Summer's Desire

Chapter 12
It snowed heavily again.

More than ten days have passed since Yin Cheng passed out and was sent to the hospital that day.The snow that night had already melted, and then new snow fell. This winter seemed to have a lot of snow, one after another, as if it would never stop.

Yin Xiamo stared out the window blankly.

Isn't everything getting better? Isn't it possible to live happily and peacefully? Why is there a white winter outside the window?

The atmosphere in the consultation room of the hospital was more condensed and solemn than the ice and snow outside.

"...Although the kidney transplant operation temporarily prolongs his life, many organs in his body have also suffered severe failure at the same time. The current medical community is powerless to deal with this situation..."

"What if there is another operation?"

Looking away from Xia Mo who had been silently looking out of the window, Ou Chen continued to listen to the doctor's explanation, and then asked in a deep voice.

"He has undergone four operations in a short period of time. After all, operations are destructive to the body, and each operation will make him weaker...and it seems that the surgery has not helped him significantly..."

At first, Yin Xiamo tried her best to listen, but gradually, her ears seemed to be closed, and she couldn't hear anything. She just stared at the snow outside the window in a daze.Will Xiao Cheng get better again? ...Yes, definitely!How many times he has survived dangerous situations...

this time……

this time……

Perhaps because of her unusual silence, the consultation room gradually fell silent, and all the doctors looked at her worriedly.

In the past ten days since returning to the hospital, she has lost weight faster than Yin Cheng, her body is as thin as a piece of paper, her eyes are dark, big and deep, and in the bottomless silence, only occasionally A faint light shone, supporting her body and spirit.

"Xia Mo……"

Her trance-like appearance made Ou Chen feel terrified, and couldn't help waking her up.

"Xia Mo! Doctor!"

The door of the consulting room was suddenly pushed open recklessly, and Jane rushed in, seeing Xia Mo at a glance, she couldn't help crying and laughing:

"Xia Mo! Xiao Cheng is awake!"

*** ***
This is Yin Cheng's third coma since he was admitted to the hospital.

After being in a coma for six hours, he finally woke up again.When Yin Xiamo rushed into the ward, Yin Cheng had already opened his eyes. Although he was covered with various tubes and the oxygen mask covered most of his face, the moment he saw her, his dark and moist eyes revealed childish joy.

"sister……"

On the snow-white hospital bed, Yin Cheng weakly stretched out his hand to her, trying to smile at her, but Yin Xiamo tremblingly held him, her throat was clogged with soreness, and she couldn't say a word.

"Sister, don't worry... I'm fine..."

His fingers clenched her tightly, his eyelids closed slowly as if being weighed down by a heavy object, his voice was intermittent, and the coma swept over him again, as if he had just been holding on, waiting for her to come over comfort her.

"Sister... I will sleep for a while... I will wake up in a while..."

Gradually loosening her with his fingers, Yin Cheng fell into a coma again, his frail face whiter than the pillow.

"..."

Yin Xiamo stared blankly at Xiao Cheng, who had passed out again, and felt dizzy suddenly, as if someone beside her was supporting her.After a long time, she struggled to regain her vision from the dark dizziness, and watched the doctors do various examinations for Xiao Cheng, then she followed the doctors to the corridor outside the ward.

"Is it true that he will be fine when he wakes up?" Yin Xiamo looked at Dr. Zheng with empty eyes.

"This..." Doctor Zheng was a little embarrassed.

"So, what's the next course of treatment?" she asked mechanically.

"We can only use conservative treatment," Dr. Zheng sighed, and said after a pause, "Xiaocheng must be given a certain amount of time to recover his body's vitality. If his body recovers well in the future, then consider whether there is an active surgical method."

"Conservative treatment..." Yin Xiamo repeated dumbly, "With conservative treatment, how long will he live..."

Dr. Zheng and the other doctors looked at each other, hesitated for a moment, and said to her:

"It depends on his physical condition. If the condition is good, it may take two or three months. If the condition deteriorates quickly, it may be within a month... However, everyone's body is very different. The human body is also a very miraculous composition, if the patient's willpower is strong, miracles may appear... So, Xia Mo, you and Xiao Cheng, don't give up..."

Miracle……

Cold air trickled in from Yin Xiamo's back, getting colder and colder, her eardrums were ringing, and the blood all over her body rushed up like waves!It's a miracle, can Xiaocheng's life only depend on these two fluffy words?
Dr. Zheng was called away by other patients.

Yin Xiamo stood blankly in the corridor, and suddenly felt that she couldn't stay there any longer. She walked blankly, as if falling into the deepest and darkest hell, with no end in sight, no end, she kept falling, bone-piercing ice-cold...

Suddenly, a soft coldness fell on her face.

Someone put a coat on her body, and gently brushed away the coldness on her face and hair, and some of the coldness had already begun to melt, fell on her eyelashes, and then slid down her cheeks along the eyelashes...

"As long as you have faith, miracles will happen."

A firm and warm voice sounded above her head, like a life-saving straw in despair, Yin Xiamo raised her head blankly to look at the person who spoke.

After a long time, the mist in front of her eyes gradually dissipated, and she found that she had unknowingly walked to the balcony at the end of the corridor, and in front of her were the fluttering snowflakes and Ou Chen's deep, pityful eyes.

"I've never been one to be favored by fate."

