Miss Witch doesn't want to be a diva

Tilan's life has entered a certain stable stage, and Tilan goes to class as usual. During class breaks, she has dinners and walks with several other singers. Occasionally, she is invited by them to have small gatherings, including the invitations of Orlais and Odeney. Mostly.

On weekends, she often used it to rest, and occasionally went shopping alone in Academy City to see all the novelty and fresh things here.

In this way, the time came to the end of November, another day, Tilan and Blanche ended their piano lessons at Evangelion's.

"In this case, both of you are considered beginners at the piano." She said slightly happily.

"Thank you, teacher."

Tilan and Blanche responded gratefully. During this period of time together, the two of them had been in the invisible aura of Evangelion for a long time, and they got to know this senior singer a lot better.

Although in the eyes of many people, Ewen Qilin is the kind of weak and pitiful beauty, but after getting along closely, the two of them also discovered that her unparalleled talent and insights as a singer are just this kind of thing. It is often hidden by her appearance, and because she does not like to speak out publicly, and will not take the initiative to mention it to others, so few people know about it.

Taking advantage of the free time after class, the two continued to ask Evangelion about things related to the singer.

"Well, if it's you, it's actually not finalized yet." She put her fingers down on the keys, turned around and sat in front of the two of them and spoke slowly.

"To truly start a singer's career, she must start with an album with a clear theme, and this first album often represents the general style of the singer in the next few years."

"A song is just a sudden inspiration. If multiple songs in an album revolve around a theme, it will highlight a three-dimensional sensory impact and leave a deep impression on people. This is often the first step to leaving a name. ”

"No matter what the purpose is, if you want to be a singer in the future, you have to put a lot of thought into the production of the album, especially the first one."

"Then what is the theme of Senior Ewen Qilin's first album?" Blanche was curious.

"It's 'Song of the Forest'. The cover is in a forest at dawn, with a light golden mist, and then there's my silhouette." Ewen Qilin recalled with a hint of nostalgia.

"How are the results?" Blanche continued to ask.

"It seems okay." Ewen Qilin said indifferently, as if her mood was more important at that time, and she didn't care much about the results.

Tilan shook her head slightly after hearing this. This teacher is so humble. Back then, her album broke the record of the Federation for nearly a hundred years, directly pushing her popularity to the top of all the singers. It can be said that her debut is the peak, and she has been there for nearly a century. In the past century, Ewen Qilin has also been the fastest-promoting singer. It only took 4 years from her debut to entering the Yueyao level, which is simply amazing. This performance has also put her in the eye of the storm of federal public opinion. Such remarks followed.

"What theme song are you going to sing? It happens to be the end of the year, so it's time to get ready." Rarely, Ewen Qilin mentioned the homework of the two of them. She was usually very tolerant to the two of them and would not do anything. Require.

"I haven't thought about it at all." Blanche raised her hands and crossed them, indicating that she couldn't do it yet.

Seeing her appearance, Evangelion couldn't help but cover her mouth and chuckle, then turned her eyes to the black-haired girl aside.

"Where's Tilan?" Compared to Blanche, Tilan has been debuting for several years, but the number of songs is still pitiful.

Knowing that she couldn't escape, the girl said with a hint of determination: "I will prepare an album carefully."

"Well, come on, little Tilan." After saying this, she stood up and looked at the sunlight falling above her head.

"I'm probably going to leave, and maybe I won't see you for several years." Her words surprised the two of them.

"Didn't you say that after teaching piano lessons, you will continue to teach the four of us about the knowledge and skills of singers?" Blanche couldn't help but ask.

"It turns out that was indeed the plan." She looked at the two of them apologetically.

"But there are some things in my hometown that I'm afraid I need to go back to deal with."

After hearing this answer, the two of them were helpless. There was really nothing they could do.

"However, I am still very happy. With your company during this period, if only I had been stronger, I wouldn't be where I am now...forget it, you should grow up well and don't follow my old path." After that, She got close and hugged the two of them gently, and then separated.

No wonder she would specially assign homework and make requests today. It turned out to be a separation.

