My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

Fangyuan thought he understood me, but when faced with the "empty city" mode, I gave him such an "excessive" reaction, which left him unable to say anything in response; and I was also in his silence. , took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it to calm down his mood. I know that Fangyuan is a realistic person, and I can understand his reality to a certain extent, but I absolutely cannot accept his way of capital operation to touch the empty city of CC. That is a dream of mine, and one that can be realized in reality. The dream of staying neutral.

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Half of the cigarette in his hand had been smoked, and Fangyuan said to me: "Zhaoyang, we spent four years in college studying advertising planning. After graduation, we engaged in professional-related jobs. I believe you will never forget the essence and ultimate goal of planning..."

"Yes, the ultimate goal of planning is to gain profit... But planning should also have a way of planning... At least, you cannot take advantage of other people's kindness and feelings..." After a pause, I said in a deeper voice: "Fang Yuan , you listen to me... I feel that in this materialistic world, it is not easy to establish that little bit of pitiful feelings; it is the last fantasy in a person's heart before it becomes reality... If If this last bit of sentiment is used by others, then this person will inevitably go down the road of realism and never return... I don’t expect you to contribute to idealism, I just hope that you don’t turn planning into a plan. Use the sharp blade to drive us all away!"

I heard Fangyuan lighting up a cigarette. This is one of the few things we have in common. We both need to use cigarettes to relieve our emotions. After a long time, he spoke to me and said, "You are really a very contradictory person." , God gave you the talent for planning, but also gave you unreasonable idealism... I just hope that you will not feel too painful in this unbalanced contradiction..."

"Yes, I am already in pain...but it doesn't matter. I can drink to drown my sorrows."

"Well..." Fangyuan responded. After a long time, he made up his mind and said to me: "I can give up this plan, but the competitive pressure from both sides has already been put on the two of us, so you must hurry up and get the new year's goods. Before the holiday, come up with a plan that is comparable to Zhuomei... Our Baoli Department Store really cannot afford to lose... If a person can't even keep his job and job, then the so-called idealism is just a passing cloud. Shit!”

After saying that, Fangyuan hung up the phone, and I faced the boundless night and fell into deep thought... This kind of deep thought did not make me feel any gain or loss, it just made me fall into a deep nothingness. , sometimes I feel that I exist, and sometimes I feel that I have no roots under my feet, like a ball of gas, flying high into the sky, and finally collided with the "City in the Sky"!

It was at this time that I completely finished smoking the cigarette in my hand...

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I returned to my seat. Le Yao seemed to be a person who couldn't take any time off. The fog formed a barrier on the glass, and she scribbled on the barrier. Then she pointed at the pig head she drew and asked me with a half-smile: "Do you think this pig head looks like you?"

"How does it look like me? I'm so handsome that I'm almost falling apart."

"Why don't you look like a fat person when you make a swollen face?" After a pause, she continued: "I asked you to sing in a bar, but you didn't want to. You said you were a person with a serious job... but it turned out , I drank so much wine in the bar, and you showed your true colors...and your friend named Robben, who looked human-like, but turned out to be poorer than you!"

I picked up a piece of braised pork and stuffed it into my mouth. While chewing, I replied: "Actually, I can save a thousand or eight hundred dollars, which is pretty good; I just like this feeling of having wine tonight and getting drunk tonight..." My friend is even less reliable than me. If I can save two boxes of instant noodles at home, he can only save a jar of sauerkraut... However, as long as the two of us hang out together, it will be delicious... because of my bubbles. Noodles, plus his sauerkraut, can make a pot of Laotan sauerkraut noodles...haha!"

I don’t know if this sentence really hit Le Yao’s point of laughter. Anyway, she just laughed after me. After laughing for a long time, she leaned on the table again and said to me seriously: "However, I still want to thank you." You...you gave me the motivation to live."

"You are really good at bullshitting. We are not quick-acting heart-saving pills!"

"What I said is true... Before this, I had already thought of committing suicide because everyone and everything around me made me feel desperate... Especially my friend, I trusted her so much, but As a result, she sold off all the most valuable things in my luggage... How can I describe this feeling that is more desperate than despair?"

She thought for a long time, but couldn't think of the right words. Finally, she just frowned and said: "It was like the last straw that broke the camel's back... So, after I came out of that bar, all I thought about was how to die. ...But I am a person who loves beauty very much, and I don’t want to die too tragically, so I delayed dying...Then, I saw you in the snow..."

I looked at her, and she imitated me, picking up a piece of braised pork and chewing it while saying: "You were sitting in the snow, rolled up your trouser legs, and wiped the wound alone with medicine... At that time, suddenly There is a feeling of sympathy for each other... Because in this absurd world, we are equally lonely and helpless... So, I took the initiative to talk to you... If you are also a bad person, then I will treat this world... I really won’t have any nostalgia anymore... Fortunately, you are not... neither is Robben."

At this point, she seemed a little emotional, so much so that she stopped chewing the meat in her mouth, and lay on the table, sobbing softly.

But after all, I am a person who does not understand the style. I lit a cigarette, took a puff, and said: "Don't let these illusions blind your eyes... On my way back to check out for you, Robben and I I said, let me pay attention to whether there are any larger trash cans on the street..."

Le Yao was still crying, and while crying, she asked: "Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...Why did he ask you to pay attention to the trash can?"

"Pack you up and dispose of you harmlessly."

Le Yao straightened up, looked at me bitterly, and said for a long time: "Two beasts, with human faces and beast hearts!"

I looked at her, but didn't choose to respond. The reason why I didn't respond was because I knew that this was not what she was thinking in her heart. It was just a derogatory joke between friends.

Sighing softly, I looked at the outside world through the pig head she drew. It was dark outside, like the ruthless reality, which weighed heavily on my heart. I subconsciously pulled on my collar, trying to breathe. Smoother...

It was at this time that Le Yao walked from her side to mine, sat down next to me, then patted my arm and said: "...from today on, you are my best friend...I will Be the person who understands you the most in the world... and you should also be the person who understands me the most in the world... In this way, neither of us will be alone!"