Overturned Tower

Russell was fascinated by those light blue pupils.

He quickly realized his faux pas and lowered his eyes to look away.

"I was really surprised."

Delphinium nodded in satisfaction, and then said softly, "It's been more than a month since you came here. You've killed people, you've killed demons, and you've even met your ex-colleague who turned into a demon...but You seem to be mentally stable."

Hearing this, Russell suddenly understood.

Why did Delphinium suddenly pull herself out to eat.

It turned out that she felt that after she went to see "Hibernation" and saw the reconstruction mechanism, she must know the life experience of the inferior, and maybe also know the situation in winter... and then she would think wildly.

She was worried that Russell might be under too much mental stress.So I caught Russell here in advance, and didn't give Russell time to think about it, and wanted to enlighten him on his depressed psychology as soon as possible.

... No wonder the inferiors respect her so much.He came much earlier than the delphinium, but when he obeyed the delphinium's order and accepted the delphinium's reprimand, he did not see any resistance.

If it is said that everyone in the Special Operations Department has to receive Delphinium's psychological treatment...then she is indeed a well-deserved minister of the Special Operations Department.

But right now.

Russell couldn't help it, and asked subconsciously:

"The delphinium...how did you awaken your psychic power back then?"

In fact, as soon as he said this, he regretted it a little.

Russell analyzed the habits of others, allowing him to instinctively explore the psychology of the other party.

But usually he would endure this kind of unclean desire, and when he met the delphinium's eyes just now, he was a little lost, so he subconsciously leaked his true thoughts.

Delphinium doesn't seem to have much aversion to this, though.

She just smiled helplessly: "Sure enough, I guessed right... One of the components of your most irresistible desire is curiosity."

However, Delphinium did not hide anything from Russell.

Realizing that Russell wanted to know the answer to this question, she carefully organized her thoughts.

Under Russell's gaze, she spoke slowly and softly:

"I'm different from the bad guy, I don't have his painful background, and I don't have the lofty ideals of Winter Day... I'm just an ordinary person. A real ordinary person.

"My father is a worker and my mother is a writer. My family background is neither good nor bad; my academic performance is relatively mediocre, probably in the top third of my class. It was an ordinary school, and there was nothing very special about it. I am a genius, so it can only be regarded as an ordinary level. I usually don’t like sports very much. I like to read books, play games, read comics, animations and novels at home, and occasionally watch funny shows or variety shows...

"Such ordinary days lasted until I was 16 years old."

Delphinium murmured: "In my life, for the first time... I killed someone."

For the first time since seeing Delphinium, Russell saw the loss of calm and peace on her face.

Showing such strong shaken, sad and remorseful.

Chapter 15 Love Is Bad

"My spiritual traits are inherited from my mother. My father is a Ragdoll. He gave me blue eyes."

Delphinium softly recalled the past: "So compared to a normal Samoyed, my body will appear smaller.

"However, my grandpa is not a puppet cat, but a white long-haired cat. Because my parents are busy with work, I was brought up by my grandpa when I was very young...

"Grandpa's spiritual disease did not stop transforming until he was seven or eight years old, and then it became severe. This made him grow long, long white fluff all over his body, and the fluff became like a cat. .Looks like a long-haired cat standing upright.

"This kind of long hair is easy to get dirty and stick together. But grandpa loves to be clean and takes care of it almost every day...so he always exudes the fragrance of shampoo. It's like being in the sun after washing Like warming clothes. He is handsome when he walks against the wind, and the fluff all over his body is flying."

"Before I went to school, I loved lying in my grandpa's fur. He loved to hug me and explain some very boring Internet security knowledge to me by the fireplace, but because grandpa's voice was so gentle, it sounded like sleep. I was drowsy every time I listened to it, and I often fell asleep without knowing it. But every time I woke up, I would not catch a cold. Because my body is covered with grandpa’s fluff, and my body is covered with grilled Hot blanket."

She whispered and missed, and sipped the fruit tea that had become warmer.

Russell hugged the hot milk and listened quietly on the table.

There was a gentle heat in Delphinium's words.

Just listening to these words, it becomes as warm as leaning against the fireplace, next to a big fluffy cat.

"Until I was 13 years old, I lived with my grandfather. Later, after entering school, I moved into the school dormitory."

Having said that, she was slightly silent.

Russell also realized that...she was finally going to tell what happened when she was 16 years old.

"Your grandpa... has something happened?"

Russell had a vague premonition.

