Summer's Desire

Chapter 11
Perhaps, it was from that night that winter came quietly.

After that day, the weather became colder and colder. Yin Xiamo reduced Ou Chen and Yin Cheng's outdoor activities, and only accompanied them for a walk in the garden at eleven o'clock in the morning when the sun was most abundant, breathing fresh air.She seemed to gradually forget about Luo Xi, until one day, when Zhen En was helping her prepare the steamed fish for dinner in the kitchen, she suddenly said hesitantly:
"Luo Xi is leaving the entertainment industry, have you heard?"

The fingers that were rubbing salt on the bass paused, Yin Xiamo lowered her eyelashes lightly, then continued to rub salt, saying:
"heard."

That night, the phone kept vibrating, and the word "Luoxi" kept flashing on the screen.

Yin Xiamo's body was as stiff as a stone.

The pain in her heart seemed to be tearing, and she didn't know what to say to him once she picked up the phone.How can she make up for her debt to him with a few words? If she picks up the phone and says something insincere, will it hurt him again?And she is no longer qualified to hear his voice, she is already Ou Chen's wife, if she is sad because of another man, it will probably be a kind of harm to Ou Chen.

After the phone vibrated for about two or three minutes, it became silent, and she also sat silently on the edge of the bed, sleepless all night.

"Oh." Jane glanced at her cautiously, seeing that her expression remained calm, and continued, "I heard that his plane will go to the United States the day after tomorrow, and his company will hold a farewell party for him tomorrow night, unexpectedly... unexpectedly I also sent you an invitation letter, you..."

Cut the green onions into several sections and put them on the plate, Yin Xiamo asked without looking up.

"Tomorrow evening?"

"Yes."

"I have something to do tomorrow night. I can't go. You can handle the invitation letter for me." Covering the pot, turning on the fire, Yin Xiamo turned on the tap to wash his hands.

"Oh well."

Zhen En looked hesitantly at the pot where the fish had been steamed, wondering if she should remind Xia Mo that she forgot to put ginger and garlic in the fish dish.

*** ***
After dinner the next day.

The fire in the fireplace was burning brightly, and the warm flames crackled low.Xia Mo was missing in the room, as if the room suddenly became empty, Ou Chen on the sofa closed the album, and saw Yin Cheng sitting by the fireplace drawing, his face was still pale, even the orange flames could not reflect him red face.

Ou Chen frowned.

However, although Yin Cheng's face was pale, he was in good spirits, with a smile on his lips and bright black eyes.He would stop from time to time while he was drawing, staring at the drawing board with a smile, in a daze with a smile, and then continue to draw.

"What are you painting?"

Ou Chen stood up from the sofa and walked to Yin Cheng's side.

On the drawing board, Xia Mo called him to have dinner with Xiao Cheng under the maple tree, the golden sunlight shone from the drunken red leaves, she turned her head to smile and say something to him while holding Xiao Cheng's arm.In the painting, her smile is so bright, as if it reaches all the way to the bottom of her eyes, so beautiful that people can't look away.

Ou Chen watched in a daze.

Has Xia Mo smiled like this before? It seems that since the day I met her, there has been more or less distance in her smile.

"My sister is beautiful, isn't she?"

Yin Cheng smiled and raised his head, with an unconcealable joy in his tone, like a child showing off his favorite treasure.

Continuing to stare at the intimate three people in the picture where the sun shines on them, Ou Chen's eyes gradually flashed a bright light, he didn't hear what Xiao Cheng was saying, and after a long time, he asked in a low voice:
"Can you give me this painting?"

"Okay, but it's almost finished. May I give it to you tomorrow?"

"Thank you."

His gaze finally moved away from the screen, but Ou Chen's chest felt empty and lost.Xia Mo went out after dinner, saying she was going back to the old house to pack some thick winter clothes for Yin Cheng.Unknowingly, I got used to having her by my side, but even after leaving for a moment, I felt lonely.

"Don't draw too late, go back to your room and rest early." Concentrating on recovering from the sudden trance, Ou Chen said to Yin Cheng, "I'm in the study, you can call me if you need something."

"OK, all right."

Listening to Ou Chen repeating his sister's daily advice, Yin Cheng smiled and nodded meekly.However, looking at the back of Ou Chen who turned and left, he suddenly remembered something, and shouted:

"Brother-in-law, wait a minute!"

Ou Chen turned around and looked over, only to see Yin Cheng took out a document from a stack of drawing papers and handed it to him. There were five striking bold characters on the document——

"divorse agreement"!
Staring at Ou Chen whose body suddenly became stiff, Yin Cheng said softly: "Take it away, it's not appropriate for me to keep it."

"You want me to..."

His jaw was so tight that Ou Chen could hardly speak.

"...Give it to Xia Mo with your own hands?"

Finally, the day inevitably came.Like soap bubbles in the air, they are getting bigger and more beautiful, but at the moment when they held their breath and prayed that it would never burst, they shattered without warning.

