Fall in love with your enemy

The next time, I came to the hospital to see Zheng Lin, but after Xiangyang and the others left, I looked at the very pitiful, sad and hateful biological mother in front of me, but I could only care about her and was speechless.

I just quietly peeled the apple and put it on a plate aside and handed it to her. It was her business whether she would eat it or not, and whether she would appreciate it or not. And I only did this for my own clear conscience and reputation outside. It just sounds good if you spread it out.

Silently watched at the door for a while, sensing my embarrassment, he took the initiative to pour a glass of warm water for Zheng Lin, pretended to help me sit down, and took out a bouquet of flowers from somewhere, sorted them and put them in the vase. inside.

I raised my eyes and took a look. They were carnations of different colors. The bright purple and red ones added a little more popularity to this pale hospital. I was moved by reading this silently, but the feelings that he could not forget for a year were also piled up. The pressure on me, you know, the flower language of carnations is mother's love, it's not like I came to pick her up specifically to see Mo Nian.

Zheng Lin pretended to see that I kept my head down and didn't speak, so she had no choice but to pick something else to attract my attention. She finally showed a good face to face the Lin family and nodded softly to the silent reading. : "My child, if you are interested, just read silently. You are indeed a talented person, just like your mother."

"Thank you for the compliment, auntie. I deserve it. In fact, I should have visited you first when I came to the river, but I heard from time to time that you have been sick, so the younger generation can't bother you. My mother has also been thinking about you." Silent reading remains the same. It's about saying everything properly.

I heard these words even more harshly. It has always been our family's secret to lie without blushing. Now it seems that silent reading has been learned with us for a long time. Zheng Lin pretends to treat the Lin family without me. Say more, it’s even more outrageous to pretend that Aunt Lin misses Zheng Lin. Ever since the two sisters were separated by me, when did they not act like mortal enemies? Zheng Lin pretended that whenever she thought of the Lin family, she would always say a curse word without repeating it. , but Aunt Lin's way of expressing hatred was different. She never mentioned it, and she didn't even glance at Zheng Lin when she pretended to be dying in her previous life.

According to the thoughts of my two mothers, my biological mother felt that my adoptive mother did not take good care of me, my adoptive mother's two sons were rushing to move my potted flowers, and my adoptive mother felt that my biological mother was still pointing fingers at me after not seeing me for thirteen years, and she even complained about my biological mother. Why should I leave right away? After all, she has raised me for thirteen years, so if she wants to leave, what will happen if I get married and stay in the Lin family for the rest of my life.

In the end, that's all it was. Now if I had to do it over again, I wouldn't care even more. Anyway, I know that even if the two mothers and I dislike each other behind our backs in the future, no matter what the reason is, they won't get into a fight.

Just as I was thinking about it, Mo Du suddenly pulled my hand, and I came back to my senses. The two of them chatted for a long time, and I don’t know how much they were pretending. At this time, Zheng Lin was so moved that she burst into tears, and her mouth was blurred. What they were talking about clearly took me a long time to understand. The two of them were talking about Mo Nian's illness. Zheng Lin pretended to dislike the rest of the Lin family, but she was the only one who felt pity for Brother Shu. She knew that Mo Nian and Brother Shu She suffered from the same disease and couldn't help but cry. She had witnessed the tragedy of her brother's death with her own eyes.

After a long time, Zheng Lin pretended to take a deep breath, and her speech gradually became clearer: "Sidu, your family is also pitiful. You have the hardest time, because you are the only one of your mother's children who is healthy. God bless you. , it also gives your whole family an outlet for survival, so you must be good. Your mother has taken care of my daughter for so many years, and Auntie has nothing to say. This necklace was a prize when you and your mother participated in a drama competition. Your mother's one went with your brother, and my aunt will pass this one on to you." Zheng Lin pretended, taking out a box from the cabinet at hand, opening it and placing a large rectangular-cut sapphire necklace inside.

I smiled bitterly and recognized that this was the only treasure left behind by Zheng Lin after she pretended to be extravagant. I didn’t know that she clearly said she had no feelings for the old man, but she still kept it as if it were a treasure. I remember she told me this story. It was nearly thirty years ago. She and Lao Fu had not yet fallen in love, but Lao Fu followed her closely after a dinner party and launched a fierce offensive from then on. When he learned that Zheng Lin was pretending to perform a play with Aunt Lin, he spent millions and turned the original investor of the play into a subordinate, fanning him while serving tea and water. , but the old man pretended to be good, and the final fruit of victory was as expected, easily falling on the heads of Zheng Linjie and Aunt Lin. The old man was still busy spending money to please, and the original prize was also given by An ordinary trophy was replaced by this huge sapphire necklace in front of me.

However, although Aunt Lin's necklace is not fake, the old man didn't intend to put any thought into it. He only used ordinary sapphires. The price at the time was several thousand, but when it was passed to Brother Zhi, it only rose to fifty or sixty thousand. Aunt Lin Naturally, I thought it was okay to bury the object with the writer, but the difference that Zheng Lin pretended to be was the sapphire on the crown that the old man had spent a lot of effort to get from a down-and-out royal family. In the 1980s, It was auctioned for a high price of 900,000 yuan, and now it is worth tens of millions.

