Apricot blossom spring rain and snow season

Chapter 38
Early the next morning, the crew drove into yesterday's alley to catch the show.Zhan Yunyi got off the car with Meizi.What is he here for?My head ached.

Dahai went up to meet him and said, "Director Zhan is here to see Meizi filming, right? Sit here."

With Zhan Yunyi's company, Meizi looked like a peacock with its tail open, with a showy look on its face.She is more active than before, jumping around like a butterfly wearing flowers.

I stared at her with all sorts of harsh adjectives in my mind, yet, there was no denying that she looked beautiful.Wearing a floral drama costume on her body, she is such a pure chick.There was a voice in my heart, are you jealous of her?Jealous of her being with Yi, jealous of Yi being so good to her, jealous of them sharing the same bed together last night?
I stared blankly at Meizi, completely unaware that Zhan Yunyi had already walked beside me.He lowered his head and spoke close to my ear: "You look like you want to eat her, Ziqi, are you jealous of her?"

I turned around in shock, my face almost brushed against his mouth, his warm breath scalded my cheeks.I took a step back angrily: "Zhan Yunyi, don't be so scary, okay?"

He stretched his body, a leather jacket set off his stern figure, and a slight smile appeared on his lips: "I don't think such a distance will scare you."

"A leopard can smell danger from a hundred meters away. Also, your actions will affect Meizi's work mood. I don't want her to keep squinting in the samples."

Zhan Quyi laughed: "The cheetah is dangerous and exciting, are you ready to run away?"

"We didn't have any relationship four years ago, please don't harass me with words, my fiancé will be very upset if you do this."

The corner of Zhan Yunyi's eyes twitched, and he still had a half-smile expression: "Now you know how to find a shield? You know it won't work."He smiled lightly and walked slowly towards Meizi.

My heart was beating wildly, how could I be so idiotic to think that everything was calm and everything was fine?How could I be so unlucky to run and throw myself into the trap!Various thoughts flashed through my mind, the first one was to resign and move.

Dahai came over and asked: "I forgot to ask you, when did you recognize such a character? Why do you need to hide in City C if you know him, there must be a place for you here."

I said angrily: "He is my 'sister', you can try to pick him up!" After speaking, I left with a sea of ​​astonishment on my face.

After the filming of the filming was over, I breathed a sigh of relief and planned to pack up and leave here immediately, without delaying even a minute.

Zhan Yunyi said that he would invite all the staff to dinner, which drew bursts of cheers.Before the shouts stopped, there was a flood of entertainment reporters at the entrance of the alley, waiting for interviews.

I sneered and said to Dahai: "Tomorrow's gossip headlines will be that the actress Meizi's love affair is exposed, and she is expected to marry into a wealthy family."

Dahai hasn't woken up from the shock yet: "The executive chairman of Yuntian Group is GAY, which is probably more important than the romance of second-tier starlets. Hey, it's true or not, it seems that he is at least Xiaogong, isn't he Xiaoshou, bisexual love?"

I couldn't laugh or cry: "What are you thinking about, pack up your things and book a plane ticket to go home."

The reporter was stuck at the entrance of the alley and couldn't get out, so we had to stand aside and watch Zhan Yunyi and Meizi play.

A strange feeling arises spontaneously, Zhan Yunyi should rarely appear in front of people.Otherwise, I wouldn't have eaten that unlucky meal without knowing that he is the executive chairman of Yuntian Group.

I vaguely felt something was wrong.The reporter would have appeared yesterday, the day before yesterday, why did he come today when Zhan Yunyi was visiting the class?With such an appointment and so many people coming, it was as if an invitation had been sent out.

I only heard a reporter ask: "Dong Zhan came to visit the class, is it because of this advertisement or because of Miss Meizi?"

Zhan Yunyi replied politely: "I'm here to visit my fiancée."

As soon as the words fell, I saw flashing lights in front of me, the reporters were excited, and the scene was in an uproar.Questions followed one after another: "When did Miss Mei Zi and Mr. Zhan get engaged?" "The Zhan family never married people in the circle, what does Mr. Zhan think about this matter?" "Will Miss Mei Zi die? "

Dahai was stunned: "The great family loves to gossip, it's true."

I suddenly felt sour in my heart, and at the same time felt a little relaxed.People from different worlds can't always be together, but seeing and hearing such news with my own eyes, I'm still sad: "If you don't hurry up and find a way to leave, if you don't leave, we will become the objects of gossip."

Dahai woke up startled, looking east and west, seeing that there was really no way out, he shrugged: "Let's wait until this storm is over."

