His little girl is not good again

Chapter 75

Shangguan Zhengxun looked down at those little hands, lowered his head and kissed between her fingers, then turned to look at her again, "You really don't love me?"

Jiangbei Ning's throat was astringent, and she couldn't open her mouth as she was fighting with emotion and reason.The response was already in her throat, but she swallowed it hard. She wanted to respond to him, but she couldn't.

Shangguan Zhengxun pinched her fingers, and smiled dejectedly: "Okay... I admit it..." He took a deep breath, smiled bitterly and said, "I apologize to you for all these years of entanglement. .

"It's been so long, isn't it troublesome?"

"You don't love me, and you can't bear to hurt me. After finally making up your mind to draw a clear line with me, I came here to hurt you like this again..."

Jiang Beining shook her head desperately, "No, you're right, I can't find another person in this world who loves me like you. But..." She couldn't speak with difficulty in her throat, after a long time Said: "I'm sorry"

He turned his head and stared at her for a long time, finally relieved: "Okay, don't you want me to leave? Then I will hide away from you, so that you won't feel guilty and won't be troubled .”

Jiang Beining lowered her head silently, her tears fell like broken pearls.

"Be good, baby, why are you crying?" Shangguan Zhengxun gently wiped away her tears, "You never loved me, and you never expected me to love you. I deserve everything, and it has nothing to do with you."

He bowed his head and left an affectionate kiss on her forehead: "I will leave and disappear into your world, but I beg you, please don't delete my contact information.

If you still love him, go to him. If he still doesn't love you, if one day, he makes you cry, or hurts you again, just call me, and I will desperately return to you.okay? "

Jiangbei Ning burst into tears instantly, and rushed over to hug him tightly.

"Bei Ning" Shangguan Zhengxun gently wiped away her tears with his slender fingers, his movements were gentle and nostalgic: "In the days when I'm not around, you have to be well, don't be bullied, don't be so desperate, look back more often , Look at the people behind you who love you deeply."

He gently traced her delicate facial features with his fingertips, as if he wanted to imprint every inch of her skin in his heart. For a moment, he stretched out his hand to hold her in his arms, resting his chin on her shoulder, and whispered in her ear: "You It's Lord Xun's life, I will live if you live, whoever hurts you, Lord Xun, even if I go to hell, I will kill him!"

He pushed her away cruelly and got up to leave.

The moment he turned around, Jiang Beining held onto his hand tightly, unwilling to let go.

this man.

Accompany her from the student days to the present, give up her dream, and follow her to BJ.

Bear all the wind and rain for her, love yourself unconditionally and without a bottom line.

All her good memories are given by him.

"I know it all, I know it all, I know everything you have done for me these years, I saw your diary" Jiang Beining's voice was distorted by sobs: "In 2007, you hurt my leg to save me You can’t stand on the runway and miss out on Beijing Sports, but because the man I love is in BJ, I want to pursue him. You big fool give up other better choices and stay with me in BJ.

In 2009, in order to protect me who was blind in the hospital, you didn't catch up with your brother for the last time, and you suffered so much guilt for so many years.In order to fulfill my wish, you idiot pretended to be Mu Han, making me mistakenly think that he was the one who came to take care of me and that he was the one who gave the auspicious stem flowers.

In 2010, for me, you played games day and night, and gave me back as commentary and live broadcast, but you saved money and bought me more than 5 immortal flowers.

If Xu Zheng didn't tell me, how long are you going to keep it from me? "

Shangguan Zhengxun smiled with red eyes: "So you know everything?"

"Over the years, I can't pay back everything you have paid for me..."

Shangguan Zhengxun gently wiped away her tears, and said in a low voice, "I do everything for you voluntarily, including loving you, and I don't need any response from you."

The next second, Jiang Beining got up and hooked his neck and kissed him. Shangguan Zhengxun's eyelashes trembled slightly, and he looked at her in disbelief. She kissed her in a random way, and his tongue hurt and he was reluctant to push her away. .

