Can't help feeling for you: can't live without you

Chapter 29
There was a dress code for the ceremony, no matter how unwilling Dong Zhiwei was, he still changed clothes before coming here. At this time, he was wearing a small black dress with half sleeves and a collar—it was purchased from the official account a long time ago. Because the first time Yuan Jingrui asked her to attend such an occasion together, she asked him if he could wear a suit, and he very simply signed a blank bill for her.

She added this dress to herself, and finally showed him the bill. Yuan Jingrui still remembered the source of the bill, picked it up, looked at it twice, and said with a smile, "Secretary Dong , you are the woman who saves me the most money."

The cold wind blew across her skin, and penetrated into the soft and smooth silk material. Of course, the material of the dress was good. She had been choosing it for a long time, and she thought it was extravagant when she bought it, but Yuan Jingrui said: Secretary Dong, You are the most money-saving woman for me.

Wen Bailiang's sudden appearance was forgotten again, she hugged her elbow, recalling that sentence a long time ago, she felt even colder.

A hot hand was suddenly pressed on her shoulder, she was just startled, she thought it was Wen Bailiang again, she turned her head and was about to speak, but what she saw was the man she was thinking about just now.

Yuan Jingrui had already withdrawn her hand the moment she turned her head. Chen Wenwen was not by his side, and she didn't know where she had gone.He raised his head and looked at the starless night sky above their heads, and spoke in a normal tone, as if two people were standing in the company corridor, a very normal place.

"The weather is fine, but it's a bit windy." He said this, and handed her the coat hanging on his elbow, asking her to solve the trouble.

Habits made her stretch out her hand naturally again, and took the warm coat in her hand. Only then did she realize that this is not a company, and there is no place for her to hang the coat.

He frowned, hating iron for being weak, and simply took back his coat, put it on her body directly, and said, "Dong Zhiwei, let me look for it, don't think that you can't go to work if you have a cold, this For a while, I didn’t approve of sick leave.”

She looked at him, suddenly speechless.

From that day on, he no longer called her Secretary Dong, nor Zhiwei, but called her "Dong Zhiwei", including her first and last name, which sounded unfamiliar, but when he said it, she always had a strange feeling.

After he finished saying this, he didn't continue, he just took out a cigarette, and the flame ignited with the crisp sound of the lighter. He seemed to suddenly remember, and said to her, "I have a cigarette, can I?"

She nodded, and he lit the cigarette, and the faint smell of smoke permeated the cool air, as well as unpredictable white mist.

This man is really different from the past. In the past, he would ask her a question before lighting a cigarette, but most of them were declarative sentences, just saying, "I smoke a cigarette."

In the past, he didn't care so much about the well-being of the people around him. He was so busy, in fact, most of the time he didn't pay attention at all.

And in the past, he would never talk to her like this. Yuan Jingrui is the kind of man who always smiles on the surface and makes people think he is very close, but in fact he is best at keeping distance with a smile, even when joking.

She never thought that she would see him the way he is now, the Yuan Jingrui he hides under his demeanor and politeness. She used to think that there was danger and aggression hidden under this appearance, but now it seems that , Beneath this surface lies the obsessive care and rogue towards the people around him that he pays attention to, just like a child.

But the strange thing is that she is no longer afraid of him, perhaps because she puts more and more energy on controlling herself, her inner self is becoming more and more difficult to control, and the influence of other people on her gradually Weakened, like Yuan Jingrui.

She even naturally accepted the changes he showed in front of her, and quickly got used to them.

She now clearly knows that he is very good, but he will not belong to her.

She lowered her head, forced herself not to think about it, took out the two phones he gave her from her handbag, and said to him, "I just had a call from Litton Company. I asked him to contact Secretary Zhan to see if the advertising quota we talked about last time is okay, do you think this is okay?"

"I see." He nodded, took the two phones, and put them in the pocket of the coat she was wearing.

