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Chapter 756 Chapter 750 Chapter 2 · "Pioneering Undead (4)"

Day 37 of the war.

You come to realize that war is a constant wildfire.Once opened, it is difficult to stop burning. "Revenge" and "ambition" will grow like thorny vines, until all the enemies are slaughtered, then the souls of the dead can be comforted.

——If one day, you meet an enemy who killed your relatives, will someone put down their guns because of the slogan of "peace"?
——If you meet a brutal city massacre, will someone be killed because of the idea of ​​​​"no war"?

Just knowing that, you know, war can't be stopped.

There was continuous artillery fire, corpses littered the field, life was torn apart like shredded paper, and only artillery fire, roars, howls, and treacherous laughter remained on the ground.

"—Now I'm a hero too! I'm a hero too!"

"—Kill! Kill! You killed my relatives, and you still want to stop the war!!"

"——The world is mine! I turned over! I am no longer a tramp, I am the king of this world!!"

People no longer stop wars because no one can get out.

You become more and more silent, more and more cold - because you know, you can't accept those distant calls for help, you can't reach out to them except to add more and more emotional burden to yourself.

You start to study technology in the three fields of machinery, biochemistry, and artificial intelligence. You want to start from the technological level and fundamentally save human beings.

【People are always longing for what they don't deserve.They envy me and yearn for me, but they don't know... what kind of price must be paid behind the great power. 】

This is what you write in your diary.

Some are jealous of your intelligence, some resent your strength, and some fear your large followers.Some people began to slander you, and some even thought that you brought this disaster.

Because you stand at the highest point of human beings, everyone can slander you as much as you like-this is a matter of course.

You are not sad.

[If loving me can bring them confidence, then let them love.If hating me keeps them alive, let them hate. 】

Civilization is the only thing that matters.

……

"Nowadays the factions are divided, and many people have established a country and become local overlords. The Kercha Kingdom rejected our alliance invitation." Xi put the information in front of your eyes: "Their leader said that the lives of civilians have nothing to do with him , all he wants is more territory and gold."

Her black hair was tied high with a red rope, and the ponytail swayed in the light, making her clean side face like jade.

When her dark eyes stare at you, you always think of light in darkness.

Xi is more like a person of the same generation to you. Although you are the youngest among the nine seats, everyone subconsciously ignores your age and regards you as high.

She is the only one who communicates with you like a friend of the same generation.

You rubbed your temples, your eyes were bloodshot: "Got it."

"Don't you read it? Their blackmail words." Xi said.

"No, I don't understand this." You said.

Thy words are as calm as the wind suddenly ceased.Only in the presence of your companions will you shed your hard armor and become a little softer.

Suddenly, with a "snap", her hand rests on your desk.

She lowered her body and looked at you sitting on the chair, her black onyx-like eyes were very close to you, and her breathing was faintly audible.

You can even smell the lemon scent in her hair, and the bell on her wrist is particularly crisp.

"Then go to study, learn diplomacy, learn mechanical knowledge." She looked into your eyes: "You are the most powerful human being, the hero in everyone's vague memory, and only you are the most suitable to lead them."

Her dark pupils were extremely deep, and there was no cunning and smile like a little fox on her face.

"Asa, no matter what happens in the future, I will face it with you. I promise."

If life can be described by liquid state, at this time she seems to be a flowing life.Full of glassy clarity and fluidity.

She always has a burst of vitality.

"...I'll learn." You say.

You know, you must have enough knowledge and communication skills to lead more people to live.

You and her walked under the ginkgo tree and stared blankly into the distance.You find that the sky has become gloomy, and the sun has turned a blood-red color, like a large cloud of black blood hanging in the air.

Suddenly, you turn your head and look at the ginkgo leaves falling in the forest——

"It's windy." You muttered to yourself.

"It's quiet at night, but it's windy during the day..."

You stand still.

It's like the soul wanders elsewhere.

……

After that, you throw yourself into all kinds of studies, acquiring knowledge as desperately as you can.

You make speeches, build power, stop wars, develop basic manufacturing and agriculture, build shelters, negotiate with the coalition government...

You no longer have an overly intimate bond with anyone, which can only spell disaster for those you care about.

"As long as life is rooted in the soil, it will try its best to bloom."

Because of your strength and appeal, people are gradually willing to follow you and fight for you.Go through fire and water for you, and offer loyalty to you.

For some reason, you have a feeling—

You are a drowning man tied to a stone, ropes bound your limbs, and you are constantly falling into the depths.Blood flowed out from the human body, locked your legs, gradually rose up, and covered your head and neck.

Tens of thousands of souls passed you by and cast all kinds of eyes on you.Regret, hatred, joy, fear, satisfaction...you seem to embrace the pain of the entire human civilization.

You are walking in a world that is gradually losing its vitality, and your fluttering black hair meets the scorching warm wind.

This month, you waged a massive war against the toubob.

"This is the first time you have experienced such a battle, can you adapt?" You glanced at the young soldier.

"Adapt...adapt!" The little soldier flushed with excitement, and he solemnly swears to you: "I will definitely continue to fight and fight for you until the last moment! My lord!"

When you heard this "Master God", you sighed silently in your heart, but you didn't deny it.

"The sky is clear and everything is revived. Spring is such a joy. It's just that the spring is cold, and we need to hold on for a while." You looked at some decaying spring flowers around you, the corners of your mouth curled up, and soon drooped down again.

