Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from the last time, so much time has passed, and I boasted that I loved the silent reading in front of me so much, but it was only today that I discovered that many of our memories have long since drifted away with the passing of time, and I have even forgotten the place where we fell in love. , I can’t even remember a single word of my confession.

I just remember what he said countless times during the four years he loved me: I love you.

But even if there is no barrier between life and death, no matter how hard-hearted the two love each other, they can't escape the fate that God has already decided.

In my last life, he left me.

In this life, I leave him.

Between us, we are either separated by life or by death.

But none of us are wrong...

"October 15th is a very important day for me every year. I like my birthday very much, but I like this day even more. I also just want to spend it with you." Silent reading did not notice my strangeness. , still looking straight at the bright moon, he said softly: "Shishi, I wanted to tell you before, but I felt that it was too much to ask you to accompany me selfishly, so I thought I could give you Have you prepared any surprises that you like, and I was annoyed that the fireflies were too monotonous. Fortunately, I am very lucky, and the meteor shower also added to the happiness today. Do you like it?"

After reading silently, I turned around and wiped away my tears before I dared to look at him. When I saw him, I was speechless. I could only lower my head and smile, then turned around and looked in the direction of his longing.

"Did I choose the wrong direction?" Silently read a little disappointed, the smile he raised was deeply hidden, the light in his eyes disappeared completely, he lowered his head and clasped his hands randomly: "Sorry, I thought You will like..."

He even prepared surprises for me on his favorite days. I really shouldn't be interested in ruining others, so I instinctively grabbed his finger with guilt, but in the blink of an eye I saw the shining ring on my ring finger again.

It was like a sharp blade piercing through my hazy vision, tearing apart all my painful past and telling me that the past is the past.

Silent reading seemed to have anticipated something, and it turned from passive to active, and in turn held my hand tightly, but I could only pull it back cruelly.

"Reading silently, I'm sorry, I'm engaged." I lowered my head and said softly.

Silently let go of my hand, and I couldn't tell whether it was pleasure or displeasure. I didn't dare to look into his eyes, but I heard him laugh twice.

"I should apologize. If you don't like it, I won't bother you with such things in the future."

I breathed a sigh of relief and turned around. After the meteor shower passed, the sky became silent again.

"I don't like it, the meteor shower is beautiful, and I am very grateful to you for preparing these for me, but my brother once said to me that after death, people will turn into stars and look at their loved ones in the sky, but the meteor shower, Why doesn't it represent the death of the stars?" I sighed.

I think meteor showers are just untimely fireflies. The moment they release their beauty, they will soon die.

Fireflies cannot survive the cold autumn, and disappear after the meteor falls.

Just like me and silent reading, there is no result after all. The moment you love most is a precursor to death. In this case, why force it? As long as we are willing to let go of this obstacle, we can all meet a lover who is more suitable for us in the future.

Just like me, I met Gao Xinci, and this life is enough.

Silent behind me for a while, I finally took two steps forward to join me: "However, before they were annihilated, they bloomed the most beautiful side of their lives, just like an epiphyllum, even if it only blooms for a moment, it is still remembered by people. The most beautiful appearance in this life is worthy of being praised for thousands of years, isn't it?"

I probably heard his subtext, and I felt that my actions might have caused him to misunderstand, which only added to his depression. I had no choice but to smile bitterly and shake my head, hoping that the persuasion would make him change his mind, or at least give up on me. .

"What's the use of preaching? If there is no result, there is no result. You have just released those fireflies, but in fact you know very well that they will not be free for long. They will not be able to survive the cold autumn and the meteors in the sky. It is amazing for a while, but it is not It is better to hang far away in the sky for a long time, even if it is dull, even if it is not so shining, at least it is still alive and exuding its own light."

"But what if I make a little sacrifice for the one I love? I am willing to let her see the best of me. Even if I face disaster or even death in the future, I only want her to see me."

"But you know there will be no results. Why do you have to devote yourself to something that has no results? Meaningless efforts are like moths flying into the flame. Don't you think that's stupid?"

"Moths fly into the flame in order to move towards their own light. How can you know that they are not happy with it? The expectation of love is more important than your own life or the meaning of living is for love!"

The mood of silent reading got a little higher, and my heart beat faster.

The gears of fate never stop turning, and feelings will spread in the established direction even if they shouldn't exist. However, this conversation will not be a romantic confession, but a dispute.

"The choices I make are never made on a whim. I can pay the corresponding price for all my decisions. I will never make any choices for nothing. I will always be determined that the person I love will not turn a blind eye, always, I don’t believe there are gratuitous emotions in this world. Every emotion that arises has its own reason. If there is really no other kind of love, why would one person be kind to another person without hesitation!”

