My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

Perhaps because the Chinese New Year is approaching, the traffic on the road is very chaotic, so that the bus driver who likes to drive fast has to brake suddenly; my body is swaying and falling in the sudden sudden braking without warning. It took away my appetite and my attention, so that everything outside the car window could not be focused in my sight. Gradually, even the tall building that looked like long johns became blurry... …

After living in Suzhou for so many years, I see this high-rise building every day and watch it rise from the ground, but it has not yet ushered in the final capping. I heard that when it caps off, it will become a new landmark in this business district. I There is a high probability that I will not be able to wait for this day...

So, what is the regret about Suzhou?

Is it a person who cannot be forgotten, a tall building that has not yet reached its peak? Or is it an idealism that was built up high in one's heart but was shattered to pieces in the end?

The answer cannot be determined, but what is certain is that Suzhou has become synonymous with regret in my heart and even in my life; therefore, I even thought that once I leave, I will never return to this city. Even on the wedding day of Fangyuan and Yan Yan, she would never come back.

I am so determined!

Thinking of Fangyuan and Yan Yan, Yan Yan called me. I squeezed in the crowd, answered the phone in an extremely awkward posture, and complained: "Do you have a plan every time you call me... Either pick me when I'm in the bar, or pick me when I'm on the bus?" Come on…I can’t hear you!”

In order for me to hear, Yan Yan on the other end of the phone increased her volume and almost shouted: "So, you are either going to the bar, or you are on the way to the bar... Zhaoyang, you and Fangyuan can't talk evenly. ?"

"Even what?"

The bus had already stopped. In order to hear Yan Yan speak clearly, I got off the bus in advance. It was very cold and there was ice in the air, but I still took a deep breath to relieve the pain caused by the squeeze. Discomfort.

"You hang out in bars all day, and Fangyuan spends all day in the company... Can you help me persuade him not to put so much pressure on himself? He has been getting home at 11 o'clock at night for a week... He I’ve lost a lot of weight recently, I would really feel bad!”

I haven't envied anyone for a long time, but at this moment, I really envy Fangyuan and Yan Yan; although they are still in a state of unsteady footing in this city, they regard each other as the driving force for their struggle. And they know that they understand each other and care for each other; then, for them, what difficulties are they that cannot be overcome?

I didn't want to get lost, and I also wanted to have someone with whom I could join the group to keep warm, but even if I looked around at the dimly lit place, I couldn't find such a person.

"Zhaoyang, are you listening to me?"

"Listening..."

After making sure that I was not in a trance, Yan Yan complained again: "You and Fangyuan are classmates and brothers, and we work in the same company. Can't you help him share more of his work?... Especially after get off work, you are a real person. Wouldn't it be more fulfilling to stay in the company and do something than to hang out in a nightclub?"

I was silent for a long time before replying: "Fang Yuan is a man who can work hard... Therefore, everyone feels that his future is limitless."

"Then I don't want him to be so tired; therefore, I have been working very hard..." After a pause, Yan Yan brought up the old matter again: "Even if you can't help him share the work, don't forget to advise him. Advise him... Anyway, I will accompany him no matter what. If we have money, we will spend more; if we don't have money, we will spend less... I have always felt that the most important thing for two people to be together is Being able to truly feel happiness... Zhaoyang, what do you mean by happiness?"

I was already numb, so I replied hesitantly: "Uh... happiness... happiness is probably an inner feeling."

"What you are saying is nonsense... Loneliness is also an inner feeling, but can it be generalized to happiness?"

I smiled awkwardly: "Then I...then I really can't tell."

"Happiness is a kind of companionship, mutual understanding in companionship, and mutual promotion of maturity; responsibility because of maturity, courage because of responsibility, and fearlessness of everything because of courage..."

"What you said is like a tongue twister, I can't even understand it."

"I believe you really don't understand... If you did, you and Weiwei wouldn't be where you are today."

"Yes, I am too unrealistic."

After saying that, I lit a cigarette and looked at everything in front of me dullly. At this moment, the wind was very strong, as if it was caught in my clothes. I subconsciously held the open leather jacket, but it was stuck by rivets. I felt a burst of pain, but I didn't flinch because of the pain. Instead, I tightened my grip on the rows of rivets until my palm was pricked and blood flowed out...

I suddenly wanted to defend myself, because I had worked hard, worked hard, and tried to do part-time jobs besides my job, singing part-time, and even doing some chores in the bar. Even though I knew it was a drop in the bucket, as long as Jian Wei I didn’t propose breaking up, I was trying my best to support...

However, Yan Yan didn't know when she hung up the phone.

So, I didn’t want to defend myself, but when I was about to finish my cigarette, I sent her another text message, telling her: Fangyuan’s efforts are worth it, because Chen Jingming and the company will soon promote him...

I have no intention of arguing with Fangyuan, I just hope that he and Yan Yan can settle down and live a good life in this city; therefore, when necessary, I can leave the company and leave Suzhou.

……

I came to the moat again, blowing the cold wind by the river alone, and watching the flickering light emitted by the landscape lights; those lights were wanton, illuminating the dead leaves on the ground and the flowing water in the river... …

I heard that this moat is connected to the Grand Canal. The Grand Canal leads to the Yangtze River. The Yangtze River flows to the sea. On the other side of the sea is Jian Wei. So, will these flowing water bring my mood at this moment to Jian Wei's heart? If there is some subtle feeling between us.

No more, no feeling left, so loneliness and loneliness occupy everything in my heart at this moment, and cigarettes and wine have become a kind of filling, filling my emptiness...

I've smoked half a pack of cigarettes and drank several cans of beer here.

It wasn't until someone sent me a voice request on WeChat that I put down the cigarette case and beer can in my hand. This is a voice call from Le Yao. If she doesn’t call me, I will call her. After all, she gave me a rivet leather jacket that I like very much. It is this rivet leather jacket that makes me think again. I have the desire to pick up the guitar again, so regardless of those prejudices, I should say thank you to her...

……

I didn't want to appear too melancholy, so after getting through, I smiled and asked her, "Have you arrived in Beijing yet?"

"I'm already here. Does that dress fit you?"

"It fits, it fits so well... I suspect you measured me with a ruler while I was asleep."

"Show me and answer the video call."

"How do you know I'm wearing it right now?"

"If you like it, you will definitely wear it."

After saying that, Le Yao hung up the voice call and switched to a video call...

I hesitated for a moment, then answered her video call, and then I saw her on the phone... She seemed to be living in a hotel and was wearing pajamas.

While I was observing her, she seemed to be observing me; then, her expression changed. She stared at the riveted leather jacket on my body and asked me with some uncertainty: "The rivets on your chest?" ...Is it blood?”