Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 64 The Meaning of My Existence

With the coming of the end of October, the script contest has finally come to an end.

As of today, the drama club has received a total of more than a dozen different small scripts.

I didn't expect that as a temporary club, it would be able to get a lot of participation. It seems that Zhao Bai'an's worries at the beginning were completely unnecessary.

After all, writing a script is really time-consuming and labor-intensive. Don't ask how Zhao Bai'an knew this.

So during the National Day, Zhao Bai'an was very happy to learn that there were already six articles, but he was not greedy enough to think that there would be so many more in the future.

"Okay, let's start then." After all six people arrived.Everyone started this round table meeting. Of course, the main purpose of this time is - the selection of scripts.

"A total of 18 scripts were received. Well, since we have so many original scripts, I don't think we should consider scripts on the Internet?" As the main person in charge of the script contest, Huang Han first made a brief summary, Then ask for everyone's opinion.

"Yes, I think it's completely fine. Since we have our own, of course it's better to use Haichuan University's original one!" Zhao Bai'an agreed, "And we can't let down the wishes of the participants."

"I think so too. But how do you feel after watching it? Huang Han, have you seen all of them?" Yang Zichen asked.

"Yes, that's right. And some of them I read carefully several times." Huang Han said, taking out a stack of papers from his bag, "I have to pick three out of so many good scripts, and I have to repeat them over and over again." Been struggling for a while."

"However, the process of reading is still very enjoyable." Huang Han smiled lightly, and distributed the paper in his hand to everyone, "Because I personally like reading paper books, and I think the text on paper can be richer than electronic presentation. More emotional, and more comfortable to look at. So I took it upon myself to type each one out.”

"Ah, I don't need to give it." Zhao Bai'an waved her hand, after all, she made it clear that she would withdraw before the script contest started.

"Enmu, forget it, give it to me." Zhao Bai'an took the few pieces of paper that Huang Han handed over after thinking for a while, since they had already been typed out, she didn't vote, but it was good to have a look.

"Eh? Huang Han, why is there no author on this script?" Yang Zichen sorted out all three copies first, and spread them horizontally on the table, "This is "The Meaning of My Existence."

"Oh that, when I received it, it was anonymous. The email said that someone wanted to contribute an original script but wanted to remain unknown." Huang Han explained.

"What a weirdo." Yang Zichen tilted his head, picked up the one on the far right, and decided to read it first.

Everyone fell into the silence of reading carefully for a while, and Zhao Bai'an picked up the script and started to read it.

Eunmu..."Secret Love in Plum Garden"?

Just looking at the name, it feels like a love type.

Sure enough, this is simply a youth campus version of Thunderstorm.Although there were only four single-sided pages, the relationship between the characters in it was so complicated that she read it back and forth several times, and she was still in a kind of confusion of cutting and judging.

If this can really be fully expressed on the stage, it will definitely be a vivid emotional drama.

It's a pity that when these contents are condensed into less than ten minutes, it may appear that the layout is a bit small.And because too many actors are involved, Zhao Bai'an is not sure whether they can get some temporary off-site assistance before the club is formally established.

Then look at another one.

Eum... "The Stupid Detective"...

Judging from the name, you can feel that it should be a comedy, right?I don't know what kind of detective it is?What does it have to do with Miaobi?

Before Zhao Bai'an could read the second script carefully, Yang Liu Yiyi raised a small hand and shouted: "I have already made a decision! I like "Secret Love in Plum Garden"!"

"You have to read all the scripts before you can make a decision." Zhao Bai'an instructed her again like an old woman.

When Zhao Bai'an read this article, he had the feeling that Yang Liuyiyi would like it very much.

"Hmph! Xiao An, you look down on me, of course I've already finished watching them all~" Yang Liuyiyi said with a bit of complacency, pursing her lips.

"My God, I didn't even know you could read text so fast!"

Zhao Bai'an just finished reading the second article.

"Of course, otherwise there are so many handsome guys waiting for me in a good article with millions of words. If I don't hurry up, how can I meet them."

