Mr. Li, Madam, she is not guilty of death

Lu Tingchuan seemed to have figured it out instantly. He got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower, shaved off his beard, changed into clean clothes and went downstairs.

The servants downstairs are coaxing the two children. Yu Sheng and Yu Nian are crying again. The two children are no longer sleeping in the incubator. The flush from the newborn face has faded away. Now their skin is white and tender, and their facial features are more three-dimensional and clear. Daughter Yu Sheng and Shen Qing look very much alike. When they cry, their eyes are the same as her mother's, and the red ones are like rabbits.

Due to the fever a few days ago, the two children were spitting up milk, unable to sleep well, lack of nutrition, and underweight. Lu Tingchuan walked over to pick up the two children from the servant's arms, holding one in each arm.

The child who is not yet full moon is too young, and his body is soft and has the fragrance of milk. Lu Tingchuan didn't dare to hold it too hard. He held it stiffly for a few minutes and then let it go.

"I'll go pick Shen Qing back."

Aunt Lin thought that he hadn't woken up yet, and was living in a world where Shen Qing was still there.

"President Lu, you..." Aunt Lin sighed, "Miss Shen has already..."

"I know she's dead." Lu Tingchuan interrupted Aunt Lin's words hoarsely, "I know she will never come back, I know I forced her to death, I know she gave up her two children, Don't want me..."

In fact, he knows everything, even if he doesn't admit it, he also knows that there is no Shen Qing in this world, just like Shen Qing in his previous life died on his 20th birthday and never appeared again.

Shen Qing is a very stubborn person, it takes a long time to love someone, and she won't die until she hits the south wall. Lu Tingchuan's south wall has long since hit her to death.

Lu Tingchuan went to bring Shen Qing's ashes back. The Shen Qing who was held in his arms to look at the stars and the moon was now a handful of ashes, which would disperse if the wind blows.

He put the urn on the bedside of the bedroom, went to the yard outside to pick a bunch of baby's breath and put it next to the urn,

The whole room was empty, as if it lost its life all of a sudden, the line of sight was from the ceiling to the ground, from every plant and tree, to every piece of floor, furniture decorations...

Lu Tingchuan turned his head to look at the urn, and murmured: "Obviously you are gone, but I still feel that you are beside me, you are everywhere in this room..."

After bringing Shen Qing's ashes back, Lu Tingchuan completely changed himself. He no longer locked himself in the room to torture himself like before. He started going downstairs, eating and sleeping on time, and taking sleeping pills when he couldn't fall asleep to keep his spirits up. Take care of two children.

Aunt Lin felt relieved when she saw that he had come out, and began to teach him how to hold the baby, how to breastfeed the two children, what the baby's crying means, how to put him to sleep, change the diaper, and what to do if he spits up milk. deal with……

The talented and intelligent Lu Tingchuan suddenly became very stupid, and it took him a long time to learn it. He tried to hold the baby and feed him with a bottle, but he dared not move when he wanted to. He was as stiff as a wooden stake.

Aunt Lin comforted and encouraged: "It was like this at first, just get used to it."

After learning how to breastfeed the children, Lu Tingchuan began to learn how to coax the children and how to change diapers. He was still in a hurry, but as Aunt Lin said, people will only get better at it, just get used to it.

Seeing Lu Tingchuan carefully bathing the child, Aunt Lin wanted to cry again. As she got older, she couldn't help recalling those who were not alive.

Lu Tingchuan worked hard to raise his two children. He seemed to be more energetic than before and had more motivation, but only he knew that his heart was getting more and more numb.

After Shen Qing's death, he suffered from hysteria. From time to time, he felt the presence of Shen Qing beside him. The only way to treat this disease was to take medicine continuously. After taking the medicine, he would not have hallucinations.

Lu Tingchuan didn't want to take it but had to. Sometimes he wanted to indulge himself and stopped the medicine regardless, so that he could "see" Shen Qing every day.

But one time after he stopped taking the medicine, he actually lay alone in a bathtub filled with water, holding a knife in his hand. When the knife cut his wrist, he gradually woke up under the stabbing pain.

It was because he was ill again, he couldn’t die yet, not now.

Lu Tingchuan wrapped gauze around his wrist casually to stop the bleeding. The wound wasn't cut deep, so he could stop the bleeding by applying some medicine powder and wrapping it with gauze, but it hurt so badly that he couldn't hold the baby during this time.

The housekeepers and servants at home all looked at him with worried eyes, but Lu Tingchuan immediately hugged the urn on the bedside table, saying sorry, he didn't choose to commit suicide on purpose, he didn't listen to Shen Qing's words, he was just sick, I can't control my spirit.

"I'm sorry Ah Qing, I didn't mean it, I know you hate me, don't worry I won't die, I won't bother you at this time, I will take good care of the child, don't be angry..."

The villa will be cleaned after a while. Aunt Lin took out a mobile phone from under the sofa when cleaning the room. It was covered with a lot of dust. I don't know when it fell here.

Aunt Lin turned on the phone, there was electricity in it, and she went in without a password lock after turning it on.

The mobile phone page is very clean, the application software in it is divided into one window, and there is only one recording file in the middle, which makes it difficult for people not to pay attention.

Aunt Lin clicked in, and there was a long audio recording.

Aunt Lin clicked in, and Shen Qing's gentle singing voice came from inside, which was the song she coaxed the children to sing when she was there.

"The dark sky hangs low, and the bright stars follow each other... Bugs fly... Bugs fly, who are you missing..."

Aunt Lin couldn't help but feel sour when she heard the familiar singing. At this moment, a child's cry came from downstairs. Lu Tingchuan's hand was injured and it was inconvenient to hold him, so he could only gently push the crib to comfort him.

Aunt Lin quickly ran downstairs with her mobile phone, turned the volume of the mobile phone to the maximum, and the singing sound spread to the ears of the two children from far to near. The two children, who were still crying and not sleeping, gradually became quiet after hearing the familiar voice of their mother. down.

One month after Shen Qing died, the two children still remembered her voice.

No one knew when Shen Qing recorded the song. Hearing the familiar voice, Lu Tingchuan burst into tears instantly.

On the day he learned that Shen Qing died, he was in heart-piercing pain. He originally thought that it would be good if he got used to the pain, and he would be able to bear it even if it hurts again in the future.

But the heartache is increasing day by day. When you return to a familiar place and do familiar things, but there is one person missing, you may not feel it at first, but one day you suddenly hear what you have been thinking about day and night. The voice, the mood suddenly lost control, which is probably what Touching the Scenery is saying.

Empty chattering in the chest, obviously people are still alive, but like a walking dead, no one loves, no one hurts, no one speaks, no one shares, long-term sad despair.

This recording video lasted 15 minutes, 10 minutes were spent singing, and there was no sound in front of the remaining 5 minutes. Aunt Lin saw that the two children had fallen asleep and was about to turn off the phone when Shen Qing’s voice came from inside again. The difference from the gentle singing voice just now is that the tone is cold and without any emotion.

"Lu Tingchuan, next is what I want to tell you..."