Miss Witch doesn't want to be a diva

The light of the projection lights up in the dark room, just like the beginning of a retro movie, with various sandy spots switching one by one, gradually entering a countdown.

When the last number flashed by, the screen switched to a soft guitar sound, accompanied by a faint sigh in the background.

In the constantly shaking picture, gray walls, old desks, and the silhouettes of students with their backs or sideways flashed continuously. Only the back of a black-haired girl sat in the corner without saying a word.

The sound of the music is constantly changing. In the melody of the guitar, the female voice sings like a ghost, singing with sadness and loneliness. Although the rhythm is brisk, there is always endless decadence and helplessness in it.

"Setting in the corner of the classroom is at least like looking at an unchaste and corrupted cat." 』

"As expected, I still can't do it myself. 』

"Basically, I don't want to trust anyone anymore. 』

…

The camera slowly zoomed in. Outside the black-haired girl's window, students of the same age were running and playing, but she was the only one sitting in the corner, not moving. The colorful colors outside were in stark contrast to the gray figure in the corner.

"Even though I do what I'm good at, I'm still the kind of guy who seems to fall down during the "first step""

"I always, no matter what time,

I won’t expect too much from myself. 』

…

The camera changed again, and the girl was still sitting in the corner. At this time, several girls who targeted her came and surrounded her in the corner. Their words and expressions were like screeching evil birds, taunting and teasing the girl.

"Because I can't do it myself.

Unlike you, I can't truly smile from the bottom of my heart. 』

"I really want to be able to sing freely, even if I still remember the piano,

But I am still bound by those accusations. 』

…

The melody kept turning, and again and again, and the same scene played out again and again, until the end of school, the classroom was empty, the hangings and pages on the wall were old and damaged, and the black-haired girl was still sitting in the corner, Never left.

"It feels like nothing has disappeared until the end of this world."

"As expected, I still can't do it. 』

The picture gradually darkened, and this song full of decadence and loss slowly ended here. It did not reverse or change at the end like the common songs or stories in the past. The whole song was like a heart that is gradually closing. Slowly falling from the sky, everything around him became colder and darker, and finally lost all its luster.

There is no redemption, no salvation, no comfort, just that last sigh.

The tape in the dark room slowly rotated, and the projected picture turned into a snow-white picture with sandy spots, and then slowly entered a countdown.

When the last number flashed by, the screen switched and the sound of the piano started playing.

Buildings and high-rise buildings stand tall, and the lights on the top are particularly gorgeous. From time to time, colorful hover cars and airships pass by. Underneath the high-rise buildings and buildings, there are streets that are so dark that they cannot be seen, and countless silent figures walking among them.

One of the figures paused for a moment while crossing the road. He looked above his head, then lowered his head and continued moving forward.

The picture gradually extended along the direction he was heading. There was the company's door. There were countless grid-like desks inside, as well as figures wearing the same uniforms as him. They were as neat as robots, immersed in the gray background, constantly contacts.

As he walked toward the company, singing could be heard in the background.

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There is no goal

The dream is a stable old life

There is nothing I want to do

If you want to force yourself to say it, it’s youth?

"Just a little bad luck"

"It's just not enough time."

I realized that I was always talking

that kind of thing

"I hate being just a cog"

"Do what only you can do."

Only idealism always seems to be high-sounding

Afraid of being said something

Even anonymous opinions cannot be expressed.

Contempt people who live seriously

Why am I so worthless?

Ah, humble, humble, humble me

Life is not equal

When I disappear like this

No one will cry for me

Ah, ugly, ugly, ugly life

I really want to disappear right now

It seems like light snow falling in the wrong season

Disappears like "calling"

What exactly is a "friend"?

under the cover of the surface

Boring socializing

Laughing like an idiot

"We are good friends, right?"

"You should tell me if you have any troubles?"

I heard the voice of someone laughing alone in loneliness

Now, if you were on the other side of the mirror

Completely opposite planet

There should be another me there, right?

Look at me reflected in the mirror

The girl laughed

Then I thought like this in my heart

"If you have no value in living, just die quickly."

Ah, dazzling, dazzling, dazzling you

Life is not equal

It seems very happy there

But in the end it’s the same as here

Ah, dirty, dirty, dirty world

I really want to disappear right now

It's like the candle fire on a birthday cake

Disappears like "calling"

"Come on"?

