My 26-year-old Female Tenant

Standing on this tall building, I found that I was so close to the moon hanging in the sky, but I didn't get any warmth from it. Only then did I realize that what the moon relies on is only the brilliance of the sun, and it has no temperature itself. Yes, even if you get closer, don't expect it to drive away the severe cold for you. The most stupid thing in this world is probably to use moonlight to keep warm.

  So, in a trance, I seemed to have become that round moon that exudes light but has no warmth. Under the moon stood a vague human-like image, but it had been lonely for a hundred years...

I turned around, stroked the red and swollen fingerprints on Le Yao's cheek with my hand, smiled and said to her: "Although people are real, those loneliness and pains are probably fake, because a hundred years later There is no more you and me, and the loneliness and pain we have experienced cannot prove that we have ever come to this world..."

Le Yao didn't have any emotions, she didn't even look at me, she just looked at the city below her that was not warmed by the neon lights, and said: "Are you telling me these words to help me brainwash? . .....Hehe, it’s actually not necessary, because I didn’t plan to invite you to the restaurant in the empty city today, but you came here uninvited, so the pain you just experienced didn’t exist, so I just pretended to be It's because you just happened to pass by, and the ebb and flow it brought... who cares about those **** pains, getting my marriage right is the most important thing I should do in the future... ...and you better be happier than me!"

I nodded and put down the hand that was stroking her face, but she suddenly pressed my hand that was about to be put down with her hand, so the warmth of her cheek came from my palm again... This temperature proves that we have really been here tonight.

  ...

As expected, after leaving the building, I turned left and she turned right. After a while, we walked farther and farther away, and the only thing that remained unchanged was the neon lights that were still flashing, rendering the city's So enchanting, so enchanting that I, who was incompatible, wanted to escape.

  I really escaped, to an old neighborhood with only dim street lights and no neon lights. To be precise, it is the westernmost part of the city, the place we call "the west of the old city".

I lay down on a telegraph pole, looking at the ruins in front of me, I felt an uncontrollable soreness in my nasal cavity. At this moment, I completely believed that the child Le Yao had conceived was my child, but I was bearing During the pain of abortion, what I gave her was doubts. Even less than a month after the miscarriage, I jumped into the cold pool for filming, but I couldn’t be by her side to give her some care. Thinking about it, I’m sorry for her, I'm sorry for the love we had during the ridiculous years we spent together.

If my life up to this point can be divided into three stages, then the years spent with Jian Wei represent youth and frivolity, the period with Mi Cai is a rebirth from the ashes, and the period spent with Le Yao But it's absurd... Maybe it's not Le Yao that I don't love, but those years when we didn't seem to meet each other at the right time!

A burst of tears fell from my eye sockets, I raised my head and swallowed those tears back into my stomach, then lowered my head and blew off my nose, then walked in this old neighborhood looking for a A shop where you can buy cigarettes.

  ...

The old city will never be as prosperous and full of convenience as the new city. I walked for a few streets but couldn't find a newsstand or convenience store that was still open. I already had the idea of ​​giving up temporarily. In the new urban area, or go back to the old house that Mi Cai and I have always remembered, there will definitely be cigarettes for sale.

I just walked from the street to the end of the street, looking around to see if there would be any taxis passing by, but unexpectedly found a flower shop that was still open, and the blackboard at the entrance of the flower shop clearly stated that there were cigarettes for sale .

  I walked into the flower shop, and then I saw a busy figure from behind, and I said, "Boss, do you have any Marlboro cigarettes? Give me a pack."

  She turned her head, and she was a girl in her early 20s with a ponytail. She looked very pretty and very quiet. She shook her head at me, indicating that there were no Marlboro cigarettes.

  I asked again: "Is there Hongmei or Zhongnanhai?"

  She still shook her head apologetically. I wanted to leave because I don't like smoking other brands of cigarettes very much, but Naihe was tortured by the addiction, so she asked for the third time: "Then what cigarettes do you sell here?"

  She took out a few boxes of commonly sold cigarettes from her purse and showed them to me, but she didn't say a word from the beginning to the end.

  I chose a pack of Hongtashan, took out a piece of money from the wallet in a trance, handed it to her, took the cigarette from her hand, turned and left.

At the street corner, I was smoking a cigarette while waiting for a passing taxi. Suddenly, someone gently pulled the clothes behind me. I turned around in surprise, only to find that it was the girl who just sold my cigarettes. Holding a stack of change, he signed to me.