It is extremely cold, and when they talk face to face, they can see the white mist spewed out by each other. The garden in winter is bleak and deserted, and the neatly trimmed bushes have leaves that will not wither through winter, but the color is dull, which is different from the night. Mixed into one, two people stand under the shadow of the tree, and there are messy patterns drawn by the projections of sparse branches on the ground, overlapping with their shadows.

She didn't feel cold in such an atmosphere. After the simple conversation, he continued to smoke, and no one mentioned anyone else, as if everything was temporarily forgotten. She stood beside him silently, the cold wind covered her coat The isolation gave her the illusion that the whole world was warm and quiet.

After the annual leave ended, the whole company returned to its previous busyness, and Dong Zhiwei also remained in the position of head of the administration department.

The appearance of Chen Wenwen, like a gust of strong wind, opened up another space of imagination.

Even Meili came to apologize to Dong Zhiwei, and at noon she took her to a restaurant near the company to have a private conversation, opening her mouth just to say sorry.

Dong Zhiwei shook his head, "It's nothing, as long as you understand me, as for what other people think, I can't control it, and I don't care."

Meili nodded vigorously, "I've always believed in you, Zhiwei. But you also know how difficult it is for a woman to get ahead now, how can it be possible if you suddenly get promoted, and people don't gossip? In that company, the director of the marketing department is purely a pervert, he takes advantage of his mouth, and follows up without moving his hands. If any woman in the company has never been harassed by him, if he can fight it out, he can get the qualification for overseas training in half a year. If you go out like me, you have to resign."

Dong Zhiwei gave her the sauced duck leg with chopsticks, "You've said it countless times, and I can recite it. I know it's not easy for you."

"It's good that you know, the society is like this now, even if you have never done anything, as long as you are targeted, you will be told, and if you are so big, there are all kinds of messy people, you just treat them as farting alright."

Dong Zhi smiled slightly, "I know, eat quickly."

Meili left the sauced duck leg aside, she didn't intend to stop eating at all, she spoke with great interest.

"But the boss is a real stunner in the world. Don't say it. Now that I think about it, I really feel a little pity for you."

Dong Zhiwei was silent, the feeling of being pricked by dense needles in his heart didn't hurt, it was just soreness and numbness.

Yuan Jingrui did not ask her for anything other than work. She is no longer his secretary, and there are not many opportunities to meet him, but almost every day you can hear news about him and Chen Wenwen from different people. .

She felt that she should be thankful, the facts confirmed her expectation, Yuan Jingrui was only interested in her on a whim, he had 1 reasons to let her go, but he still promoted her to be the head of the administration department, what does that mean?It shows that he is the best among the capital controllers. When using a person, it only depends on whether she can use it or not, and whether she can use it well, without any personal emotions.

Of course, there is another explanation, that is, she is not enough to affect his personal emotions at all, and the momentary emotion is just a fleeting cloud.

But she can't.

During his absence, she repeatedly tore her flesh and blood to ask her deepest self if she really wanted to run away from this man desperately, but the answer was hesitation and contradiction. On the surface, he left her behind, but she She knew better than anyone that it was she who left her behind.

Now that Yuan Jingrui is back, he faces her nonchalantly, as if nothing happened and there is an extra first love girlfriend beside him.But she was repeatedly tormented by the past. He used to treat her so tenderly, hugged her at the bottom of the cliff, and warmed her with his own body temperature. She was infinitely close to him, but now everything has changed through her rejection. Nothingness, even the memory is lonely, as if it was just an illusion of her alone.

Dong Zhiwei lowered her head and remained silent. She was terrified by the unprecedented helplessness and despair. She didn't want to hear anyone talking about Yuan Jingrui in front of her. She was afraid that if she opened her mouth, she would say something that she would regret for the rest of her life.

Of course, Mei Li couldn't feel the change in Dong Zhiwei's heart, she was still talking, chattering excitedly, "Do you know, some people say that Chen Wenwen is our boss's first love, they had a relationship in college, when the boss She was detained for fighting and wounding, because she was robbed by other men. I didn't expect our boss to be so passionate and romantic before. If you ask me, Chen Wenwen is too beautiful. Think about it, there are men in college for her. Duel, but if it were me, with a boyfriend like Yuan Jingrui, why would I look at other people, don't you think?"

