Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 56 The Man Wearing a Happy Mask

"Bai An! Hurry up, Bai An! Have you finished your makeup? What about your clothes? Are you all dressed? Then hurry up! They are all waiting for you to play, why are you still dawdling?" The manager rushed into the lounge and dragged Zhao Bai'an to the door.

"Wait a minute!!" Zhao Bai'an, who was wearing a tuxedo, struggled to break free, almost messing up the hairstyle that the stylist had done.

"What's wrong?" The manager was a little impatient.

"I feel... lifeless, and I think it might be hard for me to laugh later."

"It's hard to laugh? This can't be done, it's difficult..." The manager calmed down and became less eager.

He picked up the walkie-talkie: "Scene A, see if you can delay the opening for another 15 minutes, no, let's delay the fans for another 10 minutes."

"Bai An, haven't you taken your medicine?" After giving the order, the manager came over, put his hands on Zhao Bai'an's arms, and kept looking at her face with his eyes.

"Eat." She thought, the look of no trace of happiness on her face at this moment must have disappointed him.

"That shouldn't be...Bai An, are you eating according to the usual amount?"

Zhao Bai'an nodded: "Well, I ate three pills."

The manager took a deep breath: "Then, you can take three more pills, no, try six."

"Six pills? But this..." Zhao Bai'an hesitated.

"It's okay, Bai An." The manager slightly bent his body taller than Zhao Bai'an, his eyes were at the same level as hers, "Don't you know the effect of this medicine? It can help you collect the happiness in advance Get up to make you feel."

"Your identity is the hottest idol who is sunny and happy!"

"But I... I'm not really as sunny and happy as everyone thinks... You know it too." Zhao Bai'an stomped his feet anxiously.

"Shh! Nonsense!" The manager tilted his head, his eyes suddenly became sharp, "Why are you unhappy? You are nonsense! You feel like this, but the pressure is a little bit high recently. I know that this loop concert Tired you, and us all."

"Come on, come on." The manager took her hand and walked towards the control room, "This is the last match. After this match is over, I will give you a whole month's leave!"

As soon as the door of the control room was pushed open, the dense crowd under the stage had a panoramic view. "Come on, look carefully."

"Help her zoom in." The agent said to the field controller, "Yes, that's it."

"Bai An, take a closer look at these people."

Enlarged faces flashed across the screen, so clear that Zhao Bai'an could clearly see the beads of sweat hanging on both sides of his cheeks due to the sweltering heat.

Everyone's eyes were shining brightly, their necks were raised, and they were looking in the same direction. That was the direction of appearance, and it was where she would appear later.

"Bai An, have you seen it? You don't need me to tell you how important you are to your fans."

"In such a depressive age where everyone is full of pressure, it is not easy for you to appear as a person full of vitality. Everyone regards you as a pillar in their hearts!"

"Bai An..."

"Okay, stop talking, and bring me the medicine." Zhao Bai'an interrupted the manager's persuasion.

She couldn't refuse that kind of look no matter what.

Six ordinary black pills went down the throat until they melted and dispersed in the stomach...

"Hello! How are you all?" Zhao Bai'an was wearing a white gauze skirt, sitting on a high-altitude hanging platform and slowly descending.

"Bai An! Bai! An! Bai! An! Wow~~~" Before her figure could fully appear, the atmosphere in the arena was already ignited to the extreme.

The roiling heat wave mixed with everyone's passion wrapped her up all at once.

Eventually she took 24 pills.

But what does it matter, the world is so gorgeous, and life is so beautiful.The lights in the venue are like little stars, one by one; the light sticks represent the fiery hearts of fans.

The high stage stopped in mid-air, the music of Zhao Bai'an's famous song sounded, and the crowd under the stage became silent for a moment, and the light sticks also swayed rhythmically from side to side.

Even without her asking, every song and every song can be completed by the crowd.

The high platform landed slowly again, directly reaching a height within reach of the crowd.

"Are you happy today!" Zhao Bai'an shouted.

"Happy~heart~" The crowd responded enthusiastically.

"Bai'an! I haven't felt this kind of happiness for a long time. I just need to look at you, your happy smiling face, and I can feel as happy as you!" Came Gao from the direction of a certain VIP seat below. call.

"Bai An! Bai An! Bai An!"

"Then what if... I said that I might actually feel unhappy one day?"

"Impossible! Bai An! Impossible!"

"Bai An, you are the motivation to support me to continue living. I still remember when I was standing by the river, the wind was so cold, and the moment I was about to jump off, I saw your smiling face on the big screen of the tall building on the other side of the river. A smiling face like a spring breeze!"

"If you are not happy, who else will be happy?"

"You are synonymous with happiness, we love you! Bai An!"

Looking at the faces looking up one by one, more and more heat flowed out of Zhao Bai'an's body, this is the motivation to continue!She couldn't, she absolutely couldn't let any of them down.

"Oh, Bai An! It's been hard work." The four-hour concert ended smoothly.Zhao Bai'an almost exhausted all the energy she had gathered so hard.