Delphinium nodded lightly: "There was an exam in school that day. I just finished the exam when I received a message from my father... saying that grandpa is critically ill, so let me go and see him quickly."

"... Critically ill?"

"Well, it's a complication of spirituality. Severe spirituality not only makes the body look like a beast, but also changes the internal organs. This kind of body structure change occurs when a person is young. There will not be too many problems when you are old...but after you get old, your immunity will be greatly reduced or wear and tear will be accelerated. This situation is fundamentally caused by the conflict caused by spirituality itself, which can also be said to be "life expectancy" Exhausted'.

"Grandpa fell ill in an instant. Just three days before he was critically ill, I went to visit him. At that time, his laughter was still full of energy...but it was only three days later, when I looked at him again When it came to him, he seemed to be deflated, and his face turned gray."

"Visceral failure should not be regarded as a terminal illness."

Russell asked softly, "It doesn't matter whether it's replacing the prosthetic body or directly performing resuscitation treatment."

"Yes, but what we didn't take into account ... is the cost of treatment."

Delphinium closed her eyes slightly after saying this.

Her voice became a little deeper: "Because the illness came so suddenly, no one thought that grandpa fainted because of this reason. So mom and dad sent grandpa to the 'Ampule Biomedical Technology Company' in the happiness The branch of the island is directly under the 'Hospital of St. Ampoule'.

"This is the hospital with the best treatment technology in the entire Happy Island, and it is also the treatment institution with the most correct attitude. It can even be said that they will 'unscrupulous' to treat patients efficiently. Including using some drugs that have not been approved for use, or bold and Radical prosthetic body transformation, even the use of psionic energy and the power of the Holy Order... as long as the patient can be cured, the means can be completely ignored.

"...However, Ampoule Medical has a basic principle. That is, once the patient is signed and sent in, the patient is not allowed to give up the treatment unless it is confirmed that it is impossible to treat; correspondingly, Ampoule Medical will do its best. It can extend the life of the patient. If the patient fails to be treated during the hospital period, half of the treatment fee will be paid.

"Grandpa's condition deteriorated very seriously and very quickly. In other words, he has actually accumulated pain for a long time. It's just that he usually likes to be patient and never shows his pain to others... so that when he finally found out Sometimes, even people with ampoules can hardly be rescued.

"So, a lot of money was poured into it like flowing water, but it was like an endless black hole. The family's savings were quickly used up, and then they sold everything that could be sold. Dad also went to a few friends to borrow debts .My mother worked harder, but she still couldn't fill this hole.

"Finally... Mom and Dad had a big fight when my college money had to be used.

"They were very affectionate, and that was the first time in my life that I saw them quarreling. The two got angry for no reason, cried, and smashed things. They were tearing at each other, but then they cried together.

"I wouldn't call it miserable. Calling it hopeless would be an understatement. But if I say...'darkness,' that's how I remember those days."

The delphinium's voice seemed to be covered with a layer of haze, and the beautiful ice-blue pupils seemed to lose their light.

Russell listened intently.

In silence, he moved slightly closer to the delphinium, and held the other's cold left hand.

And the delphinium said in a low voice: "At this moment, Grandpa finally woke up.

"His whole body became skinny. The original beautiful, fluffy white long hair became withered and yellow, like weeds. A lot of hair loss made his hair thin, revealing limbs like bamboo poles. I never Never thought he would become so skinny.

"And when he woke up, the first thing he did was to reprimand his father for sending him here. Although his voice was so weak that it was as light as a balloon, as if it would float away and explode at any time, his anger But it is so real and fierce.

"He quickly asked to forgo treatment. Naturally, this request was rejected by Ampoule Medical.

"Afterwards... when no one noticed, grandpa tried to pull out the instrument to commit suicide...but he was rescued shortly after passing out. Of course, the cost of the rescue was also included in the medical bill. At this time, the medical evaluation is still 'treatable', as long as you continue to treat for about five days.

"Up to now, in fact, only more than 20 days have passed. It sounds like the last five days seem to be easily reached."

Delphinium's voice was extremely soft: "But, the family really has no money left.

"Even my college tuition was put into it. This is the last money in the family. Mom and Dad can't borrow much anymore... When people know that this is to pay for ampoule medical treatment, no one dares to borrow it .

"Until finally, the father made a decision. He asked Ampoule Medical ... how much he could sell himself for if he sold himself."

"...Sell yourself?"

