Mature Age + Spoiler

So, I urged my steps forward, this time I wanted to applaud myself, I didn't hesitate, I said what I should say, I expressed it with like, because this word is more euphemistic and roundabout, but she said thank you.

Thank you.Is she used to accepting other people's confession because she is used to it?Does she think I'm just kidding her and doesn't care?

The ridiculous thing is that I can't tell her that I really like it, so much so that even if I want to hypnotize myself, it's an illusion.

I handed over my resignation letter to Manager Yang. She is a good person, a good boss, and a good teacher and friend, but I indulged myself and cried in front of her. I am by no means weak, but at this moment I am swayed by a deep sense of powerlessness.

If only I could be free like her.She said that freedom comes at a price, and it doesn't come out of thin air.

goodbye.The person I love is upstairs, and I truthfully expressed my thoughts. She didn’t reject me, but treated me as a friend, which is already generous to me. A good person like her is probably too generous for anyone. It's gentle.

Afterwards, I thought that I would not be tempted for anyone anymore, and I would take good care of my heart in the future.

After resigning, I was thinking about my life in a daze for a while, and even my sister, who was not close to me, noticed this and came to talk to me.

My sister and I have completely different personalities. After our parents divorced, she lived with my father, while she and I seemed to be strangers even though we were biological sisters.In addition, I always thought that this family did not belong to me, so I couldn't open my heart to communicate with her.

She is also not used to communicating with me, she asked me like a subordinate, but I let go of my resistance and said what was in my heart.

Maybe this is the first step in communication, she tried to tell her thoughts, she said that I caused the current status quo, I gave up the right to decide and let others manipulate me, so it was my fault.

At first I couldn't understand what she meant, and I didn't understand anything until I calmed down.

Her hand was stroking my long hair stiffly. I had never been so close to her.

Later, I made a detour to go to the company, but stayed downstairs, sitting on the edge of the flower bed there, watching the glass door open and close, and the people inside came in and out, with hurried steps. Pursue something.

I also saw Qiao Xinshi getting out of a strange car. She was sitting in the passenger seat, which meant that she was with someone else.

She got out of the car and walked around to the driver's seat, with the window rolled down, she bent down and stretched out her hand to lift the man's neck to kiss her goodbye.

I knew early on that a person as good as her would shine like the brightest star in the night, so someone saw her light, fell in love with her, and reached out and took her off.My heart hurts like being torn to pieces.

I told myself to give up, but I learned to express my thoughts but I couldn't learn to give up.She's still blooming in my chest, and I ended up going back to the company back where I was.

I want to see her up close, and I'm happy when she's happy.

I know that she now has a lover for whom she once disliked a woman and converted herself for that.

I used to have no faith, but I took her as my faith, I believed in her, worshiped her, like a little girl who loves to daydream.

She is kind enough to me, except that she can't respond to my love, she is good enough to me.People like her are rare in the world, and even falling in love with her feels like a kind of happiness.

The decision to leave again began at the beginning of the year. I left not because of someone else's request, but because I realized that I could no longer stay where I am and look up at her, like a silly sunflower.

I fell in love with someone better than myself, and saw what I lacked from her. I was not strong enough, and I lacked rational thinking. I was mediocre like a grass in the meadow, just thousands of A life among plants, she can't even look at me when she bends down, I can't even tell what she likes about me, because I love her, I start to reflect on myself.

The happiness between her and that person is self-evident, and even Manager Yang said that they are very suitable to be together.

"No one knows how to cook except the two of them." Manager Yang shrugged, "But so what, as long as she is happy."

My smile is fake like a disguise, my heart is the most real, selfish and unwilling, but that is just the thought in my heart, I have no power to change anything, if I miss it, I miss it, leaving a scar on my heart.

Manager Yang patted me on the shoulder and said earnestly, "Xiaoxi, you should go out for a walk, visit more places, and get to know more people. Maybe someone who suits you is still waiting for you in the distance."

What if Qiao Xinshi is the only one in my life and I just missed her?What a sad thing that is.

So sad that I have no words to refute myself.

I have experienced the happiness of a workaholic. There are many things, very complicated, some of which are meaningless, but I will do it, as long as it can pass the time.

How long will they be together, one year, two years, three years... or forever?

And how long will I have to wait to forget the feeling of loving her?One year, two years...or even a lifetime.

I began to try to hypnotize myself. I should stop expecting her and leave with regrets. Time will change my mind, let the wound at this moment heal and be smoothed by time.