Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 41

"Hey! I'm here." When it was time for the self-study class, Zhao Bai'an came to the round table as usual, and jumped onto the soft sofa.Her body bounced a few times on the sofa, enjoying the soft touch beneath her.

"En? Where's Zichen?" She asked Huang Han, she remembered that Zichen probably didn't schedule classes today.Zhao Bai'an looked around, but still couldn't find Yang Zichen's jumping figure.

What did that guy do?

"I ran to chat with someone just now." Huang Han closed the book, and replied casually, "It seems to be that... Who is that? Anyway, he was with our military training."

"Hahahaha, it turns out that you can't remember names just like me! But I remembered both of your names right away. See how destined we are!" Zhao Bai'an gently touched Huang Han with his elbow.

"Oh, it's okay, I will always remember it if I need it in the future." Huang Han replied with a gentle smile, brushing his short hair.

"That's right, you've finally finished reading it." Zhao Bai'an pointed to Huang Han's closed book, and moved his head to it, "Let me see what book it is?"

"My God...Walden Lake!" Zhao Bai'an had put this book on the bookshelf in junior high school but hadn't finished it yet. "Isn't this too Buddhist?"

"Huang Han." Zhao Bai'an patted Huang Han's right shoulder with one hand, and said earnestly, "You can't help but make me wonder if you are a monk who wears the skin of a beautiful adolescent girl."

"Come on! This book is not as Buddhist as you think." Huang Han couldn't help giving her a small white look, and his expression became richer.

"Oh? I remember that this book seems to be about the subject of hermitism, right? Man and nature." Zhao Bai'an searched for the few memories related to this book in his mind in deep thought.

"That's right, but it also discusses the meaning of personal existence, spiritual pursuit and so on." Huang Han closed the book and introduced the content to her energetically, although the content of the book still couldn't remind Mrs. Zhao Bai'an interest of.

"The meaning of personal existence... sounds so advanced." But it feels that it is indeed the height that a famous book should have.

"But in fact, I just like the peaceful feeling it gives me. Sometimes I get up early, or arrive at some places too early, and it's good to see myself calm." Huang Han gently Caress the book cover once, as if treating a lover as cherished.

"You also know that you arrived early?" Zhao Bai'an muttered in surprise.

"It's okay, it's not a big problem. But if I don't arrive sooner, I will be too disturbed."

"Okay, as long as you think it's good." In fact, if Huang Han's obsessive-compulsive disorder-like habit is relaxed, it's just a harmless good habit.

"Xiao An."

"kindness?"

"What do you think? What is the meaning of human existence?" Huang Han stared at the four gold-plated characters of "Walden Lake" on the book cover, and rubbed it with his fingers.

"Eh? So sudden? It's such a serious topic." Zhao Bai'an was confused by this sudden reversal.Has this topic moved too quickly?

"No, I just finished watching it... I can't help thinking about it under the influence of Thoreau." Huang Han smiled apologetically at her.

"Hmm...what's the meaning? Hiss...it's hard to say." As a freshman who just entered university, Zhao Bai'an's purpose is to experience youth.How can you think about life so quickly?

She said frankly to Huang Han: "I feel that I really haven't thought about such a problem. Huang Han, what do you think?"

After all, this kind of question is too profound, and it's understandable that she couldn't answer it for a while.

"I feel similar to you, because I think that now we hardly think about such problems. Many people drift with the crowd and live in a muddle. But once I think about it, I will fall into a feeling of confusion and unreality." Huang Han's eyes looked out of the window, but it didn't look like he was looking out of the window. His eyes seemed to drift to a further place through the window.

"It's as if... as if this is not something we should think about." Huang Han continued, "But at a certain stage in life, we will always start thinking about it."

"Yeah, the sense of unreality now may come from our lack of experience? Of course, it may also be that we can only think about these things when we are really calm, and we are now in a noisy age. "Zhao Bai'an took the book from Huang Han and read it carefully.It's not thick, but Huang Han looked at it for a long time.

"Or, do you want to change it to what you want to do in the future? What goals? It will be closer to the present?"

"Em... There are still four years left before graduation. Is it too early to think about this now! But it is indeed a good question, what do you think?" Zhao Bai'an decided to avoid this question, and she is still in this step. As for the state of one step, it is simply too terrible to plan carefully and think about future goals.

"You know, I have a bad habit of planning ahead."

"Hey~ I thought you just like to plan ahead for being late."

"That's true at the beginning, only for the appointment time and so on, but later it developed and expanded to many fields related to time, and it became a lot of things to start planning early." Huang Han said This is also somewhat troublesome.

"Isn't it good to plan early? Don't worry, it's not a bad thing at all. What's your idea? Tell me? What about your future goals?" Zhao Bai'an moved closer to Huang Han curiously.

"Well, maybe it's just like ordinary people, such as graduate school entrance exams, job hunting, etc." Huang Han thought for a while and seemed a little uncertain about his goal.

"Eh~ Is that so?" It sounds really ordinary, but Zhao Bai'an has never even thought about such an ordinary future path.

"I think I may need more time to think about it, if I want to find the most authentic answer in my heart." She added and fell silent.

It is Zhao Bai'an's turn to develop in the direction he likes, and to strive for such a common goal in the field he likes in the future.Because now she can't even find the things she really likes.

"I'm back, yo Xiaoan, you're here." Yang Zichen's oval face appeared on the side of the sofa, and as soon as his small body walked into the round table, it injected a more energetic atmosphere into the air, "I just met Wang Yichuan, and I met Wang Yichuan just now. He talked for a while."

