Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 40 Return Road

"Have you ever thought about talking so much with Siqing?" Sitting on the bullet train back from Hangzhou, Zhao Bai'an asked Yang Zichen who was sitting next to him.

"Well... Actually, before I saw her, I didn't even think about what to say." Yang Zichen sighed a little, "Actually, I might just want to see her, and also look at her paintings, Ask her if she's okay, how she's doing."

"kindness."

"Anyway, thank you, Xiaoan~ I set off in a hurry without a plan."

"It's okay, I like art exhibitions very much, and seeing the characters in my dreams with my own eyes is really a wonderful feeling."

"En! That's good. But..." Yang Zichen sighed, "But in the end...we still have to respect her decision. Xiao An, please help her, as well as me, keep this secret and don't tell others."

"You can rest assured that I don't have any interest and motivation to talk about other people's affairs. You just think that I am like a brave man in this respect, I can only get in and out, haha."

"I don't know why I became like this, maybe some receptors have mutated, and maybe they are overdeveloped." Zhao Bai'an thought of Chen Yudi's vomeronasal organ theory for a moment, "But don't worry, the secret or If the rumors come to me, they will only rot in my stomach, if you have any troubles in the future, you can talk to me with peace of mind."

"Okay, I believe in your little An~ Don't worry, I won't tell anyone about your ability." Yang Zichen winked at her.

"Okay!" Zhao Bai'an also blinked at Yang Zichen as if responding, "But if you really say it, I won't blame you."

"Eh? But generally speaking, it's a secret that you don't want others to know!"

"That's right, I actually don't want to tell anyone. To put it bluntly, I don't even want you to know. Don't be angry."

"After all, if you are different from everyone else, it is often a terrible thing. But, you know, I have always been sorry for prying into your privacy. You are already extremely gentle if you don't get angry. What right do I have to do?" Ask you to keep it a secret for me?"

"And ah," Zhao Bai'an added, "I've always believed that the so-called secret is what you bury in your heart. If you want it not to be leaked, then you shouldn't leak it yourself first."

"Just like Siqing did, I didn't tell anyone. Of course, my situation is really an unexpected exception."

"Under normal circumstances, I think if I can't hold back and tell others, no matter what good friends, family members, or even myself, what right do I have to ask others to do it?"

"Hey~Xiao An~you are so serious!" Yang Zichen seemed a little scared by Zhao Bai'an's uncharacteristic behavior.

"Hahaha... I'm sorry, I'm sorry," she reacted, clasped her hands together and apologized, "It's just that when I encounter such a topic that is closely related to my outlook on life and values, I can't help but get very serious! Ann~ Ann ~"

"Hey, it's okay~ But, Xiao An, if you do this, it will completely contradict what you said before!"

"Well? Where?"

"It's that you said that we can tell you about our troubles, secrets, etc., but you also said that if you reveal it yourself, you should not ask others to keep it secret..." Yang Zichen pouted as she protested.

"that is because……"

"because?"

"Because I'm a double-standard dog! Hahahaha."

"Wow! Are you serious? I'm very serious! Huh~" Yang Zichen put her hands on her hips, widened her eyes, and pursed her mouth, pretending that she was very serious.

"Okay, alright, although I'm joking, my words are not rough. I just said that if I leak it, I can't ask others to keep it secret. It's just for myself. I will keep what others say to me. .”

"Hey~ It sounds like I'm treating myself really badly!"

"You're the worst! Really, obviously I just want you not to feel burdened by carrying a secret..."

"Then don't always act like you let others rely on you, but you are so independent!"

Emu, I hit the nail on the head.

"You feel wrong! Feel blind!" But Zhao Bai'an denied it with a smile, "But you listened very carefully."

"Of course, I will listen carefully to what you say~ After all, I like you very much, Xiaoan~ So I won't say it, don't worry!"

"kindness."

"Ah, I'm a little curious." Yang Zichen seemed to remember something, "Didn't Siqing chat with you for a long time alone later, is there anything important?"

"Oh well, she just felt incredible that I could dream of her, and checked the details of the dream with me for a while. Then I chatted with her for a while about her paintings and whatnot... After all, I am also very Like that aspect of things."

"Wow! Thanks to me, I praised how powerful your reasoning ability is, and how I told you the cause and effect vividly, but you told her that you could see it in your dream!" Yang Zichen was like a deflated ball The same spread out on the seat, "Hey! It's a waste of brainpower to blow you!"

"Hey, it's okay, Siqing won't say anything." After all, there are too many secrets involved, and in order to talk to her about Fang Zhihua, Zhao Bai'an must be honest with each other, "I haven't met her, it's okay , I guess no one will believe me if I say it.”

"Yes!"

"And it's my dream, so it's not worth bragging about? I also racked my brains to straighten out these incongruities!"

"I can't blow it, I can't blow it! How can I blow it, I want to praise it! Hehe, Xiaoan, you are awesome~"

"Hmm, that's about the same." Of course, thanks to the magician for giving me the direction to think.

As the sky was getting darker, Zhao Bai'an watched the houses and rice fields outside the window receding quickly, one after another lights came on, and there were only pale yellow bands of light in her eyes.

Of course, Zhao Bai'an couldn't really tell Yang Zichen about the conversation between Siqing and her, after all, besides protecting Yang Zichen's secret, she also had to protect Siqing.

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That night, Zhao Bai'an once again dreamed of the sisters Siqingsili.Under the peach blossom tree that blooms the most in Ayton, Si Li is just as depicted in her paintings, smiling brightly.The breeze blows by, and the air is filled with a faint and elegant fragrance. Pieces of white and pink peach blossoms fall, falling on Sili's hair, shoulders, and bag...

"Si Li!" Si Qing ran enthusiastically from a distance, raised her arms and waved towards Si Li.The cross-body backpack also bounced rhythmically with her running.

"Sister~" Si Li turned her head under the peach blossom tree, and smiled sweetly at Si Qing who was rushing towards her, her crooked eyes were full of happiness.

Siqing rushed to Si Li's side, held her hand under the peach blossom tree, and the two walked into the teaching building together.

Of course, even if everything still seems very real, Zhao Bai'an also knows that this is not a dream that actually happened, maybe it's just her wishful thinking.

This is the first time that the two sisters have appeared so closely and vividly in Zhao Bai'an's dream, but this should also be the last time she has a dream related to Ayton.

One is so short, but Zhao Baian hopes so much that it is the only real dream.

　Youth, when we recall, most of the time we only look back on the good parts, but there are bound to be some sad and sad things mixed in.

　　In such a chaotic age, apart from vitality and enthusiasm, we will still have confusion, troubles and sorrows.If you feel extremely lonely, maybe try to take a step, and you will gain a friend who understands you.We have to keep hope. If we encounter a hurdle that we feel is impossible to cross, we must believe that as time goes by, we will grow and become taller, and the hurdle will become lower accordingly.

　　Oh, after talking so much, I feel that the atmosphere is getting serious, that's not okay.

　　That's the end of this volume, but of course, Zhao Bai'an still has a lot of youth waiting for her.She and Zi Chen and Huang Han went to so many community experience activities, which club would they choose?Stay tuned!

　　Thanks for reading!Thanks for the support! !

　　

　

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