One big and one small are practicing love

Liu Xiaochen slowly turned his head, looked at Sun Xinxin steadily, and affirmed: "Don't ask me about Teacher Zuo, I won't say anything."

"Liu Xiaochen, do you feel ashamed to talk about your relationship, or do you think your Teacher Zuo is so sacred? No one can comment."

Liu Xiaochen's eyes turned red, and he turned his head to look out the window and said, "I don't know what he and I are. Except for a few of you who know that I have been with him, no one around him knows that I exist. I I admire him, respect him, and love him very much, but I don’t know what he really is like.”

"Xiaochen, you and he are not the same person at all. Even someone as beautiful and outstanding as Teacher Wang can't control him, let alone you."

Liu Xiaochen turned around sharply, looked at Sun Xinxin nervously, and said, "How did you know?"

"You said that Teacher Wang died of breast cancer. I heard in the hospital that she got breast cancer because she was often angry. Think about it again, why did Teacher Wang hide such a big thing from being pregnant and sick? Traveling all the way to our small village to teach? There must be something wrong with their relationship."

Liu Xiaochen lowered his head, shed tears, and choked with sobs: "But at that time, I thought that Teacher Wang was too kind and selfless, and was willing to sacrifice his life for the sake of his children. He loved his husband too much, so he wanted to hide it."

"I thought so before, but after I got injured this time, I have a different view on life and many things. Xiaoxiao, do you know what I was most afraid of when I was injured?"

"Can't dance anymore."

"No!" Sun Xinxin looked straight at Liu Xiaochen and affirmed: "It's death!"

Seeing Liu Xiaochen's expression of concentration, Sun Xinxin continued.

"I suddenly fell to the ground while doing a side somersault. Before I lost consciousness, my only thought was that I was afraid of dying like this. Because when I was training for the art exam, I saw a girl in the class falling headfirst while practicing a backflip. She fell on the spot. Dead. I used to complain that I couldn't be the lead dancer, but now I realize that dancing itself is very happy. Whether you are in the center of the stage or how many people recognize it is not so important."

Suddenly there was a strong wind outside the window, the bare branches swayed violently, and the light and shadow in the house jumped rapidly. Liu Xiaochen secretly moved his eyes towards the pillow and stared intently at the exposed corner of the diary.

They talked a lot more. When we were children, we went to the back mountain to steal walnuts together. When we were young girls, we read novels together on the bed. We studied together at the desk every day. The current situation of our classmates... is meticulous, casual and cheerful. It's been a long time since they chatted so intimately.

Liu Xiaochen originally planned to stay in his hometown for four or five days and leave on the fifth day of the Lunar New Year. But Zhang Cheng only got tickets for the third grade of junior high school, and Liu Xiaochen had to leave early.

Before the sixth day of the Lunar New Year, there were no buses in the village, and it was not easy to take a taxi. Zhang Cheng drove to pick up Liu Xiaochen and took her to the county train station. This train could not go directly to Beijing and had to transfer to the city.

"Are you hungry? It's still early. Do you want me to take you to eat something first? All the big hotels in the county are open." Zhang Cheng said.

"No need." Liu Xiaochen replied without hesitation, looking at the tiny snowflakes outside the car window, and said, "After you see me off, I can go home early. There are instant noodles on the train, and there are also fast food restaurants open at the train station in the city."

"This is what you eat during the Chinese New Year?"

Liu Xiaochen looked away, raised his wrist to look at his watch, and said, "I only had breakfast at Xinxin's house at 9 o'clock. It's only 11 o'clock, and I'm not hungry at all. I'll eat well when I get to Beijing."

The car stopped and was stuck at an intersection. There were many cars returning to the village to pay New Year greetings during the New Year. The road was narrow and the cars were disorderly. As soon as they reached the intersection, there was a traffic jam.

Zhang Cheng turned to look at Liu Xiaochen and said, "Beijing is an empty city now, and Zuo Kunmin is not in Beijing either. Where are you going to eat?"

"Do you think I can only rely on Teacher Zuo for support? I can't live without him."

Zhang Cheng raised his voice a little and said: "Liu Xiaotu, can you stop being so sensitive? I never think that you are being kept by him, so don't put such a big psychological burden on yourself. Although I have always been negative about your emotions, I I have to admit that you did have a good love."

‘Beep~beep~beep~’ the car horn sounded suddenly, and the two of them looked ahead at the same time. The road was clear, so Zhang Cheng released the handbrake and continued to drive forward.

"Youth has had injuries, pains, and tears. It doesn't matter. It's better than nothing at all." Zhang Cheng drove the car, as if talking to himself, and continued: "But it's limited to this, Liu Xiaotu, don't If you look back, no matter how many times he comes to you or what he says."

Liu Xiaochen took a deep breath and said softly: "Don't worry, he won't be like you, looking back repeatedly after breaking up. He already has someone else by his side."

"He asked me for your bus information. He is back in Beijing. He will pick you up after you get off the bus." Zhang Cheng said calmly.

Liu Xiaochen suddenly turned his head, frowned at Zhang Chengjiu, and said angrily: "Zhang Chengjiu, what do you mean? Since you don't want me to look back, why did you tell him my information?"

With a 'squeak' sound, the car suddenly braked, and the two of them leaned forward at the same time due to inertia.

"Liu Xiaotu, all my vulnerable sides are exposed to you. You don't tell me anything, and you never take anything I say seriously." Zhang Cheng said, patting the steering wheel vigorously, red He said with eyes: "You love him so much, and I won't let you look back, will you really not look back?"

Liu Xiaochen's tears rolled down instantly. He turned away and looked out the window. Small snowflakes were falling, and the mountains, trees, and ground were all covered with a thin layer of white snow.

"Why don't you let me look back?" Liu Xiaochen asked chokingly.

Zhang Cheng took a deep breath and said calmly: "A few days ago, I found out that my mother has breast cancer, which is in the late stage."

Liu Xiaochen immediately looked at Zhang Chengjiu alertly and asked nervously: "How is Auntie doing now?"

"You know, my dad has always had other women outside, and they have come to the house many times to cause trouble. They often argue, fight, and throw things. After every fight, my mother cleans the house in tears. Now, my mother puts her I'm almost out of breath. Not only does my dad not feel guilty at all, but he hides even further." After saying that, Zhang Cheng looked at Liu Xiaochen with tears in his eyes and said: "Whether you love me or not, it's not that important. Life and health More important than anything else.”

Liu Xiaochen nodded heavily and affirmed: "Okay, I will listen to you this time."

As soon as he finished speaking, Liu Xiaochen's cell phone rang. When he looked down, he saw the familiar number. Although he didn't name it, he knew it was him.