One way to go north

Chapter 185: This Hate Will Never Be Eliminated 3
What if life could be like something you eat, and you can vomit it out again when you are in pain?Then she would rather drown in the pond two years ago than save Lu Xiangbei...

Thinking of this name, she vomited more violently, and even had a perverted feeling of letting herself vomit upside down, as if this could really make all the pain she experienced disappear with the filth in the toilet, once the water was flushed clean...

However, until she vomited out all the bitter gall, the pain in her heart hadn't lessened by half.

Looking up, barely supporting his tired body to rinse his mouth, he saw Lu Xiangbei's toothbrush on the vanity table, placed together with hers, and his towels, which had the same pattern as hers but were of different colors , I have never felt that his things are so dazzling...

She grabbed the toothbrush, pulled the towels, threw them on the ground, cried loudly, and stomped hard with her feet, even fantasizing that Lu Xiangbei would be trampled by her like this, wishing to crush him to pieces...

Back in the room, all you can see is Lu Xiangbei's shadow!

Lu Xiangbei's clothes are still hanging on the hanger; Lu Xiangbei's slippers are placed in their usual places; the books he has read and the pens he has used are all on the desk; Yu Wen, there seems to be his breath in the air, his voice is next to his ears, and the picture of him lying on her belly talking to his son is in front of her eyes...

Everything reminded him that the man Lu Xiangbei existed so clearly in her life, no matter how much she tried to kill him, he couldn't get rid of it...

No!She doesn't want it!Don't Lu Xiangbei!Don't have anything to do with him!
Like a lunatic, he threw his clothes, slippers and everything that belonged to him into the trash can, then threw the trash can out of the room, and closed the door hard, as if in this way, everything about Lu Xiangbei was locked out of the door ...

In the end, she picked up another bottle of air cleaner and sprayed it on every corner of the room. She wanted to completely eliminate Lu Xiangbei's breath from the house without leaving any traces!
But what about the child he planted in her belly?That was something she couldn't throw away no matter what...

She sat on the ground and wept helplessly...

Suddenly he thought of the baby room, the baby room he arranged with his own hands.The scene when her father held her hand to see the baby room is vivid in my memory. What joy my father felt at that time...

A deep sadness rose from the bottom of my heart. Poor father, how much he trusted Lu Xiangbei, even when she repeatedly emphasized that Lu Xiangbei was a white-eyed wolf, his father still just scolded her and trusted Lu Xiangbei 100%. to the north...

I still remember that the night before the accident, the two of them were still drinking at the dinner table, thanking each other, trusting each other, and the family affection flowing between the eyebrows seemed real. Thinking about it now, I just feel disgusted. It turns out that everything is still not just acting. It's just, poor father, the wise man of his life was ruined by the person he trusted the most...

Filled with anger and hatred, she opened the door and rushed out. Unexpectedly, she tripped over the trash can she had just thrown out and almost fell to the ground...

She looked at the scattered garbage on the ground, and suddenly thought of a sentence...lifting a rock to shoot herself in the foot.Isn't she shooting herself in the foot?From the beginning to the end, it was her own stupidity that allowed Lu Xiangbei to hit not only herself, but also her father, and the entire Tong family...

Enduring the slight pain in her toes, she rushed to the baby room.

The world that looked like a fairy tale in her eyes, those bright and pink tones, lost their original colors at this moment. All she saw was resentment, only hatred, and only pain surged in her heart...

"Lu Xiangbei! I hate you! I hate you!" She cried, shouting out all the pain in her heart, then picked up the stool closest to her and smashed it at the mirror on the children's dressing table.

The sound of the mirror shattering and falling to the ground made her feel that her heart, like that mirror, was shattered into pieces and fell to the ground. The reflected light hurt her eyes.

However, this kind of shattering also made her feel a kind of incisive pain. After the extreme pain, will it stop the pain?
Then let the pain be more intense...

She continued to smash wildly in the room, smashing all the furniture, the wallpaper he pasted up by himself, and the wind chime that would make beautiful music when pressed...

When the wind chime was hit, its switch was also touched, and the wind chime and the crib fell to the ground, but the music rang ding ding dong dong...

Or the song "Kiss My Baby"...

Dear my darling, I want to cross the mountains, look for the sun that has disappeared, look for the moon that has disappeared; Dear my darling, I want to cross the ocean, look for the rainbow that has disappeared Meteor, I want to fly to the endless night sky, and pick a star to be your toy...

In front of him, a picture appeared:
Under the warm light, she was reclining on the beige sofa, the man playing the piano in front of the grand piano, with his fingers flying, turning his head and smiling from time to time, his smile warmed the whole season...

Holding the stool, she froze in place, as if she had exhausted all her strength...

Even crying, I can't make a sound, only tears, and music, flowing silently, as if, there is no time to run out...

There was a rush of footsteps behind her, more than one person came, but she didn't even have the strength to turn her head to take a look, she just stood there, staring at the big hole in the wallpaper, her heart was as empty as if a big hole had been broken Yes, let the ding ding dong dong music pass through the big hole in my heart, like a knife piercing through, the pain, so deeply echoing with the notes...

And no matter how intense the pain in her heart was, she raised her face and raised her chin.

The hard body has always been her proud disguise. She can be hopelessly crazy when she is alone, but when there are people, especially when there are outsiders, she will always straighten her shoulders habitually...

There is a saying, don't easily show your wounds to others. What you hurt is your heart, and others will watch it lively...

None of the people behind her was someone she could relax and cry in their arms at will, so her injury to them was nothing but excitement...

For a moment, she felt so alone...

The footsteps stopped at the moment they arrived in the room, and everything was silent, except for the music, except for the affectionate call: Kiss my baby, kiss my baby...

"Sister-in-law..." Without a sound, someone came to her side and gently took the stool from her hand.

This voice finally broke the spell of the music, and made her wake up suddenly. When she turned around, she saw Chengzhen's bloodshot eyes.

She stared at him coldly, and squeezed a sentence through her teeth, "Come true! Where is our glorious Interpol? Where did he go? Did he dare not come to me? Or is he too busy to receive his medal?" gone?"

After the accident, Lu Xiangbei never showed up in front of her, not even a phone call...

Is it cowardice?Or is the task completed, there is no need to act in front of her anymore?
She doesn't want to speculate anymore, what is no longer important...

It's just that he still owes her a break, doesn't he?
However, she will not take the initiative to call him. If he still has a little conscience, if he still has a little sense of responsibility as a father, he should crawl up to her and beg her for forgiveness instead of her chasing after him. rush to find him...

The experience of those lunatics ringing up his phone, and driving like a lunatic in the city to find him, will truly become history, and she will never do that again...

Chengzhen lowered his head in front of her, "Sister-in-law...he may be busy...but..."

She smiled slightly, she was very surprised that she could actually laugh, but when she smiled, her heart was twisted and painful like a tendon...

She didn't want to hear what was going on, but Chengzhen obviously knew his identity. He knew it early on, and his hatred for Lu Xiangbei was transferred to Chengzhen, "Really? Then you should go too, I never want to see you again..."

After such a physical and mental exhaustion, she only felt extremely exhausted. She finally realized that when she was exhausted to the extreme, she couldn't even cry. On the contrary, smiling was the most relaxing mode...

(End of this chapter)