ordinary human life

Looking up at the sky, the blue sky, the clouds are light and the wind is light.

This is completely different from her impression, in which the sky is always gray, and after a rainy day, because of the washing of the rain, the corners of the walls are covered with slender soot.

So she doesn't like this city, she thinks of ways to escape from this city.

"Didi." A taxi stopped in front of Tian Tian.

Tian Tian didn't think much, opened the car door and got in.

"Excuse me, where are you going?" the driver asked.

Tian Tian was stunned when she heard the words, she was silent for a long time before saying an address.

Because she had forgotten where her home was, she only said the name of an intersection.

The driver master quickly sent Tian Tian to the destination.

Standing at the intersection, looking at the desolate Semufeng on both sides of the road, Tian Tian was in a trance.

In the past 20 years, she has walked this road countless times.

Although it is winter now, but the appearance of autumn unconsciously emerges in my mind, green, red, yellow...

I didn't think it before, but now I suddenly find it so beautiful.

Tian Tian dragged her suitcase and walked slowly along the side of the road.

As she walked, she looked around.

The original vague memory gradually became clear.

Everything around her basically remained the same, it was still the same as when she left, making her feel a little dazed as if it was just yesterday.

She even remembered the scratches she made on the wall with a pencil sharpener when she was a child. Although it has been painted with a layer of white plaster now, the scratches left on the red bricks are still clearly visible where the white plaster fell off. .

She caressed gently, as if returning to her childhood.

"Tianniu, hurry up, what are you dawdling behind? Your mother has cooked dinner and is waiting for us at home."

In a daze, she saw a tall and straight middle-aged man in front of the road, pushing a black [-]-bar, turning around and greeting her tenderly.

"Come right now." She said in a trance.

But when the words came out of her mouth, she realized that everything was just her illusion.

She put down her hand and continued to move forward with her luggage.

The buildings on both sides of the road were so familiar, which made her feel unexpectedly friendly, but also made her timid.

She didn't know how to face her parents, how to explain to them why she didn't come back after so many years.

It's not all because of Xu Guodong, it's all because of him that I don't want to come back. Tian Tian excused herself like this in her heart, and then she became more relaxed.

The more she thought about it, the more she felt that there was nothing wrong.

She's always been like that.

After finding an excuse, she was no longer timid, and her steps were much lighter.

"Is anyone home?" Tian Tian shouted standing outside the courtyard gate.

She looked around and felt that it was not much different from what she remembered, except that it was a little older.

After waiting for a while, no one answered.

So he asked loudly again: "Is there anyone?"

This time someone finally answered.

A very old voice.

He asked tremblingly, "Who is it?"

But although the voice was old, it was extremely familiar, so Tian Tian immediately replied subconsciously: "It's me."

Then he reacted, and quickly added: "I am Tian Tian."

"Tian Tian?" The old voice in the room was puzzled, surprised, and joyful.

Soon the courtyard door was opened, and an old man with a stooped body appeared in front of Tian Tian.

Looking at the old man in front of her, even the heartless Tian Tian couldn't help but feel her nose sore.

"mom."

She was full of emotion and cried out in an extremely complicated manner, she didn't know how to express her mood at this moment.

Some happy, some sad, maybe some guilt...

"Tian Tian?"

Xu Lanying squinted her eyes and asked expectantly.

Her eyesight was not very good when she was young, and it is even worse now.

"Mom, it's me, I'm back." Tian Tian said with a sour nose.

She hadn't seen her mother grow old like this.

Xu Lanying approached and finally saw Tian Tian's appearance clearly.

It was her daughter who was right, except that she was a little more mature, she was no different from the past.

"Just come back, come in quickly." Xu Lanying grabbed her hand and pulled her into the yard.

Tian Tian raised her head to look at the jujube tree in the courtyard, which was even bigger than she had imagined.

"Have you had lunch yet?" Xu Lanying's voice interrupted her thoughts.

"I've eaten." Tian Tian came back to her senses and said hastily.

"I've eaten." Xu Lanying seemed a little disappointed.

"Then you sit down first, I'll pour you a glass of water." Xu Lanying said again.

"Mom, don't worry, where's my dad?" Tian Tian asked casually.

"Your father?" Xu Lanying froze for a moment.

Then he quietly said: "Last year has already passed away."

"Go...go?" Tian Tian asked with a pale face.

She had a vague premonition, what happened that day, she always thought that day was just her hallucination.

Is it really the father?

Is it to blame her for not coming home for so many years?

"How did Dad get away?" Tian Tian asked palely.

