Fall in love with your enemy

Last time, I read the letter I wrote to my brother, and it was just the last straw. I couldn’t help but burst into tears.

I don’t know how to evaluate this suicide note. I don’t need to think too much to know how desperate my brother was when he wrote this letter. The feelings that were destined to be fruitless from the beginning remain in my heart, not bright, but will accumulate for years. Endurance of death by a thousand cuts.

No wonder he mentioned it countless times and said he didn't want me to see this letter. Maybe he didn't know how to evaluate this "delusion" that he shouldn't have.

An untimely heartbeat can only result in heartache in the end.

It's a pity that in this life, I will never be able to accept his surging love again...

I put on my shoes and got out of bed, holding the letter in my hand and wandering the pale hallway like a ghost.

Finally reaching the end of the corridor, I turned into the bathroom and took out the lighter that Liang Sen had left behind from my pocket. Turning the gear, tongues of fire rushed upward impatiently like rising life. I moved the letter to the fire. The flames quickly wrapped and swallowed up the old memories and turned them into ashes.

I turned on the faucet and flushed all those things down the drain.

I really saw those debris disappearing without a trace along the water, but I couldn't bear to leave it. I raised my head, looked at my seemingly "untouched" face, and gently stroked every part of it. Every inch.

No one else will understand, only I can see that rebirth can change my aging face, but these eyes will not change.

Through those bloodshot eyes, I could see my pale face, the wrinkles at the corners of my eyes, and the exhaustion all over me.

Along the way, I have seen through the intrigues in this world. The changes of the times have not completely eradicated the massacre. As long as the dirty human nature in this world has not changed, the killing will never stop. To this day, Machiavellian killing still exists. Our The battlefield is just a different place.

I never wanted to fight or argue, because I always felt that everything they wanted to fight for was meaningless to me. If they wanted it, I would just give in. But my concession did not stop their persecution of me. In the end, even my closest relatives felt that I was an object to be bullied.

Others still have a chance to retaliate, but how can I do it when facing my loved ones?

I will never understand. I clearly didn’t do anything wrong or offended any of them, so why do you insist on chasing me? What's the point of flying into a flame? But from today on, I understand, and I still remember what I said:

Once a person has greed, he can go through mountains of swords and seas of fire for the sake of profit.

It's just that what I'm asking for is love, and what they're asking for is money. They're all just like moths rushing to the flame, and they don't get what they want. I'm no different from them.

But I'm not someone who can lose my life twice in a row, and I can't be generous to others. Brother Zhi is kind to me by raising me up. I don't care what he thinks in his heart. In short, in my opinion, I am guilty. For him, since he feels guilty, he has to find a way to make up for it. It has been too long in the last life and there is no evidence. I can't help it. It would be unreasonable to dwell on it for too long. But today I finally understand. The author himself said that there was something wrong with the medicine. , this is murder.

Fortunately, at this time of rebirth, my close relatives have not changed much, and it has not been long since Brother Shu died. Three years is not enough time to dilute everything. I will definitely find something.

It’s time for me to go for it.

I don’t want to cover the sky with one hand, but I want fairness and justice, and evil people will all be punished.

From today on, I will keep every account firmly in mind.

I turned the water on to the maximum, and felt the cold touch on my face. I probably woke up. After taking one last look at my face, I returned to the ward.

Liang Sen had just returned from completing the formalities and prescribing the medicine. He was still confused when I was missing. He turned around and saw me, patted his chest and breathed a sigh of relief.

"Miss, you will scare me to death sooner or later." Liang Sen put his hands on his hips.

"What, are you afraid that I will run away?" I took the coat from the bedside and put it on. When I looked up, Liang Sen's face was full of resentment.

"No, if I throw you away again, Fu Dongfei will have to throw me into the Linjiang River in the middle of the night. You can't even see the bones!" Liang Sen said as if he was deliberately exaggerating the atmosphere of panic. He even said the last sentence in my ear. explain.

I smiled bitterly. He might think it was a joke, but I knew that the old man could really do such a thing. I couldn't help but remain silent and lowered my head.

Liang Sen took one last look around the ward to make sure nothing was left behind. He motioned for me to go out.

I got in the car and opened the window. I leaned against the window and watched the city dimly lit and busy with traffic, which made the pressure even greater. The road leading to Fu's house was like leading to hell.

Can you let me have peace for a moment longer? Even if it’s just for a moment.

I looked at my watch, nine fifteen in the evening.

Lao Fu won't make trouble before ten thirty. So, I still have more than an hour before I have to leave.

"Liang Sen, go back to Lin's house." I patted the front seat.

"Huh?! It's so late."

Liang Sen almost stepped on the accelerator and flew out, his eyes almost bulging out. Fortunately, there were not many cars at night, so nothing happened. He parked the car on the side of the road. He wanted to say something, but he hesitated. But he couldn't say anything. After regaining his composure, he changed direction.

"Okay, there is a pretty good noodle shop in the small town next to the Lin family. You go to visit relatives, and I'll go have a late-night snack." Liang Sen chuckled.