"I don't think I can be happy anymore." The makeup remover slowly removed her delicate makeup, which was also removed with enthusiasm.

Zhao Bai'an's heart became extremely empty again in an instant.

"You're talking nonsense again, Bai An." The manager looked displeased, "Didn't you be fine just now?"

"Okay? Did you call it okay just now?"

In the mirror, Zhao Bai'an's original appearance was gradually revealed, his eyes were not so big and energetic, there were even deep dark circles under his eyes, his lips were not bright red but brown with a layer of white on top.

"Do you know how much medicine I took? 24 pills! A total of 24 pills!"

"It's okay Bai An, you can take as much medicine as you want."

"No, that's not the point." Zhao Bai'an shook his head, "You don't understand at all...I can feel it myself."

The role of the black pill is to gather the future happiness so that people can experience it in advance.

In the past, Zhao Bai'an was really happy, but later he slowly started to take one pill when needed, and it became two or three pills.24 capsules to today.

increase, increase,

consume, consume,

Wouldn't she know what this meant?

"I, maybe there will never be such an emotion of happiness in the future. The scene just now has already used up all the happy emotions in the future."

*******

"I'm sorry, I really can't help it." For a month, Zhao Bai'an, who was curled up in the corner, said to her manager who came to visit her every day.

She practiced in front of the mirror countless times, but she still couldn't find the perfect arc of her first smile.

"Or I'd better retire."

"Retire? How can this work! Don't you know? You just announced that you were sick in the past few days, and there have been several incidents where fans lost hope and committed suicide because they couldn't see your smile."

"I know."

"You know you still want to retire? You have already become the happy representative and star of hope of this country. Once you retire, how many people will die with you? How much labor force will the country lose?"

"You are not happy for yourself, understand? The authorities will not agree with your ideas in order to ensure the psychological stability of the people."

"But what do you think I can do?"

But in the end is why the loss of happiness?

Is it because happiness goes away from itself when it ceases to be a pure thing?

And in such a stressful and fast-paced environment, everyone's happiness has been squeezed and turned into a precious thing.

"Did you still take that medicine afterward?" The manager pointed to the little black pill.

"En." Zhao Bai'an in the corner mirror nodded dully, "Eat all I have, hundreds of pills."

"A little effect, even a little bit, nothing?"

"No."

Zhao Bai'an only felt that he in the mirror was getting thinner and thinner, and the corners of his mouth were sinking more and more.

"Hey, I didn't want to give it to you, but now... I have no choice but to try it." The manager took out a small long wooden box from his inner pocket, held water, and brought them together to Zhao Bai'an.

"Happy mask... what is this?" After opening the box, there was only one tablet inside, and a laughing mask was printed on the yellow coating.

"Eat it, you will be able to smile again." The manager put the water glass in front of Zhao Bai'an.

Seeing her hesitation, the manager immediately said: "Eating can save many people. You are already a happy singer of the present age. You have this responsibility."

Yes, what she carries on her shoulders is no longer just herself.

"Take it." Complying with the voice, the pill slipped into Zhao Bai'an's throat.

But it seems... nothing has changed?

No.

Who is that person in the mirror?

Zhao Bai'an touched her cheeks with both hands in disbelief, and she in the mirror did the same.

That's right, the touch from her fingers was as real as what she saw with her eyes, the perfect upward arc, Zhao Bai'an pulled it down hard, but it didn't move at all.

As expected of a happy mask.

Immediately.

"Oh! It seems that this is very useful!" The manager finally heaved a sigh of relief when he saw Zhao Bai'an's smile, and his tense shoulders dropped several degrees.

Zhao Bai'an touched the face that was emotionally separated from her, and asked, "How long can this last?"

"Forever!" The agent opened his arms wide, "Once and for all! In the eyes of the public, you will be happy forever."

"Even if I really don't have a trace of happiness in my heart?"

"Even if you really don't have a trace of happiness in your heart!"

"Ding-boom-"

Are there any visitors at this time?

"Ah! It's finally here. I invited it. The top drama master in our country." The manager trotted to open the door.

"What is the drama master here for?" Zhao Bai'an followed and ran to the door.

A thin black-clothed man with the same bitter face as her heart stood at the door.

"Ah, hello." But the moment he saw Zhao Bai'an's hypocritical smile, his eyes flashed.

It seems that she has made the right decision so far.

"I'm here to teach you how to smile, Xiao." The black man took off his hat and bowed to me, "But it seems that you don't need a goddess of happiness like you, Bai An?"

Has my popularity reached this point?Zhao Bai'an himself couldn't believe it.

"No, no, please come in." Zhao Bai'an naturally smiled and said, "I am really happy, but please teach me how to laugh..."

　I originally planned to write two chapters, but I didn't think of Serious Calvin (embarrassed laugh).This story is to express a person who smiles for others. She smiles because others want her to be like this, and she can only live with a mask like this.

　　In our real life, some masks cannot be taken off after wearing for a long time.Just like Zhao Bai'an in this dream.

　　I don't know if my meaning has been expressed.

　　Thank you for reading and supporting~

　　

　

(End of this chapter)