the president's wife

Chapter 438: Self-inflicted can't live "Huh?"

When Qiu Ze heard Qin Ziyan speak, he slightly raised his head to look at Qin Ziyan.Her eyes were looking at the pedestrians downstairs.Everyone has their own story, and Qin Ziyan also has her own story.She didn't mention her own story at all, and she was a little ruthless and indifferent, as if she didn't care about anything.

"Take you somewhere tonight."

"it is good."

Qiu Ze nodded almost without hesitation...

Qin Ziyan didn't speak again, she just leaned there, looking at the crowd below through the window on the third floor, she didn't know if she was reading other people's stories or thinking about her own.

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After Qiu Ze left, An Ran has been sitting in the same place.Until the phone rang, the doorbell outside was also ringing.An Ran came back to her senses in a daze, and looked at the flashing phone on the side.

Han Lei...

The sunlight was a bit dazzling, An Ran's eyes hurt a little and avoided it.When Cheng Hanlei saw An Ran standing there as if a gust of wind could blow her down, her heart ached terribly.

"safely."

As soon as he opened his mouth, his throat choked up.When An Ran saw Cheng Hanlei appearing in front of her, the tears that had just dried from her eyes rolled out again at that moment.He stretched out his arms to hug Cheng Hanlei, buried his head in her neck, and tears rolled out violently.Cheng Hanlei closed the door with her hand, and wrapped her arms around An Ran.

After hugging the weeping An Ran for a while, he dragged An Ran to sit on the sofa.He walked into the kitchen by himself, cooking porridge and homemade appetizers.An hour later, Cheng Hanlei put the porridge and side dishes on the coffee table, looked at An Ran who was lying on the sofa and said: "Eat."

An Ran looked up at Cheng Hanlei in a daze, without moving.

"An Ran, eat them all."

Cheng Hanlei's voice sank slightly, seeing her thin appearance, she didn't know what to say.Cheng Hanlei's heart was filled with distress and anger.No matter what, it is impossible not to love your body.

"I have no appetite."

An Ran had a sore throat and her voice was a little low.Cheng Hanlei didn't speak, but directly picked up the porridge and put it into An Ran's hands, then put some side dishes into her bowl and said, "This is a homemade side dish I learned, try it, it should taste good. It's very appetizing, you You can eat some. An Ran, no matter what happens, you must have the energy to face it."

An Ran bit her lips lightly, was silent for a while, and started to eat the porridge silently.

In fact, she couldn't taste much, but An Ran still ate the whole bowl of porridge.When the food enters the stomach, it feels like I haven't eaten for a long time.

"Why do you carry everything by yourself and don't tell me about such a big thing? An Ran, do you regard me as a friend? Regardless of whether I have my own family or not, I still hope that I can be the four-year-old in the United States. Cheng Hanlei in the middle of the year can be your reliance. Seeing you supporting yourself silently, I feel very distressed."

An Ran didn't say anything, just handed the bowl to Cheng Hanlei and said, "I still want to eat."

Cheng Hanlei took the bowl and looked at An Ran a little speechless.Walking into the kitchen to help An Ran serve another bowl of porridge, in fact, she was able to come here to accompany her, and this touch could support her.

That night, An Ran and Cheng Hanlei slept in the guest room.

"An Ran, what are you going to do?"

Cheng Hanlei leaned against the head of the bed, and looked sideways at An Ran who was also leaning there.

An Ran's eyes were still swollen, but her spirits improved a lot.Things have happened, and a solution must be found.

"In the past few days, one thing happened after another, which caught me and Qiu Ze a little unprepared. Over the years, our marriage is like building a house together. It has a beautiful appearance, but from a We did not lay a good foundation at the beginning. Therefore, in seven years, although we built the house beautifully, but without a good foundation, it is like a hollow box, as long as a slightly larger hurricane is enough to make the house crash It collapsed. And now Qiu Ze and I are standing on the foundation that has been in ruins for seven years..."

An Ran pursed her lips...

"Do you want to..."

Cheng Hanlei looked at An Ran, but didn't say the word divorce...

An Ran shook her head gently, she understood everything Cheng Hanlei said...