"I don't know." Yin Cheng said honestly. For a long time after he was discharged from the hospital, his confused thoughts made him unable to figure out what was the right thing to do. "When I knew that my sister married you to give me a kidney transplant. , I hate you for using me to coerce my sister and ruin her happiness."

"However, although your method is ridiculously wrong, I have to be moved by your feelings for her. I don't know who loves my sister more, you or Brother Luo Xi, and I don't know who my sister will be happier with. But my sister is very happy during this time, she smiles every day, maybe living with you, she will be so happy forever."

"Brother-in-law..."

Yin Cheng raised his head and smiled at him.

"...I'm so thankful that you made my sister happy again, and I'm glad you're my brother-in-law."

*** ***
Fold Xiaocheng's thick winter clothes and put them in the suitcase, and take some of Xiaocheng's favorite picture albums in the past and put them in.Yin Xiamo smiled, Ou Chen seemed to be fascinated by reading picture albums during this period, and actually spent more time reading picture albums than Xiao Cheng every day.He should be happy too if he takes these albums.

Pulling the suitcase and walking to the living room, she stared blankly at the empty sofa for a moment. She hasn't come back for a long time, and the place has become a little strange.After turning off the headlights, she looked around the room again before closing the door, and slowly walked down the stairs with her suitcase.

It's snowing!
Yin Xiamo walked out of the building and looked at the snowflakes in the sky. There was no sign of snow just now, but at this moment, the ground was already covered with a layer of whiteness.The light snowflakes fluttered in the air, and the night became brighter. She put down the suitcase in her hand, and unconsciously reached out to catch a falling snowflake. It was crystal clear and melted instantly in her palm, leaving only the ice cold a feeling of.

She was lost in silence.

Is this snow seeing him off?Right now, he should be at the banquet held for him by the company, and tomorrow...

It was the day he flew to America.

I don't know why, on the night when he was about to leave, she suddenly couldn't stay by Ou Chen's side like usual, and couldn't show a calm smile like usual, she just wanted to be alone for a while, so she refused the driver's pick-up came here.

The cold wind rolled snowflakes and blew towards her.

Maybe it's not a bad thing for him to leave the entertainment industry for a while.He no longer needs to face so many cameras every day, no longer needs to live in public, he may live a happier and more casual life.Perhaps, he will meet a very good girl who loves him with all his heart as deep as the ocean, and he will fall in love with that girl and forget her completely.

In the chilly sky, the faint twisting pain in my heart seemed to be negligible, Yin Xiamo looked at her own footprints on the snow and told herself silently that there is nothing in this world that cannot be forgotten.When the snow melted, even if a gust of wind blew across the snow, those footprints would disappear.

So, he will forget her.

All she had to do was never bother him again.

Yin Xiamo walked in the snow in a trance, there seemed to be hurried footsteps behind her, but she didn't pay attention.

The snow that had just covered the ground was very thin and slippery. In a daze, her foot slipped and her body fell straight backwards!

*** ***
A lamp was on in the study.

Looking at the divorce agreement on the desk, Ou Chen's eyes became more and more gloomy, but there was a glint of hope shining faintly in his eyes.He stood up abruptly, walked to the french windows, opened the windows, and the night wind howled and snowflakes flew in.

He always thought that the day when Yin Cheng handed over the divorce agreement to her would be the end of everything.The divorce agreement he signed was a verdict that would end everything. She would leave him, and this beautiful day was nothing but a bubble-like illusion.

Yin Cheng returned it to him.

Just like a death row inmate suddenly got a chance to probation, he suddenly felt a little helpless.Perhaps, he can let this dream continue and never wake up.This thought tortured him to the point of going crazy, he wanted to seize every opportunity desperately and keep her by his side!
However, why is there always bitterness in my heart.

Did he extend her sentence when he got a chance at probation?Is she really happy these days, or is it just her disguise...

Snowflakes flew in gently.

Ou Chen clenched his fingers tightly, not letting himself think about it any longer, or think about it clearly after a while, so that this dream can last longer.At this moment, he really wanted her to be by his side, with a warm breath and a peaceful smile. As long as he could be by her side, his heart would be quiet.

But why hasn't she come back yet?
When she went out, she said she wanted to get some air by herself, and insisted on not letting the driver pick her up.

Looking at the snowflakes in the night sky, Ou Chen's concern became more and more intense.So he walked out of the study, picked up the car keys, and strode out of the house.

At the moment when the car was started, Ou Chen's fingers holding the steering wheel suddenly stiffened, and the pale and transparent figure standing downstairs in her past flashed inexplicably in her mind, would she meet...

No, it won't!

At this time he should be at his farewell party...

*** ***
A thin arm supported Yin Xiamo's body that was about to slip!

And the moment that finger touched her, tens of thousands of snowflakes exploded in her mind like a "boom", and a thick white mist filled her eyes. Surrounding her is like the last petal of cherry blossoms falling in the snow, cold, transparent, and suffocating fragility...

