I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 454 Complete Relief
My heart felt like being stabbed by a needle, but I didn't use some extreme methods to free myself. I stood soberly by the river, didn't go anywhere, and then my heart broke over and over again.

I really hope that there will be a heavy rain, but the moon hangs perfectly in the sky and is reflected in the Huangpu River.

There are moonlight and lights everywhere, I don't know where to put my bad mood.

I started counting the boats that came and went, thinking I'd pass some time, but they came and went, like pain, coming in and out of my mind.

I'm suffocating.

Until Yang Sisi, who was far away in the United States, called me.

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After I connected, she questioned me: "You are obviously in Shanghai, why did you lie to me?"

"To tell you the truth, you can't come back...why do you still worry about it?"

"What you want to send me is yourself... right?"

"I'm not as romantic as you think... I just think it's a more pleasant surprise. I thought you'd spend a day in Shanghai before leaving."

After a while of silence on the other end of the phone, Yang Sisi asked again: "Did you really come to Shanghai for me?"

"real."

"Then wait for me in Shanghai for two days, okay... I can go back on Monday at the latest."

"I can't wait anymore, I have to leave tomorrow... Don't worry about my side, just do your job well there with peace of mind."

Yang Sisi said to me very resolutely: "No, you must wait until Monday in Shanghai... Otherwise, it will not be considered as fulfilling your promise."

I raised my hand and looked at the date on the watch. Today is Friday. If we really have to wait until Monday, how can we survive Saturday and Sunday?I have begun to become more afraid of the city of Shanghai. It seems that all bad things and wrong people are encountered here.

I said to Yang Sisi, "I really can't wait, I have to go to Hangzhou."

"Then you go to Hangzhou first, and after finishing the business in Hangzhou, you go back to Shanghai...Anyway, I must see you in Shanghai."

"Why are you so persistent?"

"This is the first time you came to Shanghai for me. I don't want to leave any regrets... If you don't agree, I will buy a plane ticket back to China now. I don't care about anything else. I just want to see you in Shanghai."

Yang Sisi's intransigence made me feel overwhelmed.

She said to me again in a begging tone: "Will you wait for me in Shanghai... When I come back, I will take you to eat delicious food. If you want to play something, I will accompany you... By the way, you Have you never been to Disney? ... I have a friend who works at Disney, and I can get free tickets with her ... Anyway, as long as you don't leave, you can do anything."

Speaking of this, if I still refuse, it will hurt Yang Sisi!
After a while of silence, I finally said to her: "Okay, then I will go to Hangzhou first, and come to Shanghai on Monday."

Yang Sisi's mood was fully expressed in words. She smiled and said to me: "I will book the ticket now."

I responded, and she asked me suspiciously: "I'm not in Shanghai, have you gone to see Ye Zhi again?... You'd better not see me, because she saw me at the airport that day , she knows that you went to the airport to pick me up... Now that you are in Shanghai again, she will definitely think about the relationship between you and me very complicated. "

"She won't."

"As long as she is a woman, she will definitely... If you still have expectations for her, just listen to me!"

I forced a smile, and then replied: "Whether you are teasing me, or you are really kind to remind... I have to tell you, there is no need..."

After a short period of silence, I said in a low voice: "I just met her on the Bund, and she told me...she has a marriage contract with someone else...she has always been a steady woman, since I said so, There should be no variables."

Yang Sisi was silent for a longer time than me, and then replied: "If this is true, should I be happy or unhappy?... Sometimes, I really hate myself, I always feel My own thoughts are very simple, I just want to spend more time with you, but if I say that there is no purpose at all, I don't believe it myself... At least, I also do this to make myself happy... Ordinarily, I should be happy to hear that Ye Zhi is going to marry another man... But, I can't be happy because I know how sad you are, and I know who the woman you really love... I'm afraid that you will become like me Same, I know how painful it is to feel hopeless but still want to get closer!"

I felt very sad, but I couldn't tell if it was because Ye Zhi was going to marry someone else, or because of the emotions contained in these words.

I gripped the guardrail tightly, unable to speak.

Yang Sisi on the other end of the phone was also silent...

I wiped my face heavily with my hand, and then said to Yang Sisi: "I'm fine, anyway, I can't tell who gave up first between me and her... But the result is really good ...As early as two years ago, I had already expected such a day...Because, whether it is for her or for myself, I am not very confident. What we are pursuing is basically two worlds... It's all right now, completely free!"

"I really want to be with you now... because I don't believe what you said is true... just like I don't believe in myself... You never know how stubborn a person's inner obsession can be horrible!"

I smiled and replied: "The reason why you say that is because you are not mature enough... A mature person will find a way to go around when encountering obstacles that cannot be overcome!"

"Then you should walk around and show me."

"I'm fine, let's do it first."

Before Yang Sisi could reply, I hung up the phone, and at the moment I hung up, I collapsed...

I ran frantically along the river bank until I was sweating profusely until I was exhausted.

Regardless of everyone's strange eyes, I lay heavily on the aisle where people come and go, I took a big breath, and then my mind was full of the scene of Ye Zhi marrying that man...

I can't stand her saying "I do" to that man; I can't stand her clothes being unbuttoned by other men besides me... What makes me heartbroken is: before she comes back , I seem to be living in hell, waiting for her for a year and a half.

How can these holes that have been pierced in my heart because of pain be smoothed out?
It drives me crazy!

(End of this chapter)