Meili came up to her to ask this question, but Dong Zhiwei couldn't avoid it, so he had to answer hastily, and took another sip from the teacup. Tongue is numb.

After that, the gossip about Dong Zhiwei in the company gradually subsided.After all, the boss's new girlfriend has appeared in front of everyone grandiosely, and Chen Wenwen still has the halo of a first love lover.The most romantic thing is that the two actually met on the flight back to Shanghai after being separated for many years. Although they had gone through different times, they were still unmarried and unmarried when they saw each other. red light.

Only the person concerned, Yuan Jingrui, has a noncommittal attitude towards this matter. He did not take Chen Wenwen to various occasions openly and casually like in the past, but he did not deny that their relationship tends to be more private and unknown. It was all complicated and confusing, but this aroused everyone's suspicion even more, and they all affirmed that this time the boss is coming for real, and he intends to take advantage of the continuation of the front line to settle his lifelong events.

Others said that Cheng Fang was about to go public and the road show was just around the corner, how could Yuan Jingrui get married at this time and let people share hundreds of millions of wealth for nothing.

Amidst such turbulent rumors, the pace of Chengfang's listing has finally reached the final juncture. The road show is about to begin. What Yuan Jingrui has to face is a week's intensive itinerary in countless cities in several countries. Chen Wenwen's gossip is a new source of excitement Instead, the old employees in the company who held the original shares began to discuss their future assets enthusiastically. Even though Dong Zhiwei was in the administrative department, he could feel Yuan Jingrui's unprecedented busyness from a long distance away.

She thought with very complicated feelings, with Yuan Jingrui's current busyness, she probably had no time to pay attention to this insignificant little person like her.

While Dong Zhiwei was feeling overwhelmed, Wen Bailiang also felt pressure from another aspect.

Dai Ailing's attitude towards him has changed a lot.

Of course, for a woman like Dai Ailing, even if she loses her temper, she still has a condescending attitude.

She first withdrew some of the authorizations that she had promised him, and the private equity fund that Wen Bailiang was in charge of was also suspended. Everything happened without his knowledge. Almost overnight, Wen Bailiang returned I felt the feeling of his sudden fall from the adversity back then.

The bankers who had a good chat with him avoided seeing him one after another, and all the project teams he participated in suddenly put him aside, and even some sensitive traders under him directly bypassed him and reported the situation to Dai Ailing. Became an embarrassingly emptied character, and the former scenery disappeared in a flash.

He panicked and went to find Dai Ailing anxiously, but she avoided seeing her and flew directly to Singapore. He rushed to Singapore immediately, and she went to Hong Kong for a meeting before he landed. Her assistant answered the phone .

As soon as he gritted his teeth, he flew to Hong Kong. He didn't know where she was meeting with someone, so he waited alone at the door of her apartment.

The place where Dai Ailing lives in Hong Kong is a well-known high-rise sea view, with strict access control. He has been here with her in the past, and every staff member's face from inside to outside is full of smiles, but this time alone, unexpectedly Being stopped outside, the guard looked cold and said, "Miss Dai is not here, and I don't know when she will come back."

Wen Bailiang discussed with them, "I'm Miss Dai's friend, I've been here with her before, can you let me go in and wait for her?"

The other party answered him, "Miss Dai didn't leave a message for a friend to come, and we can't contact her on your behalf. Sir, please contact Miss Dai yourself. We need confirmation from Miss Dai herself before we can let you go."

Wen Bailiang gasped in his chest, if he could get in touch with Dai Ailing, why would he want to entangle with these people, and this mansion is still built in the middle of the mountain, all the front and back are private roads, not to mention the coffee shop and restaurant, even a restaurant that can There are no snack shops for people to sit and rest. The taxi that brought him has left long ago. He can’t leave if he wants to, and he can’t enter the community if he wants to wait. The weather in February is almost March, although Hong Kong is warmer than Shanghai, but the seaside The cold wind was still blowing on the ground, blowing into his bones all the time, chilling him to the bone.