"It's really you."

The voice came from the top of her head, Yin Xiamo stared blankly at the snowflakes that were constantly accumulating on the ground, her right hand tightly grasped the handle of the suitcase, as if it was the source of her only strength.

"I just saw you coming out of the house, and I thought I was wrong..." The voice froze for a while, and then he held his breath and said, "Why did you come here? Are you coming back... "

The suffocating hope in that voice was like a knife, piercing Yin Xiamo's heart fiercely. She bit her lips tightly in pain, and slowly raised her head to look at him.

"Aren't you... going to America tomorrow? Why are you here?"

In the night, small crystal snowflakes fell silently on his shoulders and hair. Hearing her words, a wry smile appeared on his lips, and he stared at her with dark eyes.

"I was always here."

Yin Xiamo's chest stagnates.

"Just now, I fell asleep in the car, but suddenly woke up, and then I saw you walking out of the house. I thought God finally gave me a miracle..."

There was a thin layer of snow on the white BMW car in the distance, as if it had been parked there for a long time.

"But maybe... I should just watch you go away in the car, instead of chasing you out..."

Snow falls silently.

The silvery white snowflakes were like the rays of light in the night, fluttering between him and her. Apart from the sound of falling snow, there was only a long silence.

"I'm sorry, I've troubled you again by saying these words." After the silence, Luo Xi said bitterly, "I was confused just now. If you came back, you wouldn't leave with your suitcase."

Yin Xiamo's whole body seemed to be frozen, and the dark pain in her heart made her feel that whatever she said was wrong.

"Why did you come out alone without a driver to pick you up? If you don't mind, I'll take you back. It's hard to get a taxi now." Looking at her who had been silent all along, he finally moved his eyes away from her face and forced himself to smile He reached out and grabbed her suitcase.

"No, no need..."

Yin Xiamo subconsciously took a step back, but her voice suddenly stopped, looking at Luo Xi's hand holding the trunk pole.

Luo Xi's hands also froze.

"...Because...if I send you back, will he be angry..."

Yin Xiamo didn't seem to hear what he said, but just stared at his hand in a daze.He followed her gaze, and the shocking scar on his wrist was still bright red. He was startled, covered it with his sleeve, and said:
"Sorry for scaring you."

"Don't say sorry to me again." Yin Xiamo's chest heaved and his lips turned white suddenly, "I should be the one who should say sorry, not you."

"But, I did a lot of things wrong." The snowflakes falling in the night were like his voice, light and transparent, "I always don't believe you. You explained to me several times, but I stubbornly refused you, even Deliberately use the scandal between me and Shen Qiang to stab you, break up with you, deliberately provoke you at the banquet..."

He stared at her with pity and pain in his eyes.

"During that time, it was the most painful time for you. Ou Chen threatened you with a kidney transplant, and I kept suspicious of you..."

"How do you know?" Yin Xiamo frowned.

"yes, I got it."

There was another long silence, and then his eyes dimmed, and he said softly: "When I first found out, I hated why you didn't tell me, why you made your own decisions. But after staying here for many days, I finally thought Understood……"

"At that time, what qualifications did I have for you to trust me? In your eyes, I was a completely unreliable person."

"Luo Xi..."

"If I had been patient then, wouldn't you have married him?" Luo Xi's eyes were as dark as pools, but there was still a faint fire flickering in them, "In that case, wouldn't you have married him?" Give it to him...isn't it..."

Snow is getting bigger and bigger.

The night was windy.

Snowflakes like goose feathers are sprinkled down one after another.

Both he and she stood blankly in front of the old building, with white snow on their hair and shoulders, like two white snowmen in the distance.

"It's not like that," Yin Xiamo's lips were pale, "Even if we didn't break up at that time, I would still make this decision. So, it's none of your business at all, you didn't do anything wrong."

"..."

As if there was pain in his chest, Luo Xi suddenly burst into a low cough, as if he couldn't breathe. After a long time, he stopped, smiled absently, and said:
"Do you have to be so cruel? You can't even pretend to be deceiving me? You have to let me know so clearly that you can sacrifice me without hesitation, and you must completely shatter my last illusions." Are you satisfied?"

"Because it's meaningless to talk about it now. I'm already married. For me, the most important thing is Xiao Cheng's health and... and Ou Chen. Everything else is no longer important." His eyes fell on the On his covered wrist, Yin Xiamo's fingers were tightly clenched by his side, "...Don't hurt yourself anymore, that can only hurt those who care about you."

"And you don't care about me anymore..."

Luo Xi stared at her blankly, his eyes were blank, he lowered his head, slowly raised his arms, stroked the hideous and terrifying scar with his fingers, and said in a hoarse voice:

"You blame me for threatening you with suicide, don't you?"