"Because of my brother!" I finally couldn't bear it anymore and vented all the frustration in my heart at this moment, even if it wasn't the truth.

Silently read for a moment, all the arrogance in his body returned to zero at this moment, and he almost collapsed completely.

"What?" The corners of his eyes were reddish, and there was a faint tremor when he spoke.

But I can't be soft-hearted. For such things, being soft-hearted is to give him hope. Hope without a future is the most hurtful.

"Because of my brother, I owe my brother a life. He died for me. I have to protect everyone related to him to repay him for saving my life. Because of my mother, my mother will not have any blood relationship." I have raised her as an adult, and I have to work hard to protect her children in order to repay her kindness in raising me. Reading silently, I will never be nice to anyone without any reason..."

I got closer step by step, but for me, every step I took was like being dragged through hell.

"But you don't mean to be nice to me, just because it's me..." Silently read and kept backing up, not wanting to raise his head but also not wanting to miss any details of the expression on my face, so he lowered his head and raised his eyes to look at me, such a pitiful look It made me feel like I was cut into pieces by a thousand cuts.

"I still remember the question you asked me was whether you and my brother are alike, and what I said is that you and my brother are never alike. He is him and you are you." I forced myself to say every word. After saying these words, he breathed a sigh of relief and looked back, covering up his fatal sobs.

"Then...where is the person you love?" Silent Reading seemed to want to cover up this layer of window paper, or perhaps it was the last hope.

"Isn't it right in front of me?" I forced a smile: "Gao Xinci, I love him very much. He is my hope of living. The two of us are a match made in heaven, right? There is no need for moths to fly into the flame. Make unnecessary sacrifices, and naturally we can be together forever."

"I understand..." Silu Du probably really gave up, his words were gray and covered with a layer of fog.

I took a deep breath and held on for the last breath to spit out the last sentence: "Read silently, wait a few days, let's go home together. I miss my mother. Let the past things pass, and tonight's things will be together too." , we will always be a family, and you will always be my brother..."

"Ah……"

At this moment, even the most steady silent reading couldn't help but sneer, and then he sat on the grass depressedly, as if he had drank a lot of wine, and thought of more and more annoying things.

Brother, what a title of brother, doesn’t it correspond to the phrase “second brother” I said to him when we met for the second time in this life? We are a family, writing brother is my eldest brother, and he is my second brother.

But how could he care about the identity of "brother"?

But there is nothing I can do...

On the way back, I looked at the neon lights flashing around me. It was early in the morning and the city was still not at rest. When I passed the city center, the noise like daytime brought my thoughts back to reality.

I leaned against the car window and gently rang the silver bell hanging on my wrist.

"Silent reading, why do you like October 15th?"

It seems that I have never asked this question, I just try my best to accompany him in the limited time to spend this day that he likes.

He has completely calmed down after reading silently. Even though there are still traces of redness around his eyes, he is like what I said, everything will not be so clear-cut, and there is still a way to go in the future.

He smiled softly and looked at me in the rearview mirror: "My birthday is also a painful day for my mother. She was in poor health and gave birth to two brothers and me in succession. I feel sorry for her. So I don’t care that much, but October 15th is the day when I reunite with her, and I am very happy to have a mother.”

"You have a mother too, why don't you talk about yourself?" I asked casually.

"Because I care more about reciting silently." Silently read slowly for a moment before replying.

I turned around and saw him taking out his ringing cell phone when he stopped the car at a red light. The smile that was still full of smiles disappeared in an instant, with a slight hint of disgust, but it quickly returned when he saw me looking at him. Putting away that expression and putting the phone back, he turned sideways and smiled at me.

"If you're too sleepy, just go to sleep. I'll call you when I get home."

"Ah."

I didn't ask any more questions. After experiencing so many things on this day, I was really too tired and exhausted. When I closed my eyes, I fell asleep.

I don’t know how I went back later. Anyway, when I woke up, I was already in bed. However, it was not on my bed at home, but in the hospital. I was wearing a neat hospital gown. Liang Sen was also back. I walked around my bed, pacing left and right, sighing from time to time, as if I had some terminal illness.

In a daze, I actually felt that many things were simply a dream and nothing actually happened.

But no dream can be so clear.

I sneered and sat up straight while holding on to the bed. Liang Sen heard the noise and was the first to rush up to help me, and then gave me a head-shattering blow at lightning speed.

Suddenly, Old Fu's second uncle, brother-in-law and brother who were present, and even Gao Xinci who was about to run over, were stunned on the spot.

Liang Sen had no fear. He just vented his anger with dark circles under his eyes. He grabbed my head and collapsed one after another!

"My! My little aunt! Where have you been playing! I just! Just left! More than an hour ago! You caused me trouble! You dare to stay up all night! Do you know that I spent one night in Linjiang and Jin I ran back and forth between the seas twice! You want to kill me!"

