Northern Myanmar: Years of Dehumanization

When I heard what Brother Qiang said, I looked embarrassed:

"Brother Qiang, she is from my junior high school..."

Before I finished speaking, a slap fell heavily on my face.

It made my ears ring.

He held the back of my neck and pressed my head on the table.

With my face pressed against the table, I could clearly smell the pungent smell of blood.

Then, Brother Qiang asked the two scumbags next to him to hold down my body.

"I'll give you my face, but you have to take it. Don't you want to fight me? I'm sorry for you. Okay, then keep your fingers."

After Brother Qiang said that, he stabbed the finger that was pressed on the table hard with the saber.

The dagger passed across my eyes, and that kind of fear could really destroy all conscience and backbone.

"No, no, I'll call, I'll call her."

I shouted loudly, my voice turned sharp due to excessive fear.

Tsk, after seeing this, you may laugh at me for being cowardly and timid.

But if you were faced with this choice, what would you choose?

Cutting off your finger takes a moment, but what if you were told that your finger would be cut off and you could witness the process with your own eyes?

I'm afraid, there won't be anyone who won't have waves in their hearts, right?

Closer to home.

The saber did not cut off my finger, but was inserted between my index finger and middle finger.

Brother Qiang sat on the chair with a smile on his face:

"Wouldn't it be enough to do this already? If you insist on me attacking you, just beat me..."

Under the signal from Brother Qiang's eyes, the two scumbags behind let go of their hands.

Without support, I collapsed to the ground.

The clothes on the back were soaked with sweat.

Only then did I clearly understand what it meant to be a chopping block and me the fish.

No longer expecting any luck, he dialed Xiaoli's phone number tremblingly.

"Beep beep..."

Hearing such a voice made my heart clench.

I just hope that Xiaoli can answer my call. Tens of seconds feel like a century has passed.

There were endless speculations in my mind. Did she change her number?

Or is she at work and unable to answer the phone?

……

Fortunately, the call was connected, and a strange yet familiar voice came from the other end of the phone:

"Hey, is it..., Jiang Bai?"

The voice is gentle, like the breeze blowing across the Lugu Bridge, making people feel relaxed and happy.

Under normal circumstances, I would definitely experience it carefully.

But at this time, I have nothing to think about...

"Xiao Li, it's me, you..., are you rich?"

Not too much chatter, just straight to the point.

"Money, are you short of money? I have a few thousand in savings..."

Hearing Xiaoli's voice, my heart skipped a beat.

The money is obviously not enough, so can we just deceive her?

"Xiao Li, I have a job here..."

Before I could finish what I was saying, I was interrupted by a surprised voice.

"Wow, it's snowing, it's snowing!"

A noisy and joyful voice came from the phone opposite.

snow?

The first reaction in my mind was bullshit.

How can it snow in the middle of summer?

"Jiang Bai, it's snowing in Mohe. It's a rare snow in June. Do you still remember our agreement?"

"Watch the aurora, watch the snow..."

It seemed that Xiaoli was far away from the crowd, the noisy voices gradually disappeared, and the gentle voice came over, mixed with memories.

I was stunned, feeling complicated. I didn’t expect that she would still remember the promise made in junior high school...

I wanted to speak and continue telling the lie, but I couldn't.

Xiaoli on the other end of the phone saw that I didn’t reply and continued:

"What I'm looking forward to is not the snow, but the place where you are. If at that time, I take more initiative and you are braver..."

When he said these words, his voice was choked with tears.

Listening to the sobbing voice on the other end of the phone, I was a little confused. I never knew that I would be so important in her heart.

I feel complicated and entangled in my heart. Do I really want to deceive her?

When I was hesitating, a hand was put on my shoulder. Turning my head, I saw Brother Qiang who was smiling but not smiling.

I was startled, and I instantly made a decision and had thoughts:

"Xiao Li, I have a job here, do you want to come?"

After I finished speaking, the other person fell silent, as if he was a little confused by what I said.

After a while, I heard some happy voices:

"Okay, send me the address."

Originally, the matter could have ended here, but she seemed to have thought of something again and added:

"Oh, by the way, when I go, I will bring you some sour plum soup. It's your favorite..."

One sentence reminded me of the scene when she brought me sour plum soup in the rain, which made my heart break...

Thinking of what happened to Li Jing, her life was ruined when she came here...

Am I integrated?

After all, he couldn't bear it. When his head got hot, he roared:

"No need, the past is in the past, I don't like you at all, let's not contact you again."

Then, he hung up the phone directly.

Faced with the sincere feelings of the girl I used to be, Bai Yueguang, I really couldn't let go.

Some people may say that I have forgotten my brother’s teachings and my kindness has harmed myself.

Some might say, I am a holy mother.

I don’t deny it, but what I want to say is that the sinking started from this.

A person must always have his own bottom line in his heart. If there is no bottom line, there is really no way to escape.

This is something I will be thankful for in the future.

With one finger, I firmed up the bottom line, so that my small boat could not sink in the waves of sin and finally escape.

That old man taught me the skills to survive here, but he forgot one of the most important things:

Bottom line.

This was also the reason why he couldn't escape.

Losing your own bottom line means that you are no different from these people, so how can you escape?

What I want to say is that I am not the Virgin, Cha Cha, Xiaoli, no, that innocent relationship happens to be my bottom line.

Closer to home.

My sudden change of attitude stunned everyone around me.

They really don't understand, where did I get the wind from?

It was obvious that he could avoid punishment by tricking this girl, but why did he just hang up at the last step?

In their eyes, women are just clothes and objects, and if they have money, they can get whatever they want.

"Fuck you, you are such an idiot."

Brother Qiang next to him reacted, and his face instantly darkened.

He yelled curses, kicked me to the ground, and punched me.