She took a deep breath, avoiding his gaze, the heavy snow all over the sky turned the earth into a vast white world, the trees in the distance also turned white, paper-like snowflakes fell on her eyelashes.

"Life is precious, don't give it up for someone who is not worth it. In the future you will meet someone who needs you to cherish, and you will regret doing such a stupid thing."

"No, I won't regret it."

Luo Xi interrupted her, a snowflake-like smile gradually bloomed on the corners of her lips.

"Although I was really selfish and self-willed at the time. I want you to always remember me, even if I die, I must occupy an important position in your heart... At the moment when I was lying in the bathtub, I just felt very tired and tired. All thoughts are lost..."

"...But, there is one thing you need to know. At that time, I just wanted to get rid of that pain, not to threaten you with death..."

"...But now, I'm glad I didn't die...God has treated me very well, let me meet you, and gave me so much joy and happiness...If I die like that, it will not only be irresponsible, but also To make you bear the cross that should not have been borne by you... I was too willful, so, Xia Mo, I'm sorry..."

"You are also a very cruel person, Luo Xi..."

She suddenly laughed bitterly, and a moist mist flashed in her eyes. His last sentence of "I'm sorry" shattered all the sanity she had worked so hard to maintain!

"You know that if you hate me, if you never forgive me, maybe I will feel better..."

"I saw through you," Luo Xi held her breath and smiled, gently reaching out to brush off the snowflakes on her hair, "Yes, I want you to owe me and never forget me. The same cruelty..."

"So we are not suitable for being together. You and I are both insecure people. Being together will only hurt each other." She said.

"I will change!" His fingers trembling slightly, he touched her cold hair, struggling to maintain a smile on the corner of his lips, "I will work hard to learn to let go of those sensitivities and fears, I think I have found a way , but, you refused to give me another chance..."

"Luo Xi..."

She bit her lip and turned her head slightly to avoid his fingers.

Fingers stiffened in the flying snowflakes, Luo Xi looked at her and said in a hoarse voice: "But, will you be happy? The so-called marriage is just a transaction. If you are not happy, then..."

"I am very happy." She said softly.

"Did you not lie to me this time? Don't lie to me again, Xia Mo."

"I didn't lie to you, I'm really happy." Yin Xiamo's eyes were as clear as the sea, "During this period of time, my life has been very peaceful, and I haven't lived such a peaceful life for a long time."

"Is peace the same as happiness?"

"For me, yes." Her eyes were peaceful.

Luo Xi looked at her.

In fact, he already knew that no matter what the reason she chose to marry Ou Chen, once she married Ou Chen, she would try her best to become a competent wife.Ou Chen is already her family member. In her mind, family member is far more important than love.

So he already knew he had lost.

Not at this moment, but when she decided to marry Ou Chen, he had already lost completely.

"So... have you ever loved me..."

Among the crystal clear snowflakes, Luo Xi stood straight, her voice seemed to be squeezed out of her throat, her lips were as white as paper.Yin Xiamo's heart was sour, she was silent for a long time, she whispered:

"Loved."

Snowflakes swirled wildly in the air, pieces of crystal clear and transparent, her words echoed in the quiet snowy night, Luo Xi's eyes gradually glowed like tears.

"Thank you."

As long as there are these words, he can live a good life without her in the future. She once loved him, really loved him.

"Thank you, Xia Mo."

"Luo Xi, forget me, okay?" Snowflakes fell on her long hair again, reflecting her face as white as jade, "After arriving in America, start a new life, forget me, okay?"

"...Is this what you hoped for?"

"Yes."

"Okay, I will forget you," Luo Xi looked at her with a smile, his eyes were as dark as a pool of mist, "but you have to promise me one condition."

"Tell me." She listened attentively.

"Don't forget me, no matter how much time passes, never forget me." He looked at her, as if he wanted to engrave her appearance deeply in his mind, "Even if you just put me in a very small corner."

In the crystal snowflakes flying all over the sky.

Luo Xi stretched out his arms and hugged her gently.

Snowflakes are pure and transparent.

The two of them were softly covered by thin snow, he hugged her very lightly, like a friend who would never see each other again, his voice was also very soft, whispering in her ear——

"Xia Mo, bless you."

She closed her eyes tremblingly, raised her arms slightly, hugged him back like a friend, and said:
"Bless you too, Luo Xi."

As if lightning came from afar, in the snowy field, a dark blue Lamborghini car drove towards the two, and the two bright lights illuminated her and him who were hugging in dazzling beams!Yin Xiamo subconsciously covered the strong light with her hands, but Luo Xi had already protected her behind her, watching the car in front of her slowly stop.

In the snowy night, it was impossible to see the appearance of the person in the car, but Yin Xiamo pushed Luo Xi away in a daze, she knew who that person was.

The door is open.

The snow seemed to be getting bigger and bigger, and the snowflakes fell on Ou Chen's black hair. He was wearing a black coat and a dark green wool scarf, and his feet made a "squeak" sound when he stepped on the snow on the ground. There was no expression on his face. Any expression, but the eyes are dark and bottomless.

