Life is more than just living

Because he was happy today, Chen Xu cooked two more dishes. Lin Zhiyuan looked at the four dishes on the table and said, "It seems that I am in a good mood today!" Chen Xu nodded, "Yes, I have been in a good mood recently. I have a house, I have a job, a family, and friends. Life is like this, what more can I ask for?" After dinner, Lin Zhiyuan took the initiative to help wash the dishes, because he came to have a meal every week and was too embarrassed to do nothing.

Chen Xu helped Lin Zhiyuan make a cup of tea. Lin Zhiyuan leaned on the sofa comfortably, thinking of Chen Xu's words before the meal, and said, "It's great to be young, so easy to be satisfied." Chen Xu retorted: "What does this have to do with age? My brother said, happiness It is a kind of ability. I think happiness does not depend on how much you have. When people are unhappy, it is often not because they have less, but because they want more. People who have no money may not be unhappy."

Lin Zhiyuan didn't want to continue the argument, so he just said, "As long as you are happy." Chen Xu looked at him, "You want to have wind and rain now, what else is there to be dissatisfied about? People have to be content." Lin Zhiyuan smiled bitterly and said: "I thought of a sentence in "One Hundred Years of Solitude": 'All the brilliance in life will eventually be repaid with loneliness.' So, I am alone now, I guess it is the end I deserve! But I I don’t want to accept my fate, but I still want to struggle. So in order to have a meal with you once in a while, I shamelessly beg you.”

After hearing what he said, Chen Xu was stunned for a while, and then said for a long time: "You can't admit it like that. Although the book "One Hundred Years of Solitude" is quite famous, I can't read it. I remember Teacher Lin once said to me 'What winter takes away from here, spring will give back to you.' She said to me, this is what a foreign poet said. In fact, I don't care who said this, but it can encourage me and make me believe. What, this is the most important thing. I don’t know if Teacher Lin has ever said this to you, but now I give it to you."

Lin Zhiyuan drank tea silently, and Chen Xu refilled the water for him. Lin Zhiyuan drank three cups of tea before speaking again, "Chen Xu, sometimes I'm very jealous of you." Chen Xu was surprised, "Why are you jealous of me?" Lin Zhiyuan sighed, "To be precise, it's mostly envy. !You and my mother have been together for so long, and you believe everything she says unconditionally. When I was young, I was weak. I felt that my mother had done too much for me, but I couldn't bear it and always wanted to escape. I I thought that because I was independent enough and lived a good enough life, I could let my mother pursue her new life. I didn’t want things to go against my wishes. It is the cruelest thing to say that a child wants to be raised but not loved by his parents. Chen Xu, I am very grateful to you. During those six years , you rekindled my mother's hope. She not only saved you, but also saved her own beliefs and ideals. Now that she is alive in heaven, she should be relieved, because she did it, because of you And I did it. And people like me should live in endless regret and torture for the rest of my life. I don’t deserve happiness and joy."

For Lin Pei's death, Chen Xu once resented Lin Zhiyuan very much. Now listening to Lin Zhiyuan's words, she felt very complicated. Lin Zhiyuan is Teacher Lin's only flesh and blood, and she must really want him to be happy. So Chen Xu cheered up and comforted him, "Teacher Lin must want you to be happy. Your happiness is her biggest wish." Lin Zhiyuan stopped talking, but sat for a while before leaving silently.

Regarding Lin Zhiyuan's life experience, Lin Pei only told people twice: once when Lin Zhiyuan finished his high school entrance examination, he asked his mother where his father was. Lin Pei felt that his son had grown up and was ready to know the truth and could tell him. As a result, after telling him, Lin Zhiyuan still couldn't accept it, so he always avoided his mother; the second time was when Lin Zhiyuan injured his leader and was taken to the detention center, Lin Pei looked for help everywhere. Because Li Na's mother gave an ultimatum, threatening Li Na to abort the child and not marry Lin Zhiyuan. Lin Pei returned home exhausted that day, and Chen Xu stayed with her. That day she told Chen Xu about that past. In the late 70s, Lin Feng caught up with the last batch of people going to the mountains and countryside, but his mother was unwilling to let him suffer as he just graduated from junior high school, so his half-mother Lin Pei had to take his place. My younger brother went to the countryside.

