Farmer’s Blessed Girl

Yin or knew that he was different from other children since he was a child, because he was like an ice cube in summer, he had to be carefully cared for and prevented from heating up.

It seemed like every day was in danger of melting.

Everyone wanted him to live, grandma, father, sisters, but no one ever asked him if he wanted to live.

Yin probably didn't want to at all.

He doesn't feel the fun of living, he only feels the pain, in this world, he has no friends, and there will be no friends;

He has relatives, but the love they give him makes him almost breathless. Sometimes he even doubts whether they love him or his status as a descendant.

When he couldn't sleep at night, he wanted to kill himself more than once. He thought of many ways, but he didn't need to hang himself, cut his wrists and take medicine. If the medicine is poured out, he can achieve his goal.

In fact, he also did this before, but the result was that the person who served him was locked in the yard and severely punished. If he hadn't heard the movement and drove out, he was so frightened that he coughed violently, almost coughing his life out, and the person who served him The boy was afraid that he would be beaten to death.

But since then he has understood that his life is not only his own, but also the lives of those around him.

He could die without caring about the sadness of his family members, but he couldn't care less about the life and death of those around him, especially Changshou was chosen by him personally, he was his man.

So he felt that being a human being was boring. In life, he couldn't fight against heaven; in death, he couldn't fight against people. Life and death cannot be decided, and it is the first time in the ages to be a human being.

He was already prepared to live his life according to their arrangements, but in the end, he was still a little unwilling.

After finally becoming a human being, why would he be trapped in this small courtyard even when he was about to die?

So when he was preparing to marry him at home, he spent a lot of effort to persuade his family to send him to the Imperial College to study.

He doesn't want much, he just wants to go out and see other people, other places, anyway, he has to let his heart know that he has lived in this world.

Even if it's only two years, or even a year.

So for the first time, Yin or went out of the house regularly to go to the Imperial College to go to school.

Although it will increase the load on his body and it is uncomfortable to get up every day, but he is not tired of it, which makes him feel alive.

He could feel that the doses of medicines that had been sent recently were getting bigger and bigger. They were waiting, waiting for his body to recuperate to the best level, and waiting for him to find the right person to marry him, and then get married and have children...

Once a child is born, his mission of staying in this world in this life is considered complete.

Yin probably thought that he would live every day as if it was his last. Before he entered the Imperial Prison, he never expected to meet people like Bai Shan, Zhou Man, and Bai Er.

He knew that many people out there hated him, they wouldn't make friends with him, or even associate with him, and he knew why.

It never occurred to him to make friends either.

Make friends...you will be sad when your friends die, right?

So it's boring, since we all know that we have a short life, why do we bother to make friends?

To cheat a tear?

When Yin or himself was emotional, whether it was sadness, anger, or shame, as long as his emotions fluctuated, tears would flow down uncontrollably. He hated this kind of himself very much, and he once reformed with Changshou in private.

But when he was emotional, he would cry. He tried his best to hold back the redness of his eyes, but his emotions would become more agitated, and he would faint dizzily in the end.

He thinks those standing opposite him should be more afraid of fainting than crying?

So he had no choice but to not change. Anyway, for him, face or something, he can't even be considered a human being, so what face is there?

But still very angry.

Especially because of him, his sister always went to trouble those people, not only angry, but also ashamed.

He even had the idea of ​​not going to school anymore, but when he thought about it, this was an opportunity he fought for with his life, why didn't he go?

He thought that the "struggle" with Bai Shan would end up like the previous ones, with Bai Shan being defeated by his older sisters and finally keeping away from hostility to him, but he didn't expect that his senior sisters and juniors would come to him.

What's more, he didn't expect that his senior sister was a young lady younger than him, obviously younger than him, but when she saw him, she looked old-fashioned. After seeing him, instead of scolding and insulting him, she spoke to him sincerely. , "You are sick, this is a disease, it must be cured!"

Yin Or's eyes were red at the time, and he thought she was swearing, but after a pause, she realized that it was not, she was just stating that she really thought he was sick.

It was the first time someone said that he was crying because he was sick, and Yin looked at her curiously.

For many years afterward, whenever thinking of their encounter, Yin would be thankful for his rising, otherwise he would not have gone to the Imperial College, nor would he have met Bai Shan, and thus met Zhou Man and Bai Er.

He even thanked his sisters a little, if they hadn't stopped Bai Shan, the four of them probably wouldn't have had so many interactions.

Since then, for the first time, Yin felt kindness from outsiders and the feeling of being treated equally.

It turns out that being treated without "pity" like this makes people so happy.

He was very happy that he had made friends. For the first time, he felt that it was a good feeling to be alive.

Whether it's Bai Shan, Zhou Man or Bai Er, they are all healthy. They can not only run and jump, cry and laugh wantonly, but they can also trap people with sacks...

Being human is so much fun.

For the first time, Yin may have the idea of ​​living for himself. He wants to live, not to carry on the family line, but to live according to his own ideas, even if he dies early, he is willing.

Many times, he wanted to talk to Bai Shan, he wanted to give him longevity, he had already pretended to be a deed, but he just couldn't give it away.

After all, he wasn't courageous enough, and he couldn't say that to his grandmother's expectant eyes.

In the end, Zhou Man made the decision for him and told him, "As long as you don't get married and take good care of your body, I can make you live for many years, really."

With this reason, Yin Ru was finally able to tentatively talk to his grandmother.

It's a pity that grandma doesn't trust Zhou Man, no, she probably doesn't trust him.

Yin Ju made the third most daring decision in his life. He poured out the medicine made for him at home, went to drink the medicine made by Zhou Man, and accepted her injection...

This was probably the second most correct decision he made in his life.

It was also from that day that he deviated from the path chosen by his family, and it became more and more deviant until he was able to follow his own ideas completely.

Yin Ju once asked his father, "Don't you blame me?"

Yin Li shook his head: "No blame, as long as you are alive."

Yin He asked with red eyes, "Then why didn't you think so before?"

Yin Li said helplessly: "I used to think so too. I thought you lived the best life like that. I didn't know you lived so hard like that."

The extra episode is coming to an end. Recently, I am working on the information and outline of the new book, so there is not much in the world. I will update two chapters every day in the future.