At this time, I heard Zhan Yunyi say slowly: "My fiancée is not Miss Meizi, but Miss Tang Ziqi who is in charge of shooting this advertisement."

I opened my mouth wide and turned into a fossil.Dahai opened his mouth wider than mine, and looked at me with eyes full of disbelief, fear, and surprise.He pointed at me and said, "You, you, you, when..."

I quickly realized, Yi, today's Tang Ziqi is no longer the little girl of yesterday, let you rub it round and pinch it, I said you have a fiancé, why don't you just call the media and announce that I am your fiancée, is this an act?You are cruel enough, and I am not a vegetarian.I pulled Haihai and shouted: "Go!" Using Haihai's body advantage to fend off the first few reporters who reacted, I rushed to the car, lit the ignition and ran away.

The sea runs, drives, almost subconsciously.I turned around, not far behind Zhan Yunyi was smiling with ulterior motives, Meizi's face was pale, reporters were shooting at our car, and some were bombarding the two of them.The scene was extremely chaotic.

Only then did we realize that we were driving Meizi's nanny car.I smiled wryly: "Meizi lost face today, will she call the police and say we stole the car?"

Dahai said while driving in a dispirited manner: "Tell me honestly, what happened today? And yesterday, how did you make up before eating and entering the door? Why did you come up with such a scene? I can't stand your tossing like this! He babbled on and on, "How can I go back and explain to Ning Qing and Ning Ruo, why haven't I peeled my skin!"

I sighed and said, "Da Hai, don't forget, a few days ago, who said that he could do three things for me?"

Dahai laughed: "It's easy to say, just tell us the truth. It seems that the first thing to do right now is to go back to the hotel and get something out of it."

I nodded in agreement, these few days are really enough for me, first I was afraid that I would not be able to sleep well when I met Zhan Yunyi, and then I saw it without any preparations and thought that everything would be fine, but the next day, he made a big fuss and made it his fiancée.

After packing up my things and checking out, I left a message to the crew and went straight to the airport.I was suddenly scared, and said to Dahai: "Dahai, can we not fly?"

Dahai asked strangely: "Why?"

I bit my lip and finally said, "I'm afraid he's waiting at the airport. I don't want to see him, I'm afraid."

Dahai stared at me and laughed loudly: "Tang Ziqi, are you also afraid? Is it so serious?"

I also glared at him: "Hu Dahai, it's time for you to make three stabs and six holes for me, you don't know how crazy he is? He is the only one who can call a familiar Yuji! He doesn't take his face seriously !"

Dahai thought for a while and said, "How to get there?"

"Take the train. There happens to be a train bound for City C in the afternoon. We have time to go to the station now."

Dahai nodded and told the taxi to turn around and rush to the train station.

It was ten minutes before I left the car, and I was panicking.After getting on the train, Dahai bought a sleeper car.It wasn't until the train started that I breathed a sigh of relief.

Dahai looked at me with a funny face and said, "Tang Ziqi, is it necessary for you to do this? It seems like you are fleeing for life and death. Now it is a society ruled by law, you are still robbing relatives in the old society? Now you have a day and two nights to go back, you You can speak slowly."

I looked at him, this is my good friend, someone I can trust, he can help me, help me like Juanzi.Looking at the rapidly receding scene, I slowly opened my mouth: "I left him four years ago, and I fell in love with him for seven years before I left him."

Dahai opened his mouth again, and asked in shock: "You said you have known him for 11 years? You have been in love for seven years? Are you that Tang Ziqi who has no love cells like an iceberg? Tang Ziqi who has never been rumored to be in love?"

I interrupted him irritably: "It's just that I haven't been in a relationship for four years in C City, and I don't want to be in a relationship. What do you mean without emotional cells? Gossip? Have you had it today? Let's read the newspaper tomorrow."

For entertainment, you can think of what kind of news will be released by the media tomorrow with your toes.Yuntian's high-level executives and starlets exploded their marriage and romance on the spot, and under Zhan Yunyi's deliberate effort, he didn't worry about not writing about it.

Dahai's curiosity became even stronger: "You have known him for so long, and you don't know that Yuntian belongs to his family?"

"I was young at the time, and Zhan Yunyi didn't talk about his family affairs. At most, he found out later that his family was rich. He came to my hometown to study for a year when he was in the third year of high school. He met and lived in my house. Later, my mother When he died, he just said that he was the child of an acquaintance of my mother’s cousin, and there was no one at home, and my mother was entrusted to take care of him when the college entrance examination was approaching. It was a love for a long time, and then it was pure love, and then fell in love, and he was admitted to City B for him. , and leave. It's over."