"Are things packed?"

Ou Chen stared at Xia Mo who was stunned, and asked in a deep voice.

"...Okay." She paused, then raised her head and said, "Ou Chen, Luo Xi and I just..."

"Then go home."

Ou Chen patted the snowflakes off her shoulders, took off his coat and wrapped her up. He didn't seem to want to listen to her explanation, so he pulled up her suitcase in the snow, which was already covered with a thin layer of snow .He hugged her shoulder with one hand and walked towards the car expressionlessly.

While walking, Yin Xiamo suddenly stopped.

"Goodbye."

She turned her head and said softly to Luo Xi who stayed behind, her voice was as soft as a snowflake falling.

However, Luo Xi heard it.

Ou Chen also heard it.

At that moment, Ou Chen's hand on her shoulder became more stiff, but he didn't say anything, just led her to continue walking towards the car.

*** ***
The dark blue Lamborghini disappeared at the end of the snowy night.

The night suddenly became very quiet, and the snowflakes were still falling gently, but he was the only one left in the world.Stretching out her palm, just like when she just walked out of the building, Luo Xi looked at the crystal snowflakes gently falling on her palm, but the snowflakes never melted, lying there quietly, with a small touch of cold and clear shine.

Snowflakes will be so stubborn...

Luo Xi took a deep breath, clenched her fingers, and silently looked at the set of footprints she left in the snow.

The white BMW car was driving on the empty street, Luo Xi looked at the snow-covered road ahead, pressed the speaker, and a song she sang before floated in the car.

"...

if crying and begging
If you pretend you don't know you've always loved her

if i get on my knees and beg you
can you stay for me

......"

It was already a gift from God to him to see her for the last time before leaving.What else could he do? He pushed happiness away with his own hands and pushed her to someone else's side.No amount of persuasion may only make her fall into a more painful situation, and he will not hurt him by hurting himself.

Then, maybe all he can do is leave.

It's just why at the moment when Ou Chen took her away, when she said goodbye to him for the last time, his world would be so painful that it would become dark and cold forever.Snowflakes hit the window glass soundlessly, and Luo Xi clenched the steering wheel tightly.

From now on, he will never see her again...

Because without him...

she will be very happy...

"...

i can pretend i don't know you love her

i can cry and beg you
If kneeling in front of you can soften your heart

or even if i die

you won't stay either
......"

Her singing was very quiet, as if it came from a distant place, Luo Xi drove the car silently.The car was driving in the deserted street. In the night, the white color of the car was as lonely as snow.

*** ***
"Ou Chen..."

Accompanied by the sound of heavy footsteps going up the stairs in the house, Yin Xiamo couldn't help calling him again.All the way home, he drove stiffly, his jaw tensed, and he said nothing.

As if he didn't hear anything, Ou Chen walked up to the second floor in silence, only a dim wall lamp was lit on the wall in the corridor, his figure was reflected on the carpet, looking extremely lonely and cold.

"Ou Chen..."

She bit her lip, and took a few steps to catch up with him, trying to make him stop, but he stubbornly ignored him and continued to walk with big strides.So, she had no choice but to reach out and grab his arm, and said anxiously:
"Luoxi and I just met there by chance, it wasn't an appointment!"

Ou Chen stared forward stiffly.

"I know."

"Then... are you angry?" The sadness in his tone made her heart tighten.

"Angry..." Ou Chen tightened his lips, and slowly turned his head to look at her, "...Do I have the right to be angry?"

Yin Xiamo was stunned.

"As the despicable destroyer who single-handedly separated you and Luo Xi," there was a deep darkness in his eyes, "do I have the right to be angry?"

"Why do you say that!" Yin Xiamo looked at him in disbelief, "We're already married, aren't we? I just ran into Luo Xi tonight, if I knew he would be there, I would never..."

"Never?! Will you never hug him?!" There was suppressed pain in the voice, and there were bursts of empty echoes in the corridor on the second floor at night!
"Meow--"

The black cat downstairs seemed to have been awakened from sleep, Yin Xiamo's heart trembled, and she couldn't help worrying that the conversation between her and Ou Chen would wake Yin Cheng up.For a moment she almost wanted to give up talking to Ou Chen, she was in a very chaotic mood now.

Before she could completely calm down from the shock of seeing Luo Xi, she was about to face Ou Chen's sadness, and she was surrounded by a sense of powerless fatigue.At that moment, she suddenly wanted to escape, and wanted to bury her head deep in the sand like an ostrich.

but……

She cannot escape.

She can't destroy the peaceful life she finally got, and she can't hurt Ou Chen after hurting Luo Xi.

"Let's talk, shall we?"

Yin Xiamo's hand slid down his arm, she said softly, holding his cold fingers.Under her touch, Ou Chen's palm trembled slightly, but she didn't seem to notice it, and pulled him towards her bedroom like a gentle wife.