The bitterness was like the snowflakes flying in the sky that overwhelmed her, and Yin Xiamo tremblingly closed her eyes.Since she was a child, she has never believed in any miracles and luck. All things can only be achieved through hard work. For her, the word miracle is as illusory as the soap bubbles blown by children.

"Perhaps because of this, fate will favor Xiaocheng with all the luck..."

Snowflakes were flying, Ou Chen hugged her thin shoulders, hugged her tightly into his arms, and used all his strength to give her warmth and support.In his embrace, her eyelashes fluttered slightly, as if she had a little bit of hope.

*** ***
It seemed like a miracle.

Yin Cheng woke up again after falling into a coma for two hours, fulfilling his promise to his sister.Although his face was as pale as the snow outside the window, and his body was getting weaker and weaker, his illness seemed to be improving, and he spent more and more time getting out of bed, and gradually became very energetic, talking and laughing. Also brighter than before.

The rhododendrons on the windowsill are blooming brilliantly.

"Sister, it's snowing outside again."

Yin Cheng was half-sitting on the head of the bed, looking at the silver snowflakes flying outside the window with bright eyes.

"Yeah, there's a lot of snow today." Yin Xiamo said with a smile while lowering her head to sprinkle water on the azaleas, "The children must like it very much."

"I like it too! Sister, shall we go out for a snowball fight? When brother-in-law comes, let's go together!" He said excitedly.

Yin Xiamo was stunned, looking at the azaleas in full bloom, the word "brother-in-law" made a touch of tenderness and touch quietly bloom in her heart.

Ou Chen was in the hospital almost all day, leaving all the affairs of the group to his capable subordinates.He is busy communicating with doctors every day to discuss treatment plans, constantly invites other famous doctors to join the ranks of consultations, and even flies abroad to invite experts to come over.When he appeared in the ward, he didn't talk often, but he took over all the chores except taking care of Xiaocheng.

Without him by her side, she might not be able to hold on this time...

"The doctor said that you can't go outdoors yet. We'll go when you feel better." After recovering from her thoughts about Ou Chen, Yin Xiamo looked back at him with a smile, and saw that his eyes were full of longing like a child's. , when he was a child, he liked snowball fights and making snowmen the most. Every snowy day was as happy as a festival to him.

"Those doctors are always alarmist, but in fact, my body is much better these days," Yin Cheng said with a smile, raising his arms exaggeratedly in the signature movement of Popeye, "Sister, look, my arms are very Strength, seems to have gained a little weight."

"Well, I also think your spirit has improved a lot." Looking at his pale face and his increasingly frail body, she felt a sudden pain in her heart, but forced herself to show a happy smile, and walked over to sit down. Beside his hospital bed, "Maybe after a while, you can be discharged from the hospital."

"That's right, and anyway, there is no need for surgery now, and I should be discharged soon. Ah, I really want to go home. Milk must be very lonely at home," he said dazedly, and then laughed again, "Discharged In the future, I have a lot of things I want to do..."

"How about holding an art exhibition?" She said suddenly.

"A painting exhibition?"

"Yeah, your personal art exhibition will show all your excellent works." She said softly, her eyes sparkling, "In the past, your works were only exhibited or awarded, but now they are officially displayed It's time to be in front of the world."

"Sister, only famous painters hold solo exhibitions."

"Who stipulated that only they can open it, and you are better at painting than them, so of course you are more qualified to hold an art exhibition!" She said longingly, as if the scene of his art exhibition had already unfolded before her eyes, "When the time comes, I will invite all of you!" My classmates and teachers, of course me, Ou Chen, Zhen En..." As she spoke, her lips turned pale, and the vague figure in her childhood memory suddenly flashed in her mind again...

"If there is an opportunity to open an art exhibition, I don't want too many people to come," Yin Cheng stared at her deeply, "because most of those paintings are just for my sister, as long as my sister likes it, as long as my sister is a guest, that's enough. .”

"Little Cheng..."

Yin Xiamo was stunned, her eyes felt hot and sour, and the figure flashed in her mind made her hesitate for a long time.She didn't know if Xiaocheng still remembered that person, the person who caused her mother to fall into hell in pain, that figure that only occasionally flashed in the fragments of her childhood long, long ago...

"...Is there anyone else you want to see?"

For a long time, she tentatively asked, Xiaocheng was still a very young child at that time, maybe he didn't remember it at all.

"Ok?"

"For example...do you still remember that there was an Uncle Xia...he..." If possible, she would rather never mention that person in front of Xiao Cheng.But that person belongs to Xiao Cheng after all... She doesn't want Xiao Cheng to have any regrets, if Xiao Cheng wants to see him, no matter what method she uses, she will send that person to him...

Yin Cheng's body froze!
He sat blankly, his bright eyes gradually dimmed.The three words "Uncle Xia" that came out of her mouth were like a nightmare left in the past. It had been dusty for a long time, but it was blown out again, revealing the blood-stained scars.

Looking at his expression, Yin Xiamo knew it.

Although he was very young at that time, he never forgot...

…………

……

"...Why did you go to her?! What did you say to her!"

When she was young, she held Xiao Cheng's hand tightly and hid at the door of the room, listening to the furious roar coming from the living room.She was very scared, she knew that Uncle Xia was very powerful, he seemed to have been in prison once, and at this moment he was yelling at his mother, as if he wanted to kill her.

"I'm going to tell her that you are my Luna's man! Didn't she abandon you a long time ago, and she is already married, so she has no right to pester you anymore!" Mom also yelled back loudly, with tears in her voice end sound.

