One big and one small are practicing love

After saying goodbye to Sun Xinxin and coming out of the coffee shop, Zuo Kunmin drove home. As soon as he entered the house, he went straight to the study. Sitting at the desk, I couldn't wait to open the letter.

Teacher Zuo:

First of all, I want to say to you, ‘I’m sorry! ’, I left without saying goodbye again, and I still didn’t have the courage to face separation.

There are thousands of things I want to say to you, but I don’t know what to say after I pick up the pen. Maybe, there is no need to say anything more between us.

As always, every time I have a lot of things in my heart that I want to say to you, but I can't say them for various reasons, I just write them in my diary. Later I discovered that the things I wanted to say but didn’t say were just my wishful thinking and emotional delusions, not worth mentioning.

Let me say 'thank you' again. I can't repay the kindness and love you have shown me for ten years.

I don't like to owe anyone anything, but I really didn't have much ability when I was a child. I had to eat, wear clothes, and go to school. I didn't have parents, so I had to rely on your help.

My ability is still limited now, so I can only pay back the money I owe you first. I have recorded all my expenses over the years in a notebook. I packaged the clothes and school supplies that you, Teacher Wang, and your mother sent to me and sent them to other children in need.

I have returned the money and things to you. But I cannot calculate the kindness you have given me, and I don’t know how to repay it. Maybe I am destined to owe you something in this life.

Finally, I want to say 'no see' to you.

There is always an insurmountable barrier between you and me. I once dreamed of a breakthrough and worked hard with all my strength, but in the end I found that it was just my delusion.

You are the earth, and you have the mission of carrying all things and controlling the ups and downs of all spirits. I am an imperceptible speck of dust, floating in the wind and settling as it happens. You and I are very different, let us each return to ourselves.

I am reminded of a passage, "The sky does not understand the warmth of human kindness, and it is full of sadness to look at flowers with a cold eye." In the end, Zhuang Zhou dreamed of a butterfly, you are a gift and you are a calamity. ’

May we never owe, miss, or see you from now on. ’

Every word, Zuo Kunmin felt like his heart was being cut out with a knife. How could she break his heart like this? Why would she break his heart like this?

With a loud "crack", Zuo Kunmin kicked the heavy solid wood desk down with his kick. The desk lamp, computer, books, water cups, brown paper boxes, etc., hit the ground with a "clink" and were sparsely scattered. land.

Soon, someone knocked on the door, but before Zuo Kunmin could respond, the door was pushed open.

"Mr. Zuo, what happened?" Aunt Zhang walked in quickly in panic.

Zuo Kunmin stood up and turned his back, waved his hands, and said in a choked voice: "It's okay, you can go out."

Aunt Zhang looked at the messy ground, then at Zuo Kunmin's slightly trembling back, sighed, and walked away slowly with hunched back.

Immediately afterwards, the crisp childish voices of Zuo Yan and Zuo Xu came from outside the study.

"What's wrong, Dad? I just heard a big noise." Zuo Yan said.

"I want to go in and see dad." Zuo Xu said.

"Be good, don't go in. Dad needs to be quiet now. Muzi will be back from the training class soon. Come on, let's go to Mrs. Li's house." Aunt Zhang said.

Quietness returned outside the house, and Zuo Kunmin slowly calmed down. Suddenly she realized that the knife that hurt him was the same knife that he had stabbed her with again and again. She just showed him the bloody knife.

Thinking of this, a burst of rapid footsteps approached the study, and with a 'pop', the door was pushed open. He said anxiously: "Zuo Kunmin, why are you so crazy?"

Zuo Kunmin heard the sound and turned to look, it was Li Zhiming.

Seeing that Zuo Kunmin's bright black and white eyes were now red and swollen with tears, Li Zhiming's nose felt sore and his eyes were moist. I have known him for nearly twenty years, and I have only seen him lose his temper a few times. The first time was when Wang Luoxia passed away, the second time was when his father passed away, the third time was when his mother passed away, and this is the fourth time.