The bedroom door closed softly.

This is the first time Ou Chen stepped into her bedroom.The wedding night was at Swan Castle, and he and she slept in two bedrooms separated by a door.Because the Swan Castle was too big, they lived here after being discharged from the hospital, and he had never entered this room before tonight.

Her bedroom is blue like the ocean, with light blue floral wallpaper, a blue round bed, a bouquet of white lilies in a vase on the bedside table, and two picture frames beside her, one of which is her and In Yin Cheng's group photo, another frame is stacked behind, and the photo inside is not very clear.

"Luo Xi is leaving here for the United States tomorrow." Gently letting go of his hand, Yin Xiamo turned and stared at him with eyes as clear as water, "The hug you saw was just a farewell, and I will never see it again he."

I will never see Luo Xi again.

That's how she explained it, so he shouldn't mind anymore, right?He is married to her, everything is a foregone conclusion, with her character, she will never have anything to do with Luo Xi again, so he is the winner, Luo Xi is the loser, why should he care so much...

When Yin Cheng handed over the divorce agreement to him, there was a fantasy hope in his heart, maybe this marriage could go on, maybe he could be with her forever.However, at the moment when she saw her and Luo Xi hugging in the snow, those self-deceiving fantasies were finally completely shattered...

…………

……

"Even if I break up with her by such despicable means, will she like you? Ou Chen, let me tell you, Xia Mo won't like you! Never before! Never now! Even if you coerce her to be with you Married!"

……

…………

"Maybe it's me you shouldn't see again."

Her throat was a little hoarse, Ou Chen looked into her eyes sadly, her eyes were peaceful, but it seemed too peaceful, she lost the vitality that she should have when she was young.

"Sometimes I feel that I am too strong and domineering. Would you be happier without me in your life..."

"no."

She was slightly startled and shook her head.

"If I hadn't met you when I was 11 years old, Father Yin might have lost his job, and Xiaocheng and I might have been sent back to the orphanage. I don't know what kind of family we would have ended up in; if I hadn't met you again, Xiaocheng It may not be possible to find a suitable kidney source.”

She looked at him:
"Ou Chen, without you, I might have fallen into despair and had nowhere to go, so I am very grateful to fate for allowing me to meet you again and again."

"But..." Ou Chen's breathing was stagnant, but reason prevented him from sinking completely, he said in a hoarse voice, "You once wished for me to die, but this time I coerced you again, using a kidney to force you to be with me. I'm married, you should hate me."

"Those are all my fault." She looked up and said apologetically, "If I could have done better, if six years ago I could have convinced you that there was really nothing between me and Luo Xi, maybe those Unfortunately, nothing will happen, so what qualifications do I have to condemn you..."

"..." Ou Chen was stunned.

"Also today, although Luo Xi and I just met by chance, and the hug you saw was just a way of saying goodbye, but if you see it without knowing it, you will definitely be hurt." Her eyes were dim After a moment, he tried to smile again, stared at him and said, "I would like to apologize to you for what happened tonight, can you—can you forgive me?"

Ou Chen was stunned by this sudden apology!

She was not angry or dissatisfied because of his jealousy, but instead explained to him so gently that this was not something that the calm and somewhat proud her before could do.

"You don't need to apologize to me, you didn't do anything wrong, it's me who has been..." He clenched his fingers, his back stiffened and straightened.

"Because I don't want to make you suffer anymore, and I don't want to torture each other anymore." She interrupted him with a soft and beautiful smile, "Ou Chen, we are already married and we are a family. Live in peace from now on, okay?"

is it okay……

The bottom of his heart was hot, Ou Chen stared at her deeply, her smile was so bright and warm, like sea water under the sun, he couldn't help but want to reach out and hug her.However, her eyes were extremely peaceful, as if something was buried in the deep seabed and would be buried forever.

"So, are you happy?"

The hoarse voice echoed in the bedroom, Ou Chen couldn't believe that he actually asked, but the sudden quickening of his heartbeat made him understand how much he was afraid and eager to know her answer.

"very happy."

She answered him quickly, as if she had answered this question countless times.

"why?"

"Because I have a family, I can be with my family every day, and my life is peaceful and warm." She said with a smile, her eyes bright.

"Is this enough?"

"Yes."

"Even if you marry me, do you still feel happy?"

"Yes."

Hearing her answer, Ou Chen closed his eyes, unable to tell what it was like in his heart, there was a scalding turbulence, a touch of bitterness, and a pain that was spreading more and more.

"Even if, I will ask you to do something you are not willing to do..." Opening his eyes, there was a faint burning flame in Ou Chen's eyes, he stretched out his hand, fingers stiffly touched her slightly curly long hair, and then Move to her white cheeks.

"Do you feel happy too?"

Her eyelashes trembled slightly, but her body remained motionless.

