But for the Qing, never lovesick + extra

But when I stared at his face, my eyes blurred into another one, that face was soft and delicate, smiling happily at me...

I remembered, it was her father.

Giving up that thought, I clenched the gun tightly, quickly withdrew my hand behind my back, and looked directly at him, "If you stop me, I have these two things, and I can find her anywhere in the world."

He squinted at me and asked me to continue.

"I can't do it without her, and I know that I'm not worthy of Yanyan now, so I would like to ask you to do me a favor...give me a job." Now that I think about it, maybe I'm not a righteous person, That's why it was so easy to say those ruffian words at that time.

He twitched the corners of his mouth, looked at me with a contemptuous smile, and asked me why I quit my good job.

It is no surprise that he was able to find out this step. Even, I guess, he found out my family background and the identity of my father.

Since he won't tell the truth, I am determined to accompany him around.He bet that I didn't know what happened back then, and I bet that he didn't know that I knew.

I repeated what I had lied to Jin Yan—because my mother didn't agree with me being a policeman.

I'll stop talking, Jin Yan didn't ask any more questions back then, and now her father does too.They probably all figured it out, I traded my family for giving up my status as a policeman, hoping they would accept what happened between me and Jin Yan.

At the beginning, I angered my mother with the truth, but to Jin Yan, every word was adulterated...

He asked me some other questions, such as specialties, grades, and recent family conditions, and I answered them as expected.

In fact, the two parties are going around in circles...

That's the end of the first topic.

Before leaving, I put the gun back in place and told him that I didn't want Jin Yan to see and worry.

……

When Jin Yan left the next day, she didn't allow us to go to the airport to see her off, so she said goodbye in front of her house.

The girl had red eyes and asked me to wait for her to go home, here, or at our home.

I didn't dare to promise her empty words, I only told her to take care...

The car drove away in front of me, and I finally realized that the sound of the ignition of the luxury car was so heart-wrenching...

Jin Yan left, I went back to pack my things and wanted to leave, but when I went downstairs, I was blocked by Jin Chuan who was waiting at the door: "Sister Yang, you can stay."

I looked up and saw a man standing with his back to the window in the hall.

Jin Tian answered the phone and got dressed to go out. I woke up, rejected Jin Chuan's kindness, and went out.

She is not here, and my heart is full of darkness, I allow myself to shrink back, and want to say goodbye to her world... I used to be selfish, but in fact, leaving her and making her hurt for a while is better than hurting her and teaching her Heartbroken and strong.

I lowered my head and fled out the door, running along the road, when a car came across in front of me.

A limousine, the Jin family's car.

The driver's window was pushed down, revealing the face of a man in sunglasses.

It is a familiar face who often follows Jin Tian.I heard from Jin Chuan that this is Ah San, his father's personal bodyguard.

I stood there incomprehensibly, Ah San came down and opened the rear door, and nodded politely to me.

I got in and took a look, and sure enough Jin Tian was sitting on the other side with his eyes closed.After a while, the car started.

The car is roomy, but I can feel the low pressure being applied there.

All the way without a word, he took me directly to his office on the top floor of the Jin family, and asked the bodyguard Ah San to give me his gun.

This should be a signal to go undercover, but my heart is weighed down by that lump of iron.

On that same day, Jin Tian left me and asked me to help in the Jin's Human Resources Department in the future.At this point, I feel that I have crawled to the outer layer of his world.

Looking back at this time, I realized that he didn't trust me, every move had a deep meaning.On the contrary, at that time, I was still blindly complacent about the smoothness of my actions...

During Jin Yan’s first academic year studying abroad, I was just a staff member of Jin’s, and I started to make my way from the grassroots level—according to Jin Dong’s arrangement, I entered the Ministry of Manpower and became Xiao Li’s assistant.Speaking of which, I didn't know his reputation in the Tao at that time, but I just patiently followed him and screened suitable candidates during the recruitment period. Most of the rest of the year, I was transferred to other departments to help out.

·

There are dozens of stories of high-rise buildings hiding all kinds of life.

From an ordinary employee to a deputy minister, more than half a year has passed, and I can see clearly the fickleness of power and people's hearts.

It is said that those who are close to vermilion are red and those who are close to ink are dark. If I see too many smiling faces to flatter me, I can also learn to accept with a smile. I am in awe of my boss and have a good relationship with my colleagues.