Dahai shook his head and said, "It's that simple? It's over? Why did you break up?"

"Of course it's not that simple. But the process is like this." I replied angrily, "Dahai, I'm going to resign when I go back. I don't want to be found by him. I just want to live a normal life. You don't know, after I went to study in City B Only then did I know how strong he is. He loves me and spoils me very much. He is that kind, how should I put it? For example, it seems that I can’t get close to male classmates. Hair can’t be curly, he said female students Be pure and pure, you can’t wear short skirts in winter, he said that only young ladies wear them like that, and you absolutely can’t use that color of lipstick that day. Not to mention smoking, calling you brothers and so on.”

Dahai laughed and said, "Now you have done everything he's not allowed." After laughing, he asked me seriously, "Ziqi, then you still love him, don't you?"

I wanted to cry but said without tears: "Yes, I still love him, and I don't want to lose myself. When I don't see him, I often think of the happy days with him, and when I see him, I am afraid of him."

"What's wrong with him? Are you so afraid?" Dahai asked me.

"It's not the kind of thing you think. It's because he is too strong. He controls everything and has to discipline everything. My mother entrusted me to him before leaving. He is like my parent and can't bear it."

Dahai sighed: "Talk well, how can we do without communication?"

"It's impossible to talk about it, he has always been arbitrary." I also sighed.

If I do it all over again, I will still choose to leave Yi, the man I love deeply.

That year, I came to B City with excitement to go to university, but Yi went abroad to study.On the first Mid-Autumn Festival, the school gave out two mooncakes, and I wrote to him and left one for him.

When I saw red leaves for the first time, I wrote to him and told him that I got lost, and the red leaves were so far away from me that I didn't pick a single one.

The first snow came silently, I said to him in the letter, I will walk along the street alone, and there is still more than half waiting for you to come back and walk with me.

I went to the company for an internship for the first time, and I wrote to him and told him that I was scolded and cried. I can't even design the simplest CI.

I carry Yi's most recent letter with me at all times.Otherwise, my heart would be very empty.Only Yi's letter told me that such a person really existed.

I miss home, my mother, and Juanzi.

I said to Juanzi, "I don't want to stay here, it's too lonely here."

Juanzi comforted me: "Go out and play with your classmates more, don't be bored by yourself, just get used to it slowly."

In those few years, I really realized what it means to be longing for the day and night.When I wake up in the morning, I will suddenly miss him, and at night, I will dream of him and me playing by the small river in the town.Sometimes it's a nightmare, dreaming that I'm looking for him everywhere, always looking for him.When I woke up from the dream, I would cry and feel extremely sad.

Sometimes I would suddenly call Juanzi nervously and say: "I can't remember Yi's appearance, I can't remember his voice, am I dreaming, there is no such person at all."

Juanzi has annoyed me: "Tang Ziqi, talking about war on paper is a big taboo for military strategists. When you fall in love on paper, it's a big taboo in love! You'd better have a real boyfriend, so I don't worry!"

Year after year, I changed from cheerful to silent and cheerful again.I gradually became familiar with the school environment and got along well with my classmates.Roommates and classmates fell in love more and more slowly. In contrast, I missed Yi even more deeply, and my heart ached even when I thought about it.

One day in my senior year, I went back to the dormitory after class and saw a black car parked downstairs.A man in a suit is leaning against the car door, smoking.Yu'er clicked his tongue and said, "Look, Ziqi, that man is in good shape and looks very energetic! Good car, rich master, I don't know which girl he's waiting for."

I looked over, yes, tall and thin, with sharp corners when viewed from the side, the corners of his mouth seemed to be smiling, his heart skipped a beat, he was a little dizzy, that face, that smile.so familiar.

I stopped and didn't dare to walk over, afraid that the person I was thinking about would not be him.Little did he know his eyes were red.Yu'er looked at me in surprise, and kept shouting, "Ziqi, what's the matter? What's the matter with you?"

I couldn't hear Yu'er's voice anymore, I squatted down slowly, and I knew I was crying.I don't know when Yi walked in front of me.It wasn't until he also squatted down that the familiar yet unfamiliar face looked at me at the same level, and then he looked over with tears in his eyes.Yi held my face and wiped my tears: "Ziqi, don't cry."

I wanted to laugh, but I continued to cry and looked at him tearfully. Yi said helplessly, "I look like a puppy."