"Don't admit defeat"?

"You can't give up"?

No, it's not like that

The wish is very simple and bright

I just hope that I will be in the future

Don't commit suicide no matter what

Ah ah beautiful beautiful beautiful fireworks

Life is not equal

When the world seems dirty

It's actually my eyes that are dirty

Ah, stupid, stupid, stupid me

I really want to disappear right now

It’s so easy to imagine it’s the fairy wand saved for last

The blooming of "pa"

"Yeah" patience

Disappears like "calling"

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The scene in the song is like a freeze-frame, with the colorful fireworks blooming at the top of the picture, the still black crowd below, and the lyrics that are constantly emerging and crossing. It is rare that this song does not use any dynamic pictures, and is completely just to show one line. Lyrics that look directly at oneself are inescapable and unforgettable.

When the song ends, the text on the entire screen gradually disappears, leaving only the unchanging sky and the pedestrians on the road below.

The room dimmed again, and then everything fell silent.

In the darkness, a faint pink-purple disk lit up, and bursts of nostalgic and retro singing came from it, and then a slowly lifelike scene unfolded.

This time it is no longer a picture, but a real realistic scene. Directly in front of the perspective, a decadent figure is walking on the bizarre neon street. There are ordinary pedestrians around him, there are suspended airships flying in the sky, and there is something happening across the street. At the scene of the collision, there was a figure falling down and crying at the entrance of the alley.

To feel the flashing neon lights on this street

Just like my untouchable light and dream

Those people have blood on their hands but feel no pain

Just to compete for more wealth and fame

In this hunting season if you want

Please tell me where you want to go

I looked up but couldn't see the bright moon

I just hope we can go there in the future

After all these hardships

Just to get you out of pain

Even if you can't hold me tight

I still wish you can stick to your original intention

Forgive me for letting you down

Forgive me for disappointing you again

I think I'm not strong enough

at this moment

In the end, all that was left to them was the flames

blazing flames

Makes my blood boil

I will burn this city to ashes

We have already decided that we will never return

Go all out to get freedom

I just want you to see everything in my eyes

Even if you can't hold me tight

I still wish you can stick to your original intention

Forgive me for letting you down

Forgive me for disappointing you again

I think I'm not strong enough

at this moment

Forgive me for letting you down

Forgive me for disappointing you again

I think I'm not strong enough

at this moment

the love of my life

my favorite person

My dear love

I disappoint you so much and disappoint you so much

Disheartened

disappoint you so much

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Lost and disappointed, just because you are sober, you will see more darkness. Many beautiful concepts are just packaging and lies by businessmen. However, even if you see clearly, it will have no effect. It is no longer a society of individual heroism, nor No one will stand up because of your slogans and cheers.

People voluntarily indulge in these five-color fantasy. This is their pursuit, this is their vulnerability, and this is what they use to numb themselves and keep them alive.

All great ideals and beliefs have been tarnished and deconstructed, and all brilliance has gradually faded away. Although the Federation is still prosperous on the surface, confusion and disappointment also pervade all classes.

Along with the competition for interests, various complex and confusing ideas flood the information network, and people are manic and numb. No corner can escape the erosion and baptism of the times, and no tranquility and innocence can be uncontaminated.

This is a sad world, a world that will eventually slowly die.

One song after another and the MV slowly finished playing, and then the girl sat in the dark for a long time before the lights slowly turned on, illuminating her figure and outline.

She stood up, pressed the stop button, and the video and music played ended, then opened the door and walked out.

Seeing her come out, several staff members who had been waiting outside the door came forward, but they all shook their heads slightly and refused, and then she walked straight out.

[After the album is produced, does it need to be released and promoted? ]

Sitting next to the window of the floating car, Tilan received an inquiring email on the personal terminal in her hand.

She looked at this question and was silent for a long time, then looked at the neon night scene outside.

[Published without any publicity. ]

[Received, Your Highness Tilan. ]

Then the screen of the personal terminal went out, and the girl leaned against the car window.

Even though it was her album and her music, she had no idea what consequences she would face after releasing it.

Whether she would be criticized or denounced by no one, she could not guess, but she did not regret making this choice.