"Snapped--!"

The loud slap on the mother's face also made her turn pale in the room. She wanted to rush out to protect her mother, but the trembling three-year-old Xiaocheng made her unable to leave.

"You hit me?! Why did you hit me?!" After being stunned, the mother screamed in disbelief, shouting like crazy, "How have I treated you for so many years? Protecting you without risking my life , don’t let you be hunted down by your enemies! Look at the burns on my chest, and then look at the knife wounds on my back! And your son! You don’t want to recognize the son I gave birth to you, do you?!”

As she said that, her mother rushed over like a tornado, opened the door, pulled Xiao Cheng away from her side, and rushed in front of the man.

"He is your son!"

The man stared at his mother with a livid face, without looking at Xiao Cheng, and said coldly: "He is not my son, and I have nothing to do with you!" Following the violent closing sound of the door, the man stood there without looking back. left.

Mom stared blankly at the closed door, tears streaming down her face like crazy.

When she was young, she looked at her mother in panic, and then at Xiao Cheng. Seeing his eyes full of fear, her small body trembled intermittently.

……

After that day, the man never appeared at home again.Mom no longer goes to work in nightclubs, and spends every day hiding in the house crying, drinking a lot of wine, and every night when she gets drunk, regardless of her dissuasion, the mother takes Xiao Cheng all over the world to find that man.

She didn't know where her mother took Xiao Cheng.

I don't know if my mother found that man.

Every time I came back late at night or early in the morning, my mother was drunk and her face was full of tears.And Xiaocheng is like a frightened kitten, with fear in his eyes, curled up in her arms, having nightmares.

……

Finally one day, my mother gave up.

"You don't have a father."

Mother stared at Xiao Cheng, her eyes were full of red threads, and her body smelled of alcohol.

"Your father is dead! Did you hear that?!"

The young girl hugged Xiao Cheng tightly, felt him trembling, and nodded with a vague understanding.

……

…………

All along, she thought that God was fair, that as much as he gave to a person, he would take away as much.However, for Xiao Cheng, fate seemed extremely cruel and unfair, making him bear too many cruel realities when he was only three years old.

Then came the death of his mother, living in an orphanage, and a car accident. It seemed that he had never experienced happiness in his life, and now, God wanted to take his life away!

Looking at Yin Cheng's absent-minded and weak face, Yin Xiamo felt extremely painful in her heart, pity and sadness made her restraint that had been forcing her face into a happy face for the past few days disintegrate little by little.No matter how much she deceives herself, she clearly understands that Xiao Cheng's body is rapidly deteriorating day by day. He is getting thinner and paler, his sleep time is getting longer and longer, and his waking time is getting shorter and shorter...

"I have no other relatives except you and brother-in-law." After a moment of recollection, the corners of Yin Cheng's pale lips resumed a smile, and there was no trace of nostalgia in his clear eyes, "I don't want to disturb him, I don't want him to bother me either."

"Little Cheng..."

The complexity of various moods prevented Yin Xiamo from continuing.Maybe Xiao Cheng is right, even if Boss Xia appears in front of Xiao Cheng at this moment, even if Boss Xia recognizes him, what's the point?The life of more than ten years cannot be repeated, and my mother has long since died and cannot be reborn.

"Why hasn't brother-in-law come yet?" Yin Cheng deliberately changed the subject and joked, "Isn't brother-in-law always by your side? Why didn't you show up for so long today? Could it be because you accompany me every day, brother-in-law?" Jealous and angry."

"Dong dong."

As if responding to Yin Cheng's words, there was a knock on the door of the ward, and then Ou Chen walked in carrying a big lunch box.His eyes first fell on Yin Xiamo, and seeing that although her expression was a little dazed, but the brows were still calm and peaceful, he turned his eyes to Yin Cheng.

"How are you feeling today?"

Ou Chen put the lunch box on the bedside table and asked Yin Cheng in a deep voice.

"I feel better than yesterday, just now I was discussing with my sister what to do after being discharged from the hospital." Yin Cheng said with a smile.

"Any plans?"

"My sister said she wanted to hold an art exhibition for me, but I only want to have my sister as a guest in the art exhibition. I'm having a headache because of disagreements." Yin Cheng said jokingly.

"Then the art exhibition will be open for a few more days. The first day of the art exhibition is only open to Xia Mo alone, and it will be open to the public from the second day." Ou Chen opened the lid of the lunch box, and the aroma of warm food wafted out, "The art exhibition Leave the matter to me, and you can eat first."

The recipes for the daily meals were decided by Yin Xiamo after discussing with the doctor, and the cooks of Ou Zhai cooked them strictly according to the listed list and ingredient list, and then sent people to the hospital.Because he was afraid that Xiao Cheng would lose his appetite if he ate alone, the meal was served in double portions, and Yin Xiamo ate with him.

There are light dishes in each layer of lunch boxes.

Yin Xiamo neatly arranged the food on the small table, but she was stunned by the dish opened on the last layer. It was a boiled beef with some peppers floating on it.

"This is……"

She remembered that Ou Chen knew that Xiao Cheng couldn't eat spicy food at the moment, so how could there be such a dish in the food delivered, could it be that the chef made a mistake?
"This dish is for you."

Ou Chen stared at her increasingly thin face.She guards Xiaocheng's ward every day, and the food she eats is the same as Xiaocheng's, which is light and salt-less. Her appetite has become very small, and she only eats a little every day before putting down the dishes.Boiled beef is a dish that she liked to eat very much when she was a child. She said that it is spicy and very appetizing. I hope she still likes it now.