Zheng Lin pretended to be generous while secretly looking at my face from the corner of her eye, as if praying that her lavish spending could change my mood.

I don't know if I have heard this story in silence, but he just refused calmly as usual and waved his hand: "Auntie, I can't accept such a valuable thing, and you said that my mother's one was passed on to my brother, then Your honor should also be given to Shishi, I can’t take it.”

After seeing through Zheng Lin's pretense, I just sneered, casually took the box in her hand and stuffed it into Mo Du's arms, and said very calmly: "Just take it, Mrs. Zheng gave it to you, she gets this anyway." Thing, she was originally influenced by my mother, how could she act in any drama?"

After saying that, Zheng Lin's expression actually darkened, especially when she heard that "Mom" was addressed to her adoptive mother in front of her biological mother, her eyes turned red instantly. I'm not that ruthless, of course. The most important thing was that she didn't want to intensify the conflict between her and the Lin family, so she thought about it and added something.

"Who doesn't give me a greeting gift? My mother gave me a big gold bracelet when we first met again. We treated it like an exchange."

Mo Du then smiled lightly, stood up respectfully and pretended to bow to Zheng Lin: "Then I would like to thank Aunt Zheng for her love."

"Compared to your mother's constant care of my family over the years, this is nothing. I'm sorry to say that. Your mother was busy at work, so I helped take care of you and your brother for a few days. That was the first time You were also careless with your child, and accidentally knocked the ash from the charcoal fire a little bit on your brother's lower back. This made the child cry for a long time in pain, and made your mother feel very distressed. In the end, you had to take the child with you at all times no matter what. You won't believe me anymore, and now that kid is gone, if I can make up for a little bit of my guilt for him from you, then I'll be relieved." Zheng Lin pretended, sighing deeply.

And when I thought about it, I did have that wound on my waist. I was not sensible when I was a child. I would never knock on the door when I went to his room. I always bumped into him changing clothes. Even if I wanted to stop him, I couldn't do anything about it. I couldn't explain it. , I couldn’t let go, so I later learned to lock the door. But if Brother Shu could close a door for me, God would also open a window for me. I climbed in easily on a stool.

Over time, Brother Shu simply stopped caring about it, and after I remembered it, I began to think about where the wound on Brother Shu’s waist came from. I asked him, but even he couldn’t explain it clearly. Now I know, It turns out that Zheng Lin was the one who pretended to do it!

"No one is a sage, and no one can do anything wrong. Don't worry about Aunt Zheng. I think my mother must not distrust you because of this matter. She is just afraid of losing her maternal love for me and my brother. What did you do about this matter? Didn’t I deeply trust my mother after that, otherwise I wouldn’t give Shishi to my mother to raise. It’s just a pity that I and Mo Nian were sent abroad to be raised by my stepfather when I was young. Every time I think about it, I envy my brother. If If I could be left in Linjiang, I can't even imagine how lucky I would be to grow up with Shishi." As he spoke silently, he suddenly reached out and squeezed the palm of my hand.

"Si Du..." I sighed and pulled my hand back. Looking back at Zheng Lin pretending to look at us, I couldn't help but feel a little more surprised. I quickly said: "Si Du has never seen my brother. It is indeed the most regrettable thing. My brother is really He is a very good person, and it is the luckiest thing in my life to grow up with him."

Probably because he was used to being rejected by me for so long, his expression didn't change at all when he read silently, and even his smile became brighter after he "teased" me.

I'm a little speechless and don't understand what kind of affection he has for me now. Do I firmly feel that his so-called "moth to the flame" is worth it? Or just a broken jar.

I'm very distressed. It's not that I haven't loved him and everything about his sincerity, but the past is in the past. I also clearly know that if we insist on going on, there will be no good results in the end. I resist him. My feelings, on the one hand, I don't want to delay him when I get married, on the other hand, I just want to protect him, but I will always regard these as nothing.

So under the pressure from both Zheng Linjie and Mo Du, I gradually couldn't stand the atmosphere here, so I sighed and stood up and said to Zheng Linjie: "Come on, you should take good care of your health. I'm busy recently, so I'm afraid I won't be able to see you." A few times, but I will send more people to take care of you. If you have any requirements, just tell them, I still have some time to go."

"Hey, Shishi..." Mo Du was stunned for a moment, but soon caught up with him.

"Didn't you say that Mo Nian is also in the hospital? She's usually the most attached to you. She'll cry like crazy even if you're not around for a minute. The little girl's health is not good to begin with. Don't make people sad. I'll take a taxi back by myself. Just go home." I turned around and said to silent reading quickly, then turned to leave again.

But just when I thought it was all going to end, Zheng Linjiu suddenly stopped me loudly: "Shishi! It's so hard for you to come here, why are you leaving again without saying a few words..." Then there was a deep sigh. Her sobs seemed to hit people's hearts with pain every time. I looked back and saw that the pale sheets were crumpled by her, and gray flowers bloomed bit by bit on them.

