Plural Apostles

When he was working in Japan, he once had a big fight with an acquaintance who was also working because of a certain problem. He thought about it for a while, and was about to apologize to the other party and then figure it out. The response was "I forgot about it a long time ago, that matter doesn't matter"...

Forgetting based on physiological functions, people naturally learn to look away, and let all kinds of things go by in a daze, it doesn't matter whether it is right or wrong, anyway, life is like this, unless it is some special things, otherwise there is no need to forget anything They are all in the back of their minds.

Siegfried can't see it. He will be unforgettable because of emotionally hurting others, because he expresses his kindness correctly, and because he doesn't fit the environment, he will receive all kinds of unsatisfactory responses.

In the end, Siegfried became convinced of one thing, that he was not suitable for getting along with others, but only for getting along with himself.

I have the money to live my life safely, and the modern society is very developed, so I have the conditions to let myself live in a corner for the rest of my life.

Since what you think is absurd in reality and will be laughed at, then put it in a story based on fantasy and divorced from reality.

"The best kindness is not to hurt others. The way to not hurt others is to not exist, to not exist, to live without any human relationship." Siegfried put the cigarette into the ashtray, " Raiden Mei... What she thinks in her heart is whether to please herself with pretended kindness, or to act from the heart? It seems that it doesn't matter from this point of view, what matters is her behavior..."

"Should I be angry and loathe her for breaking into my life, and I should also feel good about what she did? No, the latter is wrong. I didn't enjoy the benefits of her behavior for myself , excluding the takeaway she made."

"Anyway, I don't plan to go back to Japan. Since it's a farewell, I don't need to think about it... No, this is evasion and confusion. I still have to think about the meaning of this matter carefully. She came here in the heavy rain, not to let myself stay , but asked a few questions, and then saw me off...Based on this behavior, it seems that her behavior of barbarously breaking into my life was not malicious?"

"If her heart is kind... that is to say, what she is doing is trying to establish a relationship with me? Why does she want to establish a relationship with me? I don't know her, and I haven't established any relationship since a long time I have established a network of relationships... But the relationship between people is often one-sided. The person you regard as a friend may not regard you as a friend... In her heart, what does she regard as me? She needs her to let me be right. Has her cognition changed as she expected?"

"I didn't think about this before. Is it because emotion dominates words and deeds and deviates from the truth..."

"Thinking about it this way, it seems that I have hurt the other person's heart...Do I need to go back and apologize to her?"

Siegfried thought silently, and took out another cigarette: "Sure enough, going back and apologizing means that a kind of interpersonal relationship may be established... Time is a catalyst, and people will react violently, and eventually become different. Matter, even the process of getting used to, can only be changed when you are alone."

"Reality...I'm just a mediocre person in reality, and I have an extra apology that I can't express."

After smoking the cigarette, he put the cigarette butt into the ashtray, and in the rising smoke, Siegfried's expression was slightly melancholy.

"I'm sorry, Raiden Mei."

Based on reality, people always have to do some wrong things, so they can't learn to forget and look away from themselves, so they can only stay away from the crowd... Once I was curious, I thought about the well-known tram problem, thinking about the extreme situation The real problem is, if it was me, who would choose whose life to live between a car of people and a child.

In the end, Siegfried got the answer, he would choose the lives of a carload of people, the reason is very simple, only he can choose, the life of a carload of people is more important than one person...

There is no right answer to that question, only wrong answers. He found that many problems in reality are like this. Right and wrong are not relative or interdependent. Objectively speaking, many times you encounter questions with only wrong answers. The problems encountered in reality are not as extreme as the trolley problem, but objectively speaking, people can still only choose among wrong answers.

The reality made up of people and people will not let everyone always encounter the right thing.

This is the tragedy of the world made up of people.

The world has truth, but people do not.

Siegfried exhaled, returned to the bedroom, tapped the keyboard of the computer, and wrote a new story.

The protagonist of this story has... a realistic love story, starting from college, women love handsome and cheerful men, men love beautiful and smart women, the story develops with time, men and women are changing, gradually It turned into a strange appearance, the man still loves the woman - the past her, and the woman still loves the man - the past him.

Each other is each other's heaven, and then each other is each other's hell.

The ending is still written in the open way I am used to, no one cheated, no one did anything wrong, the two still lived together, and became familiar with the torture that each other brought to each other... Then the monster left, and the story was over.

perfect.

Siegfried tapped the keyboard, and his mood couldn't help jumping up. He knew that he was still a person who needed to express, even if he didn't look at anyone's response to his expression, but he knew that he needed this kind of spiritual expression. needs, express, vent, and confide in order to avoid the accumulation of your own emotions from affecting your mentality.

"People are really fragile, whether it is body or mind..."

Chapter 740 Reunited in the Snowstorm

"Almost forgot the Spring Festival in China..."

Siegfried was sitting on the sofa, holding the mobile phone in one hand, and scratching his hair in distress with the other hand. All the shops displayed on the takeaway software on the mobile phone were closed... It’s the Spring Festival in China. The custom of family reunion for the New Year, traditional festivals passed down from generation to generation, the most important time of the year.

However, for Siegfried, this is a very troublesome thing. All the takeaway shops are closed. He used to stay in the room and write without paying attention to the time. In addition, he has lived in Japan for so many years, and he is always next to him. There are several takeaway restaurants that have no habit of closing down, and they have forgotten what will happen during the Spring Festival in China due to their negligence.

The restaurants are all closed, and the fastest will not open until four or five days later. Even though life is stressful now, the Chinese New Year tradition is still maintained here in China, and most people have to spare a day or two from their busy schedules. During Chinese New Year and holidays, there are also some people who are open all year round.

I can’t order takeaway anymore, but fortunately the supermarket should still be open at this time, and I can buy a la carte and cook. Of course, with my own craftsmanship, don’t expect it to be delicious or make any tricks. Simply make some egg fried rice or noodles , survive these few days, and wait until the restaurant opens to do takeaway again.

Siegfried stood up helplessly from the sofa, and sighed rather depressingly: "This is the reality, people starve to death if they don't eat..."

People are living in reality... Perhaps in terms of their own thinking, they are much luckier than others.

Being alone means that there will be no social troubles such as relatives and friends.

Having property at home means not having to run around for life, and having capital to stay away from the hustle and bustle.

It's really lucky to entertain yourself.

Opening the door of the rental house, Siegfried, whose thoughts were scattered freely, was brought back to reality by a chill. He shivered, feeling the chill brought by a gust of cold wind in front of him, as well as the fine and cold touch on his cheeks.

It's snowing... It's a scene I've never seen with my own eyes.

Beauty and novelty can’t be said, but it’s quite cold.

Siegfried rubbed his hands, feeling a little unaccustomed to the temperature changes in this new environment. He usually stays in the house and has an air conditioner to help adjust the temperature. Fortunately, it feels like another world as soon as he goes out.

Back in the house, I put on a thick windbreaker for myself, kicked my hands in the pockets, shrunk my neck slightly and raised my shoulders, letting the collar help me resist the cold wind with fine snow particles.

unfamiliar city?

It's the same everywhere.

In the 24-hour supermarket, Siegfried looked at the deserted supermarket. Except for some salespersons, there were very few customers in the supermarket. Now most people are preparing for the New Year and enjoying the festive atmosphere of reunion.

After weighing the level of his poison-making skills, Siegfried chose to buy a large pack of instant noodles, some eggs and some noodles, and also bought some seasonings and the like.

"Thank you for this world where people like me don't starve to death."