Knowing that it would be difficult to meet again later, the two of them stayed in the rotunda and talked a lot with Evangelion before parting ways with some reluctance.

"Then, see you next time." Standing alone on the high platform in the center of the rotunda, Ewen Qilin waved goodbye to the two of them.

"Well, goodbye." The two of them waved goodbye.

After leaving the Six Sages Rotunda, Tilan and Blanche walked on the cobblestone road of the campus together, and they talked about Ewen Qilin.

"Senior Ewen Qilin is really the most beautiful and gentle person I have ever seen." Blanche said with great reluctance. In school, she was always a little restrained when facing several other singers and teachers. Only with Ewen Qilin, she is very relaxed and her personality is slightly lively.

"Well, it's indeed very good." Tilan also nodded in agreement. Although Evan Qilin did not elaborate, she felt that the problems faced by the other party may not be simple, and it may be difficult to have time to come to the Central Star Territory in the future. Taught them courses.

It was a bit regretful, she sighed in her heart.

Speaking of which, it's time for me to start releasing my own real theme album. Just like what Ewen Qilin said, all kinds of scattered songs are ultimately unsystematic and have no core, just like random reverie.

But since she is a singer, she also understands that such status and preferential treatment do not allow them to have fun at will. All walks of life in the federation have great expectations for them, but this expectation is very tolerant, which makes many people slow down. Slowly forgot the original intention.

Back at the mansion, Tilan rarely went to rest, but sat in a separate study.

The dark red elegant curtains were half-opened. She leaned on the back of the chair, turned her head to one side, and looked at the scenery of the courtyard outside the window. Soon, Tilan closed her eyes and thought about this somewhat short life.

Now when she looks back and looks at her past self, she feels a strange feeling, as if she is flying in the night sky of the city, overlooking a small grid corner below, where there is a girl sitting in the corner crying.

The things that I once cared about so much have now become light and insignificant, as if they were insignificant. The pain in the past is slowly forgotten, but the sweet parts in my memory are remembered from time to time, such as playing with Yilin when I was a child. things, the past events of her sister taking her shopping, etc.

In fact, she knew that when she was a child, especially in the 2nd and 3rd grade of elementary school, her relationship with her sister was not very good, but now she has gradually forgotten how she felt at that time.

People's memories can be deceiving. If it were not for the diary written at that time, it would be easy to alienate and forget some of the feelings at that time.

Why can adults treat children harshly? Because they have forgotten the discomfort and depression of childhood, or the voices around them gradually beautify that time, really letting them go back to that time and spend it again. They It may not be bearable.

Putting her hands on the table to support her head, Tilan thought about her memories and summarized her short life.

It is said that a singer should sing out her own voice and resonance, but she has always been avoiding this kind of thing, especially as she grows older and has more experience, and after seeing certain truths clearly.

Some singers, such as Senior Ewen Qilin, are the kind of truly pure and flawless people who can sing the most beautiful fantasy and tenderness from the bottom of their hearts.

But Tilan knows that she can't do it. Even if she sings some soft songs, there is often a little sadness in the middle, because she is not the kind of person who believes in all gentleness and beauty. Rather than being gentle, it is better to say that she hopes others Being able to treat yourself gently, you can express your kindness to others.

Holding her thick diary in her arms, Tilan leaned back on the chair, her long black hair falling on the back and sides of the chair, meditating quietly.

Does she have to sing? If her singing is too sad, will it disappoint people or bring bad results?

It is indeed black, the girl thought to herself.

Compared with the completely white Evangelion, she seemed to be standing in the shade of the twilight trees, looking at the sunset.

Well, it’s not too late to see clearly now. It’s a misfortune for the Federation. Although she has the talent of a color-level singer, she is not the kind of singer who brings unlimited hope and beauty. I’m afraid she has disappointed everyone. .

When Emuraline sees herself in the echo of time, will she feel a sense of sadness and loss, because her appearance predicts the future of the Federation to a certain extent, and her life's efforts have finally come to nothing.

Various thoughts floated through her mind. After a long time, Tilan sat up, opened the diary in front of her again, and then picked up a pen to write carefully.

