She is playing tricks on me again today (gl) + episode

She followed my legs all the way up and climbed onto my back. It was obviously like an evil ghost taking her life, but it made my heart beat endlessly.

In the dream, she rolled up my bottoming shirt, sat on my back and pressed my head to prevent me from looking back, saying that she wanted to punish me for avoiding her. I felt that she was sitting on my waist, He heard the familiar voice of Mizusawa, the uncontrollable groans, and the words that made her blush and heart beat from time to time.

So good, so comfortable, here, and here...

Sticky fingers stretched out from behind and into my mouth, the fingertips seemed to have a fishy-sweet smell mixed with a touch of musk, making me dizzy.

want to see me?Want to see me come by myself?

want to?Liu Yulin?

"I want to! I want to! I want to see!"

"What? What do you want to see?"

As soon as I yelled that sentence, everything around me was distorted!

I found that I was in the classroom and all my classmates had left. I didn't know when I pressed her on the desk. She tilted her head and looked at me with obvious doubts in her eyes.

At that moment, there was a buzzing in my head, and the world was really spinning!

I can't tell the difference between dreams and reality!

terrible!

I rode my bicycle like crazy all the way home, locked the bedroom door as soon as I entered the house, took out the needle box, took off my pants, grabbed the needle, and stabbed myself one by one!

How could this be?Why is this happening?

I obviously haven't slept, why am I still dreaming?

I even remember looking at the electronic watch at 10:[-], why did I put her on the table [-] minutes later?

I kept stabbing myself, my thighs were bloody and bloody, but I still didn't stop, I still had her shadow in my mind, and more.

Monday, October 12, cloudy.

I found that as long as I stay in a closed space with few people, especially when I am alone, it is easy to enter a hazy half-dream and half-awake state.

Every time I thought it was a dream, but it hurts when I pricked myself, but when I thought it was reality, I pricked all over my body but felt nothing.

Yesterday I went to take photoshoots with her. The machine was tightly surrounded, and I was a little dazed again. Fortunately, I quickly pinched myself. The jeans were too thick and I couldn’t pinch them. I pinched the back of my hand.

When she saw that my nails had been cut in, she was startled, and quickly pulled my hand and asked me what was wrong, and then I woke up.

I don’t know why I became like this, I dare not search online, if I hadn’t searched before, I wouldn’t know that it’s okay to be like this between girls and girls, and I wouldn’t know what chains and props are messed up of.

I don't want to know anything now, I'm afraid that the more I know, the more terrifying it will be.

I hate myself very much, it must be because I am too abnormal and abnormal, I am really disgusting, I feel like vomiting when I look at my face now!

On the 5th, Tuesday, Xiaoxue.

I still searched online, and the key words I searched were: how to correct bad habits.

It is said on the Internet that we must do the opposite, and that we must work hard to restrain ourselves. These two statements seem to be completely opposite, right?

I thought about it, and I still have to combine reality, try to restrain myself in the dream, and do the opposite in reality.

I will go out in a while and buy a box of needles and put it under my pillow. If I dream of her again at night, I will prick myself. I prick myself once in a dream. The habit is formed in the subconscious. After a long time, I will definitely be able to achieve just one dream. When he saw her, he woke up.

I believe I can do it!

As for the reality, I am afraid of getting too close to her, afraid that she will touch me, and I dare not touch her. This will only make me more sensitive to her!

If you do the opposite, stick to her every day, touch her on purpose, touch her more, watch more, get more intimate, and you will naturally develop immunity. This is the most scientific.

Just do it.

May 2, Friday, yīn.

I can't believe that I went to the hot spring with her yesterday! ! ! ! !

Her aunt gave her the ticket and asked me to go with her. I was afraid that I would make some mistakes, but I didn't expect to get through it safely!

The exercise these days has really paid off. Dreams are the feedback of reality. Only those who can’t satisfy reality will want to vent in dreams. Indulging in dreams and escaping from reality was actually a wrong approach. Dreams are false after all. , The more indulgent I am in my dream, the more empty I feel when I wake up. This cycle repeats itself, a vicious circle, which will only make my situation worse and worse.