Zhao Bai'an gave her an idea: "Amazing! I underestimated you, why don't you share your views with Huang Han first?"

Because Huang Han has watched it many times, he is a little idle now.

"I have to say that each of these three articles has its own characteristics, Huang Han, you chose really well." Yang Zichen praised after about 15 minutes.

At this point, basically everyone has watched it all.

"It's okay, Zichen. In fact, there are still many good scripts, but we must make a choice. There are a few I can only reluctantly give up."

"It's okay." Zhao Bai'an said to the regretful Huang Han, "We will still have many opportunities to act in those scripts that were not selected today."

Of course, the premise is that the drama club can be formally established.

"But how should I put it? As for "The Meaning of My Existence", I feel that it has a sense of freshness and refinement, but it also feels a little strange." Yang Zichen said tangled.

"Do you feel that the topic you want to express is too serious?" Zhao Bai'an couldn't help asking.

"Well, it seems to be because of this." Yang Zichen tasted it carefully again, but couldn't tell the specific reason.

"Then let me tell you why I chose these three plays." Huang Han explained, "First of all, of course, the plots and literary talents of these three plays are among the best. What about "Secret Love in Plum Garden"? It's because of the multiple reversals, reversals and reversals..."

"But don't you think there are too many reversals?" Wang Yichuan interrupted suddenly.

"Hey~ But people think it's very good! On a thunderstorm night, two people who had nothing to do with each other met in the campus building like this, ah! Because of the power outage, there was a spark between them~ As a result, their relationship heated up To the extreme, when you are talking to each other, you find that there is an amazing connection behind the two that no one has noticed before~ Ah! How interesting!"

Originally, it was just a campus love drama with some twists and turns of youth love, but under Yang Liu Yiyi's exaggerated interpretation, it suddenly became intriguing and bloody.Zhao Bai'an even wondered if there might be any difference between the scripts she and Yang Liu Yiyi read?

Huang Han nodded after waiting for Yang Liuyiyi to finish speaking, and continued: "Wang Yichuan and Yang Liuyiyi are right, you have this feeling, it can be said that this is its biggest advantage and biggest disadvantage."

"Then I chose "Big Pen" because it's a very typical comedy, and if you choose it, it should be one that you can never go wrong."

"That's right, I feel the same way." Yang Zichen agreed, "Although I know it's original, but judging from the routine, it's the kind of traditional comedy that makes everyone laugh at the New Year's Eve party."

"Yes." Huang Han nodded, "But the reason why I chose "The Meaning of My Existence" seems to contain more personal emotions."

"Zichen, you know it too. I told you how I felt in the dormitory that night after I finished reading it for the first time."

Yang Zichen nodded in response to Huang Han.

"Although I know that what this script wants to express is a bit serious, but I imagined it and thought it would be a good idea to give such a performance at the New Year's Day party. After all, the whole story is very innovative, and the ending is also unexpected. It is a win." On the creative side."

"That's right! I haven't been exposed to such a small script before with settings such as transparent people and low sense of existence. But I don't really like this kind of ending..." Yang Zichen frowned slightly, a little have no choice.

"Why did two transparent people finally find each other, but in the end they had to arrange for one of them to be seriously injured? And why did they get hurt when they did bad things, and when they changed their minds to help others? "

"Maybe it's because real life is not all so beautiful." Zhao Bai'an couldn't help but respond to Yang Zichen's doubts.She naturally couldn't understand the feeling of blockage in Yang Zichen's heart.

"But look, the author of this drama actually left us hope in the end, didn't he? Although one of them was seriously injured, at least he had a companion who was similar to him with him. As long as the companion took the initiative to touch others for help , In fact, the last end may be a good ending." Zhao Bai'an said what he wanted to convey in the script.

"That's right Xiao An! You're absolutely right." Huang Han looked at her with admiration, "So I don't think it's a problem to perform at the New Year's Eve party."

This compliment made Zhao Bai'an a little embarrassed.

Of course, it was impossible for Zhao Bai'an to tell others how long she had been thinking about when reconstructing the ending, and she almost missed the deadline.