He pulled me into his arms, resting his chin on my head, when did he grow so tall?When did you become so mature and stylish?Even his voice was no clearer than when he was in Suhe.I heard my heart beating wildly, is it his or mine?Thinking in a mess, Yi heard a muffled voice above his head, saying softly, "I'm back, I'm back."

Yi stood in front of me alive.I stared at him for days on end.Yi looked very sad and said, "I won't leave."

It took me a long time to get used to him coming back.

Yi dotes on me very much, not only what I want to eat, but also what the students in the dormitory like, he will buy it every time he comes to school.I often praise him for his carefulness.

Yi smiled and said, "I've always wanted to be by my side to take care of you, but I never had a chance. If I treat them well, they will treat you well. I don't want you to be wronged."

A lover's sweet talk is the most intoxicating, and if you get lost in it, you ignore other things.I was immersed in the joy that Yi came back and returned to my side.I only know how sweet and happy the days with him are.

In those days, as long as he had time, Yi would always pick me up, take me to eat all kinds of delicious food, and show me the surrounding scenery.

However, I have overlooked the changes in the six years we haven't seen each other.The strong possessiveness in his nature is overshadowed.

once.A male classmate was invited to karaoke for his birthday.

When Yi called me, we were enjoying our meal.Yi asked me, "Who are you with?"

I said casually: "With my classmate, classmate's birthday, let's have dinner together and karaoke."

Yi asked me again: "What do you look like today? Tell me."

Yi forbade me to let down my natural curly hair, and I always braided it when I saw him.Yi also doesn't allow me to wear makeup, and doesn't like to see me wearing short skirts in winter.However, on this day, all the girls in the dormitory rushed to dress up before going out.Said it was to show the style of our room.So, not only did I let my hair loose, but I also put on makeup in a short skirt.It seemed that I thought it was very good, and my roommate also said it was beautiful, so I went out happily.

So, when Yi asked me, I lied.I thought I wouldn't see him today, and he wouldn't know.Who knew that when I walked out of the karaoke hall, I saw Yi's car.When you saw his half-smile expression, you knew something was wrong.And his eyes, which only contain two words: "Dangerous."

We had a big fight that night.Yi scolded me for lying, saying that I didn't look like a student at school.

I was ashamed, annoyed and reconciled, and I started yelling: "I like to dress like this! It's my classmate's birthday, so I like to dress up nicely, can't I go?"

Yi was very angry: "Okay, you dressed up for that male classmate of yours, and you lied! Thanks to my concern for you all these years. It's not that I want to teach you a lesson today, but you even learned to smoke!"

I looked at Yi in surprise, feeling that he was so strange: "How do you know?"

I was curious and playful and followed my classmates to learn to smoke.And Yan, when I miss Yi alone, is my best friend.After Yi came back, I was afraid that he would know, so I stopped smoking, but how could he know?I never smoke in public.

Yi hummed and said, "Tang Ziqi, what's the matter with you that I don't know? I know the embarrassing thing about you not getting used to the public bathhouse for a month when you just entered university! Why do you think I will show up at the door and wait for you today?" of?"

I stared blankly at him and said loudly, "You bribed someone to report me!"

Yi didn't deny it, he said, "It's fine if you know it, if you don't keep you, are you really in love on paper?" He sighed and lowered his voice, "I'm so far away from you, I really miss you , That's why I want to know everything about you, don't cry like a puppy again."

He coaxed me softly.

A dispute disappeared.

I didn't know at the time that this was just the beginning, and hearing him say those words softened my heart.Because it's me, I also want to know every bit of him.

I don't doubt his love for me and my affection for him.It's just that he dotes on me more and more, and I feel like I can't bear it.I didn't dare to say it, but my behavior, which has always been not submissive, was unknowingly singing against him.

I am a person who loves to play freely by nature.Like friends, regardless of gender.I like to drink and chat with my friends, and I like to hang out with everyone.When it comes to dressing, I always think that it is a person's appearance.As long as it's passable, you won't be pointed at or thrown a few rotten eggs on the road, or even call the police that it's indecent.Girls in their early twenties always love beauty and dress up.

It's hot in the south, and when summer comes, you can see cropped and backless dresses everywhere on the street.Putting this kind of dress in City B is incompatible with the culture of this city, and will be considered tasteless and not dignified enough.

I don't know Yi's family background, and I don't know that his request to me actually comes from an ancient family tradition.I insisted that if he loved me, he should accept me.Neither my opinion nor my actions.Because the external appearance does not affect the essence of a person.

These conflicts of ideas broke out after I went on a trip with my classmates when I graduated.

