Mysterious country

Zhao Jingshu took off her sunglasses that were stained with raindrops, and her face showed a bit of excitement and joy, but of course there was also a bit of inexplicable uneasiness.

After a brief silence, Zhao Jingshu inadvertently walked closer to Xia Qi, and then suddenly stopped in place as if she suddenly realized something.

She spoke slowly to him with a complex tone:

"Tianqi, you have lost weight."

When Xia Qi came, he had countless thoughts in his mind about what was the first thing Zhao Jingshu said after seeing him.

I thought that Zhao Jingshu would smile melancholy, and then reply in an understatement like him, "Long time no see."

He also thought that Zhao Jingshu would hit him hard on the chest and ask him like a friend why it took him so long to come.

He even thought that Zhao Jingshu would look at him strangely, or nod, or shake his head, making him so embarrassed that he didn't know what to say.

But obviously even though he thought of countless things, he never thought that Zhao Jingshu would use such a worried greeting as the opening remarks for them to meet again.

"I haven't had enough oil and water lately, so my figure has shrunk a bit."

Xia Qi smiled, but the smile on his face was really complicated.

Because his heart began to waver, he actually questioned himself again, and became increasingly uneasy.

Zhao Jingshu said nothing, and the rain outside was still pattering, making the atmosphere unusually silent.

It wasn't until a while that Xia Qi asked with some difficulty:

"Jingshu, how are you doing?"

"What about you? I have heard some news about you, but very little, because I dare not ask more, I am afraid. I am afraid of hearing bad news about you, about Leng Yue and the others."

When Zhao Jingshu said this, she suddenly said to Xia Qi:

"Come out for a walk with me."

"good."

The two people slowly walked onto the shaky long bridge. A slight chill came from their faces and bodies. It did not calm Xia Qi's mind, but made him feel a chill from the inside out.

He was too familiar with Zhao Jingshu, and he also knew Zhao Jingshu too well. Zhao Jingshu chose to stay in this inner realm and chose not to go to them. She must have her own reasons and plans.

They have been together through life and death, and have been with each other for so long. It can be said that they have gone through all kinds of ups and downs. He does not believe that Zhao Jingshu is the kind of person who will forget everyone and become alienated if their relationship problems change. people.

So he never blamed Zhao Jingshu for staying here in the inner domain and refusing to return when they were going through the most difficult time. In fact, even if Zhao Jingshu went back, it would not be able to calm down the danger at all.

If even people in their relationship had to rely on so-called explanations to make each other feel that both parties had their own difficulties, then he wouldn't have to be as full of complicated factors as he is now.

"How does Yang Zhongpeng treat you?"

As the two of them were walking, Xia Qi asked this question inexplicably.

"He is very good to me. I can survive in this inner realm because of his protection.

He thinks about everything for me and does everything he can for me. He said that the two of us are very destined.

Since I resembled his dead fiancée and was an enchanter like him, he was willing to help me improve. "

Speaking of this, Zhao Jingshu ruffled her wet hair, then smiled at Xia Qi and said:

"At first I thought it was what he said, but recently I can feel that he likes me."

"When I said I was coming to find you, he acted very scared. He was afraid that you would leave me."

"But Tianqi, will you take me away?

In fact, for a long time, I was quite confused. I didn't understand why when I like someone, I always subconsciously want to give everything for him.

Even if there will be no reward for all this, even if you know that the more you invest, the more scars you will leave on yourself.

My dad said to me, this is stupid.

Because only a fool would know this and still do it.

I told him at that time that because it is difficult to like someone, it is even harder to like someone to the core. I can’t even give to the person I like, so I don’t deserve to be liked.

It wasn't until I had been in contact with Yang Zhongpeng for a long time and knew Yang Zhongpeng's intentions that I truly understood this matter.

All efforts made out of love are derived from one's own fantasy.

Thinking that doing this will make the person you like happy, thinking that doing this will make that person like you, thinking that doing this will give you the illusion of ownership. "

"Jingshu..."

Xia Qi subconsciously interrupted Zhao Jingshu.

Zhao Jingshu turned her head to one side, then covered her face with her hands and began to cry, her crying becoming more and more heartbreaking.

Xia Qi came to Zhao Jingshu at this time, then slowly helped her up, and then took her into his arms:

"Jingshu, I understand how you feel about me. It's all my fault. I've been pretending to be stupid and I didn't dare to really open my heart to welcome this feeling.

Because I'm afraid, I'm worried about losing. I feel very naively that once you accept a relationship, you have to give everything to the other person with all your life, and you have to bear the vows you secretly made when you made the choice.

Including Wu Di, they all said that I was out of my mind. It is precisely because the future is unpredictable that I should cherish the present more. But why do I insist on perfunctory myself.

In fact, what I think is very simple. My friends can leave me, but it is difficult for my lover to accept my departure.

There are too many secrets in me. Every time I take a step upward, I can feel it more clearly, which comes from the unknown whirlpool that envelopes me above my head. "

Zhao Jingshu raised her head and looked at Xia Qi's resolute face, then stretched out a finger to stop Xia Qi's next words.

“Take me back, back to everyone.

The moment I saw you again, I found that everything I thought about was disrupted by you.

Rather than being alone and choosing to forget, it is better to return to everyone and return to our original beauty. "

Zhao Jingshu is actually a woman who is very persistent in love. She thought she could be calm, but when the topic was suddenly brought up, she couldn't help but madly reveal her love for Xia Qi.

She has even forgotten now what she likes about Xia Qi. At first, she knew that she liked Xia Qi's straightforwardness, his humor, and his responsibility, but now all these have disappeared.

She just likes Xia Qi as a person, not these so-called advantages in him.

As for what she just said, it was actually not what Xia Qi thought. What she wanted to express was just that she didn't like it, just like that, no matter how much Yang Zhongpeng did to her, all she had in her heart was gratitude and gratitude. , but didn’t like it.

Just like she did to Xia Qi at that time, so she can understand how Xia Qi feels.

Maybe people are like this. They clearly care and are vulnerable, but they often paralyze themselves because of reality, making themselves think that they are strong and disdainful. But when the hypocritical disguise is torn apart, even if it is just a small gap, When you find a small piece, all your accumulated emotions will burst out from it.