My 26-year-old Female Tenant

   Mi Cai just huddled in my arms, this kind of snuggling really created warmth between us, my heart gradually calmed down, and then I fell into obsession.

   "Zhaoyang, your heart is not beating!"

  Mi Cai seemed to be listening to my heartbeat all the time, but this sentence startled me, so I quickly felt my pulse. The pulse was very stable, which proved that I still had a heartbeat.

  Just when she was about to speak, Mi Cai took the initiative to correct what she said just now: "Don't be nervous, the dance is slow!"

   "Why am I nervous? It's you who should be nervous!... If my heartbeat stops, are you afraid?"

   Mi Cai left my body, then looked at me and nodded.

  I shook my head with a smile, and sighed: "You are so timid!"

   Mi Cai looked away, and after a long time said softly: "What I'm afraid of is not facing a corpse, but... this world without you!"

  The world suddenly became quieter, so quiet that I could hear her heartbeat, my heartbeat, and I felt that my well-built fortress suddenly showed signs of cracks and then collapsed at this moment.

  But he smiled and asked, "Do you care about me...?"

  If Mi Cai nods at this moment, I will hug her again, even if I just ask "How about you, do you care about me?" I will answer "I care, I care a lot" and then hug her.

  But she didn't answer for a long time, and then her mobile phone rang, breaking the silence and bringing me back to my senses in an instant. <'s voice: "Honey, are you asleep?"

  Mi Cai went back to the past: "Not yet, is there anything wrong?"

   "Chinese New Year is coming soon, I want to ask where you spent this year." <, I have something to tell you. "

  Mi Cai showed doubts on her face: "What is it?"

   "Ban Dae said: If you are alone during the Chinese New Year, you can go back to Xuzhou with me. Our family is very lively during the Chinese New Year."

After I finished speaking, I looked at Mi Cai sincerely, but there was a look of hesitation on her face, and she said to me after a long while: "Thank you for your kindness, I will go to the United States this year for Chinese New Year... Wei Ran has not left, just waiting I'm done with the business of the company!"

My heart suddenly seemed to have fallen into an icehouse, and it took me a while to recover, and then I said to Mi Cai in a joking tone: "He failed to confess his love in China, and is he going to move the battlefield to do it again? After all, the United States is his home field." , will add points..."

  Mi Cai ignored my joke and said, "Her mother is very good to me and has always taken care of me in the United States. There are also some American friends who have been back to China for a long time. I miss them a little bit."

  Mi Cai’s words made me realize: she must go to America, and I have no reason to keep her, but why is my heart so blocked? < Said: "This year I will go to the United States for the New Year."

   "What about you? Are you going back to your hometown?"

"My parents have gone to Hong Kong to celebrate the New Year, and I will stay in Suzhou this year."

  I consciously stayed away from her, found a bar stool in another corner and sat down, forgetting that I wanted to invite her to sing the song "Clearly My Heart" before coming to the bar.

   Mi Cai put the guitar back into the box, and I knew this meant that it was time for us to leave and end the night that these two were together.

   Sure enough, she said to me: "Zhaoyang, I'm leaving, do you want to go together?"

   "It's not on the way, you go first."

  Mi Cai nodded, walked to the door, but stopped and said to me: "It's late, you should go too!"

  I smiled and replied: "I'll take a look at today's accounts, it will be ready in a while, please help me turn on the light at the bar."

  Mi Cai turned on the light at the bar for me, looked at me again, and finally left the bar with the newly bought guitar on her back.

  …

  I felt a little stuck, I stubbed out the cigarette in my hand, lit another one, and then turned on the POS machine at the bar to check today's accounts.

  The night was so deep that it seemed to be approaching dawn. After finishing the accounts, I finally returned to the small stage, and then sat cross-legged on the ground. The only thing that accompanied me was the guitar that almost no longer belonged to me.

  I was a little tired, so I lay down next to the guitar, but my consciousness suddenly woke up, and I thought of Jian Wei again.

  If we fell in love at the beginning, what would it be like now?

  I don't know, but I remember that we used to regard love as a belief, love to crazy!

  I know: In that failed love, I lost my faith and gained depression... I can no longer pursue the next love with pure enthusiasm.

  Wait, do I still believe in love now?

  I don’t have an answer, because there is no love in my current world, and Li Xiaoyun, the only one who came together, seems to have nothing to do with love, but more like a safe haven after a tired life!

  I sat up from the ground, took out my phone, and took a photo of this guitar that has accompanied me for many years.

  Holding the guitar in his hand again, he plucked the strings lightly, but couldn't hold himself in. At dawn, a person sang the song "Elopement" hoarsely.

   But, with whom to elope, my life is only myself, and I feel lonely!

  …

The next day, I didn’t wake up until noon. I didn’t even want to eat lunch. I planned to sleep until the afternoon, but I received a call from Aji. He couldn’t wait to ask me to give him the guitar. Speaking of where I live, I can't understand it. I'm afraid he doesn't have such a strong desire for his wife at night! But still complied with his request.

After waking up, just after washing up, before he had time to make a bowl of noodles for himself, Aji had already arrived at my residence. After I opened the door for him, he stared straight at the guitar I placed next to the sofa, and then his face was full He ran over with a smile and picked up the guitar like a baby.

   "Zhaoyang, you won't go back on your word. I heard from Xiao Wu that this guitar was given to you by your first girlfriend!"

   Before I could answer, he said again: "It's hard to follow what we say, and we can't go back on it!"

  I tore off the surface of the bucket, poured boiling water into it, and then said to him: "I look like a repentant person, take the guitar away, and then never appear in front of me again!"

Aji smiled embarrassingly, and said: "We are all playing music. A guitar that has been with me for many years means nothing to us. I love this guitar..."

  I interrupted, and said: "You have already said the same thing to me yesterday, can you control your old lady-like mouth, babbling, babbling!"

Aji ignored it, and started playing the guitar again. He couldn't put it down, and suddenly put the guitar in a box, and said to me: "Zhaoyang, I still have something to do in the piano shop, so I'll take this guitar away... yes I can’t stop, brother!” After speaking, he disappeared from my face like a steamer, the speed was not weaker than that of the original landlord, Lao Li!

  Looking at the back of Aji leaving with his guitar on his back, my heart was suddenly emptied. This emptiness came so suddenly that I was unprepared. In the scene where she sang at the restaurant, Jian Wei at that time would be by my side no matter how late she was, and I would always use this guitar to make fun of her. Everything looked difficult, but my heart was full.

  Now, I have finally lost this guitar, and the fullness of the past seems to have been lost too. I am so empty that I only have a shell left, but who can save the shriveled soul in that shell?

No one can save me, I can only save myself, so I hurriedly lit a cigarette for myself, but in the smoke, I thought of Mi Cai again, and remembered that she was about to go to the United States with Wei Ran, and my heart seemed to be even more empty... I was so empty that I lost my soul, so I didn't even notice that the bowl of noodles was soaked!

  It wasn't until the door was opened, until Mi Cai stood in front of me again dragging the suitcase, that I woke up from the stupor...

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