Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 18 Memories in the Small Room

I feel like going to Red Heart Island twice is a pleasant dream.It's no wonder that the place was created by Zhao Bai'an himself, it can indeed be regarded as a place of peace of mind like a dream home.

These days, I have dreamed every day, all kinds of strange things.Let Zhao Bai'an gradually understand her dreams better.

Generally speaking, when she is in a dream, she is generally unaware that she is in a dream.No matter how weird or unreasonable this world is, for her in the dream, some things are taken for granted, while others can find reasonable explanations.

Zhao Bai'an always suddenly appeared in a certain scene in the dream, but some necessary information she wanted to know had already formed naturally in her mind.And what I need to do and what mission I have, I usually have a vague premonition.

Zhao Bai'an in the dream is usually herself, with a better self-awareness, that is, "I am Zhao Bai'an".Familiar people in real life will also appear in dreams from time to time.

But there are also some dreams where Zhao Bai'an will forget the real her, become another character, and experience some wonderful stories that only this character can experience.

And Huo Miki is really a miraculous person.What she said in the Red Castle really had a different meaning.Apart from Zhao Bai'an, she is definitely the most different existence in the dream world.

Huo Sanmu often appears in Zhao Bai'an's different dream stories. Sometimes he is a like-minded travel partner, sometimes he saves Zhao Bai'an in danger, and sometimes he is just a passerby who passes her by.Sometimes tall and sometimes short, also old and young, each appearance is completely different.Only those burning eyes that seemed to contain flames never changed.

But on Red Heart Island, it will still look like the Red Queen.

correct!One thing still surprised Zhao Bai'an.

She came to Red Heart Island for the second time this time, and she actually had all the memories of her first visit.

How is this possible?

It stands to reason that all her dream information can only be extracted and integrated after returning to reality.I originally thought that from the beginning when I woke up, the dream story immediately drifted away, and now it is a great growth to be able to savor it carefully in reality.

The continuous memory in the dream made her think more about her special physique that suddenly seemed to have opened up.

Zhao Bai'an's dress will be different in every dream, but even if she has never looked in the mirror, she believes that in her own dreams, her image is always the same - a 1.6 meter five ordinary girl with long chestnut hair, don't She was issued a red heart given to her by a playing card soldier.

and many more?

Zhao Bai'an closed her eyes and carefully recalled all the details of the dream that she could remember so far. The red heart card was actually an invariable thing that accompanied her every night!

what is this?

Isn't this the Red Heart Island that should only belong to that night?

Damn, I should have realized this when I dreamed about having curry rice with Ji Qiu and the others!After all, is it really because the curry rice has attracted so much attention from me? !I'm not so foodie, am I? !Zhao Bai'an began to complain about himself.

Obviously, before this dream of revisiting the Red Heart Island, some things had already begun to emerge. Unfortunately, it was not until this dream sequence was too obvious that Zhao Bai'an began to think about the possible mechanism behind it.

Perhaps it is because the Red Heart Island is too important to her, so she can remember the memories related to it no matter whether she is in a dream or not.

Think about it, Zhao Baian.

Maybe it's because she really likes the hairpin given to her by the playing card soldiers, so this beautiful heart is directly branded in her subconscious personal image.

Indeed, Zhao Bai'an often still feels that she seems to be wearing hairpins in reality, although of course only smooth hair remains when she reaches out and touches it.

Keep thinking, Zhao Bai'an.

According to this logic, maybe she thinks about certain things frequently before falling asleep, and maybe she can bring them into the dream that night?But that assumption might just be her over-speculation.Need to do some small dream experiments when the timing is right.

Think again, Zhao Bai'an!

Not only did she have a continuous memory of going to Red Heart Island for the first time in the dream last night, but it was also the first time she repeatedly visited a place she had visited in the previous dream!

Emm.wrong!

According to Miki's ambiguous explanation and everyone's attitude towards Zhao Bai'an on Hongxin Island, it seems that she often went there to play.Ahhh, but the loss of childhood memory is indeed a very normal thing, she thought, no one can have a perfectly clear and perfect memory of his experiences when he was seven or eight years old, right?Even the occasional sporadic moments of brilliance will be regarded as just childhood whimsy.

Zhao Bai'an didn't know when she left Hongxin Island at that time.

It's just the natural forgetting brought about by growing up, coupled with some memory burials to avoid pain, that cause childhood memory loss, right?

Thinking about it this way, they really have been waiting for her for a long time!

So, maybe it's just because the Red Heart Island is so special that such a special situation can happen?

Or is it actually like each dream is like a small room, as long as there is the correct key, Zhao Bai'an can enter repeatedly at different times, and the memory in each small room is coherent?

Or in fact, the memory of the entire dream world will be coherent one day?

Emm, what's the difference between that and reality?

Forget it, I can't continue to infer any more.Without further evidence, excessive inference will only lead to wild imaginations.

Perhaps it won't be long, and with more and more dreaming nights, Zhao Bai'an will be able to understand the rules of this special world more and more.

But no matter how tiring it is to chase, slapstick, fly, and run in dreams; no matter how much you love Huosanmu, Rose, Mr. Rabbit, and poker soldiers, these are always illusory things.

"It's all jokes after all!" (Note: This sentence pays tribute to Nishio Isin's series of jokes.)

　It's a pity that Miki hasn't appeared in a masculine appearance yet, and in the near future... Maybe there will be haha, I won't spoil it.

　　

　

(End of this chapter)