When it comes to the Lin family, he really understands me best.

Having made up my mind, I felt much more relaxed, and even the wounds on my body no longer hurt. I squinted my eyes and caught up on some sleep in the car.

Not long after, Liang Sen knocked on the window to wake me up. After helping me put on my clothes, he watched me step into the dark forest house.

I waved to him, and he ran to eat noodles. Seeing that he looked like he hadn't eaten for hundreds of years, I felt a little "disgusted" and shrugged.

When I came to Lin's house again, my heart was not as chaotic as the previous two times. Maybe it was because everything was back to the beginning and Aunt Lin was coming back. Maybe it was because of Brother Shu's love.

After Yun Jin left, Yun Yan told me that the dead will turn into stars and look at us in the sky. I didn't believe it when she said it, but I believe it now. I looked up at the starry sky with a smile.

I crossed the threshold, soaked the towel, wiped away the dust in sight, and first wiped away the blood stains I had just dropped. In fact, there was not much blood now, and there was no fetal sac. What happened just now was really... I'm hallucinating, I don't know what it's like.

Lin's house has been deserted for three years. Most of the furniture inside is moth-eaten and rickety. It is definitely no longer useful, so I don't have much to clean. I will record the things that need to be replaced and call the workers to replace them tomorrow. Just go to the furniture store and pick out some old styles. Aunt Lin will definitely not be able to tell after she hasn't been back for so long.

I looked around, and in one round I just swept the floor and wiped two chairs.

"Two tables, three wardrobes, benches... at least ten, and a refrigerator, TV, and washing machine. Hiss, this wall needs to be painted. It's all covered with spider webs, yue!" I pursed my lips and looked for someone who could Step on the stool and use the broom to dig up.

I have to say that digging out spider nests actually made me feel a little bit like I was living here. I remember back then, my favorite thing was to catch this thing to scare me. Later, I don’t know where I learned about this from silent reading. He was so shy and gentle. One of the boys actually imitated Brother Shu!

Hey, what a joke, didn't I just accidentally feed his loach to the fish? I've held a grudge for so long...

The spider web was swept away, and I threw the broom aside. Fortunately, I didn't see the owner of the web. Otherwise, I could have done a break dance on the spot, but even though the spider didn't come, my unlucky physique always makes me want to break dance at this time. I encountered some things, like when I heard the bench under my feet making a sound...

What the hell am I getting fat again? It actually broke a leg!

Before I could react, there was a "click" and I fell towards the corner of the stove.

It’s over, I’m really dying now, I can just imagine the scene where I’m on all fours, facing the ceiling and rolling my eyes.

Soon after, a figure flashed past me. The wind brought by running blew up the corners of my clothes. When I saw the life-saving straw, of course I wanted to grab it! He immediately closed his eyes and moved his arms wildly. The man's hand was faster and he thought my hand was in the way. He decisively grabbed my wrist and lifted it up. After putting it on his shoulder, he put his arm around mine. At the waist, he put a hand under my leg, and with a little effort, I fell into his broad embrace.

The bench was broken, and the sound of falling to the ground was very clear. I looked down, and sure enough, I was heading towards the stove. Fortunately, this great hero existed!

"Phew! Liang Sen, it's a good thing you haven't left yet, otherwise I wouldn't be able to see the sun tomorrow." I patted my chest.

The "hero" was stunned for a long time and did not respond.

I feel so comfortable leaning in this embrace. I don’t know why, but he has a faint milky scent that makes people unable to move away...

Oh wait! How could Liang Sen smell like this? He smokes! It smells like cigarette smoke! Then who is this if not Liang Sen!

I opened my eyes suddenly, and what I saw was a very green face.

He slowly opened his mouth: "Who is Liang Sen?" As he spoke, there was some confusion and grievance in his eyes.

but me……

"Oh my god, there's a ghost!"

I wipe my eyes and read silently! Lin Modu, who has been in hell for a long time!

I shook my legs like I was having an epilepsy. After leaving his arms, I found a corner and got in! He held a stick in front of his chest and refused to let go.

I'm sorry, my dear lover, it's not that I don't love you, it's just that I'm a little scared of the cemetery in the middle of the night!

You can make jokes in the sky and on the earth, but if you make too many jokes like this, it will really scare people to death!

Who can understand? It was so late at night that I actually met my first love in Linzhai, which had no electricity or light and was surrounded by cemeteries. I don’t know how to describe my current mood. Well...he was taking steps. The ground comes closer to me.

Please, brother, really don’t come here! Let me give you a thumbs up! My dear first love, I really like you, love you, and miss you very much, but but but... but aren't you damn dead! Why did you climb out of the coffin to see me? That’s actually not necessary!

Brother, I really hope to see you in my dreams, even erotic dreams, but I really can’t accept seeing you in reality, dear! I do feel sorry for you for marrying Gao Xinci so quickly in my previous life, but I also have my own reasons. You understand me. Besides, I was actually very kind to you when you were alive...

I kneel down to you with a plop!