"From the moment I entered into the marriage, I knew that I was not qualified to file for a divorce. Moreover, the matter has developed to this day, and it is all my fault. What right do I have to say divorce to Qiu Ze...I am not qualified..."

An Ran whispered softly...

"Han Lei, I actually envy you very much. When we returned to S City, I saw you and Lei Chenyi get together again. I couldn't help but think, if I were you, I would have your strength. If Shangguan Rui was Lei Chen Yi, he is domineering and reckless. Do you know? When I saw that Lei Chenyi gave up the career he always liked for you, I was so happy and envious of you. If Shangguan Rui had such a Diandian is desperate for me, then maybe everyone will not suffer now."

"Han Lei, in fact, people are selfish. When Murong Xue found me and asked me to persuade Shangguan Rui to divorce, not only did I not want to meddle in their affairs anymore, what's more, I didn't want to see her live a comfortable life at that time. .Deep in my heart, I resent her. It was Shangguan Rui who wasn't brave enough and didn't love deeply enough. It was also Murong Xue's methods that forced me to take this path. Step by step, everyone made mistakes. And we all In selfishness for himself, Qiu Ze is actually the most innocent. Even in this marriage, he used means to get my heart and did a lot of things behind the scenes, but, I know, those are all because of love I, want to completely let me belong to him."

"People say that you can't live by doing your own crimes. And the path you choose, no matter how difficult it is, you have to grit your teeth and walk through it."

"I want to have a serious talk with Qiu Ze. The beginning of the marriage was my choice. Even though I tried my best, it is obvious that I am a failure in this marriage. Because of my failure, I hurt the Qiu family. everyone, even myself and everyone who loves me."

"Actually, I really don't know what the future holds for me and Qiu Ze. I don't know if we can overcome this hurdle. I have always known the seven-year itch. I thought that Qiu Ze and I would walk smoothly. Every spring, summer, autumn and winter, why did he and I have the so-called seven-year itch, but... how did it become like this? Han Lei, do you know? If God gave me another chance to choose, I would even I don't know when I'm going to go backwards. I didn't meet Shangguan Rui, or I didn't choose to marry Qiu Ze... I really don't know..."

"Some people say that living a vigorous love is not in vain. But love is vigorous and hurts too thoroughly. Is it really possible to have no regrets in the end? I don't even know where to return if I think about it. One step, my future, I don't seem to know how to go?"

"How did I make a good marriage like this..."

An Ran closes her eyes...

Tired, physically and mentally tired...

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Qin Ziyan was driving the car, while Qiu Ze sat on the side.The car slowly drove away from the urban area, and after driving for more than an hour, the windows were opened, and a gentle breeze blew over.Without the hustle and bustle of the city, the world at this time seems so peaceful.The emotions in my heart seemed to be slowly settling down.

Qin Ziyan drives an off-road vehicle, and a girl drives an off-road vehicle, which has a unique flavor.

Today's weather is very good. After driving away from the urban area, you can gradually see the sky full of stars.Fresh air will also make people's world safe and peaceful.

Didn't ask where to go, just leaned there, my heart seemed to be settling.

After more than 20 minutes, Qin Ziyan stopped the car.

"arrive."

After opening the car door and getting out of the car, Qin Ziyan changed into a suit of clothes, which was neatly dressed.The riding boots stepped on the grass, walked back, and pulled the back to open.

"What are you doing in a daze? Come here and get something."

Seeing Qiu Ze leaning against the car, he just looked at the surrounding scenery and the sky full of stars.Qin Ziyan called Qiu Ze, Qiu Ze turned around and saw Qin Ziyan carrying a big bag in her hand.Then came over, there was a big bag there, Qiu Ze took it, it was a bit heavy.She stretched out her hand and prepared to bring the big bag in Qin Ziyan's hand, Qin Ziyan shook her head...

"No, I can."

Qin Ziyan carried it and walked ahead first.Qiu Ze followed behind Qin Ziyan, and the two walked forward one after the other.After walking for about 10 minutes, I saw a vast grassland from a distance, which had a special taste.There is already a tent that has been propped up, and people gather in twos and twos for three days, either talking or looking at the stars together.

"I come here when I'm in a bad mood, sometimes when I'm nervous. Most of the people who come here don't know each other. If you want to, just talk to someone, if you don't want to, just be quiet Let's see the stars here and breathe the fresh air."

