My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

Jane Wei once said that I am a very independent person, and the price of being independent must be that I am not understood; Jane Wei and I have been together day and night, and we have loved each other, so I believe this is A very objective evaluation forms a fact in one's heart; therefore, it is not that I am eager to be understood by others, but also because I am too maverick and unwilling to deliberately understand another person; based on this, I smiled and said to Le Yao who kept looking at me: "You don't even know what I like to eat, so you have to be the person who understands me the most in the world. Isn't it too psychedelic?"

"I know you like smoking."

"Don't use something as obvious as a basis for argument."

Le Yao curled her lips first, and then said to me seriously: "I know we have only met a few times, and I feel like I am talking in my sleep when I say such things to you... But what is needed to get along with others is quality, and It’s not the number of meetings…”

I wanted to refute, but Le Yao said again: "If you think what I said is wrong... If you have the ability, treat your colleagues and neighbors as brothers and sisters. Anyway, you are all under the same roof, and you can't see each other when you look up. "

"People are unpredictable, but I don't have the ability to do that."

"Then it's over. From now on, we will work hard towards this goal and direction..."

I still found it funny and added: "If you really want to set a goal for yourself, I think you should solve the livelihood problem first... I am afraid that you will get close to me now. You have already rubbed me the wrong way." Become a pauper!"

Le Yao looked at me with a half-smile, but said nothing, and I don’t know if she thought about the livelihood issue.

I still feel that she is different from ordinary people. She seems to have no sense of crisis in life and only cares about happiness and unhappiness in her temperament. To put it simply, it’s just casual, more casual than me!

At the very least, I still experience stress from work and self-doubt from relationships. I feel that there seems to be a little rift between me and Fangyuan, and this rift stems from the choice of values. Of course I know I have the flaws of an idealist, but he is too realistic!

……

I felt a little depressed, so I subconsciously took out the cigarette case from my pocket, but it was already empty. On this somewhat boring night, I seemed to have failed to control my smoking.

"Smoker, doesn't it feel uncomfortable when you want to smoke but don't have any?"

I looked at Le Yao and felt a little bit understood, so I nodded.

"Isn't it just a pack of cigarettes? Just wait..."

After saying that, Le Yao stood up and left the private room, then stood in the hall and looked left and right. When she saw someone smoking, she walked over...

She seemed to be negotiating, and after a while, she came back with a box of cigarettes. She handed the box of cigarettes to me and said, "There is half a pack left. Is it enough for a smoker like you?"

"Did you snatch it back? I saw that the man looked reluctant."

"I snatched it back, but so what? Who let him smoke in the hall? There are so many children in the hall, why should they inhale his second-hand smoke."

"Then you don't have to snatch his cigarettes away...if you meet someone with a bad temper, I'll beat you to death with three punches and two kicks."

"I'll say it again, I'm not afraid of death... I'm just afraid of being alone and having no one talk to me."

After saying that, she took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and stuffed it into my mouth. I lowered my head and nodded, and then said to her: "You still have to pay attention to your quality...this behavior is not good."

"Thank you in advance for your life-saving grace. As for the lost qualities... I will slowly get them back in the future."

After saying that, she sat back on her seat, then held her chin and watched me sucking on the cigarette. But I was confused. I was confused because I still didn't believe that such an action of mine would save someone. Life.

Life is so precious! If saved, it must be spectacular.

……

"Hey, I'm treating you to a meal and giving you some cigarettes. Can you stop looking so glum all the time?" Le Yao finally said when I put out the cigarette in the ashtray.

"Do I look depressed?"

Le Yao nodded.

"Okay, I'm really depressed."

"Tell me about it and make me happy."

I rolled my eyes at Le Yao, and while playing with the lighter, I said: "A few days ago, I went to the hospital to get an injection, and the person who gave me the injection was an intern. He took several injections in a row, but none... I was not happy. I asked her to change to someone else... As a result, she went out and put on a mask and came back..."

Le Yao laughed out loud.

I was not affected by her laughter, so I lit another cigarette and said, "Did you know? When I was in college, I studied advertising planning, and I also engaged in related work after graduation... I think, I still I kind of like this job... But some things that happened in the past two days have made me question my love a lot... I feel that the planning work I do every day is actually the face of that nurse. The purpose of wearing a mask... is to cover up a truth, to cover product defects that the merchant does not want others to know, or the motive is not purely profit-making, it is deceptive..."

Le Yao was still smiling, and after a long while, she said to me seriously: "If you have such doubts, then just quit... Anyway, this is not the only choice in life."

I closed my eyes and took a long drag on the cigarette, and I once again thought about going back to my hometown of Xuzhou.

"If you don't do this job, what are you going to do in the future... Or let me ask you this, is there anything you particularly want to do?"

I thought about it seriously and then replied: "When I was in high school, because I was more playful, until my senior year in high school, my grades were in the middle and lower reaches of the class... I don't know, my dad Are you kidding me? He told me that if you can't get into a key undergraduate program, don't force yourself to go to an ordinary university. He has a friend who has several stalls in the market and will rent one for me. I could sell pork or vegetables at the stall... I was quite reluctant at the time, because I didn't want my fate to be arranged by others, so I started working hard, studying day and night, and finally passed the exam. A decent undergraduate degree with a focus..."

"Suzhou University?"

"Ah."

I responded and said, "But now that I think about it, what's wrong with renting a stall to sell pork and vegetables? At least, I can live a simple life."

Le Yao echoed: "I don't think there's anything wrong with that. You know there's usually a pet market in the vegetable market... It's so healing to see those animals every day... I especially like pet dogs."

When I looked at her, I felt even more that she was a more neurotic person than me. I just thought about it and was quick to talk, but looking at her appearance, she really dared to take action.

Sure enough, she said to me again: "Zhaoyang, how about you rent a stall from your uncle to sell pork... I will open a pet shop opposite you and adopt some stray dogs and cats... Then you If you commit murder, I will help you atone... Treat it as what I owed you in my previous life, and I will repay it in this life... In this way, we can legitimately be the most important person to each other... Because if you leave me, you will be a sinner. person, and if I leave you, I will not be able to reflect my Bodhisattva heart."