Endless Debt

It was quiet all around, as if from a certain moment, the room where Boluogo was in had been stripped away from the world. In this small world, there was only him and the diaries in front of him, which spoke quietly. past.

The familiar handwriting came into his eyes, and it was like warm water soaking through Boluogo's body. Every inch of his nerves were relaxing, and even his tense muscles were relaxing.

I don't know when, but my restless heart calmed down for the first time in a long time.

Everything fell into tranquility.

Boluogo has always felt that Adele has a kind of magic. She is so kind and friendly, and just by being around her, he can feel the warmth like the sunshine.

After Adele's death, Bologo hadn't felt this way for a long time. Sometimes Bologo would wonder if he was pursuing the evil man so stubbornly just for the sake of inner peace.

Boluogo is unable and unqualified to become a person like Adele. Such a person is too dazzling. Adele always has a sense of salvation and uses her mortal power to save more people in suffering.

Sometimes Borrogo would jokingly ask whether the statue of Our Lady of Salvation was carved in Adele's likeness.

Adele didn't like such jokes and told herself seriously that anyone could be one, it wasn't fixed.

She is an old guy, and has become a little stubborn and rigid, but the years have not changed the beauty in her heart. Boluogo feels that in Adele's eyes, he may also be a lost lamb, waiting for her to save.

Boluo Ge couldn't be as noble as her. All he could do was punish those who caused suffering and drive away all the evildoers.

He is only good at violence, but cannot learn Adele's gentleness.

Sometimes Boluogo really admired Adele, as if if she stretched out her hand, even the most heinous criminal would sincerely repent in front of her.

"But we can't be too merciful, Bolog."

Adele's voice sounded, and Boluogo lay on the sofa holding the diary.

Memories and words are intertwined and woven into a confusing fantasy.

Boluogo couldn't remember the specific time, but he still vaguely remembered the scene at that time. Just like he was lying on the sofa now, he was also lying on the hospital bed like this at that time, with one after another tied to his chest. bandage.

The noise of the city disappeared, replaced by the violent sound of cannons, roars and gunshots.

The enemy raided the camp at night and fighting broke out at every corner.

The fire was lit, and Bologo in the camp could see those figures through the firelight. They were like twisted monsters, waving their fangs and claws like a doomsday carnival.

Adele was beside him. When she said these words, she was still loading the gun in her hand. In Boluogo's eyes, she had always been a weak military doctor. Qi, sharp as swords, spears and halberds.

"I thought you didn't like weapons. This is a deadly weapon."

Borlog gasped, a sharp pain shooting through his chest every time he spoke, as if a blade was stuck in it.

"First of all, you need to hold a sharp sword in your hand, and secondly, you can calmly talk to people about kindness and forgiveness."

Adele threw a gun at Burlogo.

"Goodwill without force will only allow others to bully you."

At that time, Bologo felt as if he had gotten to know Adele all over again.

"I was chatting with Moore before. If there was a war, would you scream and jump into our arms to seek our protection?"

Boluogo gritted his teeth and turned over, grabbing the firearm thrown by Adele.

Not long ago, a cannonball exploded next to Boluogo. When he woke up, he was in this hospital bed. Not only was his body in severe pain, but his vision was also affected. The world in front of him was blurred together, as if he had been A water-stained oil painting.

The large blocks of color are spliced ​​together, like a mental patient's dream turned into reality.

"What now?"

Adele came over and pulled Boluogo up, carrying him on his shoulders. The two of them staggered forward.

"I feel like the roles have been reversed. This hug is really powerful."

Boluogo began to talk nonsense, and in Adele's arms, he actually felt a little bit like a bird.

There were gunshots everywhere and flames were burning. Fortunately, he had been a soldier for a while, and he had begun to feel numb to this fatal situation instead of screaming.

"Your reaction really surprises me. I always thought that believers like you were quite hypocritical and bad people," Bologo said.

Adele replied as she pulled the trigger and shot an enemy across the tent, blood soaking the cloth.

"This also depends on the situation. If it is in church, I will talk to them about justice and mercy, and sing praises to God's love and glory.

But now we are on the battlefield, and everyone is already red-eyed to kill. Do you think those who are red-eyed to kill can listen to any prayers and poems? Don't be ridiculous, Borogo.

Not to mention, if I pray with my hands, you guy will fall! "

Adele tried her best to support Boluogo. She was a head shorter than Boluogo, but she firmly supported this embarrassed body.

Boluogo's consciousness was a little blurry and he could only nod vigorously, strongly agreeing with Adele's words.