Thinking about it, Li Zhiming walked slowly to Zuo Kunmin, patted his shoulder gently, and said softly: "What happened, tell me."

Zuo Kunmin slowly raised his hand and handed the letter to Li Zhiming.

Li Zhiming took the letter with one hand, put Zuo Kunmin's shoulder with the other, half pulled and half dragged Zuo Kunmin to the living room, and pushed him to sit down on the sofa. Then he sat down, held the letter in both hands, and looked down at it.

After a while, Li Zhiming finished reading the letter, turned sideways to Zuo Kunmin, frowned and said: "During the Chinese New Year, Xiaoxiao was still at your house, and you two had a good chat. What happened, Xiaoxiao suddenly became so decisive?"

One sentence woke Zuo Kunmin up. He was indulging in this painful emotion, only blaming his small heartlessness and never thought about why it happened.

"I don't know." Zuo Kunmin answered truthfully.

"I understand that Xiaoxiao has a strong self-esteem and feels that she has owed you money over the years and needs to pay you back. But when she said she didn't want to see you again, it probably wasn't because she suddenly disliked you. Rather, she might have been in big trouble and didn't want to owe you more money. Many, so she wants to leave you and solve it on her own. Or maybe you did something that violated her bottom line, and she feels that she can neither blame you nor change you, nor can she accept it. "

Zuo Kunmin raised his head and took a deep breath, pondered for a long time, frowned and said: "During the Chinese New Year, I knew that Xiaoxiao still cared about my cheating, but he was not so determined to leave me forever. During the six months that I was in the UK, I only work every day, and I can say with a clear conscience that I have never done anything extraordinary. Maybe, during this period, Xiaoxiao really encountered some big trouble." As he said this, Zuo Kunmin looked nervous.

"Alas!" Li Zhiming breathed a sigh of relief and said: "You are finally a little bit rational. I don't know what to say about you two. You two are such good people and have a good relationship. How did you end up like this? If you are a little The novel said, you two are truly each other’s gift and each other’s calamity!”

"I'm thirsty, go get me a glass of water." Zuo Kunmin said suddenly.

"Huh!" Li Zhiming snorted, stood up and walked to the kitchen. After a while, he came over with two glasses of water. He gave one glass to Zuo Kunmin and sat down to drink the other one.

"Gudong, Gudong", Zuo Kunmin drank a glass of water in one breath, put down the glass, and asked: "Why did you suddenly appear just now?"

Li Zhiming was drinking water and quickly put down the water glass and said: "I just came back from taking Muzi to class, and saw Aunt Zhang coming to my house with Yanyan and Xiaoxu, saying that you are losing your temper right now, for fear of scaring the children. I didn’t know that something big must have happened to you if you were so out of control. No, I’ll be here right away.”

"Are you taking over Muzi? Where is Xiaorou? How is your relationship going now?"

Li Zhiming leaned back on the sofa and said lazily: "After that incident, Xiaorou said we would give each other another year. We both try to experience each other's roles, try to truly understand each other, and change the bad habits we realize. .”

Listening, Zuo Kunmin chuckled and said, "Interesting, what have you done?"

"Xiaorou founded a health club. In addition to taking care of Muzi, most of her energy is busy with her club affairs every day. I spend at least one day every weekend to accompany and take care of Muzi. Every week, Xiaorou and I spend time alone at least once or twice. , watching movies, chatting, hiking and so on. Although the gap between us is still not completely eliminated, it is getting better little by little."

After hearing this, Zuo Kunmin felt disappointed: "The older I get, the more I understand how difficult it is to have someone who truly understands and accompanies me. None of us are perfect, and relationships cannot be perfect. When problems are discovered, we should not take it easy. Give up on each other. It’s great to face emotional problems head-on and resolve them patiently like you do.”

"Okay, don't worry about our affairs. Let's go and solve the problem between you and Xiaoxiao. Let's find out what happened to Xiaoxiao recently?"

Zuo Kunmin immediately made an appointment with the person in charge of Liu Xiaochen's internship company, and after questioning, he found Zhong Sheng, the department manager who knew Liu Xiaochen's work status best.