The most brave system in history

However, in his mind, he remembered the time he spent with Guo Yumeng yesterday.

We are both lovelorn, and perhaps it was fate that pushed us into the same ocean of pain.

In a world filled with heartbreak and sorrow, our presence seems to be each other's only support.

We used to be pursuers of love, investing ourselves desperately, but ultimately lost ourselves in the whirlpool of love.

In this shared pain, we may have found a tacit understanding, an understanding that requires no words.

We all have the same sadness, the same confusion, and the same desire for comfort in each other's eyes.

Later, a few big men came into the small room at the back of this "Little Fat Home Cooking Restaurant" to eat with two rural women in their 40s and 50s. Instantly, the atmosphere was completely different, and it was a noisy mess.

If there were some schools before where the spring breeze was blowing and everything was full of warmth and harmony,

At this time, it was completely like a businessman. The men were chatting and almost got into a fight, especially the woman in her forties or fifties, who had a roaring voice like no other.

Later, I just focused on eating.

When we walked outside to the market, it was still very busy with people coming and going:

Guo Yumeng said: "The shredded green pepper pork is very tender."

Shen Jie replied: "I think the most delicious thing is sour radish, which relieves greasiness and is very refreshing."

"The clams are okay, there isn't much sand."

"I think the fat beef in sour soup is average, a bit sour."

"I feel so sour and happy!!"

"Otherwise, I think everything is fine. The boss is also very enthusiastic."

"Have you ever thought that the price in Shanghai is already incredible? There is no one else. If we come to play with you again next time, we will come again."

Shen Jie and Guo Yumeng chatted a lot on the road, and it was very lively. They really looked like their first love boyfriends, full of passion.

Deng Jingxin is not that enthusiastic about her, and she is often reluctant to go out with her.

Guo Yumeng is completely opposite to her. He is very happy and uninhibited.

But from the moment they separated, he took two buses for more than two hours. He was groggy along the way. Later, when he came back and sat on a stool for a while, he suddenly felt so cold that he couldn't even take a shower. I haven't washed it much, and I have been sleeping all day long. The quilt is soaked with sweat, and it still smells rancid.

Until now, he only feels a headache and a severe stuffy nose, and he is not very comfortable.

However, no matter how uncomfortable you are, you have to go to work immediately.

Now if I really don’t work, I will have to drink the northwest wind.

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Deng Jingxin had a chill since the day she left, and she thought she was fine the next day.

On Thursday night, I went for a run to exercise. After returning home, my whole body suddenly felt very uncomfortable.

I wrapped myself in quilt tightly all night and sweated a lot. I still felt cold and shivering all over. My upper and lower teeth kept hitting each other at a high frequency.

Shen Jie could hardly imagine how he could survive today.

The logistics work in this suburban hospital was originally a marginal department with a very low status. It was filled with all kinds of menial jobs. Even after being busy all day, I didn't learn much, and my salary was still the lowest in the entire unit.

He thought about himself as a college student, who was considered highly educated in his hometown.

He didn't know how many times he wanted to change to a high-end and decent one, but in Shanghai, the famous universities alone include Fudan, Jiaotong University, Tongji, and China Normal University. There are too many outstanding people. A college student from his place is nothing here. , but it does not mean that college students cannot find better jobs. The most important thing is that they are not familiar with the place where they are born, and they may not know if there is a good employer.

Maybe it's because I'm poor. Most of my savings were spent on that woman named 'Deng Jingxin'. I spent more than two months happily getting along with her, and I also spent part of my air ticket money on it, so I spent it all.

He originally thought that the money was just for marrying a wife, but in the end, he spent it on the woman he wanted to marry. But she went to the United States, and just thinking about what he is like now, she will definitely not come back.

At work these past few days, he felt more than once that he spent too much on her and left no escape route for himself. Now that we talk about it, he can't even afford to go out and treat her to dinner a few times.