He thought, if he could survive the night, it would not be impossible to listen to Adele talk about her complicated teachings, let alone go to the church to do volunteer work. If allowed, Boluogo would like to have sex with Adele. Let's prepare Holy Communion together.

After living for so many years, he felt the glory of God for the first time.

In the dark night, Bologg felt a holy light shining on his face. In this fatal situation, this light burned Bologg to tears.

The noisy sound gradually faded away, and gradually, in the silence, only the sound of Boluogo turning the pages was left.

Every time I turn the page, the scenery in my memories changes, the dates keep changing, and the years slowly advance.

Burlogo once thought that Adele was transcribing prayers late at night. In fact, she was just keeping a diary. She continued the habit of keeping a diary until her death not long ago.

Each diary is so thick, recording every day and every second that Adele has experienced. Looking at the diary in the suitcase, Boluogo understands why Lawson is reluctant to part with it.

This was a record of his mother's life, and now he had handed it over to himself. The more he read it, the more he could feel the weight of this gift.

He just looked through Adele's diary, from the time Adele joined the army to the end of her long military career, she started a new life and said goodbye to the old place.

She has traveled to many places and finally returned here.

This feeling is amazing, like another person completely revealing her life, without reservation or concealment, because she knew from the beginning that her life was upright and bright, and she couldn't help it. Afraid of anyone's gaze.

Boluogo felt that he was no longer reading a diary, but more like reading a person's self-confession.

Unknowingly, the sky had darkened. Boluogo sat on the sofa. After reading one diary, he closed it and put it aside, and then picked up another one.

Adele didn't talk much about the past to herself, but now Bologna had seen everything from her diary.

After the war, Adele withdrew from the army, but she did not return to her hometown. Instead, she stayed in the scorched ruins with the troops of the Rhine League, and worked with many people to rebuild the city.

After the baptism of war, Adele became mature and stable. She continued her duties as a doctor and helped many people who were devastated by the war. Soon after, a new city was built on the ruins, and it had a new name.

Oath City Opos.

After the city was founded, Adele continued her good deeds. She rarely mentioned her military experience to anyone, and few people knew that this pious doctor had such an experience.

The contents of the diary that followed became trivial, filled with daily life and messy interpersonal relationships, and Adele complained more.

"Instead of using words and actions to save some people, it is better to just give them a bullet. If such people live in the world, they will only make everyone unhappy."

"Why didn't these people die during the war?"

"God, is this a test you gave me? This is a little too much!"

Boluogo laughed out loud when he saw this. It seemed that the kind-hearted Adele also had a day when her patience was exhausted.

In the following diaries, such complaints gradually became less frequent. Adele got used to all this, or she grew up.

The smile on Boluogo's face disappeared. Adele went through many ups and downs, but fortunately she survived them all. She wrote in her diary that she attended a gathering of veterans to see the past. Comrades.

Some people died, some people are still alive and well, some people were tortured by the experience, and some people disappeared.

"Has anyone seen Burlogo?"

"Long time no see."

"Don't you know? His unit was the first to enter..."

"..."

When talking about this, Adele looked a little gloomy. She still remembered the man named Boluo Ge. In the previous melee, the two experienced wonderful adventures together. First they escaped from the camp in embarrassment, and then they struggled to survive in the wild. It took more than half a month for the two of them to join the army.

Adele originally thought that Boluogo would come, and wanted to chat with this wonderful friend about her recent experiences, but it was not until now that she realized that this wonderful friend might be dead.

She felt a little sad, but not that sad.

Since that wonderful adventure, Adele and Burlogo have not seen each other for many years.

I hate to admit it, but sometimes time and distance can really weaken some seemingly indestructible things, no matter how hard they were once, even iron and stone can't defeat them.

Then Adele continued her life. She was still pursuing the life she wanted. After work, Adele volunteered in the orphanage. She met many people and experienced many things.

Adele is not as strong as Boluogo thought. In her diary, she lost hope in life countless times, but became strong again.

The war did not defeat her, and she felt that life was even less likely to defeat her.

She was unmarried and devoted herself to pursuing her lofty ideals. She adopted a child named Lawson from the orphanage where she worked.

Then Adele gradually had more children.

Boluogo's eyes were soft... He rarely showed such a gentle side.

The hands on the clock were approaching midnight. He had read most of the diaries and watched Adele's life. Now there was only the last diary left for Bologg to read.

Stretching out his hand, Boluogo picked up the last diary.