Breaking the cocoon gl+ Fanwai

I stood frozen in front of her, closing my eyes for the first time.I don't understand why she said such a thing. If she knew that I once liked her, she shouldn't not understand how it would hurt me.I think the expression on my face now should be very exciting, it is probably a kind of expression that I barely want to laugh, but it is uglier than crying.I feel like a stupid clown, what I did in front of her, is it a farce?

But I'm very glad that she didn't look at me. She lowered her head, the weird smile on her face froze, her gaze was lowered, and she looked at the ground.I raised my head, took a deep breath, pressed back the momentary anger, and swallowed the ensuing grievances and heartaches. I told myself, this is called insincere words, called insincere words, she Not such a person, there must be a reason, I need to figure out that reason, instead of getting mad at her indiscriminately.

I pretended not to care about her words at all, and started to tidy up the clothes on the floor and put away all the clothes. I held the clothes and opened the bathroom door, leaving a sentence:

Wash yourself, I'll wait for you outside.

Once again, I fled in front of her.

☆、Chapter 3

I was wrapped in a blanket, clutching the mobile phone I took out of her pocket, sitting silently on the balcony, smoking a cigarette with my head stuffed.One by one, I've almost smoked the whole pack.This is an extremely difficult night. I sit here, waiting for the dawn to illuminate me. I long for those little lights that can make me feel that there is still warmth in this world.

About four hours ago, at around ten o'clock, I took advantage of her bath time and used her mobile phone to make a call and contact her mother.This is not difficult, her mobile phone does not have a password, and there are more than 20 missed calls, all of which are from her mother.

This phone call lasted for nearly four and 10 minutes. At first, I just hoped to use my superb chatting skills to learn about her situation from her mother, but when I really understood what happened to her, I Almost speechless.This is the most unacceptable story I have ever heard in my life, not only because it is cruel or even cruel, but also because this story is closely related to me, or the group I belong to, which makes me have a kind of The guilt that is difficult to wash away, I am in great pain, and it will take a long time to calm down.

At the end of the phone call, she happened to come out of the bathroom. She spent nearly an hour cleaning herself. I saw her exposed skin was completely red from rubbing, and wrinkled from the hot water. I can imagine You can get the scene of her scrubbing her body repeatedly.This is a symptom of severe obsessive-compulsive disorder, I can guess her mind, she is disgusted with her body, she feels dirty.

I was speechless, arranged her on my bed, told her that I would sleep on the sofa outside, she didn't say a word, and we said good night in silence.But I know that she may not be able to sleep, her mental state is difficult to fall asleep, even if she falls asleep, it is a nightmare, and she will wake up soon. I can see that she has insomnia, and her mental state is on the verge of collapse.

What made this woman support until now? If it were me, would I be able to bear it? But this is a false proposition, there will never be an if in this world.I sat on the balcony, thinking back to her mother's words, my heart seemed to be pressed by a big rock, and I was so stuffy that I couldn't breathe.

On the phone, I did not tell her mother about her attempt to commit suicide, and made up a lie that I met her by chance, met her for a drink, and stayed overnight at my house after getting drunk.But I guess my lies didn't fool her mother, and her mother could probably guess what happened.Because it wasn't the first time she wanted to commit suicide.There were several scratches on the inside of her left wrist, where she probably tried to cut it.

Her mother thanked me and said she would pick her up tomorrow morning.Tomorrow is Saturday and I'm off. I think I need to make a decision tonight whether to meddle in her business.In fact, I have already intervened, but it is not too late to stop now. My rationality tells me that once I intervene, it is easy to be lost.And if I decide to intervene in this matter, then I must act as soon as possible. Tomorrow, I need to start to act without delay, otherwise, her state will be very dangerous.

For the first time, I felt the malice of fate, which is a terrible malice that leads people to a dead end. It hardly blinks, and with a smile, it pushes the person it targets into the abyss with a kind of evil intention like a prank .

I don't think I can just sit back and see myself as a bystander.Thinking of this, I laughed at myself.

Raising my hand and rubbing my face, the smile on the corner of my mouth felt like a kind of joy in bitterness, and I muttered to myself:

Gu Fan, you are so fucking tired of living a good life, it's just hehehe

Close your eyes, the conversation with her mother is imprinted in your mind like a branding iron, played over and over again, lingering.That old and dejected voice revealed a kind of sad and numbness that made people feel sad. On the other end of the phone, the baby's crying could occasionally be heard. This background sound was simply the cruelest sound of hell.This was the most painful chat in my life. The hot mobile phone was pressed against my ear, burning to the bottom of my heart. Apart from being silent, it was really difficult for me to respond appropriately.