I stood still and let out a long sigh. I didn't sit back and force myself to show off because of her crying. I just waited quietly for her to finish crying until the crying gradually ended. I said coldly: "Stop acting, I'm tired for you."

Zheng Lin pretended to be startled suddenly, raised her head and looked at me aggrievedly and in disbelief: "Shishi, what did you say?"

"I said, stop acting." I repeated it calmly, then paused and added the reason: "I'm pretending to be good now because I think I can forget the three years you spent raising me with alcohol and beatings all the time. Is it my business? I’m not a monkey, how could you play such a trick? I have eighty-two cuts and two holes all over my body, which one is not a gift from you or to pay for your cruelty and kill myself? If I hadn’t been so hard-working, I'm afraid I can't even stand here today and serve you as a puppet playing the role of a loving mother, a tool for fun, and a robot that helps you make money and live a good life. Do you think I'm pathetic? That's it, I still have to come here and pretend, for my own sake Good reputation, for the good reputation of my Fu family, I have come here to be nice to you and busy with you. You said, after all, I am also the flesh that fell off your body. Why can't you show me some kindness in the end? Stop playing with me." I said very tiredly.

Zheng Lin pretended to be even more desperate. She endured the pain and couldn't wait to rush over to explain to me. She noticed that I took a step back and knew that I still disliked her and refused to forgive her. She sat down thoughtfully and said, "Shishi, I'm sorry." ...I'm sorry that my mother treated you like that before, but my mother is sick. My mania makes me hurt people if I can't control it! I don't ask you to forgive me, but I ask you to give me more time in the last moment. Just look at me... It won't take up much of your time. I, I'm going to die soon, and I won't bother you anymore. It's only been a few months, so just stay with me for a little while longer. Son...okay? I will definitely try my best to compensate you..." Zheng Lin pretended to cry in pain. She slowly stretched out her hand, but when she was about to touch me, she retracted it tremblingly. It seemed that I was like this A peerless treasure, I am afraid that if I touch it, I will be broken by her.

What a touching scene? I'm afraid it's time to shed two tears when seeing a stone, and I am the same, but my tears are always shed for myself, because it is simply not worth it to give her such a crazy mother and such a harmful existence.

I sobbed twice, and my voice was trembling when I sighed again, but I understood that this was the last time, and I was about to witness that I was about to escape from the control of my biological mother. I thought I could use the word "regaining life". words, so I won’t be stingy with my tears.

I wiped away the tears and made sure that I looked up again with a new look before I spoke. I looked coldly at the biological mother in front of me who seemed to have woken up only after she was about to die. I thought I could probably guess her attitude towards me in these two lives. Different reasons.

I swallowed: "You don't have to have hope anymore. Because of my sadness and my tears, I hurriedly came to see you. From the beginning to the end, it was just because of your identity as my biological mother. The only thing I cared about was this identity. I care that I have never received the simplest and most natural maternal love in the world from you. I care that no one in my life can make up for this regret of mine, not you. Zheng Lin, Mom, you know why I still Are you willing to call you mom? Because to me, this word is so cheap and insignificant when used on you. Maybe we just don't have the fate of mother and daughter in this life. You don't have to waste your breath anymore. Is sorry useful? Is an apology useful? You know I can’t hear a word you say. I won’t hate you because you gave birth to me, but I also won’t forgive you because you gave birth to me. Not only did you fail to fulfill your responsibilities as a mother, but you also It caused me to suffer a lot for no reason, but it doesn't matter to me now, after all, the dead are the most important, you are going to die."

"Shishi, it's not like this... You are still angry with your mother. You are just angry, right? Don't say such cruel words..." Zheng Linjiu suddenly lost her strength, and her whole body collapsed instantly, and she could no longer stand upright. The ability to get up.

And I can only look at all this indifferently forever.

"Actually, you want to take it out on me until you die, right? Because, you only have me, and I am the only one who is still subordinate to you from a natural point of view, but now because I have my father's love for me, I have Money, so I have become your only life-saving straw. You can only rely on me to spend your last days in peace and dignity. There is a saying that when a person is about to die, even if his words are good, I am not the same. If you don’t believe me, you haven’t regretted it. After all, you are the only one who can beat a good hand of cards to pieces. But more importantly, I believe in human nature. People always do it for profit, and you still do it for money. Don’t worry, I will take care of it. Considering the reputation of my Fu family daughter, I won’t treat you badly, so you don’t have to be so polite to me, just take good care of your health.”

Having said that, I didn't want to stay any longer and left the ward amidst Zheng Lin's helpless cries.

I thought I could continue to be patient and strong like this, until I saw Gao Xinci rushing towards me at the end of the hospital corridor. He also saw me and immediately froze where he was, worried and panting. He breathed heavily and wiped the sweat from his forehead.

I finally couldn't hold it back anymore, so I ran over and threw myself into his arms and burst into tears. In addition to Zheng Lin's pretense, I also had hatred and resentment towards him. He had been indifferent to me all year, and today he finally did the same. He ran over and I kept hitting him on the back.

"You're finally here...why did you come..."