I didn't wear a police uniform for a day, but I joined Jin's after graduation. The first colleague I got to know was a member of the Jin's human resources department, and the first job I got used to was an employee of the Jin's human resources department... I silently comforted myself, This is just a superficial phenomenon and an expedient measure. Sooner or later, I will step into the office of the criminal police force where my father once worked, and live in the sun with dignity and peace of mind...

But it’s different anyway. Now I’ve figured it out a bit. A piece of white paper looks like whatever is soaked in it, just like me, with the teachings of badges in my heart, but my behavior is infinitely in line with the ever-changing changes in the market for survival. look.

In fact, whether I admit it or not, I am farther and farther away from my original dream of being a policeman...

Naturally, I only have time to think about these when I am free now. Even when I was free, I could never let go of my thoughts and relax.

At that time, I was entangled in too many things...

Even if I work from nine to five and have a lot of time outside of work, I still can't be at ease, confused about my own identity, struggling with the choice between our two families, and deeply missing her...

At that time, the road ahead was full of difficulties and dangers. I worked hard at the bottom of the company to get ahead, and I missed her even more, and wanted her to come back soon.

……

In the twelfth lunar month of winter, I waited for her in the bustling crowd at the airport.

The tightly wrapped little dough fell softly into his arms, and he felt so comfortable.

She rubbed her warm cheek against mine, and asked me pleasantly how I knew her return date was today.

I teased her on purpose, saying it was my dream.

Her demeanor has changed slightly, and she is more stable than she who was independent enough in college, but when she heard what I said, her eyes lit up, her face was full of joy, and she held my arm and acted coquettishly as usual.

She is still a little girl in front of me, just as she still loves me completely, I know it.

During those days when she was abroad, we kept talking on the phone every day. As early as when she first arrived at school, in our first phone call, I told her frankly that I joined Jin's to help. She didn't say anything at that time, just Ask me to take care, don't wrong yourself.

After she came back, she stared at me and asked me about my work. I knew she loved me, so I reassured her that I was free in my job and had a lot of free time.

She was abducted by me, and then asked me what I did in my spare time.

I go back and miss her.

I said half-truth, half-false, even thinking about her is not just a thought in her concept, but she believed it, pursed her lips and smiled, and then let me change the topic.

……

Because I work in Jin's, the cold war between Jin Yan and her father's father and daughter was eased invisibly.

It was convenient for me to get a ride to work. After Jin Yan came back from vacation, he offered to continue to live in Jin's house.

Even though I look forward to her return and the company will be working overtime at the end of the year, it is impossible for me to get along with her siblings all day long during the summer vacation.

Even so, no matter when I return from get off work in Jin Dong's car, there is always a silly girl waiting for me by the window silently... when I walk in, she rushes to hug me and make trouble with me.

She used to be my treasure that was forgotten by me, but now, I don't know how to cherish her and lost her...

·

During the period at the end of the year, thinking about the lamp at home and the people waiting, I was busy and steady at work.

On the first day of the new year, I followed her siblings to the suburban cemeteries.That was my first official visit to her mother.

It will be daylight when we arrive.On the bright marble surface in front of the tomb, there is a bouquet of carnations stained with morning dew.

I heard that it was her mother's favorite flower.

Her siblings seem to be familiar with each other. When I hesitated, they both knelt on the ground.

I bowed deeply towards the smiling portrait of the woman on the tombstone as a belated greeting.

I had heard many stories about their youth from their siblings, and finally at this moment, I saw the appearance of a woman full of tenderness and strength in the stories beside my ears.

The woman's gentle and smiling eyes penetrated directly into people's hearts as if they could see through their minds.I looked up, and suddenly, many things went through my mind, my parents' love for my siblings when I was young...I caused my mother to be angry and decisive twice...Father's depression in the sick bed, the family's love Defeated and heartbroken... Jin Yan and I turned danger into danger and ran hand in hand... I accepted Jin Yanyue's confession... She took me back to Jin's house and forcefully declared that she was with me and her sobbing cry before going to bed that night...

I closed my eyes and told Jin Yan's mother in my heart, begging her to forgive my father, begging her to protect the Jin family siblings, and begging her to understand me.

I resisted the urge to worship side by side with their siblings, after all, I am not qualified...