"Why don't you answer me? Is it unacceptable at all?"

"impossible."

Ou Chen's eyes tightened, and his breath became hot.

"Then what if it's like this..."

Seeing that her breathing was getting faster and faster, he couldn't help approaching her, the distance between the two of them was only a paper-thin breath, her lips exuded a warm breath, and the warmth made his heart thump. , The emotions that have been suppressed for a long time burst out like a volcano!
"If it's like this..."

Slowly, he tried his best to restrain the burning fire in his heart, and just slowly kissed her!He could feel her body trembling suddenly, and then she seemed to use all her strength to maintain calm, but the moment he was about to kiss her, she suddenly closed her eyes, her lips were also frozen up!

"You said yes!"

The fire gushing out of his heart was like being poured by ice water, and Ou Chen's eyes were full of deep anger and despair!The severe pain of falling from heaven to hell forced him to kiss her desperately!
Like a raging fire, the kiss deepened, her body stiffened and trembled in his arms, and he kissed her passionately!Kiss her desperately!As if he wanted to kiss her into his body and never let her go!To rub her into his body, turn her into him, turn him into her, even if he and she are dead, even if they are turned into ashes, they will be together forever!
"Ou Chen..."

In that suffocating kiss, Yin Xiamo tried hard to wake him up, but was tightly bound in his iron arms, his lips were filled with his frenzied and desperate breath, and his struggling cry could only be broken into intermittent crumble.

Until the sound of "bang", she fell heavily on the bed in the dizziness of suffocation, he continued to kiss her, the kiss was so hot that the air could burn the air, the ceiling seemed to rotate, she couldn't break free from him, and lay on the bed , he kissed her desperately and painfully, the scale of that kiss became more and more beyond the range she could bear, and the air crackled like an electric fire!
"Ou Chen—"

The whirling chaos and fear made her struggle and shout, but her mind went blank and dizzy for a while, the oxygen became extremely thin, and the more he kissed, the more intense she could feel that his body was so hot that it was erupting. volcano!Struggling and panicking, her hand touched something cold on the bedside table, so she grabbed it in a panic to wake him up and wake him up!But he suddenly stretched out his hand to hold her, and in the middle of the air, she had no choice but to let go of her fingers——

That cold thing fell on the sheets!

The dark blue curtains were slightly lifted by the night wind.

Snowflakes are falling quietly outside the window.

The eyelashes closed tremblingly, and the pale Yin Xiamo gradually gave up struggling. Thinking about it carefully, this kind of struggle is meaningless, isn't it?What right did she have to refuse? All this should have happened as early as the first night of marriage, and he had given her enough time.

But Ou Chen stopped.

He looked at the thing on the pale blue cotton sheet, a framed picture of him and her.He was wearing a black groom's dress, and she was wearing a snow-white bride's wedding dress. On the lawn outside the church, he held her in his arms and stared at her deeply.

She actually—

Put this photo on your bedside table.Ou Chen's heart suddenly became hot, like a warm current flowing silently in the cold and desperate blood.At the same time, as if in a dream, he was shocked to find that he had pressed her on the bed, her hair was disheveled and her face was pale...

What is he doing? !

Shock and shame exploded in his mind!

Yin Xiamo also stared blankly at the frame. In the photo, he and she were the bride and groom, and he and she were already married.He is her husband, the one who will spend the rest of her life with her. A moment ago, she was still telling him that even if she married him, she still felt very happy. She knew what kind of things he would ask her to do as a husband... …

So, how could he be hurt so quickly?Besides, he is her husband and she is his wife. Didn't she accept it willingly as early as the day of marriage?
"Sorry……"

Yin Xiamo held Ou Chen's arm to stop him from trying to leave, her voice was very low, as if lingering in his ears.

"It's me who should say sorry."

He said in a bitter hoarse voice, trying to restrain the embarrassing flames still burning in his body, he pulled her hand away, wanting to leave her body.

"I'm sorry, just now...things developed too fast, and I wasn't ready for a while," as if she didn't hear what he said, her chest rose and fell, she raised her face and smiled at him, the slightly unnatural smile on her lips was covered She concealed it so that she couldn't see it at all, "...It's okay now."

"you……"

Ou Chen looked at her in astonishment, unable to believe what he heard.

Yin Xiamo didn't explain anymore.

She pulled him down and kissed his lips.His lips were cold for the first kiss, but the flesh and blood inside seemed to have a flame forever burning.This kiss of hers was just a spark that ignited him. She kissed him gently, and slowly, a blazing fire spread between the two of them!

"Do you know what you're doing..."

Doing his best to control the turbulent flames in his body, Ou Chen raised his head from her lips and looked at her darkly.He was so confused that he couldn't distinguish his emotions at all, he wanted to give her happiness, even if he watched her leave, but he wanted to keep her so much, even if it was just for this moment of the night.

"I know……"

Her cheeks are bright red, but her eyes are as clear as the sea:
"...I am your wife."

