Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 811 Whisper
The mother watched from the side, her heart felt like a knife was twisted, but in the end she still couldn't hold back her daughter and surrendered first.

She put the wonton bowl aside, then reached into her pocket, and returned Zhao Bai'an's phone to her.

Zhao Bai'an was stunned the moment she saw the phone, and then she looked at her mother with some confusion.

"Hey!" Mom sighed again helplessly, then turned her head and left without saying a word.

And Zhao Bai'an looked at his mother's back with complicated emotions, unable to recover for a long time.Holding the phone at the moment, she always feels heavy in her heart. Regarding some recent events, she always feels like a big stone is hidden in her heart, and she is so overwhelmed that she can't breathe.

She doesn't know what to do now. In fact, at this moment, she wanted to call Moriyama again, but her mother's words just now were still in her ears.In addition, for no reason, she remembered the unpleasant meeting between her and Mori Shan's mother many days ago, and she suddenly felt a little cowardly.

After struggling for a while, Zhao Bai'an finally adopted a more conservative approach. Instead of calling, she found Morishan's profile picture in the chat tool.

After clicking on it, she sent such a sentence to Mori Shan as a message.

—— Moriyama, I know you must be uncomfortable after the test results, but please give me a chance to do something, please give me a chance to be by your side.

After that, Zhao Bai'an began to wait quietly at the side. During the waiting process, she would flip through her phone from time to time, hoping that Mori Shan could reply to herself quickly.

But every time the result was unsatisfactory. Gradually, she was so disappointed that she didn't have much mood to stare at the phone.

She nestled under the blanket, caught in waves of emotions.

In this way, Zhao Bai'an quietly spent the remaining days of the holiday in this disappointment, waiting, hesitation and helplessness.

And during this period, Moriyama seemed to disappear suddenly, evaporated from the world.

No matter how much Zhao Bai'an tried to communicate with him, the result was still as lost as before.

In the blink of an eye, the annual school season ushered in. According to the usual practice, Zhao Bai'an had to leave home to report to a new high school.

On the night before departure, because of loss and unwillingness, Zhao Bai'an tried to contact Mori Shan again.

But obviously, this time she still got that disappointing result, like throwing a stone into a swamp, without any ripples to respond, not a single bit.

Zhao Bai'an gave up completely, there was absolutely no way out, she had exhausted all hope, she had completely entered into despair.

It was supposed to face a new life, but Zhao Bai'an didn't have any positive attitude.

She is now like an empty shell that has been hollowed out, her thoughts are gone, her emotions are gone, and her soul is gone.What is left now is simply not enough to make her feel that she is still alive, and even said that she has long since lost her normal feelings and behaviors.

Zhao Bai'an just stood there in a daze, motionless, and sat until midnight. She didn't pack any of the things she was going to take away tomorrow. She was so helpless and lost herself.

Originally, these extremely heavy emotions made it hard for her to let go, but at this time, Zhao Bai'an unexpectedly saw the screen of his mobile phone light up in a trance, and it seemed to be a call.

She didn't connect, but the voice on the other end of the phone still rang in Zhao Bai'an's ear relentlessly.

"You vixen, you loser, you are the one who killed him! You are going to leave now, you are admitted to a good school, but there is no him in your good school! You step on him to climb up, you snake-hearted People, you will not be rewarded, you will not be rewarded!"

Zhao Bai'an covered his ears, but it was useless, the sound became even louder, as if... as if the source of the sound came from his own head.

"It turned out that he studied well because he was with you. He was studying with you. It was you who dragged him down!"

"It's because you didn't study well, which dragged him down and made him look like this. You shouldn't get such a result, you should fail!"

"Zhao Bai'an, remember for me, every step you take in the future, who is carrying what. Don't forget, who became your stepping stone, a woman with a deep heart like you, sooner or later There will be retribution!"

The voice next to her ear said a lot. Zhao Bai'an didn't feel too much from the pain at the beginning to listening quietly now, because she was used to it.

In fact, since she knew the test results, she has actually been spending such days.

Although she has never been able to get rid of it, it can be said that she has long since dismissed it, and this heart that has been riddled with holes has already stopped paying so much attention to these words.

She didn't answer any of the words she heard, she didn't make sense until it was so.She just listened in a daze, hearing the voice in her ear getting more and more excited.It was as if when there was no response, there was always a feeling of swallowing a fly, which made the voice feel that this was simply too cheap for Zhao Bai'an.

"Let me tell you, although you have won in your official career, emotionally, you will always be defeated."

"You will never see Moriyama again in your life. The two of you are destined to be two parallel lines that cannot intersect."

"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!"

The voice next to his ear suddenly started laughing wildly, and he didn't know what he was laughing at, because...you couldn't hear any trace of laughter from it at all.

Zhao Bai'an listened over there, but after all, it was still hard to catch the words in her ears. She laughed maniacally, then smiled coldly.

Smiling and laughing... An uncontrollable heartache swept through the whole body, and the pain spread all over the body.

But then... It seemed like a miracle that her sleeping cells woke up again.

The laughter stopped, and Zhao Bai'an saw her heart more clearly at this moment, and she saw more clearly what she wanted.

She also understood a truth even more, that is, it is absolutely impossible for her to let Moriyama disappear from her life like this, and she would collapse like that!She won't be able to stand it!

She didn't want to live alone like this for the rest of her life from now on, she let the voice beside her ear laugh all the time, while she picked up her phone and anxiously tried to contact Moriyama again.

At this time, she had already ignored it, Zhao Bai'an had been thinking in her heart: no matter whether Mori Shan answered the phone this time, whatever she said, she would still get news from Mori Shan today, otherwise she would go to him!Wherever you go, go find him!As long as he exists in the world, no matter where he is, she will definitely be able to find him!
Zhao Bai'an no longer cared about the fear in her heart, no longer cared about the trembling emotions, she must get a result today, she must hear Mori Shan's voice.

Otherwise, she would never be able to let it go. This is not just a whim just now, but a thought that she has always kept in her heart.

(End of this chapter)