Wang Yichuan... It seems that they were indeed in their military training group at that time. A face appeared in Zhao Bai'an's mind, but he didn't know if it really matched the name.

"We chatted about clubs and the like, and he wanted to see if I had any good advice for him. Hey, I'm too busy to take care of myself!" Yang Zichen slumped on the soft sofa, looking exhausted and unwilling to move. fish look.

About the community?I also have this purpose today.Zhao Bai'an thought in his heart.

She grabbed Yang Zichen's last sentence and asked: "Then what do you say? Why are you so overwhelmed?"

"I just don't have any good opinions! I'm not sure myself. After all, music clubs and skateboard clubs have invited me to join, and I've also received some other literature clubs, hip-hop clubs, etc. There are too many. I'm completely confused!" Yang Zichen said rather annoyed.

This development was completely within Zhao Bai'an's expectation, she would no longer be surprised by Yang Zichen's popularity!

"I just received invitations from the Reasoning Club and the Flying Chess Club." She took out two invitation letters from her bag and showed off.

"Oh, it's over! It seems that your koi's physique is exposed! You can't even cover it!" Yang Zichen exaggeratedly yelled, his face was full of cunning that couldn't be hidden.

"Hahaha, don't laugh at me, look at your own! Where's Huang Han? What do you think?" Zhao Bai'an looked at Huang Han very curious about her choice.

"I also received an invitation from the skateboarding club, but I don't really want to go, and it doesn't matter, right? You just don't have to join the club." Huang Han's tone was flat, as if he had no interest in the invitation.

"Eh?! But I think it's better to participate! Otherwise, there will be no activities when you are bored in the future!" Yang Zichen sat up from the sofa and said seriously.

"Then what do you think about Zichen? Which one do you choose?" Huang Han responded to her.

"I'm really conflicted. I'm afraid that if I choose one or two of them, the seniors from other associations will be unhappy..." Yang Zichen's two eyebrows were about to get tangled together, and his goose egg face was full of embarrassment .

"It won't happen, you don't need to think too much." Zhao Bai'an immediately denied her doubts.

Zhao Bai'an believed that even if Yang Zichen vetoed all of them, those seniors would come to ask again when it was the season of recruiting new recruits every year.

"But I'm still worried, so I don't want to agree to everything..."

"Pfft—" Zhao Bai'an almost spewed out the water he drank.Did you hear me right?Yes to all?

"I think you want to exhaust yourself to death." She then vetoed Yang Zichen, "It's better that you don't go at all."

"But it will be very boring in the future...Wait, I know it's not that simple just by looking at your smile. Come on, Xiao An, you must not finish talking."

Ah, did I unknowingly show a strange smile?

After hearing this, Zhao Bai'an quickly touched his face: "Ahem, I do have a small idea..."

"And I didn't come up with it temporarily. This idea has been in my mind for several days. I have also done some research in the past few days to evaluate the feasibility of the idea."

"Let me just say it! I see through you, hehe~ Hurry up, hurry up, don't let it go!" Yang Zichen stared at Zhao Bai'an with interest, as if she was pestering her and wouldn't let her go if she didn't say anything.

Zhao Bai'an took out a piece of paper from his bag, and waved it in front of Yang Zichen and Huang Han's eyes.

"I think the three of us should form a club ourselves!"

"What? Wow! Xiao An, you are making a big move! I'm not ready at all." Yang Zichen seemed completely shocked.

"I don't have any objections. Anyway, I feel that it's the same wherever I go, so I might as well start one myself." Huang Han agreed immediately, which Zhao Bai'an hadn't expected at all.

"But what club do you want?" Huang Han asked.

"That's right, Xiao'an, there are already many clubs in our school. What kind of weird do you want to do?" Yang Zichen grabbed Zhao Bai'an's arm and wanted to look at the piece of paper.

"Well, I might disappoint you. I want to create a very traditional club." Zhao Bai'an smiled mysteriously, and vigorously stimulated the curiosity of the other two.

"What is that?" Yang Zichen tilted his head.

After all, for a school that has been around for a hundred years, how can there be a traditional club that has not yet been established?

"I've checked it carefully, and I'm sure there is no such club in our school." Zhao Bai'an pointed to the piece of paper that he took out just now, which is the information integration of all clubs.

"So, I want to set up a drama club." In fact, she just wanted to know about the Haichuan Drama Club because of Yang Zichen's dream.In the end, she was startled. She didn't expect that Haichuan University didn't have this club at all.

"Eh?" Yang Zichen froze for a moment when he heard it, and cast a questioning look at Zhao Bai'an.

"Perhaps it was because of a friend of mine at the beginning, but in fact later I thought it was a very interesting thing." Zhao Bai'an responded to Yang Zichen's eyes.

Besides, Yang Zichen joined the drama club in high school, which shows that she is interested in it.It's a pity that nothing happened in the end, and Zhao Bai'an also hoped that if she could be re-established here, it would help her reduce some regrets.

"Well, I'll have to think again."

"Zichen, in this way you can have a good reason to reject all the invitations. And Huang Han also agrees." Zhao Bai'an tried to persuade her.

"Well, I really have no objection." Huang Han nodded following Zhao Bai'an's words.

"So if you agree, it's completely fine!"

"Wow! Don't tempt me! I think I really need some time to think about it again." Yang Zichen frowned and said distressedly.

I don't know if this temptation is too great for her or because of some concerns about the Siqing incident.

"Okay, Ocean Sichuan University's deadline for applying for a new club every semester is the first month of school, and you still have three days to think about it." Zhao Bai'an put away the papers for investigation without haste and said with a smile.

　Thanks for reading~

　　

　

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