"When people get old, they will leave naturally." Xu Lanying said with a very flat expression.

Then he said: "You sit down first."

Then he staggered back to the house to pour water for Tian Tian.

Tian Tian sat on the wicker chair that Xu Lanying sat on before, and she didn't know what to think.

Until Xu Lanying came out with an enamel jar.

"Drink some water, it's warm, just take a sip." Xu Lanying said carefully.

Tian Tian reached out and took it.

Looking at the enamel jar in his hand, which looks like alopecia areata because the ceramics have fallen off, he finally couldn't help but feel sad.

Xu Lanying took a small stool from the room and sat beside her quietly watching her.

"Mom, what are you doing?" Tian Tianyu asked in a tearful voice.

"It's nothing, I haven't seen you for many years, and Mom just wants to see you." Xu Lanying said with a smile.

"Mom, why don't you say and scold me?" Tian Tian asked.

She had already thought of the reason, but Xu Lanying didn't mean to blame her at all.

"Blame you, what's the use of scolding you? After all, you live on your own. I'm old and my days are numbered. I'm content to see you again." Xu Lanying said plainly.

"Mom." Tian Tian finally couldn't bear it anymore, hugged Xu Lanying and burst into tears.

"Okay, how old are you now, don't be the same as when you were a child." Xu Lanying patted her on the back lightly.

"Mom, I'm sorry..." Tian Tian cried.

"You are my daughter, what do you have to say sorry to me." Xu Lanying said.

"I'm disobedient, self-willed and selfish, let you and my dad..." Tian Tian cried.

"That's because we didn't teach you well, it's our responsibility, so you didn't feel sorry for us, but Guodong..."

"Mom, is Xu Guodong...he...is he still teaching at school?" Tian Tian asked, letting go of her mother.

"It's been gone for a long time. Not long after you left, he resigned and went back to his hometown." Xu Lanying said.

Tian Tian breathed a sigh of relief when she heard this, she was really a little afraid to see him.

At this moment, Xu Lanying said again...

Chapter 837 Alive

"However, he will come to see us every month, but today is the Lantern Festival, so I don't know if he will come." Xu Lanying said.

"Why is he here?" Tian Tian looked a little excited when she heard this.

Xu Lanying just glanced at her indifferently, and then said: "We are old and need someone to take care of us. Thanks to Guodong these years, I don't ask you to have a conscience, but don't hurt people with a conscience."

"Mom, I don't mean that."

Tian Tian also knew that she overreacted, so she hurriedly explained.

"Do you mean that, you know it in your heart, and you don't need to explain anything to me, and you have no right to accuse Guodong."

"Mom, just look at me like this." Tian Tian said a little unconvinced.

"How can you make me think of you? What do you think you have been doing all these years?" Xu Lanying became slightly angry, and her voice became much higher unconsciously.

Tian Tian opened her mouth to refute.

But it was stopped directly by Xu Lanying.

"Okay, let's not talk about this, I'm glad you can come back, this time, how many days will you stay?"

"I...I..." Tian Tian didn't think about this question at all.

"Ah~"

Xu Lanying sighed, stood up and said, "Let me clean up the room for you."

After speaking, she turned and walked into the house, Tian Tian stood up and followed in, ready to help.

"Your old room is still reserved for you, but now there are some things, just move them away." Xu Lanying explained.

Tian Tian didn't speak, because he saw a black and white photo hanging on the right wall of the living room, and his face was pale.

This is the portrait of Tian Jiapeng.

What frightened Tian Tian was that Tian Jiapeng's portrait looked exactly like the old man she met during her morning run that day.

She felt that the father in the portrait was staring at her.

Hearing that there was no movement behind, Xu Lanying turned her head and asked doubtfully, "What's wrong?"

"Dad... Dad..." Tian Tian stammered and pointed at the photo frame, unable to complete her sentence.

"Oh, this one, Guodong asked someone to draw it, it's really intentional."

Xu Lanying looked up at the person on the photo frame, eyes full of longing.

Tremblingly, she picked up the incense sticks under the photo frame, took out a few sticks, lit them and handed them to Tian Tian, ​​saying: "Bring a stick of incense to your father, he will still miss you until he dies."

Tian Tian took Xiang over trembling, Xu Lanying gave her a strange look, thinking she was sad.

"When people get old, they will die eventually. Don't be too sad." Xu Lanying comforted.

But comforting seemed useless, Tian Tian was too "sad", and she didn't tremble so much that a stick of incense suddenly broke from it.