A wave of warmth slowly gushed out from the bottom of Yin Xiamo's heart, she couldn't help looking at Ou Chen, and suddenly found that he had also lost a lot of weight.Since Xiaocheng was hospitalized again, all her thoughts were on Xiaocheng, and she never talked to him once. The divorce agreement is still in her bedside table.

"Ah, it smells so good," Yin Cheng greedily took a deep breath at the boiled beef, and said with a smile, "Sister, you are so lucky, my brother-in-law is careful and considerate, even your favorite food before I haven’t forgotten the dishes. Sigh, I really want to eat it too, but unfortunately I can’t now, sister, you must eat more, and eat my portion for me too, okay?”

"it is good."

Yin Xiamo replied with a smile, was about to pick up some food, stopped again, and asked Ou Chen in a low voice, "Have you not eaten yet?" Counting the time, today he went to pick up a famous foreign doctor to the hospital, At this moment, he brought a specially prepared lunch box from home again. He must not have time to eat during such a stressful time.

"..."

Before Ou Chen answered, she had already taken out another pair of bowls and chopsticks and put them in front of him, and said softly: "Let's eat together, if you don't eat on time, your stomach will hurt."

Yin Cheng looked at the concern and pity in the eyes of his sister and brother-in-law with a smile, and his heart was warm.Maybe my sister marrying Ou Chen is the most precious comfort God gave him. Ou Chen loves his sister so much, and my sister seems to be more and more accepting of Ou Chen, so after he leaves, my sister will still be happy...

"From now on, let's eat together every day," Yin Cheng suddenly suggested, "This way, being in the ward is like being at home!"

Yin Xiamo looked at Ou Chen after being slightly startled, and saw that he was also looking at her silently, her heart tightened, and she said softly: "Okay, as long as your brother-in-law has time to come over, the three of us will have dinner together. "

"it is good."

Ou Chen put a piece of beef into her bowl and watched her eat it.

"However, it's still not very lively for the three of us to eat," Yin Cheng said with a smile, "Sister, you have to work hard. I will personally feed the little nephew when we eat in the future. It will be much more lively when we have children..."

There was warm chatter and laughter in the ward, as if a bright future was spreading out in front of us, as if we could live happily forever.

*** ***
Time passed day by day, and the coldest days of winter passed in a blink of an eye, the days gradually lengthened and the nights gradually shortened.The rhododendrons on the window sill bloomed surprisingly long, and the purple flowers bloomed lushly among the green foliage.

Yin Xiamo went to the doctor's office, Ou Chen had something to leave, and only Yin Cheng and Zhen En were left in the ward.Yin Cheng sat leaning against the head of the bed, staring at the rhododendrons on the window sill, drawing quietly in the sketchbook with a charcoal pencil in his hand.

"Take a rest, you have been drawing for half an hour."

Poured a cup of hot water and gently placed it on the bedside table. Zhen En looked at Yin Cheng with heartache. His face was abnormally white, and his breathing was very weak. The hand holding the charcoal pencil stopped weakly from time to time, and he closed his eyes to rest for a while. , to continue drawing.

"It was almost finished."

Yin Cheng smiled and continued to concentrate on painting.The rhododendrons on the screen are in full bloom, and my sister is holding a watering can and smiling back at him, lightly outlined with charcoal, and a smile that pierces through her eyes blooms on her face.

Zhen En stared blankly at Yin Cheng, hesitant to speak.

Whenever Xia Mo was in the ward, Xiao Cheng looked healthy and happy, talking and laughing energetically like a child, clamoring to go out to play in the snow, as if his body had infinite vitality.And whenever Xia Mo is not around, he becomes very quiet. Apart from painting, his weak body often can only lie powerlessly on the hospital bed, as if he is asleep or in a coma, his face is so pale and transparent. It was as if his life was slowly slipping away.

"Little Cheng..."

Jane hesitated for a long time, looking at his paper-thin profile in the afternoon sun, and finally couldn't help asking hesitantly:
"Are you pretending? You're just afraid that Xia Mo will be worried, so you always pretend in front of her that you are healthy, that your body is getting better, but it's not like that at all, is it?"

"..."

Yin Cheng stopped painting in a daze.

"Why do you do this? It must be very tiring to pretend to be in front of Xia Mo every day, can your body bear it? Why don't you take a good rest, what Xia Mo wants to see is that you are really healthy, not that you pretend These ah." When you are tired, you have to rest, and when you are tired, you should not deliberately pretend to be in good spirits, because that will make your body worse, won't it?
Yin Cheng looked at her sister's smile on the sketchbook, and after a while, said in a low voice:

"However, this is the last happiness I can leave her."

"What nonsense are you talking about?!" Jane shouted.

"It's impossible for my illness to get better, so while I'm still alive, I want to make my sister happy as much as possible, and don't be too sad about my affairs." Yin Cheng said with a smile.

"Nonsense! Why do you say such terrible things!"

Zhen En's body began to tremble, and she was suddenly surrounded by pitch-black fear, and she panicked in her heart!
"How could you die! Didn't you say every day, do you think your body is getting better and better?! You feel a little fatter, and you think you can go out for a snowball fight. Didn't you agree to go out together? Make a snowman?! How can you suddenly say that you can't get better?!"