Even if you are mediocre, you must first have some savings in your hands

When he finally got home at 8:30 in the evening, someone greeted him on the street. He didn't react at first. It wasn't until he was less than half a meter away that she waved to him, and he saw the standard beauty. Face, she had already walked behind him. He turned around and looked at the girl. It was Meng Ying.

"You just got off work?" the woman said in a gentle tone.

He remembered that he stayed so late, not all because of work. He thought for two seconds in a daze, "No, I am studying."

"Yes." She nodded still softly, with a soft smile on her face.

The two people left each other.

It's like a breeze, and it's the kind that can blow into your heart,

He remembered that the tone in which he had just spoken to this girl was a bit unfriendly. It was not because he had a bad relationship with her. On the contrary, this girl was his former college classmate. Although they had not communicated much before, there were no conflicts, so then It's not easy anymore,

In fact, speaking of his impression of Mengying, it may be that she fell in love relatively early. A senior student chased her when she just entered junior college. During a class meeting, her boyfriend also came.

When we meet again in the city of Shanghai, the relationship will be completely different.

The more he thought about it, the more he felt that the girl he was facing just now was talking to her like a walking zombie. She was really tired to the point where he couldn't even maintain his expression and tone.

Anyway, quite, quite tired.

The night breeze seemed to be okay, but he didn't feel it. It was like he was dreaming, and it was a dream in a particularly bad state. He felt that that meeting probably made the girls treat him as a boy who had always maintained such a good image. It will be so fierce.

This place may be because the suburbs are a bit harsh. There are street lights, but they are not turned on.

When he got home, he still wanted to take a shower, so he quickly went to bed.

Only then did he realize that the quilt was a bit stale last night because he was sick and cold and had sweated a lot. Don't tell me, it must be very itchy if you cover it.

He was so unconscious that he took off the old quilt cover and replaced it with a new one. This process was very laborious.

It is impossible to wash it today.

Fortunately, the coldness has improved a bit.

He remembered that he had a chill last night, and his whole body felt as if he was about to die, and he couldn't get a drop of water.

He didn't dare to stop and rest for fear that it would be like last night again.

After the hot water was boiled, he quickly took a hot shower.

When I lay down on the bed, I felt as if I was dead.

If there was a sudden knock on the door or banging on the door, it might not wake him up.

He fell asleep with this mood:

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"The number you dialed is currently on a call, please call again later"

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"The number you dialed is

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over and over again,

Over and over again,

Beat it over and over again,

Still the same voice,

He was unwilling to give in,

"How can you be so cruel and not answer a single call for such a long time?" I felt very bad.

I finally joined your classmate and found out that you went back to your hometown in the south and traveled to Chengdu with your mother.

Leave me alone in the north,

I haven't answered a single call for this long time.

Now I not only have to work here, but I also have to study for a Ph.D., both of which require a lot of energy and time from me.

I can't delay anyone yet,

It was really like a shackle, locking me up.

'Why…'

I feel really uncomfortable in my heart.

There are countless emotions suppressed in my heart.

You went to the south to play, still with your mother, and I was alone,

All I can think about now is that you found another boyfriend, and then, as time goes by, you two live together, and I will never see you again in my life.

What kind of emotion did I have as I walked to the outskirts of this northern city? In front of me was the countryside, with haystacks and farmers harvesting rice.

There are children playing beside the haystack,

And a person like me who has lost his soul,

The current situation is, I want to find you, go to Chengdu to find you, where can I go to Chengdu to find you? Have you gone to another city again?

I also had a lot of work and the stress of studying for a Ph.D.

Every moment here, I feel as if my chest is being pressed by a huge boulder and I can't breathe.

The beautiful memories of being with you keep replaying in my mind, and when I think about it, there is a new man beside you. Every sweet moment pierces my heart like a knife.

Now, no matter where I go, the pain always follows me. I feel that it has been deeply engraved in the depths of my soul, making me feel that the whole world has lost its color, leaving only endless darkness.

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