Love Comes After Learning
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Of course, she was definitely not included in it, because she knew the reason why Asada did this, so she resisted the urge to step on his face
Chapter 160 Five Please Don't Like Me
Asada just finished skinning, Rui turned her head flatly, expressionless, but she didn't look angry, she just pursed her lips and stared at him straight and quietly.
The crystal-clear eyes were like a pair of rubies, reflecting his increasingly stiff expression.
After the calm gaze made Asada's disguise collapse and her eyes began to wander, she spoke with affirmative tone.
"Are you nervous?"
Asada's brows twitched instantly, but she continued to stare at him unwaveringly, as if she wanted to see his face blossom.
In the end, he finally let go of his tense expression as if giving up, leaned back, propped his hands on the sand, and curled his lips.
"For the first time, I feel that having a sister who understands me is not something to be happy about."
Ruyi couldn't help laughing, bent her legs into her arms, and rested her head on her knees.
"In that case, don't you think of me as your younger sister?"
"Sorry, the attributes are repeated. There is already a girl who understands me." Asada shrugged and said casually.
"Unless you want to subdivide it into "peers who understand me", "undergraduates who understand me" and so on, but I don't recommend you to do this, the workload may be a bit heavy."
"..." Ruyi slowly withdrew her smile, her brows were wrinkled like lines on prunes, and she couldn't help but sarcastically.
"Is this a supplementary explanation for what you just said? Should I applaud you?"
Is it because there are a lot of people who like him, so you say that the workload is heavy?
Even though she was prepared for this, there was still a fire in Rui's heart that seemed to be ignited by making juice from sour bamboo shoots, lemon juice, vinegar, etc. The sour anger made her bite her lower lip involuntarily , I always feel that this jealous look is too embarrassing.
Asada looked at her face and smiled helplessly.
"Indeed, if this kind of thing is said by the person concerned, not only the listener, but even myself will feel uncomfortable."
He turned his gaze sideways, staring at the beauty of the sea and night in front of him, and said in a relaxed tone.
"Aren't you too narcissistic? What's so good about this guy? Why do so many people like this kind of scumbag? Why doesn't he quickly find a girlfriend to settle down? Why doesn't he simply reject their favor? Keeping the spare tire..."
"You've been told that?" Rui interrupted him, with a different displeasure on her face, and a little worry in her eyes, "Is it the school?"
Asada froze for a moment, and couldn't help bending a faint smile.
"That's not true. After all, I still have some reputation and power in school. Don't worry."
"That's good...wait. So, you came up with those words yourself?"
Seeing Asada nodding, Rui pinched the center of her brows, half-closed her eyes, with a look of helplessness that she didn't know what to say.
"Your persecution paranoia is quite serious..."
"It's called looking at yourself objectively." As if he was talking about other people's affairs, Asada didn't show any gloomy look, and his voice was so calm that no emotion could be heard.
"For me, I'm just doing what I want to do. Whether it's helping them, encouraging them, or working hard with them, it's a choice I made according to my own ideas, and I don't have any regrets. necessary."
"Similarly, no one can blame them, whether you like them or hate them, if these feelings are all born from the heart, then they are real things without any disguise or falsehood, and they are treasures that should be cherished and collected."
"Since this is the case, where is the problem? Who made a simple love affair become a multiple-choice question where others will be hurt?"
The palm of his hand was subconsciously clenched into a fist, and a handful of sand was rubbing rough in his palm, and he slowly let it go again, sighing softly.
"...in me, and my attitude."
Asada looked at Rui, she seemed to be listening intently, did not speak, just quietly waiting for the unfinished words.
He actually didn't want to say it.It's not easy to tell other people this kind of thinking, especially the girl who still likes him.
Shinichi Asada's self-esteem does not allow him to take the initiative to show weakness to anyone—isn't it tantamount to showing weakness if he cuts open his strong exterior to reveal his naked inner voice and thoughts?
Maybe among the people he knows, only Nakano Yotsuba can let himself show all those weak places?
She has seen too many ugly places about herself, as if the fallen stones have accidentally piled up a fortress, which is the only place besides her parents where he can show his weakness with peace of mind.
But the emotional matter is about her sister after all, and Asada is too embarrassed to talk to girls about love, so even if she is willing to listen, he probably won't tell her about those troubles.
So now, Asada's goal is not to complain to Rui.
No matter how many troubles there are, he has to find a way to solve it by himself. Relying on others to comfort him is just a cowardly escape. Asada never planned to let Rui know his own thoughts from the beginning, and there are many ways to fool the past.
but……
She confessed to him.
Just like Nino, with an extremely straightforward and serious attitude, she spoke her mind out loud to him.
Facing her like this, how should Shinichi Asada escape?He can't even deny and obscure things.
Therefore, as much as she gave, she had to pay back; if she told the truth, she had to return the truth.
Although it sounds stupid, he is very small-minded, and he doesn't want to owe others no matter whether it is hatred or kindness.
Because of this, after thanking her for her confession, Asada looked absent-minded, thinking about her own affairs.