Until her hand untied his belt, the sound of "click" woke him up like thunder, and he stretched out his hand to push her away.He turned his face away and said in a hoarse voice: "Bei Ning, what I want is never this, what I want is your heart."

"You don't love me now, you just want to repay me. To me... it's more cruel than you pushing me away."

Jiangbei Ning sat paralyzed on the bed and didn't respond for a while.How much she wants to tell him that she loves him, that it's not repayment, but how will she speak?
Shangguan Zhengxun lowered his eyelashes, slowly took clothes to put on her, and smiled a little forcedly: "Remember? I said I couldn't say goodbye back then."

That year, she packed up her things and said with a smile, "I'm going home, goodbye."

"You can't say goodbye, you have to say goodbye."

She asked, "Why?"

He said: "Goodbye is to pave the way for the next reunion, and goodbye may be an eternal farewell."

...............

"Now, I want to say to you: We will never say goodbye, because I am always there for you. So don't worry, I am always in love with you, you will never be alone, I will come back when you need me .”

This time, without any hesitation, he turned and left without turning his head, and closed the door behind him.

Jiang Beining turned her head to look at the tightly closed door, curled herself up into a ball, her heart seemed to be forcibly pulled out by an invisible hand, she sobbed and clutched the quilt tightly, the pain came out from her internal organs, even the bottom of her throat They all smelled faintly of blood.

The pain was so bad that I couldn't breathe.

She finally couldn't bear it anymore and cried bitterly.There was nothing she could do but cry.

The person outside the door was leaning against the wall weakly, standing motionless as if petrified, listening to the crying sound from inside, the deep eyes were shining with moist light.

His tone was stiff and bitter, full of the deepest sorrow and desolation in the world, and burst out from his jerky throat: "Bei Ning, I love you, I love you unconditionally, I can't ask for it, this is the biggest concession I can make It's..."

He suppressed the urge to rush in and hug her, then turned and left in a daze.

Every step he took was like stepping on a nail, the unspeakable pain invaded the bone marrow and spread to the internal organs.

The affection of the past ten years, all the good memories with her and the crying of the girl in the house have turned into a sharp knife hanging in his heart, and every step he takes, the deeper the piercing.

that's it.

He left without a sound, like a draft, unintentionally blowing across the valley, but it affected the changes of all things, and when he looked back, it was the same as when he never came.But, how does Jiang Beining convince himself that the turmoil he caused in his heart is just a dream?
Jiang Beining looked up at the sky, the sky was still blue, and the seasons were still changing, but she knew that his departure would take a piece of her heart away.

She stood on the roof, the wind blew gently, driving her hair, gently rubbing against her face, like his hand, tender and full of nostalgia, she spread her five fingers, as if wanting to catch the wind Passing through the traces between the fingers, clenched and then opened, it will be nothing in the end...

The reminder of the wind made her realize that this is like their love, no matter whether they spread out or hold it tightly, it will still flow cleanly from the fingers, strand by strand, without any trace.

He loves her, and she loves him too, but two people who love each other cannot be together.Jiang Beining often wondered if she had seen her own heart clearly earlier, or had cut Mu Han out of her heart earlier, would everything have been different.

That young man was inseparable like his own shadow, loving her silently, without asking for a response, and letting her pursue another man she loved without fighting or grabbing.And when she needed him, he was always there.

What can she do to occupy all his feelings and make him give desperately.

That year, he stood against the wind and said softly, "Bei Ning, did you hear that? My answer is hidden in the wind."

She never understood, and always regarded his sincerity as a joke, but now, she understands.

The wind travels thousands of miles, walking without stopping, the answer of the wind is the promise of eternal life, and every thread hides his unswerving love until death.

The raw and sharp pain that had no place to rest, reminded her all the time that she finally fell in love with him irresistibly, and lost him because of it...

However, in this cycle of time, meeting is reunion.There is always someone who will hide from you in the corner and love you deeply.And you will never forget the way he treats you like before.

(End of this chapter)