This is her heartfelt voice and thoughts, and it is also the catharsis of her inner emotions for many years.

That's it, suddenly I felt a lot more relaxed, probably because I didn't have to maintain a certain good image like in the past.

The hover car moved away and gradually disappeared into the night.

Just in the early morning of December 6, Heshia Tilan's first official album was released on her official website. It was silent, and there was no previous notice or promotion. If this was not an officially recognized website, I am afraid people would Thought this was some kind of prank and scam.

The first album "The Sound of Silence" is free to watch and listen to. Tilan does not rely on this to make money, and she is not bound by a management company, so she can decide as she pleases.

After it was released, people quickly saw the news, and then some people tried it.

On the first night, there was no sound. There was no huge splash about Tilan’s new album. People were still addicted to the gossip news about major stars, and only a small group of people paid attention to the evaluation and promotion of various new products. to this album.

The next day, the broadcast media in the Four-leaf Crystal Star Territory made many spontaneous broadcasts and promotions for Hesia Tilan's new album. After all, she is a singer in her own star territory, and people are always paying attention to it and are very kind to her.

Many people may not be able to understand and resonate with the emotions expressed in the album, but the residents in the northern part of Yotsuba Crystal feel particularly empathetic. Hundreds of years of decline and involution have left many emotions speechless. This album also begins Many people have placed orders and are ready to purchase the physical product.

Although there is no money to listen to online, it still costs money to make physical chips and cassettes. Tilan cannot change this, but the price will be much more affordable.

On the third day, the songs in the album were promoted by some geeks on the Internet and circulated in some specific small circles.

Although Tilan's songs are not made specifically for them, they seem to particularly like these songs.

[I didn’t know this singer before this, but after hearing it for the first time last night, I played it on loop all night, as if I was obsessed]

[Why not T T] Next to it is a long series of tearful expressions

[I'm tired of saying that if you say you don't like it or don't like it, you will be accused of not being strong enough, not cheerful enough, not outgoing enough]

[If you want to use psychological concepts, it is probably a certain true mood that has been denied and ignored by society, which has been recognized and seen]

[For people living in a privileged environment, it is difficult for them to understand the emotion in singing]

[But it’s different for us, maybe it’s just a few simple words, like a key, opening the door in memory, and many scenes come to mind]

[These songs will definitely not be a hit, but I know I will remember them for many years]

[‘Dark Flower’ is indeed the right title. Although Tilan looks peaceful and cute, she didn’t expect that she has so many things on her mind]

[Ahem, even though it sounds a bit like black tilan, I really like it more]

[Oddly enough, although there is not a single word in the lyrics that advises people to be kind or beautiful, somehow after listening to it, I feel less depressed than before]

[Hahaha, maybe it’s the feeling that someone finally understands me and understands me, and I’m not so lonely anymore]

[Maybe it’s reverse psychology. You say you’re so desperate, but I feel like there’s still a little bit of hope.]

In the following days, Tilan's new album presented two completely different situations. It was rarely mentioned in various mainstream media, and few people paid attention or understood it in reality. However, among certain online groups, It was extremely popular, with almost every community falling. The homepages of some niche open source websites were transformed into scenes of Tilan playing guitar in the dark.

"The 'Black Angel' that belongs only to us, Miss Hesia Tilan, she will not bring you any salvation or hope, but she will accompany you and continue to move forward in the dark night."

"If you also like Hesia Tilan, then join us."

"We are the fire in the darkness, the restless spirits of the dead, those who understand grief."

Being sad and crying for the world is not without emotion, but perhaps it is precisely because we were full of hope that we feel so sad and regretful.

The three songs are

"3253212", this string of numbers is the key to a sentence in Japanese. The singer was once a member of egoist, which is the band that sang the songs of Guilty Crown.

"Human life is equal" Hatsune's song, the title of the song translates to "Human life is not equal", the composer is V family blogger Dead Ball p

"Let You Down", this is the ending song of "Cyberpunk 2077, Edgewalker", and it is also extremely sad.

For the music composed by Tilan, the style and general idea can be referred to the three songs in the chapter.

Logically speaking, for a real novel, the author should compose the music himself, rather than quoting music from other works. However, Qingzora's ability is limited, so please understand.