Be in low spirits

She knelt down to wipe her tears. The child hugged her neck and said, "I only want my mother. I want my mother. My mother is mine...ah...ah..."

She patted her back, picked her up and said, "Don't cry, don't cry, mommy is here."

Li Li also squatted down, pinched her face, and said in a provocative tone: "Mom is mine, and you are Mom's."

The child cried even louder when he heard this. Kong Zhixi frowned and stomped his foot hard with her heel, then said to the child, "Go home."

"Ah...hiss..." Li Li felt pain and pinched his foot.

The child made faces in front of him, crying and laughing, and said, "Hey, Mommy is the best." Then he kissed her again.

"Hey, honey, wait for me." He waved to the car behind him and caught up with his wife. He murmured, "I'm telling the truth."

"Go home and cook, and give the child some grapes." She had a blank expression on her face, showing no emotion.

He reached out to hold the child, "Let me do it."

The child shook his legs and resisted: "I don't want it, no, I only want my mommy!" She hugged him tighter.

She looked at him resentfully and said, "What's wrong with you? How can you tease a child like this? If you don't want to go home, go somewhere else."

"How could that be? Of course I want to go home. I'm just trying to help you share the burden." His voice became lower and lower, knowing that she was really angry.

"Go buy some food. If you don't eat, the child will have to eat." She did feel a little aggrieved. She had waited for so many years, experienced the hardships of raising a child, and had not known anything about him for more than four years.

He felt a little embarrassed. He had never seen her get so angry before. "Aren't you coming with us?"

"I want to take the children home." She never stopped, and home seemed to be where she felt safe.

"But...how can I go back?" Although he was timid, the smile on his face never fell, which made him look even more infuriating.

"You... don't know how to get back to your home?" As expected, he had remarried and had other people standing beside him. He didn't appear here to find her.

"No... I... I haven't been here for a few months and haven't been to many places..." He pursed his lips like a child who had done something wrong.

She suppressed her anger and went to the market to buy vegetables and cook at home. He followed her happily, not daring to speak. The child was also put down, and when she went to the vegetable vendor, she would say to them, "Uncle or aunt, can you give me a discount?" She was not tall, so the vegetable vendor could not see her, and looked around, thinking that she was hallucinating.

Looking at the grapes on the fruit stand, she hesitated. The money for today's vegetables was a bit too much. If she added fruits, she would have to save money from other places. "Mom, doesn't Dad have any money?" Yuanyuan looked at Li Li who was carrying vegetables behind her.

"Oh, I have, I have." He struggled to take out a few bills from his pocket and handed them to her honestly.

Kong Zhixi was still very resentful and took the money to help her daughter choose grapes.

After returning home, she stayed with her daughter in the living room while Li Li cooked in the kitchen. The family of three seemed harmonious.

While eating, she asked her daughter, "Are the ribs delicious?"

"It tastes better than what mom makes." She still wasn't very flexible in using the auxiliary chopsticks. "Then dad will make it for you from now on." Li Li took the opportunity to say.

"But I still like mom the most." Yuanyuan ignored him and continued to talk to her mother. "Mom will introduce you to dad again, but it's not certain whether he will live with us in the future. If Yuanyuan doesn't like him, we can just not have him, okay?"

"No...why don't you want it anymore? Didn't I cook? Wife...I..." He put down his bowl and chopsticks to express his protest.

"What is a wife?" Yuanyuan was curious when she heard this word for the first time.

"Don't learn from Daddy, eat." She put some pork ribs in her bowl. "Mom, don't you like Daddy?" Her dining chair was made of wood, very old style, a little small for her age.

"Well, I don't like it now." She had a lot of uncertainty in her heart, and she didn't have much hope for the outcome of this meeting. "I don't like it either." She shook her head and agreed.

"Wife, I was wrong. I will never talk nonsense again and I won't joke like this with the children. Please don't be angry, okay?" He sat opposite them, not daring to eat, and sat there trembling with fear.