I remember coming back from my travels and excitedly looking for him.With a sullen face, he threw a stack of photos and accused me.There are pictures of me in school, in Beidaihe, all kinds of cool clothes, and all kinds of pictures with male classmates.Yi looked at me and said, "Are these you who are not with me?"

There was fear and anger in his heart that he knew.I was afraid that he would get angry with me if he knew that he would monitor my every move.Even more afraid of his misunderstanding, he quickly explained to him: "I'm afraid you won't like it, so I don't dress like that in front of you."

Yi suddenly stood up: "It's okay to dress in a mess, but you are hanging shoulders and shoulders with your male classmates on the sand booth. Is it because I'm afraid I won't like it!?"

"How do you say it's so unbearable? I don't like your attitude!"

Yi sneered and said, "You can't help but you don't like it, I just spoil you so much that you are lawless!"

After the quarrel that day, he slammed the door and left.When I saw him again, another major incident happened, my mother was seriously ill.

My father passed away early, and my mother and I depended on each other for life. This fact made my heart feel heavy and uncomfortable, as if the end of the world had arrived.Yi took his mother to Beijing for treatment.I seem to be on good terms with him again.However, after only one month, Aunt still left me and entrusted me to Zhan Yunyi.

Everything is handled by Yi.After finishing the funeral, I also graduated. After leaving school, I had to move in with him.

I became very lazy, lazy all day long and didn't want to move, only to move when Yi told me to do something.I talk less and less every day, and sometimes I read books and surf the Internet dully, and I don't want to say a word every day.He was still gentle with me and took good care of me.I often hear him sighing in my dreams, but I think I am dreaming.

Time flies, and when I finally accept A Niang's death, I want to start my own life.

One day during dinner, I said to Yi, "I want to go out to work."

Yi directly refused me, he said: "When I finish working these few months, we will get married, you don't have to go out to work, I can support you."

"But I don't want you to support me, I like to have my own space and friends!"

Yi sipped his porridge slowly and said: "I used to spoil you too much, so I let you do whatever you want. Your mother gave you to me, and now I'm in charge."

I didn't know where the anger came from, and I threw all the bowls and chopsticks out with a wave of my hand.Shouted at him: "My mother didn't let you lock me up! You don't have the right either!"

Yi sat without moving, and said flatly: "It's just to lock you up for the rest of your life, so what?"

I didn't know that falling in love with him would allow him to plan my life.His attitude made me so sad.

However, such quarrels happen almost as soon as the two talk.From sneering and accusing each other to throwing things and cursing.I took my bag and left, and he softened down to coax me again.

Mr. Yi hugged me gently and said: "Ziqi, you know that when I came to your house to study, when I saw you, I thought, this is Cuicui in "Border Town", your eyes are so clear. There is no room for a shadow, your smile is as bright as the sun. I thought, this is the one I want. You can only be mine for the rest of my life. I want you so much, but I try my best not to touch you , I will wait for you to grow up, and I want you to marry me openly. I love you so much, why don't you always listen to me? You forgot how long it took us to be together. "

My eyes turned red when I heard it. Since I was 16 years old, he has been the only one in my life, and he has melted into my blood.However, in the six years since he corresponded with me, he has been gentle, considerate and affectionate, pampering and caring for me all the time.His overbearing and possessiveness still scares me.

He doesn't like it when I mention wanting to work.There are no relatives in my hometown, and I feel that he is my only relative.I don't want to quarrel with him, but I want the freedom of working, designing and making friends like my classmates.No friends, no circle of life, I feel so lonely that I want to die.

What a contradictory love this is.I never thought of not loving him at all, I longed for his warm embrace, I have only one relative in this world.But I also long for my own space.

Being raised by him for a lifetime, staying in his cage for a lifetime is too much for me.The days of quarreling, scolding, suffering, and coaxing sweet words with him became more and more tiring day by day, more and more tired every time.

I finally made up my mind to leave him.

When he went abroad, I left the villa in the western suburbs, first found Yu'er, took the money and ran to Juanzi's house.Then I came to C City, a strange place, to work.

Before leaving, I wrote him a letter.I wrote to him and said, I want to live a free life, I don't love him, but I can't be with him.I said, Yi, goodbye.

Although saying goodbye is common in life, when we really say goodbye, it is hard to say goodbye.With love for him, I want to live alone.

In the four years I've been away from him, I've actually been really happy.Except for the feeling of loneliness when I see other people in pairs during the holidays, I am very comfortable with this kind of single life.

(End of this chapter)