Jane's voice suddenly choked up, she shook her head in panic, tears flowed down her cheeks, and said blankly in her mind:
"Impossible! You won't die! You'll live well! Xiaocheng, it's just that you made a mistake. You must have made a mistake in your wild imagination. You won't die. You'll get better soon. You'll be fine soon." Discharged..."

Outside the window is the color of snow.

Rhododendrons are in full bloom on the windowsill.

"I'm sorry, forget what I just said." There was a hint of bitterness in Yin Cheng's voice, but the smile on his lips was as gentle as ever, "Sister Zhen En, I promised to draw a picture for you before, right? ?”

He took out a picture from the picture folder on the bedside table, smiled and said:
"It's been drawn, see if you like it."

In the picture, he is on his way to work in a cake shop, and the roadside is full of purple lavender. He is riding a bicycle, and she is sitting on the back seat, blushing, waving her hands and singing happily.

The Jane in the painting is happy and carefree...

Jane stared blankly at the painting.At that time, both she and Xia Mo were working in the cake shop, and Xiao Cheng often went to see them in the shop. She and Xia Mo greeted the guests, while he sat in a secluded corner, reading and painting.That period of time seems so happy now, what she cares about and jealous of most is just that Xiao Cheng always let Xia Mo sit in his arms on the front beam, while she can only sit in the back seat forever... …

Tears wet the drawing paper and slowly smudge on the lavender.

"Well, I like it. There are only me and you in this painting." Jane sniffed and wiped away the tears on her face with the back of her hand. When Xia Mo is here, you will take me by bike, if Xia Mo is not here, you will rush to find her, as if I were air."

"Really?" Yin Cheng recalled.

"Of course it is!" Jeann sobbed, tears rolling down her face like she couldn't stop, "I was very jealous at the time, I wish one day you would notice me, just notice me, not because I'm Xia Mo's friend. That kind of jealousy is sometimes so strong that it scares me, I'm afraid that I will become a bad person and hate Xia Mo for taking all your attention."

"Miss Jane..."

"In order not to become a bad person and prevent you from hating me, I will try my best to become Xia Mo's best friend. I will approach her and care about her. Only when I treat her well can you treat me well. But , you see, I am still a bad person, my friendship with Xia Mo is not pure, I approached her only to get close to you!"

Tears fell drop by drop, and Zhen En cried with embarrassment all over her face. She cried bitterly and said:
"What you just said is true, right?! You are really dying, and there is no chance of recovery. Maybe you will die soon. That's why you said those things, right?! I know you Why did you tell me this! Because you are afraid that Xia Mo will be sad, so you have to pretend that you are healthy in front of her! But...but...you are afraid that after you really die, Xia Mo will still be very sad , so you want me to comfort her when the time comes, so you have to tell me this, right?!"

"Miss Jane..."

Yin Cheng stared at her blankly.

"Don't call me Sister Zhen En, I have said many times, call me Zhen En, I am not your sister, Xia Mo is your sister, I am not!" Zhen En cried sadly.

"I'm sorry, Miss Zhenen," Yin Cheng said in a low voice, "but in my heart, you have always been like another sister of mine. No matter what reason you became my sister's friend, you have always worked hard Help her, I am very grateful to God for allowing my sister to have a good friend like you, and I am also very grateful that you have always been by my sister's side."

"Little Cheng..."

Tears made Zhen En's face wet and painful, and her heart was also wet and painful.

"If there is an afterlife," Yin Cheng stared into her tearful eyes and said with a smile, "I will try to call you by your name and stop treating you as another older sister."

"really?"

"real."

"You said it, you can't go back on your word, I will remember what you said, if there really is an afterlife and you forget about it, I will hate you!" Zhen En cried and laughed, and once again slapped the back of her hand indiscriminately. Wipe away the tear stains on my face, but I cried more and more, like a river with an embankment that couldn't stop.

"it is good."

Yin Cheng replied softly, and handed her the tissue box.She wiped her tears with a tissue in embarrassment, took a deep breath, and took another deep breath, she couldn't cry anymore, she still had something to tell Xiaocheng.

"Then I promise you too."

Finally restraining the tears in her eyes, Zhen En tried her best to take a deep breath again and again, letting a trembling smile appear on her lips, raised her right hand and said to him as if swearing:
"Although I'm stupid, even though I'm not outstanding at all, and even though I don't have much power, I swear, I will use my whole life to protect Xia Mo. If you are gone, I will, together with your One, to protect her and take care of her, so that her life will be safe and happy!"

"Miss Jane..."

Yin Cheng's eyes were also red.

"However, you have to promise me that you can't give up the hope of treatment. Maybe those pessimistic thoughts are just your wild thoughts, maybe you will recover, maybe a miracle will happen!" The rhododendron blooms quietly on the windowsill, and the water drops on the leaves Like the tears in Jane's eyes.

*** ***
However, the miracle has not appeared.

Yin Cheng's body became weaker day by day, and his face became paler and paler like snowflakes outside the window.Contrary to the days and nights after the winter solstice, his coma time is getting longer and longer, and his awake time is getting shorter and shorter.

Whenever Xia Mo stays in the ward, he still struggles to appear healthy and happy, Xia Mo also listens and smiles as if he is not aware of it, as if he will get better soon.Every time, Zhen En tried her best to cooperate with Xiao Cheng in talking and laughing, filling the ward with a relaxed atmosphere, but looking at the smiling Xia Mo and the smiling Xiao Cheng, the sadness in her heart twisted like the sea in the middle of the night.