"Simply put, if it weren't for my reluctance to offend people, blinded by the illusion of popularity, and only responding negatively, things might not have developed the way they are now."
Raising your hand, looking at the sand falling from your palm, you seem to see them, as well as the time and scenes you spent with them.
The heart is aching, and the contradictory feeling turns into a knife blade, gently rubbing against the skin of the blood vessel
Asada clenched his fist lightly, put his arm back to his side, closed his eyes and raised his head.
His voice was low, like an iron plate pressed against his chest.
"Inaction is a silent acquiescence, and both are perpetrators."
"Perhaps I will tell them these words in the future... But now, Rui, I want you to know that I have another answer to your confession."
Asada sat up straight, his expression was under the indifferent moonlight, like a pool of condensed water, without any ripples, and also unable to reflect the true emotions hidden in the deepest.
Rui pursed her lips, did not avoid his straight gaze, and nodded her head slightly.
"Perhaps, this is also one of the main reasons why I have been trying to wake you up..."
Moving his lower lip imperceptibly, his serious voice then passed through the quiet evening wind, and passed into Rui's ears clearly and coldly.
"Sorry, please don't like me."
Tachibana Ruyi opened her eyes wide in a daze.
It was a request that was very fragile and indifferent at the same time.
"I'm not someone worthy of liking. I don't know how to deal with the feeling of "liking". I will only make people who like me cry and hurt them. I can't do anything."
That is the self-blame and confusion that has been hidden for a long time.
"I don't want to hurt others, and I don't want to bear the feelings of so many people, and I don't want to lose the smile on everyone's face just because I like these two words. I don't know how to mend the hole in my relationship."
Perhaps it was because of this that he wanted to escape, and the determination he finally made was so weak.
"So, if I may..."
Shinichi Asada lowered his gaze, his clenched fists turned white, and he sighed slightly, as if trying to blend into the dark night, with an inaudible trembling.
"Even if...you don't have any problem hating me, for your own good, don't like me in terms of love."
"I'm not worth it now."
He once thought that if he didn't exist in their lives.
Can such a story have more smiles and warmth than his existence?
Chapter 160 Six Real Troubles
The silence that can be heard when a needle falls, comes silently as the voice disappears.
"I don't deserve to be liked by you. 』
That confession contained complex and profound emotions, and Rui forgot to breathe at some point, and just stared at him blankly, not recovering for a long time.
"..."
Asada slowly closed his eyes, as if he was thinking, but also seemed to be gathering scattered emotions.
The disorder of breathing and heartbeat is gradually returning to a stable level, and they are obviously suppressed, but the sound is still clearer than the sound of the evening wind blowing across the sea.
The fist placed by his side loosened little by little, with imperceptible tremors at the fingertips.
Just like the tide of the sea, when the wave has reached its peak, the next moment is when it returns to the surface of the sea again.
"Probably, that's it..."
After a while, he opened his slightly dry mouth.
His voice was a bit hoarse, Shinichi Asada pursed his lips, quickly adjusted his voice, sighed out the stuffy air in his chest, returned to his normal state, and spoke casually.
"Not only to you, but also to other people who like me. After I go back, I will find an opportunity to tell them these words... After all, if I try to get lucky, things will only get worse."
He raised his hand, rubbed his cheeks, and after rubbing away the stiffness on his face, he showed a faint smile to Rui.
"I'm sorry, I must have felt very uncomfortable for saying that on my own, right? But I am also, the girls who care about me like me, not just one or two, this kind of thing really makes people don't know what to do what."
He seemed to want to lighten up the atmosphere, and he shrugged his shoulders with a frivolous tone of voice.
But Rui didn't intend to joke with him, instead she subconsciously clenched the corner of her clothes and spoke with difficulty.
"I... like you, I don't know what liking is, let alone being in love. I never thought about it."
Hidden in the drooping hair, her voice was very low, but the sound of the tide was still gentle, and even the slight movement of clothes rubbing against the beach could reach her ears.
"When you encounter feelings that you don't know how to deal with, you are confused and entangled, and you want to find the answer, but you will only start to feel dizzy, more and more uncomfortable, and more and more at a loss."
Rui took a light breath, her lips trembled for a moment, and then became firm again.
"This feeling is really annoying... If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have this kind of feeling, and it may be like you said, we who like you but don't get anything in return, are jealous of each other, and love each other. Resentment, finally giving up liking you with wounds all over, is it all painful memories in retrospect?"
"Painful, memories..."
Asada opened his eyes wide in surprise, looked at her side face, his expression gradually lowered, his eyes sank down to the ground, he raised his eyebrows slightly, and forced an embarrassing smile.
"Sorry, it's all because of me..."
"What... You must think so, right? Only you would think so!"
Like a sharp knife cutting through the silence, she cuts off his apology mercilessly.
Rui suddenly raised his head, with the discomfort and self-blame in his eyes that made Asada stunned, he slapped his palm on the sand hard and shouted at him.
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