Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 812 Life is like a dream
It's just that before this, Zhao Bai'an really hadn't found a suitable opportunity.

In other words, she lacks a motivation, she worries too much and thinks too much.

Now she won't be like this, those whispers and scoldings in her ears actually gave her the effect of spurs.

Zhao Bai'an is like waking up from a big dream now, he can't stop asking himself: what are you waiting for?Didn't you say that you care about Moriyama?That being the case, why bother to think about other unimportant things?
The thought made her even more agitated, and the beeping on the other end continued.

Zhao Bai'an decided not to wait anymore, she decided to put her thoughts into action, but just when she was about to hang up the phone, Mori Shan's voice came from the phone unexpectedly.

"Hello..." The voice was hoarse and hoarse, as if dying of terminal illness.

At this moment, Zhao Bai'an couldn't bear the unbearable tears that burst out of his eyes uncontrollably like broken pearls.

But she didn't forget to answer Moriyama quickly: "Moriyama, it's me, why...you haven't answered the phone?"

Zhao Bai'an was already choked up when she said this, but in order to let Moriyama not think too much, and to try not to affect Moriyama's emotions, she still tried her best to maintain a certain level of calm.

Mori Shan heard something was wrong on the other end of the phone, but he was a little unsure, so he just asked subconsciously: "What's wrong with you?"

Zhao Bai'an didn't want Mori Shan to notice that something was wrong, she hesitated for a moment, trying to pull the corners of her mouth on the other end of the phone, trying to respond to Mori Shan with a high tone: "I'm fine, but you, how are you doing these days?"

Mori Shan was silent on the other end of the phone, but Zhao Bai'an immediately became nervous.

For some reason, she always felt as if she was going to be separated from Moriyama, and she was very afraid that she would not be able to contact Moriyama again.

The fear in his heart was magnified infinitely because of such silence, and Zhao Bai'an called out emotionally: "Moriyama? Morishan!"

The originally hidden good emotions suddenly couldn't bear it anymore and burst out.

She unconsciously made a humming sound, while Mori Shan frowned slightly on the other end of the phone. This time he really heard Zhao Bai'an's fault, and his heart tightened accordingly, and then he felt sorry for his behavior feel sorry.

He couldn't help but wonder if he was really wrong?
Moriyama reacted suddenly as if his head had been shocked by an electric shock.

Then he kept asking himself, what is he doing?Is he hurting Zhao Bai'an?How can he do this?How could he go to the person he loves so much in Shanghai!
Thinking of this, he couldn't hold back anymore, and couldn't help comforting Zhao Bai'an on the phone: "It's my fault, I'm the one who made you worry, don't cry, I really feel bad when you're like this."

Zhao Bai'an heard Mori Shan's voice, and her sadness gradually eased. She stopped crying, but she did not forget her problem.

"Moriyama, can you tell me? How are you doing these days? I'm so worried. I saw the grades, and I know you must be suffering, but you...but you can't see me!"

Moriyama was silent for a while on the other end of the phone, but this time he didn't take as long as last time, he quickly reacted, and then responded: "I'm sorry, I didn't do it to you I'm the one who screwed up all this. I can't go to school with you, we're separated, and I can't be by your side anymore."

"I don't know what to do. Why don't I repeat my studies for another year? Shall I be your junior? I... um!"

Moriyama became more and more excited as he spoke, but before he finished speaking, a severe headache hit him again, he subconsciously covered his head and groaned.

On the other end of the phone, Zhao Bai'an heard that Mori Shan's mood and state were not right. Although she didn't see Mori Shan, she knew that he was depressed, and she could feel his pain.

Zhao Bai'an squeezed his fists, resisting his pain, and then poured out all the gentle words that could come to mind in her mind.

"Moriyama, don't be like this, we are not separated, we are just not together in class, and we are not together in school."

"When I'm out of school, summer vacation and winter vacation, we can still be together, and we are only separated in high school, and there is also a university. We can meet to take the same university exam. At that time we will not be separated, and we will never have to Separated, I will always guard you, and I will guard you forever."

"Little fool, don't say anything stupid like being my junior, how can we afford to hurt this year, aside from time, this lot of energy is fatal!"

"Moriyama, do you know? I really can't live without you. You have to be good and cheer up. Have you forgotten? You are my guiding light; have you forgotten? You will always guide me ahead."

"The reason why I can persevere during this period is because of you. So Moriyama, you have to believe in me like I believe in you, okay?"

Zhao Bai'an said it sincerely, but also said it pitifully. She kept rubbing all the words in her heart, and then poured them all out at this moment.She doesn't expect Moriyama to understand in seconds, she just hopes that these words can become a coordinate and a photoelectric light on Moriyama's way forward, so that he can be freed from the shadows.

Because only if he is good can she truly come alive.

These days, she has really experienced what it means to be sick with lovesickness, and she has experienced the state of the kind of lovesickness, worry and anxiety.At the same time, she experienced even more what the words that are often said in film and television dramas - Sansheng Sanshi mean.

Zhao Bai'an has lived like this for a while, life is like a dream, life is like this, three lives and three lives, three times of calamity, three times of sobriety, three times of intoxication.

She always felt that she was living in a daze, like a dead zombie.But now that she finally got in touch with Moriyama, she will try her best to pull Moriyama out of the brink of pain.

Of course, this is also to save themselves, to save their love that is about to collapse.

But Zhao Bai'an failed to get what he wanted in the end, and Mori Shan didn't understand her.

Moriyama was on the other end of the phone and didn't respond to what she said just now.

Zhao Bai'an sighed, but she quickly sorted out her emotions, and then continued to comfort Mori Shan.

She said a lot of words from the heart again.In the end, even she couldn't bear it, she cried bitterly, this time she didn't hide her emotions anymore, because she really couldn't hide it anymore.All her emotions had filled her heart, overflowing out of control.

(End of this chapter)