Could it be that he thought he could really hide Xia Mo from him, did Xia Mo really know nothing?

Get out of the ward.

Yin Xiamo sat on the bench outside, staring blankly at the end of the empty corridor, as if all the strength in her body was taken away the moment she left Xiao Cheng.Just now she gave Xiao Cheng a water glass, but his fingers were too weak to pick it up.She closed her eyes, her complexion was paler than Xiao Cheng's, and her dark eyelashes trembled slightly.

"Xia Mo……"

Jane came out and looked at her worriedly.Hearing Zhen En's voice suddenly, Yin Xiamo suddenly opened his eyes reflexively, and his eyes were full of horror.

"Xiaocheng, he..."

Xiao Cheng had passed out and went into shock several times, and every time the rescue became more and more difficult, Ou Chen invited more doctors, and every doctor shook his head after reading the medical records.

"No, he fell asleep." Jane hurriedly explained, and then looked at her haggard face and said, "Would you like to sleep for a while, as if you haven't slept in a week."

"I am fine."

Yin Xiamo took a deep breath, stood up from the bench, and said:
"I'm going to the consultation room."

Looking at Xia Mo's back as she walked away, Zhen En stood there blankly.Xiaocheng, are you acting for Xia Mo, or Xia Mo for you?Or, the two of them knew it clearly in their hearts, but they just couldn't bear to see each other's sadness, so they chose an optimistic and cheerful mask at the same time.

Conversations came from the doctor's consultation room, and Yin Xiamo's hand that was about to knock on the door froze in mid-air, and Ou Chen's questioning voice and the helpless explanations of the doctors drifted into his ears——

"Is there no way at all?!"

There was disappointment and anger in Ou Chen's voice.

"...We have thought about all the methods and made various attempts, but none of them will help the patient's body. In fact, it is a miracle that he can survive until now. The shock a week ago It's very dangerous, we thought..."

"What if an operation is performed? Even if the operation is risky, it's better than watching his body deteriorate like this!"

"The operation will only make him weaker, and we have studied several times, the operation is too risky, and there is almost no chance of him leaving the operating room alive."

"I ask you to come and don't listen to what you say! As a doctor, what you have to do is to treat the patient and do everything possible to save his life! I don't believe he will die! He is only 20 years old! There is no hope for him nothing!"

Ou Chen's angry growl made the consultation room dead silent. After a long time, his hoarse and tired voice came out from outside the door again.

"Don't let Xia Mo know. If she asks, just say that you are trying to find a solution. Xiao Cheng's illness is not completely hopeless..."

The snow on the terrace had not yet melted, and there was a "creaking" sound when she stepped on it, and the reflection of the winter snow made her eyes sting and hurt.Yin Xiamo walked numbly until the cold railing blocked her front.

Her eyes didn't seem to move anymore.

Staring blankly downstairs.

Her mind was also numb.

Just like the snowy field downstairs, cold and empty.

*** ***
There was also a lot of snow in New York this winter.Every time it snows, Luo Xi will go out of the house to stay quietly for a while, stretch out his palm, and let the snowflakes fall gently on his palm.The crystal clear and cool snowflakes are like the night when she left her, as if her breath is still around her, as if her back just disappeared for a moment.

Bidding farewell to the hustle and bustle of the entertainment industry and coming to New York, and getting rid of the cameras that surrounded and followed him, his life suddenly became blank.Perhaps for too long, he has been used to busy and exhausted work, spinning like a spinning top, and after stopping, he doesn't know what he wants to do.

His apartment is in the most prosperous neighborhood in New York.

Looking at the passing vehicles and passers-by in a hurry every day in front of the window, the loneliness surrounds him like a white fog at night.He learned to smoke, learned to drink heavily, and began to suffer from insomnia all night long, staring at the phone all night long.

Countless times, he wanted to pick up the phone and press that number, even if he didn't speak, even if he just wanted to hear her voice.

He thought he could leave her.

He thought that as long as he stayed away from the city where she was, the distance would block her breath, and he could slowly forget her.

But he left.

But he left his heart there.

It snows heavily in New York.

He stood in the snow and let the snowflakes fall all over his body. This day was the Spring Festival in the old calendar. He knew that it was snowing there too, and maybe the same snowflakes would fall on her.

Snowflakes are falling from the window.

Yin Xiamo sat haggard and pale by the hospital bed, and Ou Chen made all the preparations for the art exhibition, but during this week, Yin Cheng was almost in a coma.

Ou Chen stood behind her, he held her shoulders tightly, trying to let her rest on his body for a while, but her body was cold and stiff, as if the nerves in her whole body were so tense that they had lost their elasticity.

The Spring Festival dumplings in the insulated lunch box on the bedside table have been sitting motionless since they were brought, and they have been cold for a long time. Only the faint and lively sound of firecrackers from a distance reminds them that today is the first day of the new year.

Winter is gradually passing.

Snow still stubbornly kept going.

Spring is coming soon.

The rhododendrons on the windowsill are in bloom.

Roxie took a film directing course at New York University.Working in the entertainment industry for many years, acting has unknowingly become an important part of his life. He is not willing to give up it completely, but chooses to re-examine it from another angle.

He has been a gifted student since he was a child, and he quickly re-adapted to the life of school. The daily intense and busy homework filled his time, and the bedside and table were full of various books and books related to learning. material.Like other ordinary students, he drives to the campus by himself every day, eats casually in the school cafeteria at noon, and often eats various convenience foods in the microwave for dinner.

