Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 821 Suffocation
Time passed quietly, Zhao Bai'an was just lying on the bed in a daze, she didn't know how long it had passed, she felt that the tears had dried up, slowly turning her eyes and head, she found that it was already dark outside, and her parents didn't know He was no longer in the room, but there was a note left on the small table next to the ward.

It read: Baby girl, mom and dad are going to buy you some food, and I'll be back later.

Holding the note, Zhao Bai'an continued to wander around, looking around, and immediately spotted the bag she brought back by herself not long ago, which was beside her bed.

Zhao Bai'an frowned, slowly carried the heavy bag to the bed, and opened it bit by bit.

What came into view made her startled, because it... was too familiar.

In that bag were all the diaries she had exchanged with Moriyama. When she took it out and looked closely, she found that all the parts written by Moriyama had been torn off, except for her own part.

Except for those rough sawtooths, it's as if the other side never existed, as if everything was just talking to himself.

And there's... that transparent Eiffel Tower bottle with a thousand stars in it.

So... what does this mean?

She wanted to ask him.

Holding the bag in his hand, Zhao Bai'an repeated the old trick, behind his parents' back, left the hospital again, and went to find Morishan.

She wants to know, she wants to figure it out.

Obviously she should be familiar with the road, but she felt that she was going through mountains and rivers. She stumbled for a long time before arriving at the target hospital, and then rushed straight to Morishan's ward.

Fortunately this time, Moriyama was alone in the room, and his parents were missing.

Zhao Bai'an rejoiced secretly in his heart, and then quickly came to Mori Shan's side, grabbing his hand.

Unexpectedly, the piece of coldness that fell into his hands left alone - Mori Shan shook off Zhao Bai'an's hand.

He glanced at Zhao Bai'an again, his eyes were extremely cold.

He opened his thin lips and asked, "What are you here for? You go, we're done here."

Zhao Bai'an, who was still in the shock of being thrown away, was caught off guard, and then pulled out a smile in disbelief, and asked again: "Moriyama, what are you talking about? Are you joking? Yes, are you Just kidding."

Zhao Bai'an doesn't know what to do now, she said this is just an instinctive reaction, after hearing Mori Shan's words, she was like a person who fell on the edge of a cliff, trying to grab a life-saving stick Like vines.

But Morishan didn't give her such a chance, he finally said to Zhao Bai'an again: "I'm not joking, I'm serious, let's break up."

Fall into a cliff.

Zhao Bai'an felt as if he had been shocked by an electric shock, and the pain appeared in his brain again, that unbearable feeling.

Her stomach began to convulse, and she felt like throwing up.

Moriyama's words of breaking up lingered in his ears.

She felt hopeless and didn't know what to say.

When she came to her senses, Zhao Bai'an found herself walking on the street alone. She was like a zombie, feeling that her heart had been hollowed out, and the remaining cavity was dripping. Blood.

She found that she had unknowingly carried the bag to the river where Moriyama had confessed to her.

Zhao Bai'an stood at this place, memories flooded towards her like a spring.

Strangely, she remembered a lot of the past when the two of them were together, and some of them were even unfamiliar to her, and she couldn't even tell whether it was an imagination or something that actually happened.

She sat down on the ground slowly with disturbed thoughts, and held the bag that Moriyama returned to her in front of her eyes.

Looking at those things, her heart was torn to pieces over and over again, like being cut by a blunt knife over and over again.

She suddenly had an impulse to throw these things away, but in the end she still couldn't give up.

Especially when she put her hand into the bag and randomly grabbed a star in a bottle, all her emotions were like a flood that burst a bank, mercilessly drowning him.

She was tangled, she was in pain, she asked and answered herself, and then she clung to the bottle tightly.

Looking at the thousand stars in the bottle, I recalled Moriyama's mother, teacher, Moriyama's father, and Moriyama's words for no reason.

Zhao Bai'an seemed to have lost her mind at this moment, she raised her hand abruptly, and then wanted to throw the bottle far away, as if that would also throw away the painful memory.

But the moment she raised her hand, she recognized the inseparable feelings in her heart, and then fell into entanglement again.

But the emotions gushing out of her mind kept hitting her, and Zhao Bai'an felt like she was going crazy.

She finally broke the bottle, she slammed the bottle on the ground, letting the bottle shatter in her hands instead of away from her, as if it contained the inseparable and inseparable feelings she had for Moriyama too much and now General feelings.

She felt that only in this way could she feel better in her heart.

In fact, Zhao Bai'an's brain is now in a mess, and everything he does has been out of order.

She doesn't know what she wants now, what she wants to do, everything is just aimless and disorganized.

And the bottle was really broken, all the stars fell to the ground, and all the fragments also scattered in front of Zhao Bai'an's eyes.

She suddenly came back to her senses and felt a little regretful.

Zhao Bai'an slowly squatted up, and began to desperately grab those stars including those fragments in his hands, wanting to collect them again, and even want to restore them all.

At this moment, she is already insane, she doesn't care about anything, she just does her own thing.

Now she has completely turned a deaf ear, heard but not listened, and only lived in her own imagination.

She was killing her emotions little by little, and at the same time hurting her body.

Such nonsensical venting left her hands covered with scars, and some fragments stuck in her palms, but Zhao Bai'an didn't feel any pain at all, even the bottle that was not completely shattered crossed her hand and cut a hole. Big mouth, she didn't care.

She was surrounded by emotions all the time, until there was a thin drizzle of rain in the sky.

The light rain sprinkled on her body, and also on her hands, and dripped on her intricate and ugly wounds.

Zhao Bai'an felt a piercing pain, froze for a moment, stopped the movement of his hands for a moment, looked down and found that his hand was cut at some point, and it was already dripping with blood.

(End of this chapter)