cannon fodder never die

He Xiaobai sincerely believes that as a cannon fodder who eats and waits to die, he will only end up being abused in the cruel last days. He should give up struggling as soon as possible, choose the most comfortable way to commit suicide and enter reincarnation, and look forward to a good pregnancy in the next life and continue to eat and wait to die .But what does it mean to want to die?How could a wave of golden fingers attack her after she committed suicide a few times?Talking about a Xiaobai struggling in the last days...