Insomnia gradually improved.

He would occasionally fall asleep after being extremely tired.There is a faint mist in every dream, sometimes sitting under the cherry tree in the courtyard, sometimes standing in front of her old building, sometimes waiting in the road where her wedding car is about to drive...

However, no matter how long he waited in the dream, she never appeared...

One day, when Jie Ni called, he finally asked hoarsely:

"Is she okay?"

Jie Ni on the other end of the phone was stunned for a few seconds, then replied:

"It's been a long time since I heard about her..."

No news may be the best news.

She should be doing well, at least better than being by his side.

In the corridor of the hospital, the yellow and delicate flowers of the winter jasmine bloomed with dazzling vitality following Zhen En's hurried steps. She excitedly carried it to the hospital, expecting to surprise Xiao Cheng.However, when she walked to the ward, what she saw was Xiaocheng being rescued again!

Xiao Cheng was as pale as paper and lay unconscious on the hospital bed.

All kinds of emergency equipment, the doctors are nervously rescuing!Jane holding the splendid winter jasmine was stopped by the nurse outside the ward. She watched the rescue situation inside through the glass on the door of the ward in fear.Every time the rescue seems to be more and more difficult, it seems that the strength of the devil's hand that wants to take Xiao Cheng away is getting stronger and stronger!
Ou Chen stood beside Xia Mo, hugged her shoulders tightly, asked the doctors and nurses about the situation inside in a low voice from time to time, and lowered his head to comfort her softly from time to time.

In his arms, Yin Xiamo's eyes were as dark as pools, as if she couldn't hear anything.The strength of her whole body was concentrated on Xiao Cheng who was in coma and shock in the ward, her body trembled slightly, as if the last straw that supported her was slowly crumbling!
The studies are getting more and more busy, Luoxi's outstanding performance has made the professors appreciate him very much, and more and more classmates have become his friends.

Director Spiegel, who has won the Academy Award for Best Director twice, is his senior alumnus, and he met Luo Xi on the way back to his alma mater.After hearing that he used to be an actor, director Spiegel found out the films he had starred in, and then contacted him to invite him to star in his next film.

And Luo Xi rejected all invitations to parties and invitations to return to the entertainment circle.

He still eats simple microwave food every night, reads a book, or stands quietly in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows of his bedroom.He promised to forget her and never appear in front of her again.

*** ***
On the window sill of the ward, the winter jasmine is blooming golden.

Yin Cheng has never seen that potted flower.

He was lying on the hospital bed, unconscious and never woke up.After several rescues and various treatments, the doctors had no choice but to leave temporarily. He fell into a deep coma and never regained consciousness. Only the regular beeps of the electrocardiogram monitor proved that he was still alive.

Day by day.

Yin Cheng continued to be in a coma.

The expressions of the doctors became more and more dignified, and the amount of various medicines used increased, but it seemed to be of no avail to Xiao Cheng's body, and his heart beat became weaker and weaker.Finally, this afternoon, the electrocardiogram monitor issued a sharp alarm sound——

"Di-"

"Di-"

Looking at the faint and intermittent lines on the ECG monitor, Yin Xiamo's face turned pale. She stood up suddenly and wanted to ring the emergency bell, but her body, which hadn't slept for more than half a month, shook heavily, and dizzy flashes flashed before her eyes. Countless points of light!Ou Chen supported her with one hand, and rang the emergency bell with the other. Looking at Xiao Cheng's snow-white face, he felt her body's coldness and trembling, and his heart sank.

When the doctors and nurses rushed into the ward, Jane was already in a panic!Looking at those rescue scenes that were so familiar to her, this time the sense of fear was stronger than the sum of all the previous times. She covered her mouth, she was so frightened that she wanted to cry, and a terrible premonition gripped her tightly. grab it!

"Please get out of the way!"

The nurse hurriedly pushed them away from the bed, but the urgency of the rescue situation and the shouts of the doctors prevented the nurse from pushing them out of the ward as usual.

"heart stop!"

A doctor shouted and squeezed Yin Cheng's heart hard!
"Blood pressure close to zero!"

"A shot of adrenaline!"

"Yes!"

"Blood pressure has dropped to zero!"

"Double the adrenaline!"

Like a black-and-white silent movie, the anxious and nervous doctors used all kinds of rescue equipment that had already been prepared in the ward, the electrocardiogram monitor continued to beep sharply, and Yin Cheng lay quietly on the hospital bed, as if he had fallen asleep , a left hand that was densely pricked by the infusion needle and full of needle holes slipped from the side of the bed weakly.

"..."

Yin Xiamo's body was trembling stiffly, Ou Chen hugged her tightly, feeling that she was as cold as ice, the violent trembling seemed to be breaking the ice piece by piece!
"Xiao Cheng—"

Jane could no longer control her emotions, she burst into tears and cried out!

“Heart massage doesn’t work!”

The forehead of the doctor who squeezed Yin Cheng's heart was covered with sweat, and the ECG monitor still showed straight lines.

"Electric shock!"

A doctor shouted, and the nurse immediately handed him the prepared electric shock board, and the doctor picked up the electric shock board.

"boom--!"

Yin Cheng's body bounced high.

"Increase the current!" The doctor shouted anxiously.

"boom----!!"

Yin Cheng's body bounced high again, then fell down weakly.

"Increase the current!"