"Brother, I, I, I... I have indeed forgotten you a little recently. I promise that I will remember Men'erqing from today on. I will burn more paper for you tomorrow. Please forgive me if I burn more gold ingots. Just kill me..." I hid behind the leg of a stool I picked up in my panic just now and shivered.

He bravely raised his eyes and looked up, and silently tilted his head in confusion.

"What are you talking about? Burning paper? Am I not dead?"

Not dead, not dead yet! I watched Chuang run out of energy, and I couldn't even count how many days I cried!

"No, brother, can you please stop coming? I'm afraid... Read silently. I love you. I love you so much. You can't bear my grudge just because of this little thing..." I burst into tears. The situation was tense and I was direct. My brain is empty, I can’t think of any good words, I just feel like I’m buzzing!

"Ah? This lady, I don't even know you, so how can I hold grudges?" Mo Du smiled awkwardly, but soon recovered his gentle expression and stretched out his hand to me: "Don't be afraid, although This place is quite dark, but I am indeed a human being, not a ghost. If you don’t believe me, if you touch me, I’m still warm.”

His voice has always been calm and pleasant to listen to, and it has always been like this in every life.

After all, he was the person I once truly loved. He said this, how could I not respond again? I slowly opened my eyes.

Under the moonlight, the curved corners of his mouth were particularly gentle.

I stretched out my hand tremblingly, and he held me gently.

"Look, I'm not a ghost, right?" He chuckled, "Come out quickly, there are insects in there..."

As I read silently, my hand unconsciously stretched forward. When it touched his abdomen, both he and I fell silent.

It’s so embarrassing, I accidentally committed abdominal muscle obsession...

"Haha...hehe, I'm sorry, I...I didn't mean to do it." I bit my lip and forced a smile, digging out the dream castle with my soles.

"It doesn't matter. You'd better come out first. There are bugs inside, so don't crawl out soon." The corner of Mo Du's mouth twitched, but he still chose to forgive.

He has always been like this to me, no matter what I do, he will give me unconditional priority.

"Thank you." I held his hand and stood up and stepped out from the corner.

"It doesn't matter. I'm mainly afraid that you might jump on me if there are bugs later..." Mo Du murmured in a low voice.

I was instantly petrified, and for a long time he was thinking about me like this! It's over, the good impression is ruined.

After doing this, I finally woke up completely, and then I remembered that I was reborn, and time went backwards. Aunt Lin can come back, and reading silently can also be done. Although the time is a little early, it is still good to come back early. The distance is Now that we are close, I can still help the Lin family to some extent.

I came out of the corner and looked at him quietly in the moonlight in front of the window, the corners of my eyes feeling sore for a while.

Think about how many times I have fantasized about meeting him again, how many times have I cried while holding his photo? He was the light of my youth, he told me the meaning of life, he made me see the value of my life, we almost got married, we almost got to be together forever, just that little bit...

Now that I'm starting over again, I'm a little confused. I originally wanted to say everything to him. I wanted to say that I really love him and that I don't care about money or status. But when he actually appeared in front of me, I choked up. .

I want to see him again, but I don’t want to anymore.

Even I am conflicted.

"Are you injured?" Mo Du saw me crying, scanned me up and down, and suddenly said something.

I followed his line of sight, and it was true that my knee had hit somewhere, and now it was red and swollen, and I didn't realize it hurt.

"Does it hurt?" Mo Du squatted down for a moment, wanting to touch my wound, but in the end he retracted his finger, and he asked slightly worriedly.

I looked at him and was really speechless, just crying.

"I'm sorry, I asked you this, it must be very painful." Mo Du said with self-reproach, and quickly helped me sit on the bed board, "I brought safflower oil with me when I came here, I will help you rub it Well, after all, I scared you." He smiled slightly, turned around and rummaged through his bag.

I stretched out my hand, wanting to touch him, but the pain in my throat was something I could never forget. Finally, when he looked back, I took my hand back.

"I……"

"Don't be afraid, you have already felt it. I am a human, not a ghost."

Du Du smiled softly, squatted down, opened the lid of the medicine, poured a little safflower, and rubbed it on his hands to warm it. He looked up at me shyly, and when he saw that there was nothing wrong with me, he touched my wound with his palm.

"Tell me if it hurts." He slowly circled the red and swollen area.

"It doesn't hurt." This time, I was finally determined.

He looked at me again, and this time, we finally looked at each other and smiled.

"Are you... Fu Xishi?" he asked me, with a hint of gentleness in his deep eyes.

I throbbed for a moment, and time stood still.

Once, when we first met, he asked me the same question. At that time, I was sheltering from the rain under the eaves. The breeze was so cool that he stepped into the wind and rain to protect me. I was afraid of the cold and felt inexplicably cold every time the temperature dropped suddenly. I was so scared that I had to hold on to his sleeve tightly. In order to divert my attention, he asked me with a smile:

"Are you Fu Xishi?"

I knew his next sentence without him having to say it. Memories overlap with reality.

"I knew you would come. Hello, my name is Lin Modu."