There are vehicles coming in and out of the neighborhood, most of them are residents of the community, and all of them are top-notch cars. The security guards stand up to greet them, with a very respectful look. There is no one else at the gate. Wen Bailiang stands alone, looking very abrupt. The vehicles pass by him When he was around, he didn't need the people in the car to lower the glass, he could feel the strange gaze cast from inside.

The feeling of shame turned into being insulted, Wen Bailiang's face turned blue by the cold wind slowly turned red, in the past two years, he had felt this way many times, but never this time was as strong and unbearable.

Another car turned out of the complex and slowed down as it passed him. A security guard came up to him after the car drove away and said, "Sir, if you really want to wait here, can you please wait for me?" side?"

There was already some contempt in that voice. These security guards have seen too many people like him. Most of them are unwelcome and uninvited guests of those rich or expensive guests in the community. It is they who classify them as unworthy of respect.

Wen Bailiang suddenly turned his head to look at him, the fierce light in his eyes made the security guard take a step back involuntarily, but he quickly lowered his eyes and said, "Okay, I see."

After speaking, he really walked into the shadow by the gate, and stood alone in an inconspicuous corner.

The security guard walked back shaking his head three times a step at a time, and when his companion asked what was wrong, he sighed and said, "No, it must be a little wolf cub who was dumped. Look at how talented you are at a young age, and you're used to relying on women." , not bloody at all."

The voice disperses with the wind, and Wen Bailiang, who is just a few feet away, will not be afraid to hear it.

So what can I hear?
Wen Bailiang stood in the shadows, lowered his head, gritted his teeth, and silently focused all his attention on a certain spot of uneven color on the road in front of his feet.

He hasn't tasted this kind of taste for a long time, maybe it's been too long, so long that he almost forgets that he was once trampled under his feet.

He was proud when he was young, and he also suffered some hardships when he started his business, but compared with the joy of success later, that was really insignificant. What's more, he had a dream at that time, and suffering and tiredness were the price he had to pay for success.

He worked hard and almost succeeded, but the result was that he lost everything overnight and fell into a desperate situation. One wrong step was like walking into hell.

Who did he rely on to get out of hell?
Dai Ailing.

She saved him, but he gave himself, and if he didn't pay, he didn't get anything. Everything in this world is fair.

For the past two years, he has struggled between two split selves, one who feels ashamed and unbearable, and the other who feels unlimited opportunities.

Dai Ailing is a brand-new platform that allows him to see a wider world and infinite possibilities. Not only has his dead dream been revived, but it also becomes a reality in the face of countless naked and huge wealth that can be usurped by reaching out. Be more ambitious and expand into an unlimited field.

By Dai Ailing's side, everything that restricted and troubled him in the past became so insignificant. He fought many beautiful battles for her. billion projects.He started to get in and out of the most core financial circles, dealing with various bankers, international investors, and politicians whose backgrounds were too mysterious to reveal. He was even about to enter the management of private equity funds. The self I once dreamed of.

Everything was close at hand, as if reaching out his hand, his fingertips could already touch them, but overnight, he once again fell from heaven to hell.

And all of this is because of the same person.

Can he leave?Maybe turning around and leaving is the most enjoyable way, away from all the shame and humiliation, but at the same time, he will lose everything he may get, and he will not get it without paying. How can it be possible to get them without paying?All of this is so good and wonderful, so what he has to pay is also very bearable, such as the current shame and insult, such as the split second self that has been tormenting him.

The car sounded from far to near, and then stopped in front of him, the rear window slowly lowered, and Dai Ailing's flawless face was revealed, looking at him with an unpredictable expression.

The night had come at some point, he bent down in the cold wind, with one hand on the car, the redness on his face had already faded to pale, and because of the cold, even the color of his lips was much lighter than usual.

He looked at her without a single question, let alone a single word of complaint. He only said three words very slowly in a hoarse voice, "I'm sorry."

(End of this chapter)