"boom------!!!"

Like a soft puppet, Yin Cheng's thin body was sucked up high, and then fell back weakly.The ECG monitor screamed "beep -", a straight line, a straight line without any heartbeat...

"...I'm sorry, we've tried our best..."

In the afternoon sun, the doctor walked towards Yin Xiamo against the light, his face dazed and dazzling, and his voice drifted into her ears intermittently like cotton wool.

"..."

Yin Xiamo slowly turned her head to the side, as if she wanted to hear what the doctor was saying clearly, her eyes were dull and empty, and then some dry and broken voices came from her throat, no one could hear what she said clearly What exactly is it.

"You're lying! Xiaocheng won't die! Why don't you continue to rescue! Xiaocheng is not dead, he is still alive! He is still alive!! What are you doing standing here! Hurry up and save Xiaocheng! Go save Xiaocheng—!"

Jane rushed forward and grabbed the doctor's clothes, crying angrily, tears soaking her face wet and painful.Xiaocheng will not die, no matter how cruel God is, he will not be cruel enough to take his life away at such a young age!

"Miss, please calm down!"

The nurses hurriedly grabbed Jane and tried to save the doctor from her swaying anger, but Jane broke down and yelled: "Go and save Xiao Cheng! Or I will sue you! He is still alive, he not dead!"

Looking at Yin Cheng who was as peaceful as sleeping on the hospital bed, the pain in Ou Chen's heart was like a surging wave. He closed his eyes and turned his gaze back to Xia Mo, only to see her standing stupidly, as if she was Listening intently to something.

"..."

Her chapped lips murmured softly, her eyes were soft and hollow.

"Xia Mo."

Ou Chen felt extremely pained, thinking of her dazed and frantic expression in the cherry blossom tree that night when her adoptive parents passed away six years ago.

"..."

She whispered softly, as if she was speaking to an invisible person, her voice was soft and soft, and there was a faint smile on her face.

"Xia Mo!"

Ou Chen cried out in pain, and stretched out his hand to hug her, a sense of coolness and fear flowed in his body, he would rather see her cry like Jane than with such an erratic expression.

"..."

She listened in a daze, pulled away Ou Chen's arm, listened to something, and walked quietly to the hospital bed, her steps were very light, like sleepwalking, whispering softly while walking.

The ward suddenly became as quiet as death.

Ou Chen's eyes were gloomy, and the steps that followed her stopped again.Jane also stared at her blankly, and slowly let go of the doctor's clothes.The doctors and nurses didn't know what she was going to do, they looked at each other and watched her walk towards the bed lightly.

so quiet.

Her murmured whispers were gradually heard clearly by everyone.

"You listen..."

Yin Xiamo murmured in a trance. She stood by the hospital bed, bent down slightly, and gently touched Yin Cheng's pale face with her fingers.

"You listen..."

Gentle whispers floated in the quiet ward.

"Di!"

"Di!"

Suddenly a sharp sound burst out from the ECG monitor!The originally long straight line suddenly had undulating twists and turns!Several nurses were stunned, and the doctors rushed over!After a tense examination, the doctors seemed to say something, and then left the ward silently.

Yin Cheng, who was lying quietly on the hospital bed, trembled a few times with his dark and long eyelashes, and slowly, slowly, opened his eyes.

"sister……"

The afternoon sun was brilliant golden, shining on Yin Cheng's slender eyelashes, looking at her, a gentle smile slowly appeared on the corner of his lips, in the silent ward, that smile seemed to have a golden light.

"You finally woke up."

Yin Xiamo gently stroked his soft hair with her fingers, two tears fell silently, and the sunlight refracted the crystal colorful light in mid-air, quietly dripping on his snow-white quilt, she said in a trance:

"You know what? They said you were dead just now."

Yin Cheng's eyes are as soft as the surface of a lake in spring.

"How could I die? I promised you that I will always be with my sister and never leave my sister's side..."

"Yes, I remember, that's why I wasn't fooled by them." Touching his warm face lightly with her fingers, she stared softly at Xiaocheng, "Look, sister didn't even cry, she didn't fall for their tricks... ..."

"Sister..." In the golden light, Yin Cheng's smile seemed transparent, and he gently rubbed her palm like a child, "...I will not die, I am not willing to leave you."

"I know, you won't die." She hugged him into her arms, bent down gently, and hugged him tightly with her warm body, "God is fair, it always gives people something, and then you will die." Take some. It gave you nothing, so it will never take what life you have."

"Sister... you hug me like this, just like when you were a child..." He closed his eyes with attachment, "... At that time, you often hugged me like this, coaxed me to sleep, sang nursery rhymes to me, and often gave me a hug. Make braised chicken wings, it's so fragrant and delicious..."

"You want to eat."

She felt sore. Ever since he was admitted to the hospital, she had always cooked light meals for him.

"Well, I haven't eaten for a long time..." His childish eyes sparkled, and he snuggled into her arms.

"Sister, let's do it, okay?"

"But, I also want my sister to hug me like this, and I don't want you to leave." Yin Cheng snuggled closer to her, hugging her waist.

"Then when you fall asleep, my sister will make it for you, okay?" She patted him on the back lovingly.A long, long time ago, he was Fendudu's newborn baby. She hugged him every day, and he never cried or made noise. As long as she gently patted him, he would fall asleep peacefully.

"sister……"

In her arms, he gradually fell asleep.

"Sister, I will not die, I will always be with you..."