The intimacy in reality and the restraint in dreams these days are a virtuous circle.

A certain degree of satisfaction in reality, coupled with the distraction of academic pressure, can resolve the emptiness and dissatisfaction that cannot be obtained. In this way, the number of dreams is also reduced, and I am more and more relaxed, and I am not afraid Be alone with her again.

call----

This word "hu" can't reflect the complete relaxation I have now.

I can finally be like before, cuddling, hugging, occasionally having a little nasty little thought, occasionally having a dream that shouldn't be dreamed, most of the time I can get along with her normally, it's great.

By the way, yesterday she asked me why there were so many blood spots on my legs, and she believed me when I said I was allergic.

It's fine if she believes it, huh!Of course!And carelessly soaked in a rose pool with me, not afraid that I would infect her!

No, I think it's not that she's not afraid, it's just that she never thought of the word "infection".

This silly girl looks smart and strong, but she is really silly and fufu~

But I like it, the contrast is cute or something, it can be resistant~

I’m in a good mood today, let’s secretly write it in my diary~

Mua~

Monday, February 3, sunny.

In the blink of an eye, it has been more than half a month since school started, which is unbelievable. I feel that I am still stuck in the hot spring that I took during the Chinese New Year.

I'm a little annoying, not a little, very annoying!

Last semester, my mind was too chaotic and I didn’t pay much attention to it. This semester, I found that she was talking about the schoolgirl in the class next door more and more. Today, she actually dragged me against the breeze and leaned against the corridor railing. I thought she was going to What did you whisper to me, and it turned out to be...

To see that broken grass pass by her! ! !

Is he that handsome?

A smile full of white teeth, what's so good about it? !

with me...

Does it look good?

Day, Wednesday, sunny.

She ran to the corridor to show poss again, and called me to cover, but I didn't go.

I used to think she was cute and silly, but now I hate her for being dull, for being one-sided, and for being silly and scumbag!

Can't you see I'm unhappy?You actually left me alone to see that broken grass!

Who was it that cried and told me not to ignore her last semester?who is it?

snort!

Textbooks are so annoying!

Mr. Lu Xun, I hate you!

Why do you write about Lao Shuan buying bloody steamed buns and her name is all over the article? You have a grudge against me, don’t you?

A bloody feud across the centuries!

I painted it, I painted it all!

Hate!It's annoying!

It's annoying to review or something!

Why is her name everywhere?

It's all painted, cover it and don't look at it, it's so annoying!

Fang, I'm angry, you know?I'm really angry!

This is not the first time for you, you stand in the corridor after class every day, have you ever thought about my feelings?

If you do this again, I will break up with you!real!

Monday, February 5, sunny.

Why is 520 the day when I love you and confession?

Who is that?

I curse the idiot who said that 520 is the golden day of confession!

Today I was called out by that piece of grass, and the whole classroom was full of whistling and booing, I knew she was looking at me, I was a little happy at first, thinking that if this piece of grass dared to confess, I would immediately demote him Mom didn't admit it, and told him to hang out in the corridor no matter how embarrassed he was after class.

In the end, he really confessed his love and gave me a love letter, but the recipient was not me!

Fang thought.

It turned out to be Fang Xiang!

He actually asked me to transfer it to her, where did he get the confidence to think that I would help him?

I just wanted to tear up the letter and throw him in the face.

Fortunately, I still have reason.

Back in the classroom, everyone was looking at me, booing me, asking me to read the love letter, and she was also looking at me, that was a strange sight that I had never seen before, a little cold.

When school was over, she didn't wait for me and left by herself. I was a little scared. She wouldn't think that this letter was written to me, and then get angry and want to break up with me, right?

Should I hand this letter to her?

January 5, Tuesday, sunny.

She ignored me all day today, and the broken grass lingered in front of our classroom door several times, probably trying to call her out to ask for a result, but in the end she didn't call.

My deskmate developed the photos we took on the side of the road last week, and gave me one, and she also gave one. She glanced at it and stuffed it into her schoolbag with a blank expression, and ignored me.