[On November 28, senior Ewen Qilin left. Before leaving, she asked me to start my first album.

I'm somewhat avoiding this, but I still have to take the first step.

He is no longer a child. Whether it is not to disappoint his mother or for his sister's sake, he has to go on. ]

Slowly closing the diary and retracting it into the gap in space, Tilan stood up, found books on creation on the bookshelf, and began to conceive of her first inspiration.

Fate is really wonderful. It happened that the talent of a color-level singer fell on her. If it fell on an absolutely kind and gentle singer like Ewen Qilin, wouldn't it be even better?

The girl held the pen and kept sketching on the paper according to her mood, trying to turn the hazy feelings in her mind into actual pictures and songs.

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Time passes slowly

No, she still couldn't do it, telling the false hope and beauty that she didn't even believe in.

The pen was thrown on the table and the pages were covered with various graffiti and handwritings, many of which were marked with an X, denying every expectation.

The nature of the world is dark, and the beauty she is currently experiencing is only because she has the talent of a singer. This is what Tilan really thinks in her heart.

Why does she act so indifferent to everything? Because in her opinion, these are just decorations attached to the singer's talent, not things that really belong to her. If she really likes and is passionate about it, when she loses it one day in the future, It will definitely be very painful.

So, it’s better not to particularly like it.

After realizing the true thoughts in her heart, the girl sighed softly, picked up a pen and sketched on the page. Slowly, a black night flower gradually took shape.

Although such flowers represent the beauty of despair, she still likes them inexplicably now.

Everything will slowly come to an end, whether it is individuals, civilization, or all relationships in this world.

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The sun gradually sets, night slowly comes, and the corridors of the mansion gradually light up with retro lanterns.

Standing in front of the study, the two maids in black and red uniforms looked at each other, plucked up a little courage, and knocked on the door gently.

"Is Your Highness Tilan inside? Do you need to bring dinner in?" It is now past 10 o'clock at night. Generally speaking, Tilan's dinner is finished before 8 o'clock and will not be delayed so late.

The door was unlocked. After knocking on the door, the two men gently pushed it open. The room was dark, and only in the small area where the curtains were opened, the figure of the girl leaning on the back of the chair could be vaguely seen.

Long black hair, black and blue skirt, and snow-white skin, shrouded in the cold and dark moonlight, a little hazy.

The girl was not asleep. She leaned on the back of the chair and stared at the night scene outside the window. The cold crescent moon slowly moved among the clouds, and the starless sky was so silent.

On a starless night, the lonely moon walks alone.

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A few minutes later, after sorting out her emotions, Tilan returned to her usual gentle look in the eyes of a maid, and then walked downstairs to eat.

In the empty hall, the lights were bright, and various delicacies were placed on the long table, and she sat alone at the top. The seats on both sides were empty, but there were dozens of maids in black and red rose uniforms standing on both sides of the hall. Quietly lower your head and wait.

For the first time, Tilan didn't say anything to ease the atmosphere. She just ate her dinner quietly. The hall was quiet and only the slight sound of the porcelain plate and tableware could be heard.

After finishing her dinner, she stood up.

"That's it." She sighed softly, then turned and left.

Afterwards, the long table and the decorations in the hall were quietly tidied up by the maid, and then the lights in other houses in the mansion were gradually turned off, leaving only a few night lights in the corridor to illuminate the ground.

In the study, a lamp was lit in the originally dark room, placed on the desk, like a small candle, swaying in the darkness.

Sitting at the desk, the girl took out a new stack of paper pages and took a pen to write down lines of words. The feelings hidden in her heart also included emotions that she had forgotten and had not yet expressed.

Just like blooming in the dark night, quietly and with some kind of expressive release.

Yes, the world is so cruel and dark, but escaping and waiting will not lead to any results. She doesn't know how to bring hope to those living in darkness.

But at least, there should be sounds coming out of those darkness, whether it was roaring or crying, she did not want to deny these, because this was part of the world and the true background and feelings of her heart.

The world is not all sunshine and rainbows.

Like the lyrics of the dark night orchid quietly emerging on the paper, this black singer will also begin her first talk and singing.