"As a test product. The Ampoule Group has a large number of needs for human experiments, and must 'voluntarily sign' a letter of authorization to allow it to be used as a test product. The authorization period is five years, but generally speaking, people live less than five years... …After death, the parts of the body will also be tested and used as materials for organ transplantation.”

Delphinium looked at the fruit tea with a habitual smile on her face.

Obviously that smile was no different from usual from every angle.

But Russell could only taste pure sadness in that smile.

"That day was August [-]th, my birthday. When I came back from part-time work, I saw my father bought a cake to celebrate my birthday.

"I knew immediately... what was going to happen next.

"I said...can I have a piece for Grandpa too? He likes cake the most.

"Dad was surprised, but reluctantly agreed. After seeing the cake, Grandpa was annoyed at first, but finally became confused. He ate the cake with a smile and told us that he didn't feel any pain for a moment. , and said that he would probably be discharged from the hospital tomorrow... In the end, he passed away naturally that night."

Russell suddenly felt that Delphinium subconsciously clenched his hand.

She picked up the lukewarm fruit tea and took a big gulp.

Then, she tried her best to calm herself down: "Grandpa thought there was poison in that cake, so he accepted his own death gladly. But there was no poison in it.

"Dad is a gentle and weak person, just like a puppet cat. He never thought of such a vicious method...

"Moreover, Ampoule Medical has the most advanced biomedical technology. They can detect all poisons. The idea of ​​escaping the consultation fee by killing the patient has already been practiced-in the end, it will not pay a penny less, and Men were imprisoned or exiled for murder.

"However, Ampoule Medical finally confirmed that Grandpa died not from any poison, but from natural causes. The state of health before that was back to normal. So Mom and Dad received a large amount of compensation, at least enough to pay off their foreign debts.

"...The irony is that although Grandpa died, there was a ray of sunshine in the lifeless family. Compared with sadness, Mom and Dad seemed to be relieved, and the family gradually had normal chatting, talking and laughing. It's not a quarrel.

"It's not that they don't love grandpa, it's just that this love is diluted by despair. In the end, the savings are still exhausted, and the family is left with nothing... But at least the debt is paid off. If you accumulate again, there is hope in life."

Delphinium said softly, "But they don't know. It wasn't that piece of cake that killed Grandpa...but my 'love'.

"I was so eager to end all of this. I hoped that my grandpa would not be in pain, that my father would not leave, that my parents would stop arguing... I hope that this could end as soon as possible. I hope that the past life can come back.

"The old life didn't come back in the end. But I awakened a psychic power—a psychic power called 'lethal love'."

Chapter No.16 Dislocation Relationship

Russell could probably imagine what was going on at the time.

Delphinium, who was only 16 years old, killed her favorite grandfather with her own hands with unshakable determination.

Before that, the ordinary life that was smooth sailing encountered sudden changes.Fall into the abyss without doing anything wrong.

"That was the most correct action I could do. But thinking about it now, I still feel regret and sadness."

Delphinium smiled helplessly: "If I were asked to choose again, after serious consideration, I'm afraid I would still do it.

"But that doesn't stop me from still suffering from it."

That is the "correct answer" approved by reason but rejected by emotion.Delphinium acts with that kind of rationality, yet the heart is still touched by sensibility.

It was a predicament where everyone acted with love and tortured each other...until everyone completely collapsed.

It's like trying to keep a machine running as before when a gear has become worn out and broken.

Although desperate, but not desperate to the limit.

So there is no way to hate, no way to be angry.

True sadness, love and killing intent are intertwined, but at the same time, there is absolutely no hatred or anger.Brewed in such a heart for a long time, "love to death" was born.

"...It really is only half a step away from the devil."

Russell was a little scared just listening to it.

Just listening to Delphinium's understatement, he felt the pain and despair.

Had it not been for Delphinium's strong mind and strong will, she would have degenerated into a demon long ago.

At this moment, when he looked at Delphinium's gentle and steady smile, Russell felt a little more about the weight of this smile in his heart.

... No wonder, delphinium's smile and words are always reassuring.

Because that is not a carefree and innocent smile.It is a complex smile that has experienced despair, abandoned a lot, and finally reached the other shore.

"So, how did you awaken the psionic power?"

Delphinium asked softly.

But Russell was silent.

That's not "don't want to say", but "don't know".

In fact, he himself doesn't know what his original desire is.

Compared with the origin of the inferior and the life of the delphinium, Russell's own pain seems so insignificant, whether it is in the past life or in this life.

In front of the delphinium, he suddenly felt ashamed—it was the hesitation caused by the unspeakable suffering.