  It was only then that I realized that she couldn't speak, and I couldn't understand the sign language she made, but I probably understood, maybe I was too distracted just now, and I forgot to ask her for change...

I knew that it was not easy for the disabled to do small business, so I shook my hand and signaled that she didn't need to give it to me, but she insisted on returning it to me, but my pocket was very tight, and she tried to stuff it in several times, but failed. It's over.

She finally took out her mobile phone from her pocket, and typed a line of words on it to show me: "Thank you for your kindness, but I don't need sympathy, just earn what I deserve!" There was a smile behind the words expression.

This is a very independent girl. I thought my act of kindness might have hurt her self-esteem, so I said with apology: "I'm sorry, I was too self-righteous, I will take the money back." I said from her He took the stack of change in his hand.

She typed a smiling expression on the mobile phone, and I, who had no hope of waiting for the bus, felt a burst of hunger, so I asked her who was about to leave: "Girl, is there any place to eat near here? I want to have some supper .”

She made several gestures to me, but I couldn't understand what she was pointing at. She quickly pressed on the phone, and then handed it to me: "If you are not in a hurry, I will go back and close the phone. I'll take you there after the shop."

   "What's there to eat?"

   "Small steamed stuffed bun and rice porridge, do you like it?"

I nodded, she put the phone in her pocket, motioned me to wait, then turned and walked to the alley behind me, and I, who had a cigarette, took another cigarette out of the cigarette case, smoking while waiting.

  ...

While waiting, my cell phone rang again. It was from Tongzi. Since he went abroad, he always likes to call me when he wakes up, showing off some of what he has seen and heard abroad. If he doesn’t know anything, he will talk to me about the dream he had last night. In short, although he has left, he has been using this kind of daily phone communication to appear in my life, which makes me feel that he is actually quite lonely abroad. of!

  I was in a low mood, and it took me a while to get through the phone. He asked me, "Brother Yang, guess what dream I had last night?"

   "I care more about what you learned in school yesterday during the day."

   "Hey... I'll tell you what I learned about game programming, but you don't even understand it!"

   "Then don't talk to me about those unreliable dreams!"

   "Okay... let's talk about you, have you been with Sister Le Yao recently?"

  My heart tightened suddenly, and I remembered the scene with Le Yao on the tall building just now, and I was speechless for a long time. For me, any topic about Le Yao is a kind of devastation.

   Tongzi didn't notice my strangeness, and asked: "Brother Yang, can't you tell me a little bit about Sister Le Yao? Our fan support group has been waiting for the news of her comeback!"

  I took a heavy puff on my cigarette and finally said to him: "She won't come back...because she's getting married!"

   "Ah!...who is she going to marry, with you?"

   "With me?...do you think it's possible?"

"Why is it impossible, she has always loved you so much...I remember she told me once in a chat, it was you who would not marry!...But you have reunited with Sister Mi Cai Could it be that something earth-shattering happened while I was away, Sister Le Yao successfully counterattacked you!...Haha, it must be like this, life is like a drama, drama is like life Well!"

  I was silent for a long time before replying: "Study well over there, don't fantasize... She is not going to marry me, and I am not going to marry her."

  The boy exclaimed: "oh, my god... what a cruel joke!"

I just took a puff of cigarette and was about to end this meaningless conversation. The boy asked me full of pain and regret: "Then who is she going to marry?...Is it that coal?" Second generation?"

   "No, I don't know who it is...I'm going to eat right away, let's not talk for now, I will call you when I have time."

"Wait, wait...how did this happen? Sister Le Yao didn't marry you in the end. She was in so much pain and despair. I still remember what she told me about her greatest hope in this life. It is to be able to smile from the bottom of my heart on the day of the wedding... It's over, how can she laugh!"

Remembering so many boys, it was a kind of torture for me to stab my heart with a bayonet. I hung up the phone in an extremely depressed mood... in the weak and heavy breathing at that time Looking back at the somewhat dilapidated old city behind me... the night turned this dilapidation into a kind of joy and sorrow flowing from the past.

In a daze, the girl from the florist had already pushed her pink electric car to my side, and I walked side by side to the snack bar in an unknown corner. The silence that made the sound became euphemistic! …

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   Yesterday I missed a chapter due to a cold, so let’s update two large chapters of 3000 words today.