"Yes! My lord!" The little soldier didn't notice your sadness, and continued to swear allegiance to you.

You nodded, not paying attention.

Six days later, the little soldier fulfilled his promise.While rescuing a mother and daughter under the ruins, the little soldier was pierced through the chest by an enemy bullet.

Before he died, he looked at you as if he looked at the whole spring.

"God... my lord..."

"You must...take them...go down..."

You looked at his lost brilliance eyes, silently swallowed the pain in your throat.

This isn't the first "little soldier" you've seen.

Thousands of "little soldiers" have died before your eyes. Their death is like an invisible burden, pressing on your head and spine, making your shoulders heavier.

Day 44 of the war.

The corners of your eyes are tired, and your words become more and more silent. You have learned to hide yourself with a mask.

Sometimes, you retch in the middle of nowhere.The stress is so great that it makes you dizzy.

"Ouch...cough cough cough..."

The cold water washes away your reflection.

……

"You still can't drink, what a pity."

After burying the soldier, your companion, Yue, patted your shoulder, and her silver hair brushed against your face like running water, itching, like pure white tail feathers.

You hear her voice word for word:

"It's okay, I will wait until you can drink. At that time, no one is allowed to escape."

Your eyelashes are shaking.

You looked at her face reddened by the aroma of wine, and wanted to say something.During these times, your companions have suffered too much pain, whether it is being maliciously speculated by others, or being wounded in the war... They have been following you all the time, so they have to endure so much pain.

You always feel that these mistakes are also you.

If it weren't for you, these eight people are so strong, they don't have to suffer these things at all.

You want to say something.

For example, if I knew it earlier, I wouldn’t bring you with me. For example, I don’t want to learn to drink. For example, you should leave my side quickly and stop burdening these things.

But you can't speak.

Yue puts her hand on your shoulder, her expression is slightly drunk, but her eyes are firm.

Just like... the lonely moon floating on the branches tonight, cold and determined.

She shakes your hand back very hard, passing on her courage to you.

It's like she's silently swearing with this powerful gesture that she'll always be there for you.

"..."

At last your lips quivered:

"it is good."

"No one is allowed to escape."

You know it's over.

Completely finished.

Your eight companions have voluntarily not escaped from this barrier, voluntarily shouldered all these pains.You can't push them away.

It is not so easy to be a savior, and you have already experienced the pain deeply.But they are already flying like moths to the flame, and they just want to be by your side.You can't pull them out of deep water.

And she just knocked her head lightly on your shoulder, and said with a light smile:

"Then you should help me find a partner earlier. I like beautiful and cute ones. She can be weaker than me."

You hear your trembling voice:

"...the gods are not responsible for helping you lead the red line."

"... If you want it, live on and find it yourself."

……

—Will you hear a distant entreaty?

Sitting at a desk with flickering candles, you write in your diary.

[I often think, if someone were to cry, despair, and die in such a cruel world.Can my hand catch all of them who are dying? 】

[If I rest for an extra minute, how many people will die in this minute because I am too late to rescue them?Could a slight slack on my part spell disaster? 】

[The clock became an engraved mark in my skull.Every second I stopped, I felt guilty for the weight on my back, I couldn't breathe for a moment. 】

[I cannot mourn endlessly, my head cannot look back, my eyes can only go forward. 】

[Humans are born as human beings because of their precious empathy and dedication.I'm proud of what I have, so,]

Your pen tip trembled, and a windbreaker was draped over your body, dispelling the chill in the room.

The white-haired young man sat quietly on the small stool behind you, looking at you silently.

The companionship of this companion is always silent and resolute.At the same time, his temperament is very stubborn, even if you drive him away, he will run back eagerly and guard by your side.

You will often see him in the shadows, he is like a black knight holding a sharp sword, hiding in the shadows, rarely disturbing your life, but always watching you.

"Lin Guang." You called him in a low voice.

He leans forward, and in this quiet gesture, shows you that he is listening.

"If one day I die, you are not allowed to die with me." You said: "You must live until your life ends."

If among your eight companions, whoever has the deepest attachment to you is this person.All his emotions are based on you. If one day you die, he may die with you.

"No." Lin Guang also expressed his rejection in simple words.He rarely rejects you, this time is an exception.

The flickering lights illuminated his drooping eyebrows and eyes, and the color of those pupils was very light, like foggy clouds, the wind would roll over the waves, as if all emotions would be blown away from his pupils by the wind.

"I don't know what kind of person you will become if I die before you." You didn't look at his painful eyes: "I don't want to see you degenerate, but I hope you live more. "

You can probably guess what twisted form the hopeless man would turn into if you were dead.

But living is your only expectation for him.

Yet he just shook his head.

"You won't die." He said: "If one day you are really cornered, I will stand in front of you until the last moment. You can't die before me."

Your pen quivered.

You finished writing today's diary.

【so,】

[For them, I want to live. 】

【No matter how painful it is, no matter how much I have to bear, I will... live. 】

At this point, you stopped writing.

Your life is no longer for you alone.

If you die, thousands of lives will be affected by you, and they will lose their faith, shelter, leader, and even life.

You must live in pain until the end of the world.

……

"Asa Actor..."

"Asa Actor..."

"Su Mingan..."

Su Mingan was slightly taken aback.

Indulging in the memories and the turbulent emotions, he almost forgot his own existence.Until he suddenly heard someone calling his name.

Delusion.

People were just chanting the name of Asa Actor.

(End of this chapter)