"Thank you."

Qiu Ze spoke sincerely, Qin Ziyan smiled lightly, and then skillfully began to set up the tent.Qiu Ze followed to help, and after setting up the tent, Qin Ziyan took out some snacks and water and handed them to Qiu Ze, saying: "Fill your stomach."

After taking it, the two of them ate snacks.

"Do you want to go for a walk?"

Qiu Ze nodded, and the two walked forward.After walking for a while, there was a lake in front of me.In the night, the water of the lake is so clear.Not close, but sitting not far away.Qin Ziyan is not hypocritical, she despises the dirty place, it is not clean there.Just sit on the grass with your clothes on, and then stretch your arms around the lake.Seeing that Qiu Ze didn't sit down, he couldn't help raising his head and said jokingly: "You don't want me to take off my coat and put it on you before sitting down."

Qiu Ze was taken aback by Qin Ziyan's teasing, glanced at Qin Ziyan, and immediately sat down.He was just fascinated by the scenery here, and the tranquility made his heart slowly settle.

It's a really nice place to relax...

Seeing Qiu Ze sitting down, Qin Ziyan took advantage of the situation and leaned back.He clasped his hands behind his head and lay on his back.Looking at Qiu Ze, he said, "Try."

Qiu Ze followed and lay there with a distance of one person between the two of them.Qiu Ze looked at the sky full of stars, and his memory seemed to be lifted.

I used to be in front of the lake at school, as if in front of my eyes.

The him at that time, the An Ran at that time.

Slowly closing his eyes, suffocating with a bit of pain in his heart.I have been standing outside other people's stories, looking at other people's stories.

In the quiet world, it seems that a lot of the past has come to mind little by little.

Qin Ziyan didn't talk much, sometimes she was even terrifyingly quiet.She was always very quiet, and she said nothing about her own past.In fact, everyone has their own story, and she seems to have experienced many.The maturity of the years can be seen in her body, but now she is indifferent as if she doesn't care about anything.

Because of this indifference, people will not be on guard against anything.In the past few years of acquaintance, she has successfully collected secrets for him.

A kind of spontaneous trust is a kind of discernment from the heart.

That night, the two of them didn't say anything, they just lay on the grass and looked at the stars in the middle of the night.When it was late at night, they returned to their respective tents and spent the night.At dawn the next day, Qin Ziyan woke up.After waking up Qiu Ze, looking at the expression on Qiu Ze's face, after a whole night, she thought, he should have understood everything.

"Talk to her well. In fact, the problem of marriage is not just caused by one person."

After finishing speaking, Qin Ziyan already carried her big bag and stepped forward.Qiu Ze was stunned for a few seconds, then picked up the big bag and followed Qin Ziyan to the off-road vehicle.

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"You came here just after you came back, and you haven't had time to accompany Beibei and the others. Go back quickly, don't worry about me. I will have a good talk with Qiu Ze, and I promise you, I will tell you anything, no matter what it is In the end, let you be my reliance, okay?"

Cheng Hanlei was persuaded by An Ran to go out, stood by the car, looked at An Ran and said, "Call me if you have anything to do."

"Don't worry, I really will this time."

Maybe she should learn to do nothing by herself.Sometimes being on your own just makes things worse.What you think is good is not really good.

"take care of yourself."

"Ah."

The two embraced, An Ran watched Cheng Hanlei get into the car, reminded her to be careful on the road, then waved her hand to watch Cheng Hanlei drive away.Standing in place until Cheng Hanlei's car disappeared from sight, An Ran slowly turned around and walked back.

When An Ran returned home, she first put on makeup to make herself look more energetic.Then she changed her clothes, looked at herself in the mirror, An Ran fixed her hair and went out, but Qiu Ze's phone couldn't be reached, she was going to Qiu Ze's company to find Qiu Ze.No matter what, she needs to have a good talk with Qiu Ze, no matter what his choice is...

An Ran just walked out of the house, ready to get the car.Then he saw Qiu Ze's car driving towards home. In a blink of an eye, the car had already parked at the door, and Qiu Ze opened the door and walked out.

The two people met each other's eyes and looked into each other's eyes...