After dinner, she took her child downstairs to play. The two of them sat on a stone bench downstairs in the community and watched her.

She was wearing a beige cheongsam with purple hems, which showed off her curvy figure and highlighted her fair and delicate face. It was different from what he had seen her look like before, and it made her look even more gentle and charming.

Li Li was still a little restrained, not knowing what he had done wrong. He reached out to grab her hand, but she raised her hands again and again and moved her butt again and again.

He wanted to explain: "Zhixi, I..."

"Do you remember what I told you before?" Her eyes were always on the children playing on the slide.

He remembered a lot, but didn't know which one she wanted to hear: "Which one?" She gave him a sharp look, and he pursed his lips again.

"It's okay. We've made it through without you. More than four years is not a long time. You can be honest with me and I can accept it." She still remembered what the two little brats said when she first arrived here: eight out of ten times out of ten, life is not as you wish.

"Confess what?" He didn't understand.

She looked at him and sighed. "Where do you live?" Since he refused to tell her, she didn't want to force him.

"I've been living in the team for the past few months. Well, wife... do you think I can do it tonight?" He moved closer to her.

"Sure, there's a second bedroom there. After all, it's you who paid for the house." She looked at the time and it was time for the children to go home.

"Wife, I know... these years..." He didn't understand what she wanted him to confess, and he felt sorry for her hard work in raising the children all these years. He wanted to explain something, but didn't know where to start.

"Yuanyuan, it's time for us to go home." She stood up and called the child to go home. The child ran over and took her home by the hand.

The mother and daughter were bathing in the bathroom. Yuanyuan loved playing with water. Li Li walked around the house, looking through his things and looking at the furnishings in the master bedroom.

There were very few cosmetics on the dressing table, almost all of which were children's things. The fan he had given her before he died was still on the bedside table.

The coffee table in the living room was pushed to another corner, and a mat was used to create an area. Various notes were posted on the refrigerator, all of which were about the children's daily life and diet.

All the drawers in the house were locked. There was a single sofa in front of the floor-to-ceiling window. The second bedroom was piled with a lot of baby things, and the sheets were also put away.

Looking at the things piled in the second bedroom, he wondered how she had managed to get through the pregnancy and childbirth. If he had come earlier, would she have suffered less?

She carried the child into the master bedroom to dress Yuanyuan, and he followed her in.

When the child saw him, he wrapped himself tightly in a towel and shouted, "Ah~" Kong Zhixi frowned at him and hurriedly drove him out. He stood at the door and whispered, "Didn't I want to help?"

"Get out now." She threw out these words, ruthlessly closed the door, and reminded loudly: "The things in the second bedroom are a bit messy. If you don't want to clean it up, go back to the team. If you want to live here, clean it up yourself."

"Wife, when can I move into the master bedroom? What exactly do you want me to confess?" He shouted at the door. The doors in the room were all installed with silent doors, so the mother and daughter couldn't hear clearly what he was shouting, they just knew that he was shouting.

I dressed the child, let her lie down, and began to read her a picture book. "Mom, you said before that when Yuanyuan grows up, her dad will reunite with us, but now I am not yet grown up, and this dad has come, so he is a bad dad, right?"

In this cave of obsession, she has seen too many tragedies, and the most untrustworthy thing is love. To this day, she still doesn't know what Yuanyuan's obsession is, but for herself, she has advised many times not to have expectations.

"Yuanyuan, mom has told you before that dad is a very good person. There are no bad dads. Many things will happen in this world, and we all need to accept that dad may not just be our dad."

"Then why does he live in our house?" Yuanyuan only knew that there was only her and her mother in this family. Most of the children in kindergarten were picked up by their mothers, and she had never seen their father.

There were many things she couldn't explain to the child yet, so she could only vaguely say, "He'll be very miserable if he has no place to live."