I was already aggrieved, how could I be okay after being tormented like this by Liang Sen? Besides, he dared to bully me in front of my biological father. Then I would not be able to survive when I am the only one left! I cried "Wow" and while crying, I frantically pulled my hands to resist Liang Sen's physical attack.

"Why are you hitting me! Why are you hitting me! Why didn't I stay up all night? I obviously went home and just went out to play for a short time. Could it be that I wanted to get sick? I wore so many clothes, but It’s not that you don’t know about my body, you can only say that you didn’t protect it. It was already uncomfortable, but you hit me, and you said you would break my legs..."

"Hey, Auntie, don't talk nonsense. When did I ever say such a bastard thing..." Liang Sen looked guilty and looked back at my old man, who was dumbfounded. He probably had already thought about what material the coffin board should be made of, but he still wanted to fight to the death. , stretched out his hand to cover my mouth, but how could I let him succeed?

"Ah woo", Liang Sen jumped up decisively.

"You are a dog!"

"Hmph, I'm a monkey, and I'm here to scratch you!" I grinned.

"Director Liang, don't blame her, it's my fault for taking her out so late at night..." Mo Du suddenly walked out from behind, lowered his head and said apologetically, probably because Gao Xinci was still there. The person beside me, fearing that he would misunderstand, quickly added: "I should have let her wait at home. I thought that she would be hungry if she didn't eat anything at night, so I went out to buy some midnight snacks. I didn't expect that she would suddenly have a high fever that wouldn't go away. "

"You still know! You have the nerve to come out and say it. I didn't bother you and you brought it to your door yourself!"

Liang Sen's face suddenly changed and he scolded him very seriously. I was shocked. I had never seen him so angry before. I forgot to even plead for mercy and just stared blankly on the bed.

"Come on, I don't think you should stay with her all the time. You can't control her. I can't help her except make up classes. The rest of the time you have to go to the company and watch. So many hotels have seen their performance decline so much recently. Why are you watching, why can't you do anything, and you are the first to get into trouble with her..."

I can tell that Liang Sen's words are a bit of a revenge. I have read the hotel's accounts. The National Day holiday has just passed and it is not the peak tourist season. Of course, there are not as many people staying in the hotel as before. A slight decline is normal. His personal ability in silent reading had nothing to do with it, so he quickly pulled Liang Sen's sleeve.

But I'm sorry that I can't intercede for silent reading. I can't let go of my selfishness. Liang Sen has a really good idea. Silent reading is not suitable for staying with me any longer. Rather than letting him keep staring at the impossible If you are emotionally hurt, it is better to put all your energy into work and let him manage the company. It is the best choice.

So I remained silent in the end, but my brother had a strange look on his face. He pursed his lips and muttered to He Qingyun behind him: "Why do I feel that what Liang Sen just said should be my lines? Did he peek at my script?"

He Qingyun smiled and shrugged.

In the end, it was Lao Fu who finally spoke up to resolve the farce. He coughed and said, "Okay, since Shi Shi is awake, let's go home early. Wen Su just said that the flu has been on the rise recently. Staying in the hospital is easy to get infected and is not safe. "

"it is good."

"I'll go now."

Gao Xinci and his brother both responded.

I also got out of the quilt. Gao Xinci helped me put on my furry blue cloud coat. He picked me up around the waist and I put my hand on his shoulders.

"Xin Ci, I fell asleep last night. What happened? Why did I arrive at the hospital as soon as I opened my eyes? They said I had a high fever. What on earth is wrong with me? My stomach, my lungs, or am I a careless person? "I admit that I am a bit at a loss for words. The reason is obvious. Gao Xinci looks very unhappy now. Even if he could hug me openly in front of my family, he still couldn't laugh.

"No, I just caught a cold. Wear more clothes in the future and don't go out at night." Gao Xinci said in a very low voice, and the corners of his mouth raised slightly, which was forced out, which was very lame.

I'm not stupid, I know everything I did, and I immediately understood that I couldn't coax him for a while.

"I'm sorry." I leaned gently on his warm shoulder, tears still sliding down my face.

Probably because I cried too much last night, even my eyes hurt now, which is annoying and ridiculous.

Gao Xinci shook his head and pursed his lips in silence for a long time.

But just when I thought he wouldn't talk to me anymore, Gao Xinci suddenly spoke again at the door of my house, and whispered in my ear: "Shishi, I got news this morning that my uncle decided to send my little one off." My aunt returned to Yingjing, but she refused, and finally decided to take her two brothers Shuyi and Shutong back to her old house in Jinhai and leave today. I know all the things you did, and I will keep an eye on the Zhou family from outside. But I can’t get close to my aunt, so I can only rely on you. Whether you go to see her off today or not, you have to be careful.”