When Lin Pei got there, he discovered that some educated youths were already trying their best to return to the city. As everyone left, there were fewer and fewer people in the educated youth spots. Since Lin Pei was the last to leave, he had to wait until the last group left. In the end, she and another young man, Wu Jianguo, were the only ones left in the entire educated youth spot. Wu Jianguo's family background was not good, and he had no hope of returning to the city, so this almost forgotten man and woman came together in the educated youth spot. Since both Lin Pei and the others graduated from high school and were assigned to work as teachers in the village's primary school, they felt that since there was no hope of returning to the city, they might as well take root in the countryside. Since Lin Pei's mother had passed away long ago, her stepmother ignored her, and her father usually didn't care much about her. Lin Pei and Wu Jianguo decided to start a family in the countryside, because many educated youths in the educated youth spots could not find jobs when they returned to the city, and it was not easy to be employed at home. Just when the two were preparing to get married, they encountered strong opposition from Lin Pei's father. First of all, he felt that Wu Jianguo's family background was not good, and he was afraid that he would be implicated in any sports activities in the future. The second point was that once they got married, Lin Pei would Pei cannot return to the city. He asked Lin Pei to be patient a little longer, but that was not enough. When he retired in two years, he asked Lin Pei to take over and return to the city.

But his father's opposition can't stop the two young people from getting closer and closer. Lin Pei couldn't get his household registration book and had been unable to register his marriage. The surrounding villagers said to Lin Pei: "As long as you have a ceremony, you are married. This is what most rural people do. After the ceremony, everyone will recognize you as husband and wife. Besides, when you two have children, your father will I won't object, won't it be the same if I register again then?" The two people agreed. Witnessed by the surrounding villagers, Lin Pei and Wu Jianguo held a simple wedding ceremony and settled down in the educated youth spot. Lin Pei became pregnant soon after.

Just when the two people were looking forward to a better life, something unfortunate happened. On his way to the supply and marketing cooperative to buy cans for Lin Pei, who was about to give birth to a child, Wu Jianguo encountered some hooligans teasing a teenage girl. Wu Jianguo roared when he saw injustice on the street, and several hooligans pointed the finger at him. Wu Jianguo was injured after being beaten, and he resisted desperately. At this time the little girl took the opportunity to escape.

Someone called the police and reported a fight, so both parties were taken to the detention center. Lin Pei thought that it was just a fight at best, and he would release it after finding out the facts. Unexpectedly, only two days later, I received a notice from the detention center saying that Wu Jianguo had committed suicide in fear of being punished. Lin Pei was about to shed tears. She did not believe that Wu Jianguo, who was full of longing for a new life, could commit suicide, but no one paid attention to her. Lin Pei, who was about to give birth, had to bury Wu Jianguo silently.

After hearing the news, Lin's father rushed over to visit Lin Pei and wanted to take her home, but the prerequisite was that the child must be aborted. Lin Pei's attitude was very firm and he would keep the child no matter what. In Father Lin's view, not registering means being unmarried, and giving birth to such a child while unmarried is something Father Lin really can't accept. He was so angry that he almost fainted and broke off relations with her in anger. Lin Pei was the last one to return to the city. It was very difficult for her to make a living with her children. Her father hated her for being disobedient. When he retired, he did not let Lin Pei take over, but gave the opportunity to his son Lin Feng. In order to support his children, Lin Pei found various jobs. When he really couldn't put food on the table, he even sold blood more than once. Later she was admitted to a normal school. I took my child to school and put my child in a farmer's home near the school. I saved part of the bursary from the school, plus the money I earned from selling blood, to pay for the care of the family who looked after the child. Three years later, after she graduated and was assigned to work, she took her child to her. Lin Pei loved Lin Zhiyuan very much. Although Lin Zhiyuan did not have a father, he was optimistic and cheerful, and it was better to learn sports well. During this period, some people also pursued Lin Pei, but she rejected them all. Because Lin Zhiyuan studied in his mother's class when he was a child, no one ever questioned his life experience. It wasn't until he entered junior high school that he encountered such trouble. At the end of the high school entrance examination, Lin Pei was unable to explain or make up any more questions, so he told him the truth. Lin Zhiyuan couldn't accept it from the bottom of his heart, so he slowly alienated his mother. He even went to live on campus in high school and rarely went home when he was in college.

Lin Zhiyuan is as upright, kind-hearted and has a heroic complex as his father. When he was in college, he studied law. After graduation, he was admitted to the Longcheng City Court. Unexpectedly, he was dismissed because he failed to pass the political examination. The reason was his father. That night, Chen Xu and Lin Zhiyuan both remembered this past incident.