present.

Li Xueyue swallowed. What should she say in this situation? "I... didn't know that Wen Jinkai had any relationship with Er Minghua."

"It's okay. I have a responsibility as well. I should have told you earlier." Duchess Wang Qixing sighed, her voice full of regret. "I didn't tell you about his relationship with her partly because you seemed happy about his existence. I wanted the best for you and your happiness. This is the first time you've expressed interest in a man, and I didn't want to stop you."

Li Xueyue nodded, although she couldn't fully understand the Duchess's thoughts. "I understand your thoughts. I should have known that this was not my place to maintain their friendship."

Duchess Wang Qixing shook her head. "You don't have to blame yourself for what happened between them. Friends come and go."

Li Xueyue couldn't respond. She didn't have any close friends to begin with. Ning Huabing hadn't reached out for several days, and Xueyue began to think that this woman had betrayed her.

Li Xueyue wants to show the diary to her mother. Now is the right time. Duchess Wang Qixing has finally opened her heart to Minghua, but Xueyue still has a lot to read... There is still a lot she wants to know, and this book can provide the answers.

"Oh my god, did you hear that?" Duchess Wang Qixing perked up. "I think one of the twins has gone home."

Li Xueyue raised her head and her eyes rested on the place where the diary was hidden.

"Shall we go say hello to them?"

Li Xueyue bit her lower lip: "Okay, okay."

Duchess Wang Qixing was confused by Xueyue's nervousness, but decided to ignore it. "I think it might be Wenmin. Maybe the training ended early today."

"Yes." Li Xueyue forced a smile and walked out of the room with Duchess Wang Qixing.

It was Li Wenmin who came back, sweating profusely after a whole day of training. His mother hurriedly sent him to take a shower, covering her nose while instructing him. He complained that it was too early, but was still dragged away by the Duchess.

After saying hello to Li Wenmin, Xueyue returned to her room. "I'm going to finish reading it today," she said to herself, holding the diary tightly in her hand.

"Then I'll give it to Chen-ge. He'll know what to do," she asked loudly as she approached the door and locked it to prevent anyone from walking in while she was reading the diary.

"There's nothing here," she muttered, flipping it to the entry where she'd left off. The only problem was, there were three entries left, and they were spaced months apart. What happened?

'I'm very scared.

I hate this place. I'm so scared, diary. I didn't mean to do this. I swear I didn't! I didn't lead him on on purpose, and I don't even think he has feelings for me! It's disgusting to think that he would have such feelings for me, to the point of begging the Emperor for my help.

Wen Jinkai must know about this. Is this why he is alienated from me? He and the Fourth Prince are very good friends. After all, the person who guarded Wanglong River in Hechen was Wen Jinkai. I can't believe this. Can you?

My cousin, the Fourth Prince, loves me very much. You heard it right, my cousin! I no longer call Jin Kai my lover. At this moment, I don’t even know what we are. Is he still my lover now?

He did nothing to stop Wang Longhe from speaking to the emperor. He allowed it to happen. Did he know that my cousin had always loved me?

I'm confused. So, very confused.

Li Xueyue's jaw dropped open in shock. What. This. Hell. "Oh my God." She closed her diary in disbelief, unable to forget what she had just read.

Wang Longhe fell in love with Li Minghua?

Everything was more confusing than she had initially imagined. "I must keep reading," she sighed, flipping open the diary. The second to last entry was a few weeks after the previous one.

'I want to commit suicide.'

Li Xueyue felt her heart sink to the bottom. This was the only line in the entry. She quickly turned to the next page.

'He doesn't love me. If he did, he wouldn't be doing this. If he was, he wouldn't be listening to her. If he did, he wouldn't be moving into his own bedroom.'

I can't do this anymore.

Not after he went silent.

No one here loves me. Not even the Emperor's uncle. He doesn't know that the Empress hates me. She can't stand the thought of me.

Every day I spend in this palace is a living hell. No one dares to lay a hand on me, but their words hurt more.

Wang Longhe tried to show me his good will. Wen Jinkai saw this and left.

That damned coward. He values ​​his friendship more than me, me! His woman.

No one in this palace loves me.

Their love is not genuine.

I hate it here.

Do you want to know why I talk to you less and less, diary? It's because I feel that you will become a tool for writing my memoirs. I don't want you to be the determining factor in my life. I will keep you away from here, away from this palace.

I'll sneak out tonight and go to my parents' main house in the capital. Then, I'll go back to Hechen. They can't leave me here.

I would kill myself if they did that.

My life is meaningless. I am meaningless. I can never marry another man. Wen Jinkai and I are tied together. I am no longer a virgin.

I'm a second-hand product.

I don't want you to rot in the capital, diary. That must not happen. No one knows what goes on in the palace.

No one would know that the Fourth Prince of Wuyi fell in love with me, and I foolishly fell in love with Marshal Wuyi.

If I could go back to Hechin, I don't know how I could heal. I don't know a better solution than death. It's the only way I can repent for the shame I have brought upon myself.

I just wanted a painless death, but then again, I'm numb. I don't feel pain anymore. I don't blame anyone but myself.

The Queen was right. I was nothing more than a vile slut craving love. I went too far and thought I could resist her, but I was wrong. The Queen was high in status and powerful and majestic. She was cunning and cruel, while I was stupid and young. ”

Li Xueyue exhaled tremblingly and closed the book. "When Chen Yang comes home, I must show him this." She decided on the spot, jumped up from the chair, and grabbed the diary.

Now, she needed to hide the diary in a safe, secluded place until she had a chance to meet Li Chenyang. Putting the diary back in the secret place, Li Xueyue unlocked the door and walked out.

Li Xueyue immediately headed for the stables, she was very eager to ride a horse. After such a long and troublesome day, she needed it.

Tap the screen to use advanced tools Tip: You can use left and right keyboard keys to browse between chapters.

You'll Also Like