Be in low spirits

Two years after Kong Zhixi's death, Li Li finally returned to the criminal police team to continue investigating the case. He failed to meet Liu Jiaheng and was executed.

After returning to the team, he rarely went home, and put all his energy into the case. When Fu Yan was transferred to another detachment, he would sometimes invite him to drink. He didn't talk much when he went, but just kept drinking. When he had time, he would go to the school with his mother to pick up Qiqi after school.

Dr. Jiang still broke up with Zhiting. Psychologist Xu Yuan would also call Li Li's parents and go to their house for dinner. Although he did not stop her, he rejected her many times.

He would take time to have dinner at the Kong family, and would go to Kong Zhixi's grave on every anniversary and birthday to prepare gifts for her and burn paper money. Every security guard at the cemetery knew him.

He didn't care that there were more and more types of painkillers in the drawer, and the dosages were getting higher and higher.

After Dr. Jiang broke up with Kong Zhiting, he would occasionally call to ask about his health, but he almost never answered the phone. Then Dr. Xu would come to his house for dinner.

In the cave of obsession, Yuanyuan began to talk more, always asking why, and also began to ask about her father. When playing downstairs in the community, she always stared blankly at another family of three, then ran to Kong Zhixi's arms and looked at her disappointedly.

"Dad will be somewhere else taking care of grandparents. When Yuanyuan grows up, he will come to find us, okay?" Even though she didn't know what the outcome would be, she still patiently explained to her over and over again.

"I don't want him, I only want my mother." Her childish voice could not hide the loss in her heart.

"You can't do that. We dress up beautifully just to reunite with Dad, right?" She explained to her as patiently as possible.

She was already two years old and had her own emotions. She refused to compromise: "Mom is the most beautiful." Then she put her arms around her neck and kissed her on the cheek.

"Oh, which little baby is so sweet? Do you want your mother to reward you with a meal of spareribs?" She picked up the child and prepared to go to the vegetable market to buy vegetables. The police station here is different from the real world. There is no need for duty. Everyone is on administrative duty, so she has more time to spend with her children.

"Mom is so great." Yuanyuan put her head on her shoulder and acted like a spoiled child, refusing to get down.

Calculating the time, it has been three years, the child is more than two years old, and it is time to send her to kindergarten next year, which is another big expense. She thought that the child had never left her, and wanted to send her to adapt in advance, so she wanted to find an early childhood education institution.

There are very few children in this world, and even fewer children this young. There are also few kindergartens, and the fees are expensive. She went to many places, but couldn't find a suitable one, or she could only get one-on-one teaching.

Before going to bed at night, she finished telling Yuanyuan a story and asked her, "Yuanyuan, do you want to go to kindergarten and play with the other kids?"

"Yes." The child refused to go to sleep and hoped that the topic could continue.

"But when Yuanyuan goes to kindergarten, mommy can't accompany you anymore. You have to make friends by yourself and tell the teacher that you want to pee or go to the toilet. Is that okay with you, Yuanyuan?" She felt reluctant to send her to kindergarten.

She started her mantra again: "Why?"

"Because mom has to go to work, can Yuanyuan be independent?" She hopes that she will be independent, but she is reluctant to let her be independent.

"No, I have to accompany my mother, and I also have to go to the police station to take care of my grandparents." She said these words seriously and shamelessly.

Kong Zhixi couldn't help but hug her, rubbed her belly gently with her head, and said, "Oh, why does mom love you so much." This made her giggle, and the kindergarten matter was once again left unresolved.

When she was three years old, I took her to a few trial classes. She was able to adapt and had fun playing with other children. She could also say "Dad". But she was embarrassed when communicating with the teacher. Her face would turn red and she couldn't speak clearly.

Li Li's physical condition was not optimistic. The nodules in his body gradually turned into cancer. He was unwilling to be hospitalized for treatment and told Dr. Jiang that he would be hospitalized after the case was investigated.

Four years after Kong Zhixi's death, Li Li died in the line of duty during a capture operation. He died at his workplace at the age of 39.