She didn't like the original ending.Of course, even though it has been adapted, it doesn't mean she likes the ending now.But for now, this ending is the best, right?

It's just that finding a similar partner for that almost transparent person, and planting a seed of hope when he is on the verge of death, is already the best gift that Zhao Bai'an can give while retaining those emotions to the greatest extent. Answer the paper.

Huang Han smiled a little embarrassedly: "When I received this script, it was only one hour before the deadline. I was surprised that I could receive a new script at such a late time. In fact, on the same day After I finished reading the first time at night, I felt more regret and helplessness in my heart. The last two sentences also touched me a lot. But I didn’t expect that this script would make me think for a long time, so that It’s a sense of relief now.”

"That's good." Zhao Bai'an blurted out.

"What, Ann?"

"Ah! Nothing nothing~"

Huang Han didn't pay much attention and continued: "So I think, if we perform it, everyone may have similar feelings to me. That's why I chose it among the three scripts."

"Okay, Huang Han! You have really worked hard! I vote for "The Meaning of My Existence"~" Yang Zichen immediately gave his vote after listening.

"Then I'll vote for this too." Wang Yichuan said immediately.

"Hey Zichen, did you decide so quickly?" Zhao Bai'an was a little surprised.

"Well, compared to tradition, I prefer innovative things. Then I think "Secret Love in Plum Garden" needs too many actors, even if we can find some extras to comeo, everyone in this script has a lot It's hard to let the friendship actors directly get started." Yang Zichen expressed her analysis, some of which are very consistent with Zhao Bai'an's judgment.

"I think I like this one better too." Chen Yudi, who had been silent all this time, took a look at Zhao Bai'an and gave him his vote.

"Hey~~ choose that one! I really think "Secret Love in Plum Garden" is very good! Has no one read it? Where is Huang Han? Where is Xiao An?" Yang Liuyiyi put her last hope on Zhao Baian and Huang Han body.

"I said at the first meeting that I would not vote." Although Zhao Bai'an at the time had completely different reasons from her now.

"Me too, I'm responsible for picking out 3 scripts, and then you can choose."

"Eh?? My heroine!" Yang Liu Yiyi fell down on the round table again like a deflated ball.

"Since that's the case, the result is about to come out. Let's start preparing for it in the next two months!"

On the second day of the celebration, when Zhao Bai'an woke up in a strange lying position on the bed, he really couldn't laugh or cry.Originally, she just climbed onto the bed to get the shower cap needed for bathing, but as soon as her head touched her beloved little pillow, she fell asleep directly like the exhausted Yang Liu Yiyi.

After talking with Huo Miki, the process of writing the script is actually her self-organization process.

Zhao Bai'an had no intention of participating in the script competition, and sent it to Huang Han just to answer the question Huang Han asked her on the day Zhao Bai'an proposed to set up a theater company.

Because she knew that Huang Han would definitely watch it.

But since she has won this honor, it is not in vain for her own emotions contained in the script.

——"What do you think is the meaning of existence?" Huang Han asked.

——"What is success to you? And what kind of life do you want?" Huo Miki asked.

——"To live is to exist."

——"Finding what you cherish and being able to spend your life happily is the greatest success."

These are the two sentences that Zhao Bai'an wrote at the end of the script.

It was also the answer she gave.

What is a person?

People are the witnesses of life.

　In this volume, Zhao Bai'an ambiguously discusses some meanings about life and the future in the pursuit of youth through dreams.This seems a little premature.But in fact, at various moments in our lives, we will always have such thoughts at certain nodes, even just for a moment. Sometimes we feel hazy and unknowable, but sometimes we will have some epiphanies inexplicably, isn’t it? ?

　　The philosopher Kant, he answered three questions: what can I know, what should I do, and what can I hope to do.But he failed to answer: what is man?this problem.Another philosopher, Heidegger, gave his own answer: Man is a witness to life.

　　In this story, why is Zhao Bai'an not a witness?

　　Thanks for reading~ Volume [-] is coming tomorrow!

　　

　

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