The dark blue curtain was blown by the night wind to reveal a corner of the window.

The snow was falling heavily.

The outside of the house is crystal clear, with white snow and beautiful flying snowflakes, and the house is warm as spring, with lingering fragrance and drunken murmurs...

*** ***
Lilies are quietly fragrant in the night.

She fell asleep peacefully, her seaweed-like long hair was scattered on the pillow, her white arms were exposed outside the quilt, she slept deeply, her cheeks were dyed with a faint blush, her body was curled up like a child, her hands were folded on her chest .

Ou Chen leaned on the bed and looked at her.

This posture of staring at her has been maintained for a long time, he wants to touch her round and white shoulders, and wants to gently cover her with the quilt, but her innocent sleeping posture seems to be against her. blasphemy.

Is everything true...

That kind of joy that went deep into the bone marrow, that kind of lingering like heaven, this night, she really became his wife.For a moment, he thought that he would melt away along with the extreme happiness. If time stopped at that moment, he would really be happy forever...

And the reality gradually came back to him...

……

"Even if I break up with her by such despicable means, will she like you? Ou Chen, let me tell you, Xia Mo won't like you! Never before! Never now! Even if you coerce her to be with you Married!"

……

He used to think that as long as he could keep her and imprison her by his side, he didn't care about any means and methods.He has always done this since he was a child, until the reunion five years later.He believes that only he can give her happiness, only he can make her happy, so when he removes every obstacle between him and her, he never hesitates.

So since when did he become less sure?When Luo Xi committed suicide, Xiao Cheng refused to undergo a kidney transplant operation, and she fell into a coma on the hospital bed for several days and nights with high fever, he realized that his strength could drive her to such a painful point, and even cause her to die... …

……

"So……"

Luo Xi stared straight at him, her eyes were deep and dark.

"Is she happy now?"

……

Is she happy now...

In the dark night, Ou Chen looked at her in her sleep for a long time, she slept deeply, her white arms were folded on her chest, her brows were slightly frowned, as if she was having a bad dream, and she was curled up like a It was only a small shrimp, and around her wrist was a long piece of green lace that was a bit worn out.

…………

……

The bluestone platform in the courtyard a long time ago.

In the moonlight, he opened the box, and there was a green lace inside, with long and gorgeous patterns, which was blown by the night wind and fluttered out gently.

"From now on, tie it every day."

"why?"

"You can let your hair down only in front of me." He took the lace from her hand, leaned over slightly, and tied it on her hair.

……

…………

He has always been so domineering to her, because he didn't want anyone but him to see her loose hair, so he ordered her to tie it up.Looking at her subconsciously frowning brows in her sleep, Ou Chen felt more and more sad in his heart. Could the happiness he thought he could give her really make her happy?

What right did he have to force her?
When a person loses the power of free choice in life, how can he be truly happy?Has he finally figured out such a simple truth, or has he always avoided thinking about it?
Snowflakes are falling quietly outside the window.

In her sleep, she trembled uncomfortably, and her wrist struggled to move.Ou Chen leaned over, stretched out his hand gently, without waking her up, gently untied the green lace from her wrist, then gently pulled the quilt up, and slowly pressed a kiss on her forehead.

He is hers.

And she is free.

*** ***
The morning sun shines softly on Yin Xiamo's face through the curtains.

She sat up and was out of her mind for a while, the slight soreness in her body made her understand that last night was not a dream.

Ou Chen has already left, and she is the only one in the room.

Putting on her clothes, she got out of bed, walked to the window and opened the curtains.The snow has stopped, the outside world is a world of white snow and ice, the air is exceptionally clear, she took a deep breath, smiled, and her heart was peaceful like never before.

Turning around, she was about to go downstairs to prepare breakfast for Xiao Cheng and Ou Chen, when suddenly, something beside the vase full of lilies on the bedside table made her stop.

She walked over suspiciously.

He clearly remembered that there was no such document-like thing on the bedside table, could it be that Ou Chen left it for her.

Finger picked up the document——

The sunlight reflected on the paper after the snow was slightly dazzling, and the five bold characters of "Divorce Agreement" seemed to jump out of the paper!
Yin Xiamo was stunned.

For a moment, countless feelings flashed in her heart. After a long time, she lowered her head and found that the green lace tied to her wrist was gone.

Ou Chen...

Holding the document tightly, she closed her eyes and walked out of the bedroom.

Run through the hallway on the second floor!
Run down the stairs!

She wants to find Ou Chen!She knows Ou Chen too well, she knows what he is thinking, she will let him understand that what happened last night was not impulsive.

"Master Cheng—!"

"Master Cheng——!"

Suddenly, Yin Xiamo was startled by panicked shouts from the maids. She hurriedly followed the shouts and looked down the stairs, only to see easels and brushes scattered all over the floor, while Xiao Cheng was fainting in the soft chair by the fireplace with a pale face. past!