On the day Yuanyuan officially went to kindergarten, Kong Zhixi put on her white cheongsam. Seeing her having fun with other children in the kindergarten, she went to work with peace of mind.

After get off work, I picked her up to go shopping for groceries. She hugged her mother's neck and chattered non-stop about what happened in kindergarten. There were actually not many children in the kindergarten, but it was only there that she could find some friends of the same age.

"Mom, they don't believe that I have grandparents in the police station!" She has always been proud of her mother's profession and the grandparents in the police station.

"That's right, our Yuanyuan has a lot of love from her grandparents, right?" When they arrived at the fruit shop, she put her down and bought her grapes.

"It's Dad!" She stood there and suddenly shouted.

"Didn't I say that Dad will come to see us when Yuanyuan grows up?" She didn't look back, but continued to pick grapes. This year, she started calling Dad and often pointed at others and called them Dad. She was used to it.

A shouting voice came from the door of the fruit shop: "Stop, don't run!" It attracted a crowd of onlookers. Kong Zhixi also looked back, but only saw a figure flash by, but no one.

After choosing the grapes, she carried the child to pay. The child leaned on her shoulder and asked, "Mom, Dad is not a fool, right?"

"How could that be? Dad is a very good man, a hero who specializes in catching bad guys." After paying the money, she prepared to leave.

She turned around and saw the man she had been thinking about day and night standing on the opposite street talking to someone. She wanted to go over to confirm, but they got in the car and left.

Her feet seemed to be tied up, and she stood there in a daze. The child noticed her abnormality, put his hand on her shoulder, looked at her and asked, "Mom, what's wrong with you?"

"It's okay, Mom seems to have seen Dad." She adjusted her mood and said to her with a smile.

"Really? Where?" She turned around and looked at the people coming and going on the road, trying to confirm which one was his father.

"It doesn't matter, he will come to find us, he will definitely come to find us." As she said this, her eyes became red, and more than four years of waiting and grievances flooded into her heart, and she could hardly control herself.

"Don't cry, Mom. Dad will come back." Yuanyuan wiped away her tears, kissed her and comforted her.

"Yeah, I'll be back." She put the child down, took her hand, and walked home.

"Zhixi?" The long-lost voice sounded behind her. She didn't dare to look back, fearing that she was dreaming. Once she looked back, the voice would disappear. She walked a few steps forward, and the voice behind her once again sounded: "Zhixi?"

Yuanyuan shook her hands and called out innocently, "Mom?"

She didn't dare look back. In the past few years, she had seen too many people who waited for love in this world leave disappointed. If there was someone else standing next to him, if he was waiting for someone else in his heart, how would she face it? Wouldn't the waiting and grievances of more than four years become a joke?

"Be good, baby. Can we go home and cook?" She squatted down and said in a crying voice.

"Mom, don't cry. Let's not have a dad anymore, okay?" Yuanyuan wiped away her tears and hugged her neck.

She held the child, nodded and said, "Okay." This was the first time she denied his existence in front of her child.

The more scared she was, the closer the voice came. "Zhixi, it's me!" Her wrist was grabbed by someone. It was indeed the man she had been waiting for for more than four years. He had some white hair on his head, had lost a lot of weight, and smelled of sweat. The grapes in her hand fell to the ground and scattered on the road.

"It's really you. I've been looking for you for a long time." He took the child down and hugged her, fearing that she would disappear from his sight again.

"You... why are you here?" She still couldn't believe it and pulled at the corner of his clothes, trying to confirm its authenticity.

"I'm looking for you. I've been looking for you." He thought about her for too long. He held her arm, looked at her red eyes, wiped her tears with pity, kissed her lips, and felt her authenticity.

“Wow, wow, wow… Daddy is a bad guy, I hate Daddy…” Yuanyuan, who was standing next to him, slapped his trouser legs, crying and shouting for him to let go of her mother.

"...well...that...and the child..." She patted his chest, pushed him away, and squatted down to comfort the child.

"I hate daddy... wuwuwu..." Yuanyuan cried harder and harder. "Yuanyuan, don't cry. Mommy will go home and make you something delicious."