I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 311 Love Is Hard

Back home, the two aunts had left with the two uncles, so the room was much cleaner, but Lao Mi, who was sitting on the sofa smoking a cigarette, seemed very depressed.Seeing that I came back, he said to me: "Let your mother heat up the food, and you can eat some more."

I put the key on the shoe cabinet at the door, and then replied: "I'm not hungry, you clean up, clean up, and go to bed early."

"No hurry... Come here, let me chat for a while."

I sat down on a chair opposite to Lao Mi, and Lao Mi said again: "It's quite ugly today, Xiaoye doesn't have any ideas in her mind, does she?"

"It's okay, she's not that petty girl."

Lao Mi blamed himself a little, he said: "Blame me, I shouldn't have let your two aunts over for dinner."

"Don't mention this matter... By the way, Xiaoye will come over for lunch at noon tomorrow, and I will go back to Shanghai first."

"Why are you walking in such a hurry?"

"She has a lot of things to do... It's not easy to squeeze out this little time."

Lao Mi knew it in his heart, he sighed softly, and said, "It's not right for this family to be inappropriate. Both of you will be wronged in the future."

I smiled and asked again: "Dad, do you think it's a good thing or a bad thing for us to be together?"

"There is no good or bad in this matter, it just depends on whether you are comfortable or not... I want to ask, what do you think in your heart now?"

"Simply deal with it, don't care about what she has, and don't think about what you lack...Be normal, anyway, in this society, strong women and weak men are not the only couple, we will always find a way to get along... Besides, I will not always be in this state, maybe I will make some career someday."

Lao Mi didn't speak.

I also took advantage of this silence to light a cigarette for myself.When he was about to suck half of the stick, Lao Mi finally opened his mouth and said: "Your mother and I don't want to interfere too much with your feelings, so whether it's Lu Jia or Xiao Ye, as long as you get along with each other...but you You also need to have a sense of urgency. After all, the age is here. If you can stabilize, you should stabilize it as soon as possible... We don't have too high demands on you, as long as you can maintain your own family in the future, that's enough... I don't need it with your mother Don't worry, we don't have any expenses, my retirement salary is enough."

"In all these years, you haven't made me worry... On the contrary, I didn't do well, and I failed to do the right thing at the right time."

"The past is the past... add some oil in the future."

"Successful."

Lao Mi got up and patted me on the shoulder, telling me to go to bed early, while he himself took the leftovers from the table to the kitchen and cleaned them up with my mother.

Looking at their aged backs, I took a deep puff of the cigarette, and then I lowered my head in shame... because I don't have much confidence in myself, and the marriage problem between Ye Zhi and I can't be solved now. Speaking of.

……

Lying on the bed, tossing and turning, but I didn't want to take the initiative to contact anyone. I just stared at the ceiling for a while, and stared at the pattern like a dog's head on the curtain in a daze. When I came back to my senses, I didn't know that I was in a daze. I have thought about something for a while, and the night time has been wasted meaninglessly.

I don't know how long this has been going on, but Nicole sent me a voice message, she said: "Chen Jin just ran to borrow an electric car from me, saying that he was looking for a job as a food delivery...he is What's wrong?"

"Things at Jiulongju are not going well. He said he needs to find a job first to manage his living expenses... He is fast enough. He called me in the afternoon to talk about it. Ready to go!"

"He said that Tina introduced it to him. It happened that there was a Chaoshan porridge shop in the ancient city, and there was a lack of delivery staff."

"If he feels he has to, let him do it."

"Then what about Jiulongju?"

"I'll talk about it myself... Anyway, I'm sure I won't let go just because I'm in trouble."

"You say that because you have feelings for Chen Jin?"

"No... Jiulongju's affairs can't go on. I have to bear a large part of the responsibility. I let him down."

"I think he's not really going to deliver food, but he just wants to put more pressure on you... He's also in a hurry. After all, from Shanghai to Dali, he just wanted to do something well, but now he's being called It’s stuck and can’t go on.”

"I understand his feelings, but even if he puts pressure on me, so what?... I can't really go to Ye Zhi and ask her to agree to Cao Jinbo taking [-]% of the profit from the Cangshan Villa project, right? "

"Since it's a dead end, then you can change your project... Is someone like you afraid that you won't be able to make money in Dali?"

"I don't want to give up... Think about it, there are about 200 sets of shops in the entire Jiulongju. If this street can really be heated up, even if one set of shops only earns 400 yuan, then [-] million yuan of profits can flow into us. The pockets of the studio...really, there is no other project that can match the return on investment of this project; and I really can't spend that much money now to invest in a project that can make money."

"Your appetite is too big now... I really feel sorry for you, so you need to worry so much!"

"I have a big appetite?"

"Anyway, I think you've changed... Could it be that Ye Zhi put too much pressure on you?"

I was stunned, and then recalled my various mentalities after getting along with Ye Zhi... I seemed to be hungrier, and it was not easy to be happy... I was especially afraid that my steps would not keep up with the relationship between me and Ye Zhi rhythm.

I suddenly felt a little tired, so I pressed my head with a pillow, but when I closed my eyes, it was dark again.

……

Turn on the light, sit up from the bed, and then light a cigarette for myself. After feeling relieved, I seriously faced up to my mood at this stage for the first time... In the end, what kind of life, or What kind of person can bring me happiness?
In terms of happiness, I was the happiest when I first came to Dali... At that time, if there was nothing to do, I would call Tienan and Director Ma to make skewers. Although I would also consider the issue of making money, it was definitely not as urgent as it is now... So, I can even spend an afternoon sitting in the bar of the inn reading a book, and then listening to Yang Sisi chattering next to me... But at this stage, I no longer have that kind of leisure.

Am I really lost in this relationship with Ye Zhi?
I became more and more skeptical... because the real best time is not when we are in love, but the feeling of thinking about each other but not telling the truth before falling in love.

I must love her, but I love her very hard!

In a trance, I put out the cigarette in my hand, then lay back on the bed straight, and couldn't remember to return Nicole's message.

……

The next day, Ye Zhi had lunch at my house, and after that, I drove her to the airport in Chengdu...

When she was about to go through the security check, I called her... and hugged her fiercely. I was very reluctant, so I desperately wanted to keep the breath of her in my mind.

She also hugged me tightly.

I kissed her on the cheek, and then whispered in her ear: "Go back and have a good rest...don't make yourself too tired..."

"Well...you too...the next time we meet, you are not allowed to lose weight!"

"I'll definitely lose weight... because I won't think about food or tea."

"Then when you go to Shanghai, I'll take you to eat the best food and help you make up for it."

"You have to eat as much as I eat...then make a happy fat couple together!"

Ye Zhi smiled... a very comfortable smile.

But just because I have fantasies about the next meeting, the parting in front of me is even more cruel... I even wanted to repent and not let her go, but in the end I put down my embracing hands before her, and looked at her silently leave.

Ye Zhi looked back at me before entering the waiting room...

I know, she is also very sad.

My nose was sore, and then a longing grew stronger in my heart: How nice it would be if we had a common home!

I still couldn't hold back, and a few minutes after she left, I sent her another message, telling her: I love her.

She replied with three tearful emojis.

This is enough, and no matter how much hard work, it suddenly becomes worthwhile at this moment... because I think this is love: ups and downs, joys and sorrows!
……

Watching the plane fly into the sky, I habitually lit a cigarette for myself. Next, it's time to get ready to go to Nanjing to talk about shops.

For me, the best state is love and career.

Therefore, I must pay more than Ye Zhi!

(End of this chapter)