah Xing still has a bright future, she can't like me."

Xiao Tong's pain for the rest of his life can already be foreseen. A person as good as Jing Xing must not be tied to her and go to hell with her.

"Chen Luo, you are a doctor, you save Ah Xing, she can't like me, you save her." Xiao Tong begged Chen Luo, but Chen Luo just became more helpless.

"I'm just a doctor. Doctors are not omnipotent, Xiao Tong. Those who can control who people like and don't like are called Cupid."

Xiao Tong is now full of thoughts that Jing Xing is going to go to hell with him, how can he still have the heart to joke with Chen Luo, she was so anxious that she almost cried, she almost knelt on the ground and kowtowed to Chen Luo, but Chen Luo didn't care. There is no way.

In the end, Xiao Tong was so anxious that he couldn't breathe. Seeing that he was about to fall ill, Chen Luo rubbed his temples and said, "Xiao Tong, don't worry, if my guess is correct, there is a high probability that Jing Xing won't like you, or that she still doesn't like you." I like you, but I won't pester you anymore."

"Is what you said true?"

"I never tell a lie."

"That's good." Xiao Tong dropped his heart, "That's good."

As long as Jing Xing doesn't waste himself foolishly on himself, she is such a good person, Xiao Tong only hopes that someone can truly love her, and she also loves that person, and then the two of them will spend a lifetime together and beautifully, that would be the best .Xiao Tong has self-knowledge, Jing Xing will definitely meet such a person, but that person is definitely not himself.

"Xiao Tong," Chen Luo asked, "What happened in Shangrong County 12 years ago?"

The blood in Xiao Tong's whole body froze, "What are you talking about? I don't know."

"It's nothing, it's just that a student in Rongzhong Middle School was killed 12 years ago. That person is somewhat related to my family. The murderer has not been caught yet. Seeing that the legal prosecution period is almost over, I will try my luck to inquire about it. Inquire, to see if you know the situation, it can be regarded as doing your best for him."

"So that's the case." Xiao Tong let out a long sigh of relief, "I don't know, I've never heard of it."

Chen Luo casually asked Xiao Tong a few more questions, did he take his medicine on time recently, how was his sleep, and whether his hallucinations had eased.

Xiao Tong looked around, she didn't know if those things were hallucinations, but they were there, not far or near, so real, Xiao Tong couldn't believe it was hallucinations.

After Xiao Tong left, Chen Luocai picked up her sandwich and started eating.

She chewed mechanically, absent-mindedly, thinking about an old incident in Shangrong County 12 years ago.

This matter was originally a very secret rumor, with no evidence at all, very few people knew about it, and no one even knew whether the person involved existed or not. Chen Luo used to pass by the teacher's office when he was studying, and overheard two teachers cryptic. I said a few words, and no one else mentioned it after that.

Today when Xiao Tong mentioned Jing Xing, Chen Luo suddenly remembered.

With such a string, everything makes sense.

The author has something to say: I have been away from home for the past few days, unable to code, and will resume updating from today